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TRIGGER WARNING: This post resents itself for being right

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I HATE THIS POEM

I hate this poem

it reminds me of heartache

Reminds me of bleeding your words

into a void

that never writes back

Reminds me

how effort feels pointless

until one day it doesn’t

and by then

you’re too tired to care

I hate this post

It reminds me

of when I believed

the world rewards good hearts

and clean intentions

It does not

It rewards timing

confidence

noise

and the ability

to not give a damn

when it matters most

I hate this poem

because it remembers things

I tried to bury

It remembers you

Not the version that left

but the version that stayed

in my head

long after reality moved on

It reminds me

of what I lost

of what I had

of what I almost held onto

until my own hands

let it slip

trying to hold it too carefully

I hate this poem

because it tells the truth

about who I was

Polite

measured

eager to please

trying to be perfect

like perfection was a key

to something that never locked

Trying to say the right thing

at the right time

in the right tone

While someone louder

someone messier

someone less careful

walked in

and took the moment

like it belonged to them

I hate this poem

because it knows

that version of me

lost

And not in some heroic way

not in some tragic sacrifice

Just quietly

predictably

inevitably

Lost

Because the world

does not pause

to reward restraint

It does not clap

for almost

It does not remember

what you meant to say

I hate this poem

because it reminds me

that being good

was never the same

as being chosen

And that’s the part

that doesn’t heal

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Reblog if you’ve ever hated something because it was true or if being good didn’t get you picked

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loveisdumb

HELLRAISER III: HELL ON EARTH (1992) dir. anthony hickox

#hellraiser #hellraiser 3 #pinhead #horrorgifs #classic horror #spiritual warfare is real reminder #lunatic mumbles #cleric thoughts #ehehe there he is also

lumberjackloverboy-moved

for my fellow psychotics who struggle with thinking someone is in their house, a method I’ve found that really works are these guys:

i put them on my front door and anytime it opens they ring. that way if i think someone has broken in or i see someone who isn’t there i can think back to if the bells have rung, and if they haven’t i can assure myself it’s not real. obviously it’s not fool proof, like if you are prone to auditory hallucinations, but it has really helped me calm down in time to avoid major psychotic breaks. it’s a real lifesaver

nonpsychotics encouraged to rb

#mental illness #psychotic tips #schizophrenia #helpful!#may the psychosis never adapt the exact chime of those bells #reality check #add to the toolbox

derpy-the-tiger

YOR I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GIRL!!!!

She openly says what she wants

She does it calmly

She does it without any kicking involved

Also she decided to try without more alcohol

#spy x family #sxf #sxf spoilers #yor forger #yor briar #adored this part too!#had to track down Hubby to show him #relatable

diserbillyti

A thing people will do to you when you're schizophrenic and stable is, they will mention embarrassing shit you did when you were in psychosis as if you're going to look back on it and laugh with them

and y'know OK yes sometimes looking back on a delusion or whatever is actually kind of funny and cathartic for some people

but when the nondisabled friend initiates this, it feels like, "hey do you remember that time you were more terrified and hopeless than you've ever been before or since in your whole life? haha pretty crazy!"

#schizophrenia #actually schizophrenic #mental illness #instant walls spring back up for me when this happens #ahaha go fuck yourself #glad my terror is your humor #may those who do this learn to preface #hey are you up to talking about what happen *when*#the paranoia howls #lunatic mumbles

deathtofun

I told a guy his total was 13.21 and he said “wish it were that year, could actually get some good music on the radio”

regularlesbian

breaking news from the AP, our boys on the front have just sacked constantinople. take that, heretics. coming up next are the soothing lute dirges of bing crosby

villainessbian

*screams of a witch burning at the stake*

THOU ART CURRENTLY LISTENING TO

*Gregorian chanting*

13.21

*leper bell ringing*

HIGH MEDIAEVAL FM

*recording of John Lackland sobbing as he signs the Magna Carta*

WHENCE COMETH NAUGHT BUT LITURGIES

LITURGIES

AND MORE LITURGIES

*Templar knights praying out loud*

THIS ISN’T THY GRANDMOTHERES STATION

*Imagine Dragons - Radioactive starts playing*

pocketss

Ummm she's literally sensitive :/

Praise God ^_^

copperbooms

when did tumblr collectively decide not to use punctuation like when did this happen why is this a thing

rodimuss

it just looks so smooth I mean look at this sentence flow like a jungle river

prismatic-bell

ACTUALLY

This is really exciting, linguistically speaking.

Because it’s not true that Tumblr never uses punctuation. But it is true that lack of punctuation has become, itself, a form of punctuation. On Tumblr the lack of punctuation in multisentence-long posts creates the function of rhetorical speech, or speech that is not intended to have an answer, usually in the form of a question. Consider the following two potential posts. Each individual line should be taken as a post:

ugh is there any particular reason people at work have to take these massive handfuls of sauce packets they know they’re not going to use like god put that back we have to pay for that stuff

Ugh. Is there any particular reason people at work have to take these massive handfuls of sauce packets they know they’re not going to use? Like god, put that back. We have to pay for that stuff.

