Coolpokerfoxxx

I'm cool!!! I say as I gnaw at my self constructed enclosure

[coolpokerfox]

I tried making an intro to pin to my blog but it keeps saying something goofed and I'm sick of it. So just believe I'm a very cool teenage person, a christian.....ps: Jesus loves you, like actually ✨ tyyy.

[coolpokerfox]

I can't even cry and it hurts. I feel like I can't cry because even if I try, I'm overly conscious that I'm crying, and for some reason I have internalized that crying is stupid so now I can't let myself cry, and crying is now a luxury, and all my multiple complex thoughts have piled up inside me and I can't express them, and though writing is a good outlet to save me, I can't write because I'm very lazy and my handwriting is also bad, and writing is just tiring because I think my mind moves faster than my hands so like what's the point, I'd just write and end up with squiggles and long lines of illegible words, the point is, I can't write, but also that's what I'm doing right now, but it's on my phone and that's different. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be without this rectangular object called a phone.

[coolpokerfox]

I feel very bad. One thing the people around me, at least those that ask me know that I'm never okay. There is no single day on God's green earth that I am ever okay. How do people do it?, enjoy life?. I don't know, I feel like ripping my insides out at the moment, like ripping out the bad feeling and discomfort inside me. I'm not depressed that's for sure, I study psychology so at least I know that much, but like I'm genuinely tired. I feel like switching bodies with someone else and living their life, maybe that'd be better. But also, that's impossible and I cannot begin to talk about why that'd be a bad idea. Anyways I'm genuinely sick and tired. I have now decided that I will type out all my problems and issues here in a documentary sort of way in hopes that if I give it time and come back to read it, maybe things would change?, if not at least it's documented idk. Sorry to anyone that might read this or any more of the series of my life problems I will be starting, or I'm not even sorry sef idk ugh.

[stephexmachina]

real talk tho ive seen ppl talk abt how long hair on men isn't intrinsically feminine & assuming so is racist can we get the same convo going for Black women w short hair can we start talking abt how short hair isn't intrinsically masculine or is that a step too far

[deltenner]

Tag game: languages!

I am bored so I’m starting a tag game!

what languages do you speak? Do you have just one first language/language spoken when you were little? Multiple? Do you still speak them? How about ones you learned later? Are you fluent? that sort of thing

I’ll start! My first language is English (specifically American English lol) but I’ve been learning Spanish for five years and counting and I consider myself mostly fluent (not native level by any means but I can read/listen/write/speak well enough, and my abilities there aren’t much worse than in English, though my vocabulary is definitely less robust). I know a bit of French from my mom and middle school, and can figure some other things out à la Spanish. I can also swear in six languages (I don’t but I could lol)

okay that’s all! Tagging All The People to start this off!

(As always if you want to be removed from the tag game master list please lmk I don’t want to annoy ppl lol)

@genderless-spiderlily @mekayk @lunar-l30 @ivysbea @phoenixrainsfire413 @strawbxrrypies @deyna-d @ashess0 @mellohithe-musicdisc @keyriingz @peskybirdonyx @bi-r-a-r-a @monster-of-the-margins @butterfly-teacup @teoda-hesperides-garden @rainbowfeather314 @starlitnight864 @multishipper33 @error-403-sammy @ghghghostt @cee-watches @unablebagel @aries0nmars @trafficjamming9 @vividcomet @iicor @raynilikescats @smallblueowl and open tags! /nf ofc

:D

[butterfly-teacup]

ooh, fun question!

I speak English, which is my native language, and I know a bit of German as well. Not enough to write it or have a full conversation, but basic words and phrases. I also know a few words in Spanish. And I'd love to learn ASL!!

@thestoryteller-thedreamer @thewritingautisticat @elronthemage @ilikecarousels @i-do-anything-but-write @sunflowerrosy @loftwingofcrimson @atthispointeverythingischaos @crowleys-mortalcounterpart + anyone else who'd like to join in!!

[thewritingautisticat]

Thanks for the tag!

I'm pretty boring, I just know my first language, English. I have been learning Spanish, but I mainly just know enough to read a little and understand snippets of conversations, not speak it. And I know a few words in ASL, but I'd really like to learn more!

@froggyindewindow @a-knight-of-hope @elronthemage @the-ellia-west @diabolical-blue and open tag!

