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writer ✰ she/her

[candlelightkiss]

ᥫ᭡. about me

she/her, th 19

fandom blog : @downtownfairy

Masterlist ... ꩜

WRITING - whimsical world ✰ heart to heaven ✰

WIPS - the tears we shed in autumn ✰ orchid cove ✰ the seaside manor of wonders ✰

often on this page! - mphfpc (hugh&fiona) pjo (katie&travis) yellowjackets (jackieshauna) hunger games

[fumiko-matsubara]

Dekaranger AU Yadayami Commission for @candlelightkiss 💛🩷

[candlelightkiss]

the first thing i did when i landed was cry. i should’ve saw it coming, when the sensation of spikes tightening my throat encompassed the moment the wheels came to a skittish halt. upon snowy pavement, gushes of air fighting to reach the finish line, i felt my fingertips numb. 

this time, i could not quite find the reason, which agonized me more than it should. i quickly dashed a hand across my eyes and let the voices of my family soothe me into familiarity. but the moment the call was hung, something bursted. 

and i should’ve known, still, this was much deeper than men and melodrama. it was as if entering the gates of the east coast had somehow tampered my open wounds. i was walking back into my box. trapped in sterile white with a companion i’m convinced hates me. in that moment, i wished i had a fast car myself. 

there must be something deeply wrong with me, was my first thought, because it felt so intrinsically correct. unease bit away at my insides, but i slipped into a slumber plagued with thoughts of making it out of here. 

though as my best friend once said, on what felt like a solitude morning when we were thirteen, and what my dad consistently though good-heartedly drills into me nearly every single day; 

patience is a virtue. 

[candlelightkiss]

the old city, which was carved of stone and ivory and promises, elicits a familiar reflex. beckoning were the storefronts etched with intricate patterns, indicative of the stories carried in every pocket. the time of year has rolled around where wounds become plastered with snow. laying eyes upon the castle's tower, a sharp pain inflicted. cold, frosty, and numb, piercing down at the heart.

but an old friend will wrap bandages around the wound. the snow will melt and become one with the blood. the memory that wielded its blade will become just that, no longer the infliction that forces itself onto every shingle of the old city.

[candlelightkiss]

sometimes i wonder if i'm destined to be alone, or am i only trapped in this prison of my own making? a maze of a mind. what really hinders me is myself. but every word holds weight and i weigh it on the scale of my heart. if it doesn't balance, i panic. i can feel its heaviness pulling down on my arteries. i'd grasp at straws to explain that, too. maybe it's my astrological sign or my fate. anything to make it make a little more sense.

i know i am not alone,

i didn't know you enough to love you, though every little thing reminds me of you. constantly i am reminded of you through the romanticized figments i have conjured. god knows you barely knew me. i was always performing, poised on your tightrope. so i must not let you hurt me when we barely knew the other.

the wind brews stronger everyday and i am hoping it carries with me the ache i feel.

[candlelightkiss]

It whisked by. The time that turned to leaves rolling by the soles of my shoes. Too many days than I can count, the mundane routine I’ve come to accept. It’s as if I’ve swallowed the plaster and dust that have been stuck to these walls for decades. The paint, the pins, all of which seemed to cling onto my naked self as well. 

I have never known another. 

And when it comes, where I will not be returning, yet the pictures so printed in my mind. Ingrained like tattoos on the wedges of my flesh and brain. I will remember when I step into another, when I get to know another. 

~ my brief thoughts on graduation after having spent 15 years (my entire academic life) in one school.

[candlelightkiss]

who are your favorite sotr characters? 👀

hi, thank you for this ask!! this may be a basic answer, but i would have to say haymitch and lenore dove. i just adore them. i would also have to say ringina! i loved her so much from the short time we got to know her. and of course, i have a soft spot for all the district 12 tributes, so i would also consider them my favorites. i know i listed so many but i can't possibly just choose one!!!

