its that time of the year again folks! soon my brother and i need to choose between renewing our lease in our tiny apartment, our moving somewhere slightly bigger so my dad (who is in a delicate housing situation) can move in with us. its a whole thing and i wont bog you down with the details. the short of it is: we need funds!
im physically incapable of working so you see where our problems begin! my brother works 3 jobs and is in charge of most our finances. i can only afford my many medications for my many conditions by the grace of generous friends and donors.
go HERE if you want to help!
426/5000
hey if we dont raise enough befour JULY 15TH we're in big trouble btw. my brother is raising some money on his own through his multiple jobs but he cant do it all himself. please share and help if you can. i'm not above begging.
i do art as well!!
i might be a bit slow given the aforementioned turbo disability, but i'll draw your blorbo! i'll draw you! i'll draw me if you want that for some reason! go HERE for that!
its that time of the year again folks! soon my brother and i need to choose between renewing our lease in our tiny apartment, our moving somewhere slightly bigger so my dad (who is in a delicate housing situation) can move in with us. its a whole thing and i wont bog you down with the details. the short of it is: we need funds!
im physically incapable of working so you see where our problems begin! my brother works 3 jobs and is in charge of most our finances. i can only afford my many medications for my many conditions by the grace of generous friends and donors.
go HERE if you want to help!
396/5000
thanks everyone who has chipped in so far! please help by sharing! we really need to make this happen!
i do art as well!!
i might be a bit slow given the aforementioned turbo disability, but i'll draw your blorbo! i'll draw you! i'll draw me if you want that for some reason! go HERE for that!
hi this is my roleplay account but yeah. I've become homeless and trying to get a new place to stay at current. I hate doing this but if you can donate that would be great.
accidentally found this site where someone made their own revised Kaiba subtitles (with downloads). as well as a download for the director's commentary on Ep. 1, which I wasn't even aware existed 😮
//Heyo all! Unfortunately life has been mean again and my family is in need of funds. So once more I am sharing that my mom crochets rectangles (scarves, shawls, etc.) to destress and they are piling up and we'd like to sell some!
Available scarves & prices seen here!
But a few examples if it helps entice (there are many more than these):
Yes there are photos of them not being worn, but you have to go to the link.
All are completely handmade from a pet-free and smoke-free home! We accept PayPal, Venmo, and Kofi. Please message me if you're interested!
And yes it's spring in the upper hemisphere but that doesn't mean you can't enjoy a yarn rectangle. They aren't just for keeping warm outdoors, they are also great snuggle objects (especially the wider ones), table runners, mantelpiece/couch back/headboard decor, etc. wherever you want some extra flair!
my other post lost traction and the funds i got from went up in smoke after i bought my (many) medications. i need around $2500 to move with my brother and father by january 2026 AND purchase an orthopedic mattress for my fathers bad back
im basically unemployable due to my many disabilities and my only income is the occassional commission and donation. so anything helps!
ok thx bye be kind today!
893/2500
(the number above is my actual pp balance and not the kofi goal percentage)
kofi
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edit 12/12/2025 PLEASE SHARE i want to preface this by saying a heartfelt thank you to everyone has donated even just $5. your kindness does not go unnoticed! second, we may be able to renew our lease here for another year. this will eat up all the funds we've collected. we still need to eventually move somewhere else so our father can live with us, and purchase a special mattress for his back.
we have until the end of january 2026
i can't overstate how little money we have. i physically and mentally cannot work. i already try my best with commissions but the stress of our financial situation keeps me from being able to do that too. we have other expenses but one thing at a time.
I meant to post this during Pride month but haha things go brrrrrrrr. This is my first hsr proper fic? drabble? Idk.
Tldr; the villain is the Amatonormativity society we live in and how Sampo and Jing Yuan (besties in me and @chaosmax 's opinion) navigate and survive through it.
Sampo slept with many men and women in his life. Whether it was for profit, the pure joy of it or a secret third thing, it ultimately didn't matter. It was expected of him. This persona of a man who could bed anything that walked or talked near him. With a sultry smile, a wink thrown in, he could get anyone he desired.
But… that's not really what he wanted.
The comfort of another body with him, a childish desire to sleep next to someone. That's what he sought after. The comforting warmth of knowing someone would be there should anything happen. A deep trust between two individuals that didn't extend to physical desire (or went beyond that). It wasn't easy to get that in this day and age.
No matter how much progress the universe went through, some ideas remained instilled in humans. Sleeping with others as a child is seen as cute and innocent. But as an adult…
Are you leading him on?
Either you're fuck buddies or you're not. There's no way two hot guys are just friends.
So when are you putting the moves on him, Koski?
You should've told me you had someone else.
“Sampo, Sampo!”
The thief opened his eyes. He's laying on top of Jing Yuan. A strong arm was holding him close while another was carefully holding his face. “Are you alright?” Concern was written all over his face. Golden hues stared hard. Watching each movement the Fool made.
“I'm… fine.” Sampo finally said, after regaining himself. He removes his body off of the other man. This reveals that the General was partly naked. His chest was exposed with no shirt on. Years of battle detailed on his skin with lacerations and scars. He did wear some loose sweatpants so he wasn't entirely naked.
