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I will no longer be writing for the COD fandom. This blog will remain more as an archive than an active blog. Please DO NOT continue any unfinished works or upload them AI to finish them
-18+
-My writing is about 50% dark; I try to tag thoughtfully, but please reach out if you feel something is tagged incorrectly or not well enough
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(Master list of Tumblr fics below cut; dates in mm/dd/yy format)
One-Shots
"You tricked me" prompt for Soap
Demon!Price
Unexpected Husband John Price
Neighbor!Johnny ; part 2
Crappy Alpha BF gets dunked on (1/30/24)
Hybrid au (Ragdoll!Reader); Part 2 (3/18/24)
Commission: Lifeguard AU (2/26/24)
Commission: Guilty by Association (4/24/24)
Squeeze Me, I Squeak (AO3 Crosspost)
Squeak 'Em If You Got 'Em (AO3 Crosspost)
Oh, Witchfinder... (AO3 Crosspost)
хозяин (9/6/24)
Unfamiliar Nobody (9/9/24)
Carrion ; Part 2 (3/24/25)
Commission: Bastard's Bishop (1/3/25)
Unfinished
Childhood Friend Simon (update 12/21/23)
Gentle Chokeholds - 1/8/24
From SpecGru With Love - 9/23/24
(Re)organized Crime - 7/31/24
Commandments for Nobody - 2/18/24
Worse Natures, Better Impulses (mean simon)- 8/6/24
Fields of Elation - 5/20/24
Mister(s) Steal Your Girl - 7/17/24
In Love With a Fever - 8/2/24
Men At Work - 11/14/24
Scottish Cabin in the Woods - 4/4/24
Heaven is Here (If You Want It) - 10/5/24
Operator: Saint - 4/1/25
Completed
Woof Woof, Johnny!
Keeper/Kept AU
Obsessive!Johnny
Bodyguard!Gaz
Greater Bad (aka: Gov Asset Soap)
Dividers on all masterlists come from @cafekitsune
Hi everyone! It's been a long time, but unfortunately this isn't the return to fandom I posted about a while ago. I explain the situation a bit below - but while I don't (and won't) go into detail about what happened, I do mention police/gun violence. TLDR at the end.
A few months ago, one of my family members narrowly survived being shot by boarder control. She's no longer in the immediate danger zone, but the nature of the wounds were extremely severe and will impair her for the rest of her life.
I've been processing, grieving, and taking care of my family and myself as much as possible. With her making progress in her recovery, I feel like I'm in a place to interact with social communities again.
I explain the situation because I will no longer be writing for COD or interacting with COD content. I have complex feelings about everything and at this point, it causes me more distress than anything.
I am beyond grateful for everyone I've met and interacted with in the COD fandom. I have truly enjoyed writing for this fandom, and growing as a writer. Everyone's comments, fanart, reblogs, messages, and asks were a delight and will always hold a place in my heart.
What does this mean for the future?
I am going to continue writing, my focus is branching towards other fandoms and more original work.
This blog is going to remain up with all its content, but I will not be updating it, reblogging to it, or answering asks. I know there are several stories that have been left unfinished, and I know that's disappointing. Please do not try to continue them or upload them to any AI to finish them. I'd like them to just remain as they are.
If you've made it this far, thank you for reading and for all the love and support during my stint in the COD fandom. I hope I get to see you guys on the next project <3
TL;DR: I am not writing for COD anymore. This blog will remain up but inactive. Please do not try to continue any of my stories or upload them to AI to finish them.
big fan of when a character metaphorically sweeps something under the rug, but you can feel them flinch every time they walk over it and feel the crumbs beneath their feet
I think I am officially Fandom Old. I am so worn out from the arguments on who's the top or the bottom (who cares), what is allowed to be written (anything you want, bejeebus), what is Problematic (I know, just tag it), what other people Should Do (they Should live their lives free of judgment). There isn't a Right Way to do things. Tag your stuff appropriately, don't read stuff you don't want to read, and leave other people (me) alone.
There is nothing quite like the freedom of having gone through all of the Discourse and come out the other side into the promised land of Not Giving A Fuck.
its a cliche but im a slut for when a character is introduced as super chill and goofy and then you later find out theyre chill and goofy because theyre too powerful to be touched. the level 100 wizard whos already figured out everything and is just vibing now. big fan.
takes you by the hand. please please please if you're stuck on your WIP or you can't figure out how to progress the scene PLEASE skip ahead. skip a few lines ahead. skip until the next Thing you can think of happens. skip to it skip to it skip to it. you may uncover what you were missing in the midst of your next scenes and you may discover that just transitioning straight to Next Part works flawlessly. skip it. don't sink. skip.
if you're stuck writing something, it's a good practice to ask "okay, why am I stuck? what am I stuck on?" because sometimes the answer is "i don't know what happens next", to which you choose a direction and commit to the bit, and sometimes the answer is "i don't want to write the beginning", to which the answer is even simpler: don't write the beginning
no lie this is how I’ve written the best and longest fics. Went from painful jagged 1k chapters to blinking and finding myself 5k deep on something *I THE WRITER* enjoy reading later. Get stuck? Skip ahead. Write the next bit. Fill it in on the next read. Or don’t! Who the fuck cares!!!!
things some people, especially people who are new to ao3 or fandom/fanfic space as a whole, seem to not understand:
archive of our own is an archive. not a social media.
archive of our own was built with the stance that there would be no censorship, because other platforms already had censorship where some things that were taboo were reported/removed. ao3 was built with the purpose that all of these works, that were not allowed on other platforms, would be allowed on ao3.
the archive will house anything that’s considered fanworks. so no, you cannot report this fic because it portrays in explicit details taboo topics about xyz, you cannot report that fic because it romanticizes and glorifies xyz. ao3 will not remove any of those fics, because whether or not you like it, those fics do not go against ao3’s terms of service.
“but these things are not allowed on other platforms” that’s precisely why ao3 was created, to house and give a platform to these things that were censored/banned/removed from other platforms.
if you have a problem with this, you can use other platforms to post and read fanfics
but you should also know that ao3 by far has the best tagging system, meaning you won’t get anything like what ao3 provides on other platforms, meaning it may be a pain in the ass for you to find a fic with the prompts and pairing you’re looking for, meaning you may still get jump scared by things that are triggering to you half way through your reading of what you thought was an innocent fic. because other platforms don’t have tagging systems, where you can find and avoid any character/pairing/tag as you please, like ao3.
hi guys! discord is doing a survey on how people would like ai to be integrated into discord. take it and say fuck no to every question. when you get to "in general, how do you feel about discord inegrating ai features?", respond that you would actively get everyone you know off of discord and wouldn't pay for nitro or other shop items if they added ai features.
reading het romance novels is so fucking goofy because the leads will be like "we shouldn't have sex yet... the time isn't right... it would be Wrong" but then they'll go right back to sucking/eating/fingering/ jerking each other to completion and still be like. "wow good thing we haven't had sex yet we're being so responsible :)" how do these people Live like this
this post is almost a year old and has been very low drama all things considered, but the number of people who have felt the need to explain that sex where a penis enters a vagina is ✨ special✨ because it could result in pregnancy are so funny. yeah man I have a uterus, I know how that works. what part of that negates that reciprocal oral is also sex.