Certified Heathen and Ursinologist

[deadguywalking09]

My Version of Icarus

Icarus died because he was numb

Trapped for so long

He tried exercise and meditation

And spinning around in thousands of circled

Until his face tore in half

And he screamed "Why?"

His father wouldn't hug him anymore

And his body needed something

To hold all that flesh together

It wasn't until Icarus would throw his body

Screaming against the tower walls

Because his senses weren't enough anymore

Did Daedalus make him wings too

And the second Icarus got out

He flew up

He knew what would happen

But he would rather have that

Than another second in this tormenting flesh

He craved the warmth because it was

SOMETHING

Then he fell

And when he crawled onto shore

Skin burnt and hair made out by waves

He was just glad he didn't fly too low

Because Apollo gave him everything he needed

[enjolmarx]

I wish we had a barricade today

[deadguywalking09]

I don't think that went well last time...

[captain-ravioli7321]

ALONG WITH PRIDE MONTH, JUNE IS PTSD AWARENESS MONTH!!! GIVE EVERY PERSON YOU KNOW WITH PTSD 50 DOLLARS NOW/j

[deadguywalking09]

Titled: Only I Could Write A Poem About Fucking A Blade of Grass

You can tell I'm "not all there"

Or at least you should

You can’t expect me not to drop that glass cup

Because it seems so in love with the ground

That it would shatter just to touch it

I could fall apart in a field

Because I couldn’t feel every single blade of grass

When I know each one yearns for the same

Attention I do

With fingers down it’s back

And a voice discovering each speck of green with a

“How do you like it here?”

“Does this feel good?”

“What makes you feel best?”

I could honestly swallow the whole lot

Just to maybe absorb whatever it is I’m missing

Lucifer fell because he learned too much

I know I’m falling because I can still feel the wind in my hair

But when I’m staring at the glass that shattered

When I dropped it

I doubt it’s because of what I’ve learned

[noxbutcooler]

Im so tired of these hypersexual!reader x character fanfics....

HYPERSEXUALITY ISNT JUST BEING REALLY HORNY ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!

I genuinely need people to do research on it before even touching hypersexuality. It isn't even a sexuality either, it's a fucking DISORDER!!! Stop treating it like it's a lgbtq+ identity, stop treating it as just "really horny" or "having a high sex drive"!!

It's caused by other disorders and trauma, so stop writing us like this! We arent some sex beasts, were struggling people who are having to deal with these unwanted thoughts and feelings almost everyday!

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[deadguywalking09]

Nothing like Cock and Ball Torture to cure my hypersexuality

[deadguywalking09]

Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation

A few months ago, I was subjected to TMS in a mental health facility to help with my severe suicidal depression. I did many sessions a day for a week and it made me worse. Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation can be a beautifully life-changing tool for some, but it sucked for me. They started treating me for depression but after the first day I was crying. The zapping hurt that spot on my head and emotionally I was the most agitated I had ever been. I made them stop after day two. But a few days later the doctor had a new idea to zap a different spot on my head. I let them do a week on that. I was almost numb with worsening depression and they told me this one would help, so I followed the flow. Even months after, the brain fog is severe, I stutter, and my processing speed is terrible.

Has anyone else had rough experiences with TMS?

[deadguywalking09]

I don't like how a lot of satanist and left-hand path organizations have the same "do it this way or you're wrong" rhetoric that christians on the right-hand path have. Your relationship to Satan should be uniquely yours and I understand the need for community as an atheistic satanist, but I'd love it if we could please stop trying to mimic those who we're trying to oppose. Your thoughts are sacred because they're*yours*. You are holy because lord Satan gave you the gift of knowledge and taught you to worship the self. Don't squander your greatness trying to fit in with others. Craft your own relationship with your religion. Thank you

[your-dark-desire]

I have a challenge for all you good girls and boys out there

It's called Interval Edging

All you need is:

Discipline

A timer

A stopwatch

Your favourite toy

Something to drink

Bonuslevel: clamps and a plug

Step 1 : You start out by setting a stopwatch and then edging yourself slowly but intensely until you are so close to the brink of orgasm that you are having a hard time stopping.

