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《he/him》 《getting my feelings out》 《dms are open, please reach out if you need someone to talk to》

[psychosoup]

Im craving the feeling of hunger right now. I want to feel thin and small and clean again, I just want to starve

[molsno]

"it's the law" well the law should kill itself

[chevys-bitch-fest]

Did anyone else have some really bad sexual abuse as a kid and now you can't even count how many times you've been sexualy harassed/ touched without consent in adulthood because "at least its not as bad as when I was 8"

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There's a difference between "I get along better with guys" girlies and "I hate girls" girlies. If you're the second, get over yourself and Grow. Up. I'm sorry that people in your life made you feel like you needed to compete with every single other girl in order to succeed, but we're past that now. Fix your mindset.

[chevys-bitch-fest]

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

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What's the point

[tearfulangel]

[mycptsdstory]

Yup

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Are anyone else's triggers SUPER unpredictable? Like one day I get through my parents blowing up my phone trying to call me, my in-laws fighting, getting yelled at by someone (etc.) and I'm totally fine. And then the next day something really small happens, like we're out of something and I have to go to the store, or my girlfriend says something in a wierd tone. And THAT shit gets me. I'm talking really really small dumb stuff has me completely drained, back pain, and emotional flashbacks etc. *shrugs* wack

[rottingtrouble-child]

being a csa survivor in public like “there’s an extremely high chance one of these people here sexually abused a child and you’d never know.”

[acoolsuggestion]

honestly the best feeling ever is realizing you’re not sad anymore over something you thought you would never get over

[chevys-bitch-fest]

How to journal when you have childhood trauma and you're on the edge of a breakdown:

Make yourself feel safe. Put on some chill music, change into comfortable clothes, make some tea, ect. The more comfortable you are, the easier this will be.

Write down the symptoms you are feeling. Divide them into emotional feelings (i feel afraid, i feel like there's too much to do) and physical feelings (my chest feels tight, my lower back hurts).

Write down 3-4 big stressors that are making you feel this way right now. It might be something like: I'm afraid I might lose my job, I feel bad because my friend is mad at me, I'm scared to go to my doctor's appointment.

Identify when this fear or stressor really started. For example, maybe you're afraid to go to your doctor's appointment because you had a bad experience at the doctor's when you were 8. Write an approximate age next to your stressors.

Write a short letter to yourself from each age that you wrote down. Make sure your inner child feels safe and heard. Tell them that this time is different, and thank them for being so brave.

This may not work for everyone, but it's a system I came up with that has been very beneficial for me. Remember to take your time and be gentle with yourself. I wish you the best on your healing journey 🤍🧿

[titsay]

[desultory-suggestions]

Due to personal reasons, I’ll be growing as a person and learning to love myself.

[chevys-bitch-fest]

Reblog with weird things you're afraid of because you had strict/ abusive parents:

I'll start:

Having my door closed or locked

Leaving dishes in the sink even though its my own apartment and its ok if I get them later

Taking a sick day

Doing arts and crafts and accidentally leaving something out when I'm done

Not having my laundry in the right place

Having too many lgbt friends (what if i absorb the gay😢)

Clearing my search history constantly so nobody sees it

Spending time playing video games/ spending time on my phone

Having to ask to stop and use the bathroom on a road trip

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Haw are you doing?

Hopfully doing well! 🤗

Hey! Thank you for asking. I know I rant a lot on here, but I'm doing pretty good! I'm working a job that I really like, and even though I have my low points, I feel like I'm healing. I'm scrambling to get dental insurance right now because I don't have much money, but I have a sore tooth that I need to get checked out. I have always been afraid of the dentist because who isn't, but I'm trying to keep a positive attitude and get something figured out.

I hope you are well too! Thanks friend!💜