Unlike Koski. He never liked to sleep with clothes on due to his unusually warm body. He wasn't a nudist however. He did have enough decency to wear underwear while he slept. The Fool makes himself sit at the edge of the bed. Fingers run through his hair. When did he start to sweat?
“You're not.” The bed shifted, and now Jing Yuan was sitting up as well. Worry was dripping from every word he spoke. “What's wrong? You know I can't help you if I don't know anything.”
From the corner of his eye he could see him looking right at him. Still looking worried for the old Fool. “I know you too well to know when something is up. Please, tell me what's wrong.” Then his eyes widened when he felt the General's hand on his bare shoulder.
Touch was something he craved for. That's why he was such a touchy feely person. Within reason of course. When others touch him, the Fool knows it's to get something out of him. Whether it's to slap him to put him in his place or sexual gratification, it was all take, take, take.
Those touches never gave him the comfort he wanted. Yet when Jing Yuan did it… It didn't feel that way. It felt honest like his feelings. The grip on his shoulder was meant to comfort the thief. Bracing him as he had done for his soldiers when they were too scared to go into battle. Or when Yanqing was too nervous for his exams.
“We should stop this.”
“Stop what?”
“This.” Sampo gestured at both of them. “It's not… normal.”
“I don't understand. What are we doing that isn't normal?”
Sleeping together Sampo wants to say. Yet he can't find the will to say it. “You're seeing someone, aren't you? I doubt they'd like it if they found out their partner is sleeping around.”
Jing Yuan blinked. A partner? When did he… “Are you talking about the visit with the other Xianzhou Generals?”
He wasn't but Sampo will roll with it. “I heard one of them was interested in something a bit more than that. If they found out you were with someone, especially someone like me…” his reputation would go down the drain. As well as any romantic prospect.
“Sampo, you know I'm not interested in such things.” Jing Yuan retorts.
“Well, some people are. And you should be more careful with who you go to bed with.” The Fool begins to rise from the bed only to be stopped by a hand on his shoulder. It's holding him back, preventing the man from leaving the bed.
“Sampo, what I do in the bedroom is my business.”
“And mine if I'm here in it.”
To this the General concedes. But not before bringing one simple question. “Is being in bed with me a problem, Sampo?”
After a few moments of silence does the thief answer. With a tired and exhausted “Yes.” The hold on his shoulder is released. With the warmth gone, it left him empty. “People are saying we are sleeping together. That I'm doing this to get some sort of favor out of you. The General's concubine, they call me.”
“I see…”
“Real friendships are hard to find in my line of work, Jing Yuan. That's why I treasure this friendship dearly. While you are an attractive man that anyone would be honored to sleep with, I only love you as a good friend or brother would love.”
The feeling was mutual on the General's side. But he could see why the anxiety was building on the thief. “I never assumed you would have slept with me for any reason other than genuine sleep.”
“I didn't either.” Sampo ran his fingers across his hair and laughed. A dry empty laugh. “When you ignored my advances, I felt relief every time. It meant I didn't have to act more than I had to. But I kept doing it since I was expected to be a flirty man. A degenerate, a con man, a Fool, a—”
“A friend.” Once again a hand goes to his shoulder and gives a comforting grip. “I don't feel uncomfortable with this, nor do I care for baseless rumors. Back when the Quintet was still around, people assumed the same.”
Jing Yuan laughs. “The tales people spun revolving around us was quite fantastical. I should show you some books to show what I mean. However…” The comforting hand leaves him alone. A chill runs down the thief's spine.
“I won't force you either. If it helps calms your worries, you know where the guest bedroom is.”
Sampo looks over at the General. Tears are forming and he's not sure why. “I— Did I say something wrong?”
“This isn't what I want either!” The Fool shouts.
“Then what do you want?”
“I…” The Fool shifts back over in bed. Before plunging head first into the General's chest. Desperate fingers grip onto the man's back. Clinging as if he'd disappear. “I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to be alone. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.”
What had Sampo endured to be like this? The man kept wavering between wanting to be a free bird yet tethered to someone. With a sigh, Jing Yuan stroked his back. In soft, soothing circles. Just as he had done for Yanqing when he got scared. “You don't have to decide right now. We can stay like this until you feel ready.”
The Fool wishes he could say he was sorry for being a selfish man. The only sound that comes out of him was a choked gasp.
It still pains the General that for someone like Koski, things like this don't roll off his back. Behind every smile, every laugh, there was that anxiety he failed to see in his dear friend. His hand comes up to stroke the Fool’s hair. Combing through the strands as he let out his cries. Maybe it was age or his own disposition to not caring about such things. But for Jing Yuan, sleeping in bed with someone meant nothing.
Well not nothing. Sleep meant trust in one another. And the act of sex, while highly desirable for most people, wasn't for the General. It seemed like for Sampo, this was the same thing. Though unlike Sampo, Jing Yuan made peace with it. He learned to understand this bit about himself. But for the Fool? Only Sampo had the answer to that.
For now, the only thing Jing Yuan could do is offer comfort and support for his Blue Bird. Until the day Sampo realized his answer.
Anyways it's always the whitest fucking people who cry about "social change" who are the problem.
My brother in Christ you're a white person. You are not exempt from the problems. Stop screaming at fellow white people and scream at yourself for repeating the same problems that got us into this situation!! God!!