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EVERYTHING STAYS, RIGHT WHERE YOU LEFT IT. EVERYTHING STAYS, BUT IT STILL CHANGES. EVER SO SLIGHTLY, DAILY AND NIGHTLY. IN LITTLE WAYS, WHEN EVERYTHING STAYS. BIANCA DI ANGELO, 17.

[bicncasdicngelo]

( runningcxrcles ).

Feeling the metal of his knees grind against the pavement, his hands braced against the concrete to keep himself from collapsing. Vaguely he could hear someone close, though his mind was too hazy to pick up what they said. When he felt hands touch his face he FLINCHED, his body tensing in preparation for something else to deal damage. Focusing on her words, he relaxed now aware of who he’d fallen before. His eyelids felt heavy, his sight blurry and barely able to make her out. Was she.. crying? Why? “Stop,” he breathed weakly, his right hand reaching up to squeeze her left in comfort. “I’m fine,” he lied. “Y- You should see the other guys..” Despite trying to inject humour the gravel and exhaustion in his voice left it feeling FLAT. “I’m not.. not going to die. I just.. I need to regenerate.. Promise.”

           “ okay, okay, ” she said, more to herself than ANYTHING, blinking back the tears that stung at her eyes, before she heard the words that fell from his mouth. and the tears fell easily ; half in anger and half in fright. “ NO. you’re NOT fine, you... you giamoke!! ” the young demigod cried out, a frown on her lips. his hand touched her soft one, and she pressed her lips into a thin line, swallowing down whatever other insults she wanted to call him. “ can you stand up?? we can go to a hospital. we SHOULD go to a hospital, ” she said, the last part more to herself. “ regenerate...? “

[bicncasdicngelo]

         “ i know this is AWKWARD, ” the young demigod laughed slightly, as she tugged on the jacket of the other, a light pink dusting her pale cheeks. “ but do you think you could get the BOOK on the shelf for me?? ” she pointed to the book on the TOP shelf, that had a pitch black cover, and a white crescent moon on it. “ i’m a bit too short, if you didn’t notice. ”

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[bicncasdicngelo]

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SEND ME A SYMBOL! | NO MAS. [ ✈ ] my muse asks yours to accompany them on a trip/mission/etc.

        “ as FUN as that sounds, i really can’t. ” bianca sighed, shrugging her shoulders. “ i don’t think we could LEAVE this place, for one... and i can’t do PLANES. at all. ” not to mention her great UNCLE might smite the entire PLANE if she was in it. that didn’t sound all too fun. “ unfortunately, i think you’re asking the wrong person, hon. sorry. ”

[bicncasdicngelo]

✜ ( Merc || @runningcxrcles )

SEND ME A SYMBOL! | NO MAS. [ ✜ ] my muse collapses in front of yours, all bloodied and bruised.

          “ mercury?? “ the demigod halted IMMEDIATELY as the taller dropped to his knees in front of her. she let go of the grocery bags she had in hand fell to the pavement, her lips parted in surprise. her ( friend? ) was BLOODY, it was hard to tell where the crimson started and where it ENDED. “ oh gods, ” she mumbled, as she kneeled down to his height, cupping his face in her small, pale HANDS. “ mercury?? MERCURY!! what happened?? pay attention, hey, no, don’t fall asleep... ” he might not wake up if he DID ----or that was her fear. “ mercury, please, come on, don’t... ” tears stung at her eyes ; she had never been GOOD with this kind of thing anyways. “ please, ” she said, her voice cracking ; as it was more of a CHOKED SOB than anything, “ i can’t lose you TOO. ”

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[bicncasdicngelo]

( nicodicngelc ).

Nico sighed into the hug and frowned at the situation. “Shall we get you to a hospital, B?” He mumbled, looking her up and down worriedly. “You don’t need to apologise, I understand why you went, you needed to have a life that wasn’t me, I understand that now.”

        she fell silent. hospitals had never been her THING, after all. “ ...i guess, ” she mumbled. her eyes widened at his second statement, and her brows furrowed once more. “ no, i-i do, ” bianca stated firmly, a frown on her lips. “ i was being SELFISH. i left you all ALONE with complete strangers. i was the crappy sibling. not you. ”

[bicncasdicngelo]

( rewiindtime ).

📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  oh, sorry! i didn’t mean to trigger anything or make you uncomfortable, if i did. 📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  maybe you’ll get a chance to do that and everything else, now. second chances and all that. 📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  i doubt there’ll be a cute girl anytime soon considering who i am as a person, but. thank you! i’m rooting for you, too. 

