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30 something year old named Kris. They/them, very introverted, ADHD, Asexual Panromantic,♋️. I have a crippling addiction to big tiddy goths, and Abbacchio is my Husbwife.

[berylcups]

Welcome to my dumb blog~

Right now I’m obsessing over: Jojo parts 1-5 & Sailor Moon (OG Anime Series)

Asks are closed! 💖Suggestions are open!

Here you’re going to be subjected to:

Self shipping

Bad art

Bad writing

Bad OCs

Spicy subject matter ( horror, violence, and smut [it depends on what/who you ask for, I’m Ace so some sexual stuff might gross me out]

What can you do here? Well YOU can Ask about:

Head cannons

Reader X Short ficlets

Reactions

What-ifs

OC stuff (like RP or wanting to know more about them, but I doubt you’re here for my characters lol)

If you want OC x canon stuff like what ifs/ ficlets we can try that BUT this will require something in return. Either some art of my OCs x Canon or a small ficlet. I hope this doesn’t seem like an unreasonable request, I just feel if I’m taking the time to learn and get in the head of your OC, you should do the same as mine. Especially since I’m not looking for monetary gains. I’m not expecting 100% perfection, just good effort to the best of your abilities! 💕I’m not the best artist or writer myself either…💜 If you feel that this is a fair trade, then feel free to chat me up! 🥰

Anything else probably- just ask! Worst thing I can do is say nah 😊

Please send asks! I love hearing from you all! 💜

Ask Nopes-Here below are the things I don’t do:

physical & verbal abuse(mild yandere tropes are still allowed ex-restraints, isolation, dubcon) vomit, scat, urine, murder of Y/N, pedophilia, aging up underage characters, incest, and necrophilia. Just your typical yuck stuff 😬 also if you are under the age of 18, I can only make you SFW asks due to law requirements. What you do outside of my blog is on you! 😶

Most of the stuff on here is for my own self indulgence, but I try to make it X reader friendly and gender neutral ( with AFAB bottom anatomy…because that’s the only thing I know/relate to!) for all genders ❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜 because I 🩷 all my readers 🥰 but if you would like some AMAB content please just send me an ask! And I’ll will do my put my heart and soul into making it happen for you! 💕

✨ Fear not if it takes a while for your ask to be answered! I like to take my time and I also work a full time job so that eats up a lot of my time and energy! Your ask WILL be answered! I also have 2 fur bbs I take care of too and they are very bb. So I gotta train them not to shred up the place lol. All asks will be answered in order of entry! …unless the one I finished gets finished first. I work on a couple of asks at a time….helps with burn out and writer’s block!

Also when send asks a small little favor… please make your intentions known! I don’t want to read your ask wrong and create the wrong kind of ask. (Serious answers instead of funny answers, vice versa, etc.)

Also if you want some trans inclusion be specific of what kind you would like ! There’s a huge rainbow of trans inclusivity and I want to make sure I get it just right ( Mtf, Ftm, etc) especially if it includes surgical procedures involved! Thanks so much for your understanding! 💜💜💜

[redstonedust]

confiscating cis peoples gender until they can learn to be normal about it. sorry you spent too much time talking about how men and women are 'supposed' to act, you're getting put in nonbinary time out. sit on the naughty step. no gender until dinner time.

[berylcups]

I’m agender and I’m hoarding all the cisgenders genders like a dragon until they act right 😤 🐉

[yaoi-hate-machine]

adults who don’t live with their parent(s) and aren’t no contact: how often do you usually see your parent(s) in person?

multiple times a week

weekly

monthly

every few months

a few times a year

yearly

less often than once a year

i don’t have any living parents

i live with my parent(s)/have no living parents/am no contact/see results

Voting ended onAug 27, 2025

if you see one parent more often than the other, answer for the one you see more often

[berylcups]

Despite my age, I still live with my parents… I’m grateful to have them and still support me with putting a roof over my head while I work on saving for my own home. I was supposed to get married to my ex but we broke things off. This was a blessing in disguise for many reasons that I won’t get into. As much as I love my parents, I really really really want my own place me and my ocd doesn’t start any silly arguments.