[froggyindewindow]

Thanks for the tag!

The only language I'm absolutely fluent in is English 🥲 BUT, I know a lot of French, enough to have basic conversations and survive 😁 I also know a decent amount of Wolof, the local language in Senegal (I lived there for three months). I know some ASL as well, but need to take up lessons again 🥹

@a-marble @niyana-the-ambiguous-mobian @000marie198 @blue-haired-rock

[blue-haired-reblogs]

Thanks for the tag!!

Unfortunately I'm only fluent in English. I'm currently learning Japanese but I'm no where near fluent ahgsaia. I know a very small amount of spanish, like a few words and sentences. I don't know ASL 😔 but I've always wanted to

Tagging: @creatively-storm-reblogs @noodlereblogger @northernhealer and anyone else that wants to!

[northernhealer]

Thank you for the tag!

I'm fluent in English and I can speak French a bit (But can read French wayyyyy better) and I know how to count in German and say a couple phrases.

@tildeathiwillwrite @rockellex @alonelywaywardsheep + open tags!

[rockellex]

I’m so boring lol I only speak American English. Everyone in my family is terrible at learning other languages, no matter how hard we try XD

TAGS!

@sunflowerrosy @adreamofsovngarde @feistyredeemed @imjustanobody2024 @tildeathiwillwrite @kai-cheesecake @thatssewjesus + open tags :)

[imjustanobody2024]

Thanks for the tag mootie 🫶🏽

I speak fluently in english and french, some amharic and japanese, and that's about it! :3

(no pressure) tags: @anxious-alyssia, @4thouglory, @aurynne, @coolpokerfox, @astro-mango + anyone else who wants to join! :D

[coolpokerfox]

Thanks for the tag :⁠^⁠)

I'm fluent in English, though it's not my mother tongue. My mother's tongue is Yoruba, which I'm also good in. I can also speak pidgin English if it counts as a language lol. All other attempts at learning other languages have failed so far but I might pick them up again.

Tags: @astro-mango @notnocturne @craftybookwyrm @guillerl13 @livi-loo2 @clleanlliness

[coolpokerfox]

I dreamt I had a child

[coolpokerfox]

Am i not allowed to be "mean"?. I mean people act mean to me sometimes and I let it slide, I move on with my life, but I can't even do it at all?, do I always have to be nice and forgiving to people at my own expense?. Like I'm literally always on my own and people do the most random and nasty things and I just watch but if I get uncomfortable or angry which I almost never am, it's like I'm an evil person and I should get burnt at the stakes and I have to go home and feel bad just because I moved your hand away from my hair because your long nails hooked it and it hurt when you moved your hands on my head. Why did you even touch my head, we're not friends, I wouldn't ever do that to you, now you're saying sorry o, and I'm suddenly the monster. I know many people don't even take this to heart and forget about that random part of their day, but I can't for some reason so here we are.

[me----irl]

Reblog if you think the person you reblogged this from deserves to be happy.

[baraphalloplastyclinic]

I actually do think we should discourage women from becoming housewives. Do not become financially dependent on a man. That's how a lot of women ended up dead over the years. A man gets violent suddenly and you have to choose between homelessness or potentially dying at his hand because you have an enormous gap in your resume and no degrees or certifications or anything that will help you pursue a career that will allow you to be financially independent. He owns your bank account. His name is probably the one on the car. Try and leave and he can report it stolen. Where will you go then?

Don't become a housewife.

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[coffee-or-hot-cocoa]

i need all the help i can get for finals

[finnglas]

Hey so

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

This might be the real one, y’all.