[ text to max. ] no you’re fine, really ! it happened a long time ago, i’m fine now. well, less dead, which is more than i expected haha. [ text to max. ] i’m keeping my fingers crossed. [ text to max. ] but you’re like???? a wonderful person??? i fail to see your point 

[bicncasdicngelo]

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send me a symbol! | accepting. [ ❢ ] my muse discovers yours all bloodied and bruised.

        she was COLD, and the adrenaline in her veins were beginning to subside. it had been twenty MINUTES ; maybe, and the pain began to set in. bianca didn’t want to look down at her pale arms, already too aware of the blue and purple that was under the CRIMSON of her blood. it hurt to BREATHE --- had that asshole broken her NOSE?? a light touch of her index finger under her nose, and she pulled away to see an ungodly amount of red on it. she let out a shaky sigh, biting on her bruised lip, letting the PAIN shoot through her body, and eventually fade into a dull white noise that was able to be ignored. she kept her eyes ahead ; but not exactly seeing, merely making sure she wouldn’t walk into anything. but alas, it seemed that her EYES had failed her. 

      bianca bumped into the other, and in her WEAK state, she was sent tumbling to the ground. “ sorry, ” she mumbled, unable to look at the other. 

[bicncasdicngelo]

( nicodicngelc ).

Nico cracked slightly at her last words, realising how stupid and stubborn he had been trying to protect himself. Biting down on his lower lip, the black haired male took his sister in his arms again silently, letting out a long breath.·“I’m so sorry, Bianca. I’ve been a shit brother, I’m taking having you back for granted. I have a second·chance with you, and I’ve been too scared to believe it’s real and I’m out here making excuses for it. I should’ve been protecting·you today, and back then. You didn’t deserve to die, you deserve to be here. To be happy, with your little brother. We·deserve happiness, I don’t ever want to lose you again Bianca. Please·don’t go again. We – We can sort this, we can figure out how to make you feel okay again. I promise, you’re never alone. You have me. I promise.” Nico paused, sniffing awkwardly. “Every day since you had been gone I wished for this…to have you back, and now you’re here it doesn’t seem real and I’m scared to lose my big sister again. I’m so sorry.”

       it was hard to watch her little brother BERATE himself as he spoke, but she couldn’t find the words to stop him. it had become unnatural to stop her brother from criticizing himself, as she had not done it so long. it was HARD. difficult. “ it’s okay, ” she finally managed out, after he spoke, closing her eyes once more, letting the back of her lids sting as she inhaled deeply ; trying not to cry once more. “ i’m HERE. we’ll make this work, ” she opened her eyes, giving him a small, shaky smile. “ it’s not all your fault, okay?? i shouldn’t... i shouldn’t have LEFT you. i’m sorry. ” she paused. “ you won’t lose me again, okay?? ” she approached him once more, to pull him into a tight embrace.

[bicncasdicngelo]

( ahbrilliant ).

“i’d tell you a chemistry joke, but i know i wouldn’t get a response… er, actually… that’s… that didn’t make any sense, did it? not sure where i messed up on that one, if i’m being honest… oh! okay, hold on, i think i’ve got it now. alright, i’d tell you a chemistry joke, but i know i wouldn’t get a reply… no, no. that’s not it either… wait! aagh, obviously! it should’ve been ‘reaction’! like a chemical reaction’. that wasn’t…  that wasn’t how that joke was supposed  to go, yeah.”

       perhaps it was a little RUDE, but it was endearing to watch the other stumble over his words in his attempt to tell the joke. she GIGGLED as he finished the joke. “ no, no, you’re fine. ” she paused, “ i guess comedian isn’t your next big career move. ”   

[erin-margaret]

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[bicncasdicngelo]

( siriuslyjamcs ).

“Hey, I won’t push,” he said with raised hands. “Well, answer me this, is the other half involved in magic in any way whatsoever”

      “ sorta. yes? yes. ” she nodded. “ something magicky enough, at least. ”

[bicncasdicngelo]

( witchyrxse ).

[ text to bianca. ] yes.

[ text to bianca. ] bc i’m bored.

[ text to rose. ] why not do smth more productive?? also isn’t marijuana illegal in new york???

[bicncasdicngelo]

( rewiindtime ).

📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  trust me, it wasn’t ideal 📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  she died right after, but technically also before? 📱 ➤ [ bianca ]  there’ll be a girl eventually. hopefully WITHOUT the unfortunate circumstances. for both of us, god willing.

[ text to max. ] oh. i sorta... died before i could kiss a girl. [ text to max. ] or anyone for that matter. [ text to max. ] i’ll be rootin for u and whatever cute girl u meet! go u go!

[maslaner]

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