[and-fishing-equipment]

daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

[berylcups]

So I guess it’s actually a universal experience to be pissed off when someone is in the kitchen when you wanna cook??? 🥲

[berylcups]

La Squadra Side Story Idea:

Wow my first la Squadra inspired post since… FOREVER AGO

CW: spoilers for Golden Wind and Higurashi maybe..? (If you haven’t already read or watched it yet???)

I finished watching the new Higurashi anime and I’m disappointed that they don’t have the same screwed up manic faces they make LMAO it was fun to watch but the ending was weird AF. Go watch it for yourself to know what I’m talking about.

As I was watching it, I thought about Risotto and him somehow obtaining a Requiem stand. Probably from failing Polpos test. Who actually ever passed that stupid test? My whole idea was that it wouldn’t activate until he died and throw him back in time a few months before Sorbet and Gelato dies. This giving him another chance to save his team lives while getting to the boss.

He won’t know the first few times till things start feeling a little too familiar and keeps getting Deja Vu every time an important event happens. Then he tries to change their methods. Then he’ll remember everything that happened. This is will mentally destroy him but every single bit of information will be vital to get the boss six feet under.

Maybe he tries changing which hitman confronts Bucciaratis teammates. Maybe they try and go after Trish’s mother instead before she dies. Maybe they skip over Trish entirely and go for the Bosses special unit. There’s so many different ways he can go about it. But maybe he already had the right idea to begin with and going after Trish was best. He went through so much unnecessary physical pain and mental trauma to figure that out. At least his team won’t remember themselves dying over and over again in the most gruesome blood curdling ways possible.

Perhaps there are a few retries where Risotto is the one who loses his own mind and ends up killing his own team with his bare hands over something as trivial as noisy argument? There has to be some time where Risotto becomes morally fatigued. But he will never stop trying to save his team. They’re his family. They are all he has.

No matter what happens, everyone has to live and the boss has to die. It does not matter how many tries, how many years, how much torture, how many deaths it takes.

[berylcups]

Sailor Polaris Character Reference (WIP)

Sailor Polaris (she/her -still figuring out how to do her boots…)

Lazurite/Brainwashed Polaris (they/them)

Yuki Kitahara (Civilian Polaris-They/them)

It’s nowhere near being done but I REALLY REALLY wanted to show what I had so far for my Sailor OC. 😭 I hope you love them and will love them even more once they’re completed. I’m making them with the power of love 💕…and justice. 🌙

[eldritchbauble]

Do people know about Vocational Rehab? If you're USAmerican they have this in every state.

It's a program that helps disabled folks access education, training, and employment. For FREE.

You only have to be disabled to qualify (autism, ADHD, mental illness, physical illness, etc) and they cover very broad categories of disability. You do NOT have to be officially diagnosed yet when you walk in - they will even help pay for your diagnosis if you are struggling w disability.

I applied with my suspected autism and fibromyalgia, and they paid for 100% of my formal autism assessment.

Once your disability is established they will give you career counseling to learn about your interests and skills, and depending on the plan you create with your caseworker they will then help with school or finding employment. They paid for 100% of my college tuition and books, and even provided a laptop for me to use.

You do not have to pay anything for this program. If you make above a certain income, you will have to contribute to educational costs but will still receive assistance.

They will also help with the cost of things like mental health counseling while you work towards your goals, clothing for interviews, etc.

They cannot discriminate based on your race, gender, or sexual orientation.

They won't make you do excessive meetings.

They will allow you to do meetings with your caseworker remotely.

They will not drug test you.

They want you to succeed.

I'm sure that individual experiences vary but my caseworker was exceptionally easy to work with and very kind.

Vocational Rehab is a phenomenal resource every disabled person should be aware of. Here is the list of offices in every state:

[berylcups]

I can confirm that this shit really works. That’s how I have the job I have now. I got this job before I had the supports and diagnosis’s for my AuDHD and my severe Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria. This is a job that actually pays. A full 8 hour job that supports all of my needs and doesn’t make me do what I’m not comfortable with. Although, I do live in a red flyover state so I can’t tell anyone that I identify as agender or Asexual. …I already had MANY discussions with nosy but not ill-intentioned coworkers on why I WON’T be having children. 😒 y’know…Ace is hard concept. But I’m getting off track.

