Claire

Hi. My name is Claire. 31 y/o trans woman. She/her pronouns. 19+ only. For more thought out writings by me about game dev and other topics, check out my website. You can also praise me. Or don't.

[chappydev]

About Me

I figured a pinned post could be helpful, so hello. I've been on Tumblr off and on since 2013, though this account is not my first one. I never really got super into it, more occasionally dabbling and then leaving. At various points this blog has been dedicated to different fandoms, even to my aborted attempt at becoming an artist. Now, it's just my stream of consciousness. If you're interested in my more serious writing, you can find that here: https://chapien.net/

My name is Claire. I'm a game developer. I'm polyamorous and married. I'm asexual but not sex-repulsed. I'm a transgender woman who has been on HRT for 10 years. I am almost 30 now, which is scary. And I have OCPD, if that somehow wasn't obvious.

I enjoy the Elder Scrolls, Star Trek, Star Wars, and lots of other silly things. I also enjoy queer theory, Marxist theory, religion, and other serious things.

This is not a kink blog, but I do not shy away from at least being adjacent to such topics, and I am not interested in self-censoring, so MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. If you are a minor I will tell you to do your homework and then block you. This is your only warning.

I do not know what pro or anti ship means, and at this point, I don't really care and will largely ignore posts about this. Don't drag me into discourse. I will just be confused.

The following sideblogs are mine. Most writings I do here will probably be reblogged here for the sake of reach, but it's a matter of staying organized, IMO.

@archivist-of-lorkhaj - My TES fan writing sideblog. I will post TES stuff on my main blog, but I'll put my weird apocryphal writings here.

@feralchappydev - My more untethered, uncensored blog. I'll post erotica or lewd-adjacent things here. I'll also interact with lewd blogs through here, just to keep this blog somewhat clean.

This is a place for my less serious side. If you want to see me do more serious things, you can check out my custom link tree.

That about covers it.

[lemonsweatshirt]

Me being an absolute menace to these poor guys.

[chappydev]

People with OCD stop demonizing OCPD as "OCD but you hurt others instead of yourself" challenge (impossible)

I have both OCD and OCPD and it's so harmful to see how ppwOCD can treat OCPD, almost like it's the evil twin or something. The struggles are different but they are struggles.

Not to mention the high comorbidity rate. Someone who has both OCD and OCPD is most likely reading your post!

[krubear]

genuinely what the fuck are these guys doing

bardin is on my island too hes just being a loner and hasn't made friends w any of them like wtf

[depsidase]

[mortimermcmirestinks]

the best kind of tng scene

[chappydev]

On one hand, glad to see you around. On the other, sorry to hear about the OCD flare-up you've been dealing with.

Hey, thank you! Yeah it's a lot to deal with. The situation in the world is really triggering things in me, as i'm sure many can relate

[chappydev]

it will never not be funny that ERP means something completely different in the OCD community than it does in the RP community

[chappydev]

i've been relapsing into my OCD compulsions again and it fucking sucks. idk why but all my methods aren't working anymore. i know that the last thing i should be doing is indulging the compulsions, it just makes it worse, but i find myself snorting and touching my stomach and checking doors repeatedly, after nearly a year of being more or less clean

just, fuck it sucks

[dragongirlbunny]

the TSA's dick detector is the epitome of security theater. how many times have you ACTUALLY caught a woman trying to smuggle a small bomb in her panties

[dragongirlbunny]

i mean average sized bomb

[my-dailydreams]

[hunter-rodrigez]

Yeah, because most of the thing is in colors she can't fucking see

[nutsacktorturer]

it is still beautiful through her eyes she just doesn’t care 💕

[afflatuslux]

Why, why must "perfectionist" be explicitly named in the OCPD criteria. There's quite literally nothing more rage-inducing that you could mention, let alone label me as.

[chappydev]

I agree it's rather dismissive but reading your tags made me, fellow OCPDer, kind of laugh a little. The whole "I'm not a perfectionist you just have low standards" is a thing I do constantly rofl.

Regardless, I see perfectionism as a shorthand for "unreasonably/inflexibly high standards" and while sometimes high standards are good, we (ppwOCPD) do take it too far more often than those without.

[afflatuslux]

Why, why must "perfectionist" be explicitly named in the OCPD criteria. There's quite literally nothing more rage-inducing that you could mention, let alone label me as.

[skrankku]

Quark and Odo during their mountain hike mental breakdown:

Garak during any given point in the show:

Worf on vacation:

[idonotbitemythumbatyou]

Still devastated we never got to see Worf in the speedo.

[cognitohazardous]

life back then mustv been crazy people just thought whatever

[evilscientist3]

The experiment was crushing a bean and saying it smelled like cum afterward btw

[byjove]

The thing about growing up with undiagnosed autism is that you’re a bad kid. And you don’t know how to stop being a bad kid. But you’re pedantic, you hate hugs, you’d rather be alone than attend a family gathering, you play by yourself instead of with friends or family, you make mealtime impossible, you can’t even look your parents in the face, you lie to get out of going to school and when you’re there you complete your assignments correctly but in a way that is somehow inherently wrong. You’re wrong. There is something wrong with you and you can’t identify it or fix it. You can’t begin to explain it. You pull for justifications and apologies. You were a bad kid and there was nothing you could do to be better.

[chappydev]

if you're in Washington state, vote and mail in your ballot by August 5th!