I cannot take myself seriously when I want to do some serious self reflection. petulant bpd + general narcissism + aspd intrusive thoughts leads to a lot of magical girl anime antagonist sounding shit. genuinely, my internal monologue sounds like the villain of a show marketed towards five year olds.
so this is why I can never talk about my feelings because then I feel like an overdramatic try hard emo teen, and I do not have the emotional capacity for that.




















