Waiting for the end of class felt like pure torture. Every tick of the clock was a minute closer to talking with izuku, but also a minute less for time to prepare his 'speech'
It wasn't hard to tell he was worried about something. While he usually managed to mask his feelings with ease, his current worry was painted in bright green letters across his face. It was bad enough that most of his classmates could tell.
Mina, Kirishima, Denki, Sero, and Jirou all came to him at some point throughout the school day to check if he was ok. He said he was just tired because he stayed up late finishing homework.
What was he gonna say? 'Oh nothing much, just a green twink almost killed himself and in the heat of the moment I confessed to him! Anyways, how was your weekend?'
He's crazy, but not insane enough to tell them that-
The stupid bell finally rang, and both Katsuki and Izuku raced out the classroom and up to their dorms.
When in his dorm, Katsuki got in casual clothes, ate whatever was laying around to hold him over, and practiced what he would say.
"Hey....so about last night..." No- that sounds like he regrets his confession.
"How was your day?" Too casual for what happened-
"Hey izuku." ......Good enough-
He texted Izuku to meet him up in his room whenever he was ready to talk. He mentally scolded himself for picking his room instead of somewhere outside. He quickly tidied his room the best he could when he heard Izuku knock.
"U-uh come in!" He said, rather rushed.
Izuku walked in and stood at the doorway for a second and looked around his room.
"You can sit anywhere-" He said as he gestured around the room where there was a desk chair, A beanbag, and his bed.
Izuku chose the desk chair while Katsuki picked his bed.
"Hey" Both of them said at once before laughing a bit. Izuku continued.
"So...last night. I just have one question-" He said, rather hesitantly.
"Of course, go ahead."
"Did you......mean what you said? You loving me, I mean....Did you mean it?"
Katsuki paused for a second before responding. "I......Yes. I meant every word I said, including that kiss."
Both of them sat in silence for a moment, turning the words over.
"We don't have to date or anything. I just said it in the moment, I meant it of course, it just happened to come out then."
"Its not like I don't like you! I just don't know. I want to date you, but I don't wanna like dump all my mental stuff on you, yknow?"
"No pressure Izu- I mean, I'm here to talk anytime, that won't change. I just thought....if we did date...I could help you with all that- its another reason to live-"
He mumbled the last part, it was true, but it was more a thought to help him relax in the moment more than a thought for Izuku.
"I....we can date I guess- Wow, that sounded so not enthusiastic" Izuku said, laughing a bit.
His nerves and brain were going crazy now. His crush of forever.....said yes....after everything....
Now he started ranting.
"Ok! Great! Amazing! Uhm....Should we tell other people or uh maybe not or-"
Izuku cut him off by hugging him, smiling and laughing a bit.
"Lets just take it slow, yea? How about just us for now."
"yea.....just....us... That sounds nice."
If only history didn't hate lovers......
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!!!!AUTHOR NOTE!!!!!
WELCOME TO THE END OF CHAPTER TWO!!
Just wait till the angst train hits♥
yea next chapter should be good, then I'm gonna start showering this in angst!
I DID MAKE A LIL DRABBLE OF THIS AND POSTED IT BUT I CHANGED IT AN IM TURNING IT INTO A FIC!!!
ILL TRY TO UPDATE AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE!!
Word count: probably more than 1000...?
Tw: ANGST, gay love (don't wanna get yelled jumped by homophobs😭), Heavy-ish mentions of suicide attempts, suicidal threats (?), bleeding almost to death, jumping, mental hospital/ hospital, uhm....think that's it....you've been warned :)
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Izuku couldn't even comprehend what Katsuki was saying anymore. Through his silent sobbing and the blondes yelling, all of it was a complete blur of noise to him. He couldn't help but over think ever interaction with his class mates the pass few days. The lying, the fronting, the stuff he hid from his mother. God, he felt so stupid right now. What did he even gain from it?
Katsuki soon realized that Izuku was crying from the way his body was shaking slightly. His yelling soon trailed off as he slowly took a step closer to izuku, not wanting to startle him. He slowly wrapped him in a hug. Not saying anything, not yelling, just letting him be.
After a few moments of silence to let himself and Izuku gather some sort of thoughts, he spoke in a way that was quite rare for him.
"I....I'm sorry for blowing up on you... I didn't mean to make you cry or anything-" Katsuki said, fighting back slight tears himself.
Izuku, in turn, responded angrily, something that was rare for him aswell.
"Why does it even matter to you?!" He screamed. "You would've probably been happy if I let myself bleed to death!"
Blinded by pure rage and slight adrenaline, he didn't fully process what he was going to say before he said it.
Bakugou couldn't help but stare at him in full disbelief for a second. He laughed, though it wasn't full of humor.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?! Are you crazy? Did you lose that much blood to the point that you can't think straight?!"
Izuku was stunned for a moment before responding. "I'm the crazy one? What ever happened to picking on little old quirk less deku, huh?!" He screamed, tears streaming down his face.
"Admit it, you would be HAPPY if I took the dive off the roof."
That made the both of them pause.
"You don't get it, do you? I fucking LOVE you... While you were thinking about the sick twisted way I would celebrate you killing your self, I was ACTUALLY crying my fucking eyes out at the mere thought you could've DIED that night."
The blonde haired boy couldn't help but let himself cry a bit now. "I sat awake every night wondering if this was somehow MY fault. If I finally pushed you over the edge somehow! I would've been heartbroken if you killed yourself. I isolated myself for days on end until I knew you were ok! Till I knew you would live. I can't make up for the past, but I can make up for now. Please......."
Izuku couldn't believe what he was hearing. He....he must be hallucinating.... Right?
"I...what....?" He stuttered out in pure disbelief. Surely Katsuki didn't mean to say that....it had to be a slip of his tongue.... Maybe the meds he was taking were messing with his thoughts-
Katsuki let out a sigh that lacked its usual hatred before pulling Izuku in a tight hug.
"I fucking love you izu....." He said, his words barely audible, voice cracking slightly.
The boy let go of him after a second or two. "Listen.... You got a lot on your mind right now, I got a lot to think about right now.... This week has been... Eventful....for us, to say the least. Lets both just sleep this off and....and talk tomorrow after class...."
Before Izuku could argue, Katsuki kissed him softly on his cheek before sliding out the door, closing it behind him.
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Even hours after the interaction, Izuku found himself lying awake, staring at his ceiling. That nickname kept replaying in his head over and over.
Izu
God, kats hadn't called him that since they we're kids, he barely even called him his legal name. Its only ever been deku. If he was being honest, it felt nice to hear it again.
Kats
Izuku hadn't called him that in forever aswell. It was only ever Kacchan.
And that hug...... Kats never did hugs, let alone hug izuku.
And he....no....
~Im just hallucinating again- it.....it didn't happen- right...?~ The boy thought, trying to make up any excuse for the events that happened.
But....it did happen. He was there, well, physically he was. Maybe not mentally- Either way, it happened.
Katsuki kissed him. Well, still counts even if it was only on his cheek.
So he wasn't hallucinating.
This did happen.
The fight
The yelling
The crying
All of it happened
Before he could worry himself more on the matter, he decided to roll over to try to at least get sleep for class tomorrow.
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AH OK END OF CHAPTER ONE!!!! IM GONNA MAKE A MASTERLIST FOR THE FICS!