[ahmadfamily]

Israel continues the massacres in Gaza... 400 souls taken in less than an hour! We are dying before your eyes—please, don’t leave us alone! Save us, do something... protest, donate, participate. I don’t want to die!

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[candlelightkiss]

the seaside manor of wonders: wip intro

"the sea speaks more honestly to those willing to drown."

genre: fantasy, adventure, young adult status: plotting characters | playlist | pinterest

on an island far, far away from the rest of society, an unusual caretaker tends to her special wards. as secluded as they were, people still speculated. they talked about the girl with nails that could extend and retract at her own will. they whispered about the girl who could twist her limbs into grotesque angles and her friend who could freeze anything in his path. they gasped when they hear about the boy who killed his family in a fire of his own making.

their caretaker says she does it for their own good "the outside world is dangerous for folks like us." but the disappearance of whom they believed to be their only protector forces the children to leave the island and confront the monsters by themselves. despite everything the caretaker had promised, things are never as they seem.

or;

the children of the manor are forced to confront the horrors of the society that had ostracized them, as uncovered secrets about their world, their trusted caretaker, and everything they've ever known suggests that not everyone may be as innocent as they present.

[candlelightkiss]

the tears we shed in autumn: characters

"i am out with lanterns looking for myself."

cracks begin to show following the death of a close friend, as six ghost-hunting students navigate grief, love, and jealousy in their own twisted ways.

aka. my wip featuring an obsessive wlw couple, broken found family, boarding school setting, and messy relationships. (detailed character deep-dives coming later!)

katie phan - she doesn't see herself as an artist but aspires to go to art school. however, her family doesn't agree with that career path. she believes that her weakest trait is her cowardice, being rather passive as a person.

evie 'vivi' nakamura - it's easy for her to become so engrossed in something and often loses herself in whatever she is focused on. headstrong and fearless, somewhat reckless.

sofia taylor - spontaneous and full of strange ideas. things always seem to go her way, and even if they don't, it hardly seems like she cares.

andrew 'drew' liang - humorous, witty, and kind. his flaw is his inferiority complex when with his friends. yet he seems to be the only one who thinks they should all get therapy.

rachael lopez - the logical voice of the group. reasonable, patient, and the glue. in secret, she has lots of farfetched daydreams that she’s much too embarrassed to admit.

charlie davis - wants to be the winner of the idgaf war but it's not working, because he is a master of running away from his problems. they always come back to bite him.

terry peters - he has an extremely sensitive heart and loves his friends very much. the most broken when the cracks in their friendship starts to show.

[candlelightkiss]

the tears we shed in autumn: wip intro

"and into the forest i go, to lose my mind and find my soul."

genre: young adult, literary fiction, paranormal status: drafting characters | playlist | pinterest

whitmore academy was a splendor of wonder and unease. katie phan had grown comfortable in this maze, as long as her best friend, vivi nakamura, was beside her. thanks to vivi's friendship with the spontaneous sofia taylor, they joined her ghost-hunting club alongside four other eager students. although it did not last long, the friendship stayed, and katie wished for time to stop.

but seasons change without warning and katie finds herself unable to understand why time marches forward in such aggressive rhythms. was it vivi's new boyfriend? was it the stress of senior year? or was sofia's friendship with vivi getting in her way?

tragedy strikes when sofia unexpectedly passes away. when katie finds herself haunted by her ghost, she is forced to confront her complicated emotions, relationships, and reality. only it all becomes difficult when she herself can't decipher what is real, what to believe, or who to listen to.

or;

cracks begin to show following the death of a close friend, as six ghost-hunting students navigate grief, love, and jealousy in their own twisted ways.

[candlelightkiss]

a katie gardner character study: aka my perception and interpretation of her based on her 5 lines.