[ladyadrasteia666]

Reblogging to spread the luck and the good fortune

[livi-loo2]

please god let me meet my dream guy and get me all 7s on my exams 🙏🙏🙏

[coolpokerfox]

I hope my body stops itching, and that I get to make my hair on time, and that I finally feel okay enough to start functioning again. And that I don't face dire consequences for messing up the assessment form

[local-lesbian-tree-demon]

they should invent a body that feels normal to be inside of

[coolpokerfox]

I need my belly to be and feel completely flat before I eat again

[goldenjuniper]

Ten People You'd Like to Get to Know Better Game

thank you @badtzbot for the tag!!! :D

last song: Asan Ang Gana Ko - HEY JUNE

currently watching: i’ve been incredibly sick this past week so i went on a science saru (the animation studio behind tatami galaxy & devilman crybaby) binge and that somehow led to me watching smiling friends. it’s good!! i like the creative direction. some of the visual gags are really funny

current obsession: songxuexiao and janka. they’re my emotional support disasters

currently reading: Ashura by Quintin Jose V. Pastrana. i’m still too early into the book to form concrete opinions on it but the synopsis sounds interesting

currently working on: a science magazine!! i’m doing some layout and writing for it. it’s sucking my soul out but im having fun

last google search: "prospect stnonym”

tagging: @ifuckinglovemirage @atridesmediator @meto4 @rainncoater @rainbowsparklecur @gargoyl3city @bugandbreakfast @mitzybug!!!

[rainncoater]

DUDE THANKS FOR THE TAG IM SO HONORED UR ART IS SOOOO SO COOL 🥹🥹🥹🥹 <3333333

last song - HARERUYA by RURUTIA (RURUTIA IS SO FUCKING GOOD UNDERRATED AF)

currently watching: UMMM im the famous Never Watches Anything can i count this youtube channel im super into rn. they cover rly fun animal info like butterflies inheriting memories through generations or prairie dogs being able to communicate w words. ITS SO COOL this vids my fav it makes me rly emotional actually.... this kid inspires me massively

current obsession: information about plurality... LMAOOO. or mental conditions overall. im super into this stuff...

currently reading: kenya hara's "designing design" is cool as fuck. lots of super cool japanese (and some chinese i think) contemporary product design examples and it explains in depth how they go abt designing!!! rly cool stuff imo..

currently working on: my final exam project for the year 🥹 i think im gonna make either a wearable or installation-ish thing about the simultaneous contrasting desire to connect and fear of being perceived >:)

last google search: "pointing to self meme" 💀

ZERO PRESSURE! i just think u guys r awesome @nykenima @astravox @ghostofthejunkyard @daigastumb @kianf1sh @sunflowers-and-scales @raihanijulie @onehundredgar + open :)

[nykenima]

last song: CANDY STORE CAUSE I LOVE MUSICALS! who wants to be high school mean girls with me 😋

curently watching: i love the illegal homophobic hamilton showing bruh

current obsession: SEAL! SEALLLLL!!! SEAL!!! I LOVE SEAL I LOVE SEAL I LOVE SEAL I

currently reading: too busy… i read academic papers about seals when i have time though,,,

currently working on: @to-the-second-string which is my umamusume story,,, then my seal document,,, i have a seal document,,,

no pressure but yay! means i see you around but i wanna know you!! @photographicapparitions @masontheevildm @binoilo @kofitiamat @write-with-will @thevoidqueer @ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse @uglyboyinsewer @parallel-phantasm @snow-sailorr

[masontheevildm]

Last song: Drunk Walk Home by Mitski :3

Currently watching: Puella Magi Madoka Magica

Current obsession: umamusume!!!!!!!!!

Currently reading: project Hail Mary

Currently working on: secret ALTA fanfic….

@eviliens @zjanec @white-turf-uma @meisho-tabaru-uma @myluros @weaverdei11

[weaverdei11]

Eeeheheheh

Last song: This Will End by the Oh Hellos

Currently watching: Blue Eyed Samurai

Current Obsession: Godkiller…

Currently Reading: Re-reading In Deeper Waters by F.T. Lukens

Currently working on: Fools Gold Sands MAP part!

@hocuspocus099 @rattito-rat @stars0duckie

[stars0duckie]

Gasp:0

Well hmm

Last song: uhh don’t remember tbh but a music I really like is LEMONS by brye and js the album running with scissors by Cavetown, I reaaallly like Cavetown>_<

Currently watching: trying to re-watch little witch academia :]

Currently obsession: sands… it’s fool’s gold sand,,,, it has a choke hold on me, I love it sm ahhhhdkshssn

Currently reading: nothing:< but I’m trying to get my hands on the dungeon meshi manga, and really hyped for the owl house and the second fg graphic novel to drop!!>:]

Currently working on: waterLilly fic snd fg sands map(definitely not avoiding it)

@rattito-rat @hocuspocus099 @cherry-cakee @artvoid0 @oo-taffydraws-oo @pasta-rat @peachu-0 @sunboops @s0m3-gr1ff1n

Yes I re @ some ppl CUZ I WANNA KNOW TOO/jk

If u don’t wanna do it u don’t have to:]

I actually have more ppl I lowkey wanna @ …..

