hi, idk what name i want to use
i go by he/it + questioning neos
when i initially joined the radqueer community, it was because of transIDs
i have never had a solid sense of identity due to severe trauma and transIDs seemed like a good way to figure out who i was
that was 2-3 years ago (i'm 16 almost 17 now)
i still don't have any sense of identity and transIDs only made it worse
when i joined, i already identified as proship/darkship and pro-endo and radinclus and it seemed like a really nice, welcoming community of people who understood me
i was very quickly groomed into identifying as pro-c and supporting abuse
it's taken a lot of time but i've realized that don't want to be that way anymore
i don't want to support harm and evil anymore
now i consider myself: anti-radqueer, anti-transID, anti-c, anti-para, kink-critical, antiship, anti-endo, radinclus-critical
i don't support harassing radqueers, proshippers, endos, etc, i think it's best to just report, block, and move on
the problem is, i still hold a lot of the values and beliefs i internalized so deeply for so long
i genuinely need help getting out of that headspace
i'm scared and confused and i'm hurting and i just need someone to help me out
bweh sorry idk what else to say