Tell your job coach and your voc rehab coordinator what you absolutely CAN and CANNOT do. Don’t worry about being a Karen about it or thinking that you’re “enabling yourself” like I thought I was doing. It may take a while but if you want the job of your dreams , then you can wait for it. Idk if it varies by state, but you can get a job you’re not serious about while you are meeting with them. For reference, it took me about a little over a year to get my dream job. It took a while because I was specifically looking for non customer service positions with my specific job skills. It may take you less time but it might take you a little longer.

But if you’re autistic and/or ADHD, have your job coach help you fill out job applications and do mock interviews with you. Theres no shame in asking for that kind of help. There’s a lot of reading between the lines and social cues that maybe hard to pick up on if you were diagnosed late or struggling at masking. A lot of the questions they’ll ask sound personal but they really want to know about your academic and career accomplishments and history…because they enjoy making everything annoyingly difficult.

I hope that helps anyone who’s considering vocational rehabilitation. It’s really worth it and they have so many other resources that they connect you to.

[berylcups]

How tf do I have such a modest size of followers but such little engagement? …Is this blog officially dead? I only have 3-4 people that still engage with my BS. (Thank you btw 💜 yall know who you are 💕) It just screws with my RSD and I know I’m not really cut out for having a good blog but I still want to try!

Maybe I’ll open my asks for SUGGESTIONS. Just SUGGESTIONS. I specify ASK SUGGESTIONS because my life is so hectic and I’m so bipolar and my energy levels and inspiration powers are turbulent like a sketchy plane with no snacks. So as of 8/8/25…Consider ASK SUGGESTIONS OPEN. Open for JJBA aaaaannnddd Sailor Moon!

Just remember: It DOES NOT GUARANTEE that I’ll do your specific suggestion. It’s not because “ew, I don’t like _____. I’m not doing shit. I’m ghosting them.” It’s because I probably don’t have the energy at that EXACT MOMENT or I just don’t have the creativity to do so. I love you all equally 💜💜💜

Also—don’t worry if I take like 6 days to 6 weeks, to 6 months. If it takes that long, it’s just gonna take it that long. (I pray it doesn’t take months but you know there’s probably more than 1 ask that I’m doing.)

That’s why I’m specifically saying SUGGESTIONS and not actual requests because I don’t want to get anyone of your hopes up. Just pretend like you’re putting your ticket in at a VERY biased deli…

[berylcups]

Here’s a Katherine ink job. I’m going to digitally color it like my other arts when I have the time. I’m trying newer poses that are a little more difficult so that explains why her forearm and hand look broken and weird. 😭 perspective and all that .

I’m weaning off of Abilify because it made me super unmotivated and depressed. I hope I become better again soon and productive enough to take care of this blog again and do asks. Abilify SUCKS. I’m just tired of letting people down, especially yall. I know you that follow me are waiting for me to upload some more la Squadra stuff. And I am too. I just hope that my Bipolar gets under control and my motivation goes up too.

[berylcups]

Should I make a separate blog for my Sailor Moon content? And… would you be interested in boring sailor OCs I made? Because I’m gonna shove them into your face like an excited 2 year old anyway lmao

Post everything on this 1. Who knows what you are going to hyperfocus on next?

Let’s keep things neat & tidy. Have your jjba blog & a separate Sailor Moon blog

Voting ended onAug 8, 2025

If I do post sailor moon content it’s probably going to be 80% OC art and lore…and me thirsting over pretty boys 😭 so…probably not that much different than the blog I already have.

[berylcups]

Look at my scribbles! I officially watched all of sailor moon anime. I doodled my own sailor OC from my childhood but updated their outfit. They used to be a girl but I changed them to Agender just like meeee. Say hi to Sailor North Star/Polaris…not sure how they should be referred as. Obviously they are a woman as a sailor scout since all of them are. I’ll add their lore once I add a suitable picture that isn’t something I scribbled up on my work break. 😩 any one love sailor moon as much as they love jjba? I hope so. Sailor moon is the reason why I became a filthy weeb.