[oo-taffydraws-oo]

Thanks for tagging me! :D

Last song: Around and Around by the Happy fits !! The Happy Fits are really awesome!

Currently Watching: I dunno if this counts but I’ve been rewatching episode 27 of Fools Gold Sands!

Current Obsession: HMM… it might be Fools Gold Sands! But I dunno..🤷‍♀️

Currently reading: Not anything right now, but I just finished the first Hunger Games book! So I plan to start the second soon!

@kitty-fighter @suzyisgone @ivytheexplorer @kenanthewolfpackleader !!

[suzyisgone]

Aww! :D

I've been tagged! :)

I don't usually get to do this sort of thing. :p

Anyway! >:]

Last song: Ppprobably Holiest by Glass Animals, Emperors New Clothes by Panic! At the Disco, or Butcher Vanity.

Those are the ones I remember last. :p

Currently I'm re-watching all of Fools Gold: Sands, as per usual.

Current obsession: Fools Gold: Sands

Currently reading: A Humans Are Space Orcs and found family MHA fic. Been having a hard time recently and need a bit of family fluff. :p

@milder-manners @error-dream-was-found @kn1gh-1 @rattito-rat @thesquiddygirl @uftopia @starsinabox @bleue-flora @saffitaffi

[error-dream-was-found]

Awww I've been tagged! Yay! Thanks you <3

Okay let's see ...

Last song: well I've been listening to Missing Piece by JohnMichaelHowell, Gasoline by Maneskin and It Took Me By Surprise by Maria Mena omw to school and I don't remember which was last but it's probably one of em

Currently watching: nothing but I binge watched Dandadan last week, does that count? I also downloaded second season of windbreaker to watch when I have time ...

Current obsession: well fandom vise I think I'm still deep in dsmp. On different fronts it's also petty dedication to speedrun masters degree during bachelor degree and then spam the international department with applications for every single slightly appealing student exchange since I'm mad that a new policy (which was not active last semester but is now) prevents me from extending my current exchange which is something I really wanted to do and I also didn't get selected for any back up exchanges so yeah. I'm using that empty semester and speedrunning master's and then becoming the most repeated name on all applications. I also bought a Nintendo switch last week and I'm currently really into playing hollow knight ... Chose your obsession I guess?

Currently reading: way too many fics at once and Remnants of filth vol. 2 it's amazing so far so I certainly recommend the series

Currently working on: writing fanfiction and orchestrating my academic downfall (refer to 'current obsession')

Last google search: 'is McDonald's uji matcha frappe good' ... In my defense I didn't want to buy it if it's bad

Tagging: @bleue-flora, @piscespixiewastaken, @unfortunatelysleepy, @rusticaquarium2, @rainystressed247, @greycandyskies, @cleofast300, @rat-rosemary and @honestlyidontthinkso

[honestlyidontthinkso]

TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG!!!

Oooooo fun stuff okayyy finally I do one of these things LMAO

Last song: night at the opera - emei

I've been playing it on REPEAT I love that song so much everyone should listen to emei she's peak anyways-

Currently watching: in the long agonizing process of FINALLY watching one piece yippwy woohoo yays

Current obsession: cookie run. Cookie run kingdom/ovenbreak/ovensmash idk I've been PLAYIN

And also the amazing digital circus ughhh I'm waiting on episode 9 EGWIJEKE

Idk is there anything else? Not really. Does tumblr count? Sure. Moving on now.

Currently reading: yeah no nothing yeah I'm disappointed too rip

SOON THOUGH!

Currently working on: multiple random crk fanfics that might reach the world one day ehehehehheheheiwkaksowjw okay

Last Google search:

"angelic meaning Japanese boy names" for research purposes, and "niche meaning" (I'm looking at you moth)

Okayyy tagggsssss for the mooties yayayayayaya, you may join or spectate pals

@certified-mothwriter @mult1-fand0m-trash @ruchi-writes @firstrainybitch101 @nightowlssleep @astraniaa @imjustanobody2024

[imjustanobody2024]

tysm @honestlyidontthinkso for the tag 💕!!

