Works by Isaiah Calinao

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Glow, by Keeno | Self-Cover

Rain drops pouring down Remind me of that day The pale blue sky above abstracting light

Far within the rain someone smiles afar So bright and innocent The vast sky sang Before I knew, seemed all long I grew up too fast The growing pains from before Have bled into my tears And lies we used to tell ourselves Were promises of love Those pains only grow As I remember

The fleetful red sky when you flew far away Glimmering as you lit the milky way I can no longer dream of anything Only you I miss you Despite all the clouds I look towards the stars Wishing you were here but I go on

If I could go back I would ask once again Please once more… smile so it lasts forever

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Nomad By Balloon, English Translyrics By Zay Calinao

Those years that went so far A past that looks so blurry To a cold nightmare that aches my chest Stepping away insincere Nowhere to go My future’s bleak There’s no point to precede Is there a path that guides me through this hellscape? I ask now Hello, hello echoing away To another voice inside I fear, but go and listen to my heart A beat that’s resounding

If I stop refraining on to wander aimlessly I’ll steer away even when it kills me, I‘ll get back up If we despise this enterprise at least don’t let me go I couldn’t believe How stupid of me Even if I can’t say no more At least I have you Salvation craves for those who dream While I’m left to sleep There’s no way to avoid pressuring dread Prays and pleas they don’t even mean If truths were said Would I be dead? Will all I show be real?

Is there a path that guides me through this hellscape? Please show me I don’t, I don’t, I cannot understand How chilling and bleak to me The tears and screams I wish to relinquish

Sounding so naive now If I crave this longing need That’s waiting to be born I’ll hold it tight even when I am forced to let it go Keep going on, together on Don’t ever let me go I won’t give up, I can’t give up I want to reclaim my own dream Is that too much for me…

Out there, somewhere over the sunny sky Gazing, finding the view vastly blurring my eyes But yet my heart will not open up nor reveal How selfish can I just be… If I stop refraining on to wander aimlessly I’ll steer away even when it kills me, I’ll get back up If we despise this enterprise at least don’t let me go I couldn’t believe How stupid of me Even if I can’t say no more At least there is you --------------------------------- Please credit by linking the Google Doc version and tag my YouTube: ZeiahYT *Also let me know when you've posted your own cover using these lyrics, I'd love to see it!

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Dial 2-U, the sequel to "My Wake Up Call" is out now!

It's Umeji and Horuda's final year of high school, so much yet so little has changed about them. Horuda's a little worried about graduating,

It's Umeji and Horuda's final year of high school, so much yet so little has changed about them. Horuda's a little worried about graduating, while Umeji spends too much time worrying about his responsibilities. But how this affects their relationship in the long run slowly makes them feel detached from one another, and it makes them wonder how they can truly reach each other through all of this. Seeming now that they might be too different for their own good, as so are their lives up to this point. That everything going on starts to concern their loved ones. In fact the whole ensemble starts to see that maybe everything is more than it's cracked up to be. —------------------------------- !!!DISCLAIMER!!! I DON’T SUPPORT YANDERE DEV OR THE GAME AT ALL!!! The story will also not be following the original game’s story at all. I have completely cut all of that out as Ayano doesn’t even exist in this and the characters are given actual personalities, in other words take this as my own rewritten AU. I’m treating everything I write in the story as my own, which will also include some of my own original characters, retcons, and of course headcanons. So I’d highly encourage you to read this in mind of it being its own original story rather than looking it out to be FanFiction cause I am telling you now that I essentially wrote a novel of some sorts LOL. (Tl;dr) That said, I once again do not support Yandere Dev and I hope you enjoy this as its own thing!

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Chapter 1 of "I Tried To Stop The World & The Feelings" is out NOW!

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I Tried To Stop The World & The Feelings

I won’t let go…I won’t ever let go, not now, not ever.

He’s here, and I’m in his arms, forever…

I want to continue clinging onto his warm back, and smelling his sweet citrus scent.

I want to see him smile, everyday.

I want him to stay with me.