In your head, those two potential posts sound totally different. In the first one I’m ranting about work, and this requires no answer. The second may actually engage you to give an answer about hoarding sauce packets. And if you answer the first post, you will likely do so in the same style.

Here’s what makes this exciting: the English language has no actual punctuation for rhetorical speech–that is, there are no special marks that specifically indicate “this speech is in the abstract, and requires no answer.” Not only that, it never has. The first written record of English (actually proto-English, predating even Old English) dates to the 400s CE, so we’re talking about 1600 years of having absolutely no marker whatsoever for rhetorical speech.

A group of teens and young adults on a blogging website literally reshaped a deficit a millennium and a half old in our language to fit their language needs. More! This group has agreed on a more or less universal standard for these new rules, which fits the definition of “language.” Which is to say Tumblr English is its own actual, real, separate dialect of the English language, and because it is spoken by people worldwide who have introduced concepts from their own languages into it, it may qualify as a written form of pidgin.

Tumblr English should literally be treated as its own language, because it does not follow the rules of any form of formal written English, and yet it does have its own consistent internal rules. If you don’t think that’s cool as fuck then I don’t even know what to tell you.

sussexbound

i love this post

willowgrovecreates

This is super cool! Also idk if this has any relevance whatsoever but if you wanna have an argument inside one tag you cannot have commas in it so that’s a real existing constraint that has forced tumblrites to construct commaless sentences and perhaps this has helped in adopting the custom into posts as well ok I have no idea if this is what’s happened just I think it’s a reasonable assumption there might be a connection

sanerontheinside

^this.

The tags are absolutely a factor. You want someone to take a breath in the middle of a sentence, you start a new tag. You want to have, as seen here, this removable piece between commas (does it have a name?) - you have 5 tags in this sentence alone. And sometimes you just

pause in the middle of a sentence…

and let your voice

trail away

obaewankenope

look at all you precious brilliant nerds nerding about language you make me so fucking happy omg

language is this constantly evolving thing tbh, it doesn’t remain the same unless it’s dead and the people who used it gone so seeing the evolution of the language used on tumblr is literally so fucking amazing i want to cry with joy at it

because we also add in words from other languages, or make entirely new words up as additional terms to denote something (see ‘tol’ and ‘smol’ in relation to ‘tall’ and ‘small’) and this is constant. we are doing this daily without any sort of breathing space because there’s millions of us on this hellsite and we are constantly talking and so the language changes day-by-day until we have general, universal rules for what to do in a post, what to add in our tags, how to add it, why we add it, what we mean by it

we’ve created a language in the same way our ancestors all did: by building on the ones that came before and changing them to suit our needs and our system

and that’s fucking awesome okay

awesome

adora-korra

I love this so much and language is so great and I’ve noticed the lack of punctuation thing recently, even on twitter, and used it for like a specific kind of rhetorical effect. idk it’s so fun I fucking love linguistics and the evolution of language

elenorasweet

I also loved that the following one-word responses all sound drastically different out loud and showcase different reactions:

What?

What.

what

dat-physics-gal

wat

dat-physics-gal

bringing this old ass post back actually

can we talk about the culture of tumblr and how it meshes with the dialect on here?

this is the committing to the bit webbed site, and we have got a specific way to express rethorical speech. that just. developed on here. like hold on a second am i the only one who sees the connection? and if not, what else is there?

this is also, coincidentally, the vagueposting site. and there are such obscure references that we just use in our vernacular, because?? we just do? it’s like normal on here? sometimes its to the point that it feels like we’re actually speaking Tamarian. we reference iconic posts to evoke moods, instead of using regular prose. the children’s hospital is for people overgeneralizing and ignoring context. it is also when people use a little too much red or there’s blood. we ask about the attendance to the devil’s sacrament to call out hypocrisy. we use hyperaggressive or cruel responses as compliments, like when we need to study someone in a lab, or rip someones work apart with our teeth.

Okay, but seriously, any linguists who have an idea where any of this comes from, please infodump about it i beg you. This is all deeply fascinating for me to think about, but unfortunately not my area of expertise.

disparatemind

THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE POSTS EVER AND THE OG POST HAS FINALLY CROSSED MY DASH WITH AMAZING ADDITIONS

ur-daily-inspiration

#Bob Ross #beautiful treasure of a man #weirdness #quality check #beauty in painting #feel good #serotonin boost #this brings joy

aflo

Blocked by mr and mrs freaky deaky doo... becomes old and withers away

pumpkinspice-prouvaire

“I could fix him” “I could make him worse” well I could give him two silver candlesticks to help him become an honest man and send him on a path to redemption

#ha!#les miserables #solid laugh #ya got me #book nook

venustapolis

Venus Abandoned (Arnold Böcklin, 1860)

#painting #Arnold Böcklin #venus abandoned #even the divine #sidelined #forgotten #heart pain #lunatic mumbles

gatheringbones

tbh a lot of my advice boils down to “hey you know that terrible horrible looming thing you’re doing your best to avoid and distract and escape as much as possible but no matter what you do it just keeps looming and looming and ruining your life”

“just, fuckign, run straight at it screaming.”