Last Song: ily anyway by Strings And Hearts

Currently Watching: Boruto: Naruto Next Generations (ikik, its a really bad sequel and all that, but I like it so far, obviously not as good as Naruto, but as its own series I think its pretty good, not great, but good)

Current Obsession: Twisted Wonderland (game & anime)

Currently Reading: Twisted Wonderland: Usurper Of The Wilds (yes, I bought the book...yes ik I'm overly obsessed)

Currently Working On: My Kirishima Request from awhile back...

Last Google Search: fanfics/fanart for Mitsucho (a ship from boruto/my boruto OTP)

(no pressure) tags: @anxious-alyssia @astro-mango @4thouglory @meeisemm @coolpokerfox @rei-reiiii @bowglittercat + anyone else who wants to join! :D

[coolpokerfox]

Thanks for the tag✨

Last song: idk, many songs have been playing in my head so I can't place it.

Currently watching: Abbot elementary

Current obsession: Yumi's cells

Currently reading: A lonely girl is a dangerous thing

Currently working on: getting through each day and bettering myself.

Last google search: The meaning of "monolith"

[alsophila-grahami]

mutuals to sit under this thing with

[fantasylover4538]

Will you @gl1tzygl0ck @andromeda-absurdity @yoink-a-doink @wonderfull-star @evothesavoirofthegays @thedepresedone69 join me under this thingy? Pretty please 🥺

[wonderfull-star]

🥺

@quickhere-34 🙃

[wonderfull-star]

@kikoloco57 ☺️

[kikoloco57]

@deliarts , @winterpeta1s ❣️

[deliarts]

@honcc @rainyraisin @randomperson2009 :3

[randomperson2009]

Yes I will

@girllovesbutterflies @rlinnl @sskatmar

[rlinnl]

ofc I will! <3

@potatoanarchist @tehizel @rainyraisin

[volume-down]

literally all of y'all cmon join me

@vickysnowpawz @theblackberryhimself @maybemarz @kaihasmoreswagthanyou3 cuz I gotta keep the tag game going

But literally all of y'all

[kaihasmoreswagthanyou3]

YESSSS AND WE CAN DRINK APPY JUICE TOO

[asterdawn026]

OH HELL YEAH

.

If you’d like to join/nf: @thegrinningghost @flankerclinger0a @cai-cast @zippyskyfalls @biteygremlinanon @karnak-the-novelty-machine @hopingitdontbreak @burnttoast7272 @onimusha095 @another-call-another-cup + anyone can join!

[karnak-the-novelty-machine]

Reminds me when I wasn’t ruined so yes!

Open tags

[heavenlyparasite-0]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEE WITH A CHERRY ON TOPP >_<

ahhh this brings back memories,,, :3

@aut0cann1bal1sm @localchaosskelton @ouunaschl

[ouunaschl]

:0

the memories… kajflskgkdjoxjdkdnskjdkdjdkskd

@yoshkerz @pool-table @gothic-levi-arts @ladyluckisonyourside @aut0cann1bal1sm @meltycheese333 @mothboyyyy @grlmsgrotto (get in here vro :33)

[mothboyyyy]

YIPPIEEE!! YAYYY!!!!

@probablynotaria @pupfettipaws

@12-pounds-of-uranium @yourfavoritecuntist @jackm3rridew

This is all my friends

[jackm3rridew]

YIPPIEEEEE THANK YOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! :D

@3-cheers-for-chaos @blue-and-yellow-in-the-west !!!!!!!!!!! you two have no choice <3

[3-cheers-for-chaos]

Yayyy!!

@ierofang @shoshialyakward @fruity-pebbles-in-your-shoe !!! Get in the parachute thingy NOW!! (Pretty please)

[shoshialyakward]

YAYY

@fist-full-of-feathers @ierofang @unemployedandproud @shelley654 @mxgicrats +more

[fist-full-of-feathers]

AWH YAY!!!