[berylcups]

I inked up Hánnáh and finally decided on an outfit design that I liked. I loosely based her blouse off of traditional Swedish clothes. Now all I have to do is scan it in and figure out what color scheme I should use…

I don’t have a consistent art style and am annoyed that I don’t seem to have my own style. But this style is one that I probably will use consistently since it’s easier for me to draw. I just hope that it doesn’t look gross.

Am I the only one who can’t draw without some sort of visual reference to use? And my poses look too stiff. I’m not sure how to correct that since I draw what I see.

[prince-zoisite]

I think Zoisite is the most beautiful of all the characters, especially in episode 31.

[berylcups]

Cheers to the very first woman that made me question my own sexuality circa the late 1990s. Oh DIC and your censorships~ another few that brighten my rainbows are Uranus and Neptune, Fisheye, Star Fighter and Healer. 😩 I think those who don’t adhere to the gender binary are my types.

I might be sailor-posting every now and then. I’m rewatching the entirety of the anime series.

I, BerylCups, have no relation to Queen Beryl. She’s an ass. I am going to yoink her 4 kings away-, she can keep Mamoru. He’s…too basic. 🤷🏻‍♀️

[berylcups]

I feel bad that I hardly ever post on here anymore. But I just don’t feel motivated enough to post anything. All I want to do is post annoying af OCs x canon ship stuff but that’s too self indulgent and not enjoyable for people like it is for me??? I know I shouldn’t care about that but I just like the validation??? Idk. I feel like if I were a better artist maaaaybe I’d get a little more notice? I know I’m super hard on myself but sometimes you just need that little pat on the back to keep going. I know I’m not the best artist but I really love blabbing about OCs. I probably need to find a better outlet…

Ignore this word salad if this bums you out. I just needed to pour my heart out every once in a while. I don’t have a friend group rn that shares the same interests and this will just have to do until I find some…wherever that may be

[berylcups]

Non-gender conforming spouse and their ugly little man bride 💍💍

Wedding season may be over but it isn’t too late for Calamari to model for tux’s

Will color and line later 🥴

[berylcups]

Did anyone watch the 3rd season of Squid Game??? I AM NOT OKAY 😭😭😭 MY HEART IS TOO WEAK FOR THIS SHIT 😭😭😭 I teared up over shows but never actually cry cried before

Just as a friendly PSA, I might be posting/Reblogging about the show, so be wary if you haven’t finished the series yet 🩷 I will add spoilers TWs ofc and keep it nice and hidden under that sweet sweet read more line. Like…Right now 😉

Did they really need to use a CGI baby??? And why did the VIPs sound like they were google translated??? 😩 God, I would have loved to see an unhinged player like a drugged out Min-Su/ 125 or something knife one of the VIPS to death. Thanos was a little penis and that’s what made him lovable, I needed to see more of his antics. I think we also didn’t need any of the cops and fisherman’s plot point but that’s just my opinion. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Also the damn jump rope song is stuck in my head.

Top 3 times I cried the hardest:

1- Gi-Hyun dying for CGI baby

2- Cho Hyun-Ju’s death (fuk u 333)

3- tie between Momma stabbing her son in the back and Kim Jun-Hee/222 voluntarily jumping to her death

Top 3 times I screamed in happiness

1- Old fat guy falling to his death (FINALLY!!!) or anytime he lost his composure and became cowardly.

2-The Shamans death…and the fact she casually walked her followers into their deaths and walked off like nothing happened 😂

3- Kang No-Eul/11 taking out the organ traffickers all on her own and rescuing Park Gyeong-Seok/246.

Despite my complaints, I really enjoyed this entire series. This was the most confusing custody battle ever if you condense the entire story down into one thing. 😂 and I love it, flaws and all.

Uhh… that’s it. I’m done fangirling about it.

[pastabracket]

can i get the community’s opinion on eating raw pasta

alright gang lets see

eating raw pasta?

yes

no

Voting ended onJul 6, 2025

[berylcups]

Raw pasta: NO—-hurts teefs

Raw Ramen??? : OMG YES especially w/ the little seasoning packets very lightly sprinkled on the raw noodles.