fuck!

walking through the clouds with a circus mind

[circushead]

anyways i kind of miss my old headmates. i miss having friends in my head.

i used to have an entire lesbian couple up here. i miss them :(

[circushead]

so about that……

im back up to 3 headmates other than myself.

welcome back elliott and maxwell, welcome to the club jax. sorry that you got stuck in this mess, at least you can smoke weed now though.

[circushead]

anyways i kind of miss my old headmates. i miss having friends in my head.

i used to have an entire lesbian couple up here. i miss them :(

[circushead]

what is UP fucks! im back

[queerautism]

Something I've noticed a lot with syscourse is that a lot of the people who are anti-endo assume that everyone who is pro-endo is endogenic themselves. I remember this one time where I remember a sysmed being confused when finding out that someone that was pro-endo was traumagenic, after previously assuming that they were endogenic. They just seemed completely flabbergasted that someone who's traumagenic thought that endogenics are real systems. I feel like this fact on its own is like... very telling, of the types of people that end up being sysmeds lmfao.

They use endo as "anyone who disagrees with me" and "anyone who I think is a faker"

[splinteredwings]

i wish i could be sick forever so someone would always take care of me

[martianmoonboy]

I found a book that could be really helpful for those of us with DPD (and that's already very relateable). It's called Healthy Dependency and is written from the perspective that some dependence on people is normal and necessary (so it isn't forcing us to completely go against our natures). I'm already a chapter in and seeing where my overdependence has become an issue (I'm off the chart they have you score yourself on... why does my therapist think I'm high-functioning?). I think it could be helpful for people with avoidant attachment to use as well when looking to connect with people (the description of destructive detachment actually sounds like aspd, npd, and avpd (but mostly aspd bc of my experience with people who have that)).

[martianmoonboy]

I wanna talk about what it's like having DPD episodes.

I want to bring awareness to the fact that DPD episodes are a thing, to help people understand some of our struggles and stop judging us for our dependent traits.

DPD episodes occur when separation anxiety becomes too overwhelming to deal with.

They involve strong feelings of emotional pain due to physical separation from your depended (the inclusive term used for the person that you are emotionally dependent on, since it could be a friend, partner, therapist, etc).

In my case, my depended is my life partner, and when I'm unable to see them for a while, I begin to feel the void where they are physically absent for a little while before I miss them too much and have a meltdown.

There is a deep pain that I feel from it, as well as a longing for their presence, and it affects my ability to sleep and my ability to focus on my tasks.

DPD is a serious mental health issue, and it is understudied due to it being rare, and there are a host of negative stereotypes despite this. It is painful to even know how to reach out for fear of judgment from people who just don't understand it (and thank whatever deity is out there for my partner's compassion and understanding about my emotions).

Please stop judging people with DPD and with DPD traits simply for struggling with dependency; we are hurting. Communicate with us and don't pretend to be okay with our behavior if you aren't. That will only break us when you eventually ditch us.

[circushead]

so my depended needed to leave the house for a few hours and im unable to come with them this time but my dpd is overwhelmingly intense today so i was nearing tears at the thought of them leaving me behind so they gave me their steering wheel buddy that they always keep in their car w them to help me cope until they come back 🥺🥺

my brain may be struggling a lot today but my partner is amazing and i love them so much

[s4dbunn1]

I hate realizing that this is it. this is life. I only get one chance and I’m spending it crying over food, hurting myself and unable to get out of bed some days.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Sometimes you genuinely are too fatigued, in too much emotional or physical pain, too anxious, too overwhelmed or too burned out to do a certain thing - and you don’t have to hate yourself for that! You’re allowed to respect your mental and physical limits even when they’re inconvenient.

[circushead]

unless ofc you’re me and quite literally have No Choice 🤪✌️

[dankmemeuniversity]

[diseasedcadaver]

@funnier-as-a-system

[funnier-as-a-system]

[ID: a tweet by daniel gore that reads: there has been a british voice in my head saying "bit sad innit" for the past week and a half. / End ID]

[estravenai]

[hahaimnottraumatised]

someone: why are you acting so happy/sad/depressed/angry all of a sudden??

me: sir, i have a mood disorder

[kpw13]

This is a depiction of my recent struggle with psychotic mania. During the worst episode of my life I destroyed my huge collection of beloved plants in a frenzy. this series is attempting to depict the tipping point from euphoric mania into psychosis. I have bipolar 1 and I am an artist, with this work I attempted to depict my own struggle with this illness and its aftermath.

I would love to hear your feedback!

love Cole

[plural-culture-is]

plural culture is a new headmate forming, and the host, who’s a name collector, immediately stealing their name /lh

[circushead]

alternatively, plural culture is the host, a name collector, choosing a new name and a new alter steals it

[i-smell-ratz-deactivated2022060]

Collection of my favourite educational BPD videos

-What it's like to live with borderline personality disorder (BPD)

-3 ways the family affects Borderline personality disorder (& vice versa)

-Age regression, BPD, and what to do about it

-What we get wrong about BPD

-Pete Davidson on Borderline personality disorder and mental health

-what is borderline personality disorder

-the 4 types of BPD

-how to spot the traits of BPD

-how to spot "splitting" in BPD

-BPD sorting fact from fiction

-what it's like to get a BPD diagnosis

Feel free to add more if you would like

[turing-tested]

stop treating OSDD1A as an afterthought just because you don't think it's the interesting one bc someone with it doesn't have differentiated alters