I won’t let go…

I don’t want this to be over…

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THERE IS NOT ENOUGH MOBU X KIKUCHI FICS RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHh!!! Okay, I mainly wrote this to cope with the fact that they dropped the bomb with these two for Season 3, and honestly I am dislking how it's starting out so far. So I decided to kind of rewrite their goodbye scene with them at least exchanging contacts and well...very Demiromantic coded stuff-which I totally wasn't projecting most of my own feelings onto Mobu LOL.

This may be a one and done thing but depending on how many kudos this gets, I may continue with it. I actually do have very vague ideas for it, if I do want to continue it but I am also open to ideas. So, I would appreciate hearing what you guys think. Other than that, enjoy this fic!

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Help a Family in Need

I am reaching out on behalf of my dear friend, Mohamad S., who is facing one of the most challenging times of his life. Mohamad is 37 years old and left his homeland in 2015 in search of a safer and better future. He’s a kind, hardworking man, and his small family has always been his greatest priority.

Living abroad, Mohamad has recently endured unimaginable loss and financial strain. Amidst the ongoing conflict in his homeland, his mother passed away, leaving behind his sister and her five young children—the last remaining members of his immediate family.

As the situation worsened, Mohamad managed to help his sister and her children escape to safety in Egypt, covering their immediate needs and securing a temporary refuge for them. Since then, he has been fully responsible for providing everything they need to survive during this transition.

In his efforts to support his family and cope with this devastating loss, Mohamad has found himself deeply in debt. To make matters even more difficult, he recently underwent knee surgery, which limits his ability to return to work for the foreseeable future. This has made it even harder for him to manage his financial responsibilities and the pressing need to provide his family with a stable future.

Mohamad is now working to bring his sister and her five children to join him in Belgium, where he hopes they can find stability and opportunity after all they’ve endured. This transition, however, requires significant resources that he is currently unable to meet alone.

For privacy reasons, we are not sharing Mohamad’s full name, as he has chosen to keep his identity discreet. While he initially refused the idea of asking for help, I couldn’t stand by and watch him struggle alone. I insisted on doing this for him because he deserves a chance to overcome these challenges.

Your contribution will help Mohamad repay the debt incurred during this difficult time, cover ongoing living expenses for his family, and assist with the costs involved in bringing them safely to Belgium.

Mohamad has been a good friend of mine for years, and I’ve always admired his resilience and generosity. Any support, no matter the size, will make an incredible difference in helping Mohamad and his family rebuild their lives after these painful experiences.

Thank you for reading his story and considering helping a man who has always done everything he can for his loved ones.

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Long ago when the Earth's melody was born from the hearts of the people and inspired dreams of the heart. Harprite the realm of dreams granted these desires but Exquillis the realm of nightmares rather despised them. Due to conflict between them, the Earth's melody ended up becoming unbalanced and with little hope they had left to try and keep dreamers alive, the Earth's melody ended up sending out Frequencies through the sky and as the stars above met with the strings of harmony for generations it granted over protection that it could of the people’s hearts and their songs.

The stars would become keepers of harmony, while the Earth fairies in Harprite did what they could to keep pieces of desires together. Exquillis however would be disrupting most of the people’s dreams and their deepest harmonies. The stars and the Earth fairies both would continue doing what they could do for the rest of eternity. However the stars being the keepers of harmony knew of the Earth’s melody deepest and greatest hope, that one day Precure will return to restore hope for the Earth's Melody.

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"When you love someone you find a way to stay" - Pasek and Paul

Valentines day was yesterday and I had a big realization as much as thinking about the irony from the holiday. I feel like our concept of "love" has became slowly surface level at this point and I think Valentines day is the exact epitome of that. Thought I'd share it here because making this video was interesting to me in terms of raising my thoughts, feel free to comment on anything I say in it or make any further points. I'd love to hear it.

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i can't remember whether all of this is in the 2020 edited version of solitaire, but in the og version tori says:

"Last night I watched a film called Garden State. Not all of it, but most of it. [...] It’s about this guy Andrew, and you’re never quite sure whether Andrew’s life is truly depressing or not. It seems like he has no decent friends or family, but then he meets this girl (typically happy- go-lucky, quirky, and beautiful Manic-Pixie-Dream-Girl Natalie Portman, of course) who teaches him how to live properly again. [...] It’s very obvious that Zach Braff (who wrote, directed, acted, and compiled the soundtrack) created this film about himself. Maybe that’s what made it so real to me."

and i can't stop thinking about how much this parallels solitaire.

