An Abundance Of Maidens

Panacea | She/Her | Into whatever my partners have going on

[crow-keys]

Short comic where Jax takes a nap :)

[demilypyro]

Wanderstop video good.

thanks

I thought I'd feel happier that it's being received well but it kinda just feels like nothing

[demilypyro]

well yeah. i was pretty nervous about it honestly

[demilypyro]

[mushruumtea]

Enjoy some cute Rocky Animation snippets :)

[stuckinapril]

[doctor-nu]

[userfish]

[thatlavendergremlin]

Galaxies are yurinating...

[spotforme]

don't say it like that

[shut-up-jab]

with the context of Jax being canonically transfem the visit to the digital lake hits different.

miserable, sitting off to the side instead of getting a Marketable Summer Outfit™ from Caine's changing booth and joining in on the fun. the argument with Pomni at the end of the gun episode is probably still on her mind, but as a trans woman, i can attest to how even the idea of going to the beach can evoke dysphoria.

also telling that this is where we get this line from Jax:

[cutecipher]

99% of users on tumblr are some sort of gay as fuck animal

[targetedknowledge]

[thethirdromana]

Putting the term "Catholic guilt" on a high shelf where fandom can't reach it until everyone learns how to identify characters who are very very clearly coded as Protestant.

[queer-crows-nightmare]

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

does anyone know how to talk to girls

[yarrow-heather-and-hollyhock]

I love this little bit by Cathon

[mousidy]

jax died before she could come out, and she died before she could become a better person and make any kind of amends with the people she hurt. I don't think the story was written that way by accident

[mousidy]

she's horribly repressed and comes from horrible circumstances including homelessness. she also pushed away every hand extended to her and every chance she could have taken to get better. there were a million better decisions she could have made and she did not make them, and she caused an incredible amount of harm along the way. and still the story wants us to believe her worthy of being understood and loved

[mousidy]

to come out would be to embody herself, to view herself as a real person, to start to leave the haze of dissociation that allows her to think of herself and everyone else as cartoon archetypes in a false world where nothing matters

she's desperate to stay in this world that she sees as false, where she's a funny cartoon character and she can still brush off the pain she causes as silly cartoon antics

it's exactly this dissociation that allows her not to take her own pain or the pain of others seriously. it was what ultimately led to her death. a jax that cannot come out is also a jax that cannot make amends

[mousidy]

something I love about a tragic story, where a character fails to complete the arc that might have satisfied us as the audience, is that it asks us what led to the tragedy

the despair it leaves us with, the satisfaction it denies us, leaves us to yearn for things to have turned out differently. it leaves us thinking about what could have been done, what decisions could have been made, what different circumstances could have prevented the tragedy? dissatisfaction drives us to act

you're not supposed to be satisfied when she dies

[mousidy]

I love, by the way, the matter-of-fact cut from her walking away to her already being gone. like many tragedies we experience in our lives, the news comes to us unceremoniously, undramatically, flatly. it arrives well after the moment where we could have been there. in one quiet moment the world shifts underneath our feet. at first it feels like nothing at all until the information percolates through us, manifesting first as a dull ache that feels inadequately small and insignificant

we don't get to ask "what could I have done if I were there," we can only ask "what could I have done before it got this bad?"

[contemptible-scoundrel]

my cursed sword doesn't even tell me to kill people anymore it keeps begging me to put on a skirt and tights

[wayfire-official]

Sex should have a secondary gameplay loop where you build bases, manage resources, and expand your territory

[gorbling]

Im enjoying the longevity of tumblrs recontextualization style of humor. a seemingly innocuous post followed by like "posts that a gnome would make" or like "are you a phone"

[gorbling]

[hapalopus]

[hapalopus]

More from the notes:

[vexwerewolf]

I love this post

[karifaevt]

The horse thinks as it scratches an itch

[spicymancer]

[scoutsmoocrew]

This person needs to be arrested im going to cry

[sapper-in-the-wire-old]

How do you go through all the effort of setting up a sous vide to do this????

[swagforbirds]

never tell me that magic isnt real ever again when this is clear evidence of a person transmogrifing Meat into Wood

[thyrell]

i can transmogrify meat into wood by lookin at pictures of titties if ya get what im sayin

[weaselle]

hey, we all love tiddies here but this person has perpetrated a crime against nature and we need you stay focused