@b0la-very-fresca @jennifer1confessions @chronicgirlfail @caviar-and-cigarettes @oddpossumcreature @kaobeatz

[oddpossumcreature]

AUDGHFNSNDNCKFKKRKFJDHDBFNFNNF

<33333

@dabouse @stxrrstruckk @lions-lanternwood @friendlyneighbourhooddm @lucassinclair1fan @tumbleintomyheart

[tumbleintomyheart]

yes ofc i will omg

@em0tionallymotionsick @bebopmooony @candiedroxxstarrs @maliciouslittlewhiteboy @goopymoons @istillwishforyouateleveneleven wanna join?

[maliciouslittlewhiteboy]

omg yesyesyes of course i’ll join !!

@rosekiller27 @ghostlynocturnalspirit @loonylara @rustytyperwriter @kade0-09

[buckelys-starb0y]

YES <33

@b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @em0tionallymotionsick @space-girliee @ineffablelyqueerwolfstarshipper @bloodstainedthesnow @evanrosiersho

[b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m]

YES PLEASE OMG

@regulusfawn @eyes-withoutt-a-facee @reggie-little-mermaid @riri-shark-in-perpetual-motion @whatonearthisgoingon @prosperoisadiva @justainsanenobody @thestarsshineevenwhenhidden @fictionalsimp09 @lady-st4rdustt @bartysgreenstripofhair @allmywordsandworlds @rosekiller27 @em0tionallymotionsick @7975348473 @5tars-in-my-eyes @b4rtycr0uchjr-4k4-m3-4t3-ur-m0m @darlingmylovethatsmurder @nelly-rebellyyyyy @coffeestainedstars @laced-in-ruin @istillwishforyouateleveneleven

[eyes-withoutt-a-facee]

YAYAYAYYYYYYYYYY

@withutterdisdain-landen @imkindasleepdeprived @siriuslyepicrunner4 @redwine-supernova @litterallymoony @1goffentanyl

[like-dandelions-in-the-wind]

Funsiesssss

@chr0nically-b0red @walking-mushroom @vivaciousmessypixie @ironspider-hobbit

[ironspider-noctis]

yessss

@livelove-fangirl @gandalfthepsychotic @bwsdjc

[sunny-funny-honey-pants]

YESSSSS @quietlychaotic13 @thatdangspacenerd @vontreangedelamusique @iwanderbecauseimlost

[lafemmederik]

For nostalgic reasons, I suppose I would. 🖤

@northernhealer @sunflowerrosy @angel-of-lucidity @vampirebratt00 @sillycartoonhozier @front-yard-dandelion @the-white-soul + open tags

[northernhealer]

HELL YEA I WOULD.

@alonelywaywardsheep @sunflowerrosy @thewritingautisticat @tildeathiwillwrite @the-ellia-west @rockellex @wisegirlandseaweedbrainforever @frogressive-rock @homelessnerd @4thouglory @queer-as-used-by-tolkien @voicefromthecorner @anemoia-blue @cikosweirdmind + open tags~

[4thouglory]

YESS. How very whimsical hahaha! 🤣 Let’s sit in a circle.

@athiria @evukzsstiff @imjustanobody2024 @astro-mango @coolpokerfox @rockellex @r1skee @aurynne @professionallyhuman @pinestripe37 @z1lyl1ly @christianfics + open tags 🫶🏼

[coolpokerfox]

Definitely yes, I'd cry even

[wildnickk]

[coolpokerfox]

It feels like why do I even exist, like I know why but still. I wish I could be happy, I wish I was a normal girl, I wish I was thin, and had genuine friends, and that people liked me, and that I didn't have this thoughts of doubt and sadness and this everyday struggle. I wish I didn't feel like some weird specimen walking the face of the earth. I wish I was okay, and normal, and functioning like I'm supposed to. I can't help these things, and I can't talk to anyone about it because in the truest sense of things, nobody actually cares, and if anyone manages to, they don't deserve to carry the burden of someone elses problem even for a minute or try to find a solution for them because it's not their job or their fault you're going through something. Everyone has things going on, so it's ultimately up to you to carry your cross and solve your problems. It's been weeks now, and I haven't been able to solve my problem and go back to church. I'll try my best to go next week though. I will be fine.

[coolpokerfox]

I find it hard to cry when I'm sad but when my paper got ripped apart in the exam hall, the tears came aflowin.

[yummitoe]

i just wanna be skinny.