'it’s about this guy Andrew, and you’re never quite sure whether Andrew’s life is truly depressing or not.' -> tori is an unreliable narrator so we experience everything in heightened and/or sensationalised way

'It seems like he has no decent friends or family, but then he meets this girl (typically happy- go-lucky, quirky, and beautiful Manic-Pixie-Dream-Girl Natalie Portman, of course) who teaches him how to live properly again.' -> in solitaire tori is not on good terms with any of her friends and has a fairly hostile relationship with her parents, then she meets michael who appears to be happy-go-lucky (but he's much more complex)

'It’s very obvious that Zach Braff (who wrote, directed, acted, and compiled the soundtrack) created this film about himself. Maybe that’s what made it so real to me.' -> this could be a stretch, but alice has said multiple times that she chanelled the emotions she felt when writing solitaire into the book, and that she found this to be very cathartic- and it's this reason that so many people love solitaire, seeing tori experiece all this comforts them

whether alice did this intentionally or not she's a genius

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“Show what you know about art, and show what you know about yourself. And things you can say. Things you have to say.”

-Quote by me

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Suffer Ou Art

I am in a land that cannot be seen

It’s became my home because of the fire that drew me

I began painting the look of this home into a stone

Never leaving my side…

But for what cost? What price to pay at bay?

I love painting when simple to picture

The feeling of closing my eyes and the colors of my dreams

The way it lies beneath my feet

The smells of the sunflowers

Things like those tell me to paint

But it only so brings such pain…

Certain measures make me wonder, quite effortlessly

If the place I’ve discovered was meant to be an escape then why is it so complicit?

There’s nothing else to it?

Would that be correct, would say so certain?

The fire it gives me reminds me to breathe, to tell my story Yet art from my dreams seems too fragile

My fingertips may take bits of it to create yet the inevitability is burdening

If I am to paint, write, sing, simply create

Oh create

Why do I suffer from eventual disaster?

Art is chaos made from crisis

But somehow I’m human

Made for priss and perfection

That’s what they told of god’s creations

Yet god’s a stranger crafted by biased tellers

Art is selection, to those who have it

It’s a story that I don’t understand

A craft with my own two hands

But to prove that it’s mine is a show that’s never stopping

To endure the suffering was my choosing

But I find it to be a truth that’s comforting

Painting with words for a understanding

My bringing complexion of reflection

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Complex Wayward Collection [!!!FULLY AVAILABLE!!!]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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'Black World' - A poem about addiction

Black eyes in a coldened gaze

Black sky for a freezened state

A black world that isn’t so deep

A messy set of feeling that isn’t thrilling

Touching for that punches my fingers

Running won’t work but a somehow reeks for reason within it

Only to find nothing next minute

There’s no sensibility each time I’m aware

Of how unclear when I touch beyond my repair

My eyes are black as I cannot see myself, oh dear

I feel like I’m trapped in eternal sleep of a disastrous nightmare

I cannot speak of it, I cannot understand it

I only ignore it

Even so it won’t reason with me

As I’m blind when the reek of temptation fills me

I wish at this point for it to go away

For the desires that fuel me, disgusting desires

Eternal sleep of a disastrous nightmare

How can I open my eyes and say truly?

“Temptation is only black, not white”

I try, and try, and try, I try every time to see where myself relies in this world

But it’s still cold and black that I cannot see…but do I wish to move? Do I dare too?

Deep down inside there’s fillings that reside

Loneliness, guilt, shame, a big black depression that fills me with rage

Temptation enables the shame but yet I won’t listen to the me who can see

But for such a person to exist would be too easy not-to miss

Scared for such a person, scared of themself, scared to be clever, scared to be everything

And I’m blinded each time I hurt myself because of it

Each time I dig in and give in to temptation

What a black world that I’ve dug myself in…