- A distraction from your hardships
a little tarot reading about your next victory ♡
"A playful distraction", by Frederik Hendrik Kaemmerer.♡
We give so much to that one single moment. So many hopes, faith, patience. Hard work, intention, sacrifice, over and over again… We give it so much, and yet, sometimes, it just feels not enough. It feels like, almost, that moment of victory simply doesn’t want to come. Could it be because it takes much longer? Or did we miss something in the process? Are we, perhaps, pursuing something that is never supposed to be ours..? We don’t know it really, we just can’t. So we keep on hoping, a little confused, a little anxious, trying to have faith that we will be able to make something out of all of this, someday…
But, this time, our victory wants to speak to us. It wants to reassure us, as it sees us slowly getting lost between these doubts. That victory, the one of many, that will come sooner, that we are so much closer now to… Wants to give us a little sign, a little message, so we know where our last steps should be headed. So, slow down, take a deep breath. And gaze. Into every detail of this painting, into every pile, into every message that hides behind them. And follow the one that calls you more now.
piles → one, two and three ♡
- Pile One,
(the bouquet: the ten of wands and the king of cups)
You are probably looking frenetically through these lines, in hopes to find faster the words that reflect a desire of yours, describe so perfectly at least one of the many journeys you are struggling on… But this victory of yours, the one that is awaiting you, counting minutes, seconds, until your encounter - is something hidden, something sudden. Something that you are not noticing now, not even would think about as an advantageous success…
It is something that is so close to you, yet doesn’t really receive your attention. Something that you used to love, to cherish, to nurture with your hopes… Until you simply didn’t have the strength to keep on doing it, to keep on caring for something that wasn’t changing your life, your world, as you hoped it would.
It is a victory that will be brought to you, gifted, somehow. Some words that will bring the memories to the surface, a sudden free moment, and a needed and connected to it object that will come out of nowhere… It will come back to you, at once. And you will face it, first infuriated: you don’t have time now. Then saddened: even if you do it, it won’t serve any purpose, it won’t make your current situation worth it. But then…then it will be just surrendering. To the curiosity, to the nostalgia, to the wander of if you would still like it, if you can still do it, even after all of this…
A simple moment and action of coming back to yourself, suddenly but intentionally. The act of accepting the proposal of the life to slow down for a moment, to be only with yourself, to exist only for you…
It seems so little, insignificant, actually even frustrating. And yet this will be the little but most valuable victory in this phase of your life - the one that will give you real rest and strength for the moment, and for the future, for the work that you will need to keep on doing.
It’s not a given, the power that holds the action of nurturing ourselves, doing what we love, what unwindes our mind and relaxes our body. And you know it, but you do not remember, truly, how does it feel like.
And this victory of yours, this victory of the life and your inner self that will finally be able to break through your rush, and anxiety, and fears, and doubts, and urgency…. Will quite literally change everything. One single little moment. One act of remembering and feeling. Will change the way you see and perceive all other battles that you are fighting. It will change the value that you will give them, the power over you, their importance. And at the same time, change how much of you you give to them.
From that one moment on, your journeys will start to feel and be different. One little victory, that will lead to many others, just through the way it will impact you deeply. One little thing, that was so worthless in your eyes to keep on nurturing in these difficult times of struggling… Will be the one to nurture you, to give back to you, exactly what you need to make everything else to work out.♡
- Pile Two,
(the tree: the ten of wands and the seven of cups)
The victory that is waiting for you… Is such an important, precious, one. A victory that you looked for in all those countless books, and advices, and tutorials and tips… In the voices and whispers of all those people that, supposedly, know exactly what you have and what your body needs… A victory that, no matter how many sources and things you’ve tried, just seems hidden, unavailable to you who is loosing yourself, not recognising the person in the mirror…
Your victory, is the one of health, to put it simply. A victory that was long overdue, the one for which you fought with all the last strength you’ve had in you… It’s finally here. Your body, your mind, your heart… Whatever was feeling too heavy, too tired, too consumed by all these ‘‘magical’’ medicines, habits, and routines… Will start to finally, and really, get better.
Because you did your best, in researching. In staying open but also true to what you were feeling, and that others couldn’t quite understand for whatever reason. You did your best in trying, and most importantly protecting, your own self. By never ceasing this search, never, completely, losing the hope. And it all simply… paid off.
It might not look like now, in this exact moment, but you are starting to feel better, you did find something that was really worth it. A little simple thing, among all the others that you’ve tried. But still, one that is starting already now to influence you, to fight back your burden.
It might take some time to understand which one is it, the thing, the method, that is truly working. But, at the same time, as you will start to notice it more and more, in how you feel, in how life feels better, this understanding and discovery of what you really needed all this time, won’t come alone - it will bring in with it all the other things that you might need from now on. Funds, methods, knowledge, ideas. People that got through the same and have their experience to share, or the ones that studied it and can really guide you… Even the ones that always have been there but never took you seriously - they will all start to gravitate towards you, and help you, gently, delicately. Assisting you in this recovery.
The worst is in the past, you’ve overcome and won over it. You resisted for a long time, you’ve endure it. And now, almost with the same rhythm as the one this world has, with its new season, it will all just be different.
You reached for it for so long, and now you will finally have it, the one of the most precious things we could ever have - the one of feeling good, the one of feeling better.♡
- Pile Three,
(the cross: the three of coins and the eight of wands)
There are so many things to organise, to resolve, to plan… So many things that still don’t have any progress, any tangible and serious results, anything that could put your mind and anxiety to rest… There are just so many things in your life that are not quite like you want and need them to be that… it all just feels the same, quite frankly. Just a big cluster of stuff that doesn’t work, of problems, of challenges that you are keeping on enduring seemingly all alone. It all seems and feels too heavy, to heavy to live and try to lift on your own… But, fortunately, it seems like you won’t even need to do it anymore.
Not for everything, not all at once, but some things seem to be getting ready to leave you, to allow others to take care of them, and free you from these burdens… Different things, different situations, different areas of your life and, also, different people that are coming towards you, knowing or having exactly what you need.
Because it is indeed not your fault that things are like this, that there is this quiet chaos all around you. It’s just that you are alone, dealing with it, trying to figure out things in which you don’t even have any knowledge. Some things are new to you, others just can’t be changed no matter how hard you could try to move them, because it doesn’t depend on you, or this moment is just not right… There are so many things, actually, that you’ve been trying to resolve but that simply are not yours to handle.
And this is why it will be one of those victories that is subtle but so powerful: it won’t be one, but many of them, little ones, all around your life and situations. Little details that will be taken care of, seemingly effortlessly, because of a coincidence, moved out of your way by someone else, just so easily that it could even frustrate you... And yet, it won’t be to show you what else you could’ve done or where you could’ve do better - it will be to show you how not even one of the failures that you associated with yourself were really yours to take the blame for.
One after another things will be sorted out, adjusted, organised, guided, by others that will come and go from your life, perhaps only passing by. But it will be enough to shake it all up, to clear the path, to give you space. Space to actually slow down and take a deep breath. Space to start to create the life you want, with things that you can and know how to control.♡