"may flowers grow in the saddest parts of you."

daughter of demeter, infj, taurus ✧˖°

katie had always thought of herself as ordinary. nothing less, nothing more. if you were to ask her what she's confident in, she wouldn't be able to tell you off the top of her head. maybe her possession of a green thumb, but that's intuitive for a child of demeter. they weren't meant to be warriors and she had drilled that idea into her head and for the longest time believed her fatal flaw was cowardice. it was actually her self-doubt. lack of self-confidence. not quite inferiority, because she saw herself as capable enough, just nothing special.

for what she believed she did not have, she made up for it through her leadership. she was a natural, and her siblings adored her as their head counselor, but to her, kindness was the bare minimum. you weren't able to live a fulfilling life without a kind heart, first and foremost. so she was always willing to step into everyone's shoes, execute tasks here and there to keep things in order. she has a familial presence and takes on an reliable older sister role to many younger campers. all the while she'd never recognize the discipline and consideration that she always held, tenderness was just second nature to her. (more details under the cut)

a crucial part of her journey is finding her own courage and to not only be a leader to others but yourself, one that tends to your heart. a discovery of what it truly means to be brave, and how the word does not hold the weight of an end-all-be-all definition. moreover, she grows to feel strongly about breaking the stereotype that demeter kids are meant to be weak.

because of her ability to understand and read people well, many younger campers outside her cabin come to her for guidance.

in general, she's a very intuitive person.

despite the confidence she tries to uphold at camp due to being a counselor, she had always been very shy throughout her school years. she chose to become a year-round camper when she was 14.

she tried to keep in touch and stay close with her mortal family, but they don't return the effort. for a large portion of her life, she had believed that it was her destiny to be alone.

her displays of affection are through acts of service and gift giving, particularly handcrafted gifts or homemade treats, but her personal love languages are quality time and words of affirmation.

she's a creative person with many creative outlets that she incorporates into her day to day life; such as doing her hair and decorating her room.

she enjoys the arts; particularly, painting and crafting. there aren't any rules, and she views them as a way for one to keep themself grounded.

the way she dresses herself is largely influenced by bohemian fashion and she prefers to thrift vintage pieces. she also likes to collect jewelry.

in combat, she's most confident with knives. she likes that the target can be kept in close proximity with her.

her favorite bands are fleetwood mac, the corrs, and abba!

she chose to major in zoology due to her love for animals.

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if you've made it this far, thank you for reading my ramblings about my comfort character and my favorite girl <3 will definitely make more posts like this about her in the future!

[candlelightkiss]

when the ship is so niche you don't even have to scroll in the tags that far until you find your own post from months ago

[candlelightkiss]

Only the sky's the limit. I reach my hand out, feel the raindrops on my fingertips. The drizzle that opens up, splits the clouds into two. Soft and fuzzy on bare skin. Damp air tingles the lips, kisses the sidewalks. Nothing will stop me from living.

❤ jackie taylor city girl au

[girlclutch]

the subway by chappell roan reference

[candlelightkiss]

Every inch of this case was consuming me. No, I wouldn't call it a monster. Frankly, I think I enjoy the feeling. For a fraction of my soul to be so engulfed by this very thing? Strangely fulfilling. Before I knew it, the cobblestoned walls and crystalized banisters became a little less clearer day by day.

A blur. I'd look to the browning leaves and catch glimpses of the drying mildew, a sign of the times. A calling from the beyond. My fingers danced with blisters from the pencil's death grip. In the cracks of dawn, I began to see her, I began to hear them, and that's how I knew I was getting close.

[candlelightkiss]

Your lip gloss stain is a work of art, the pomegranate red tints blemished on my fingernails when you pressed our rings to your lips. I wanted that color to be mine. Such a riveting shade it was. If only it could be printed on my lips, painted without fault like it did on you. I long for its taste, strangely tangy but sweet, and its intimidating texture.

I bought you the palette that you so longed for. You told me that shade of maroon would suit me, but I thought its pleasantness would compliment you more. You've left your mark on my stained glass windows. Return here more than I do, I'll still be waiting.

[candlelightkiss]

But please don’t feel dismayed,  tomorrow will bring brighter days.  That’s right, today is not the end.