Step 2 : But you stop. Now you stop the stopwatch and look at how long you took.. and then take a sip of water

Step 3 - ∞ : Give yourself a minute to catch your breath. Now you set a countdown that's the length of the time you took (last round) and subtract 10 seconds. Then you start edging until the timer is over without taking any breaks. When the timer is finished you stop and take big sip of water.

And then you repeat step 3.

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Do this until you are a moaning and dripping mess and you can't trust yourself to not come with the next touch.

When you inevitably have to give up spank your raw genitals the number of full minutes (rounded up) left on the timer and say "thank you for disciplining me" with each hit

Have fun ❤️

Oh and obviously you are not allowed to go to the toilet before you finish the challenge.

Bonuslevel: Everytime you skip the minute mark when subtracting the 10 seconds put on your nipple clamps and insert your plug for the next round.

[libraryfag]

Is that a valid argument in your pants or is it just a phallacy?

[deadguywalking09]

PSYCH FACILITY REVIEW: BHC ALHAMBRA

BHC Alhambra is one of the largest psychiatric facilities in the Southern California area, and I just so happen to have been there three times.

BHC is divided into many sections. They treat adults, teens, and they have an eating disorder unit. I've only been to the teens unit so that's all I can speak on.

You will typically come in through the side gate and be moved past the adult units A and B. I've heard better things about unit A than B. You will also pass the art therapy room before entering the teen unit. Inside the staff are quick to take your vitals. Paperwork may take a while but as in all psych wards they will do a body search. If I remember correctly, it's not the most invasive search I've ever been through; you are able to remain clothed for most of it. You will have 1-2 roommates depending on if you're on the girl's or boy's side, the boy's side typically has less and they do tend to room you based on your AGAB.

Each morning there is a meeting that you are encouraged to attend, where unit rules are discussed. Attending groups are a good way to find aquaintences and show the doctor that you are doing well. You will meet with the doctor every day, and he is the one who can control everything you do there. The staff are very attentive to you but easy to bypass. The staff monitor everything you do and report back to the doctor who will determine the length of your stay, however you should refrain from asking the doctor about leaving. BHC likes to keep people for a longer amount of time than other psych wards because if you don't do well post-discharge it reflects back on the doctor. The doctor and staff will meet to discuss your progress once a week where they determine how long your stay should be.

The schedule is typically wake up/ vitals/ breakfast/ ADLs/ morning meeting/ groups/ lunch/ groups/ quiet time/ groups/ dinner/ groups/ bed. The group therapists are nice and easy to talk to.

BHC operates on a levels system. Rewards for leveling up include cafeteria time and more trust from the doctor.

As for my personal experience, they had trouble keeping me safe, but their protocols for emergencies are predictable. They jump to medication and it is rare they work on coping skills. They will also typically keep you by the nurse's station in the event you become a danger. Their bendy pencils are good quality and they supply journals. They let you wear your own clothes and use your own toiletries that they keep in contraband until you need them, so feel free to pack your own things. They will be thuroughly reviewed.

Overall: 5/10. Good place, allows too much.

Anything I missed or questions you have feel free to ask.

[deadguywalking09]

Tonight's performance of Les Miserables

I saw Les Miserables tonight and Gavroche and Grantaire's relationship really stood out.

Gavroche and Grantaire were very close in tonight's performance, with them standing next to each other every time they both were onstage, which got really heartbreaking towards the end. Gavroche came stomping around the barricade, merrily on his way during A Little Fall of Rain, but he stopped when he saw Eponine dying in Marius's arms. He started reaching out to hold his dying sister's hand during the duet, but Grantaire pulled him away and held him instead.

After Drink With Me, once Grantaire finished his drunken talk with Enjolras, he went to go sulk in the corner, banging his head on the wall, when Gavroche came up behind him and hugged him. It takes Grantaire a bit, but eventually he turns around and hugs Gavroche.

Gavroche's Death was wat I can only describe as heart wrenching. While he was singing and getting shot at his voice was hauntingly consistent and stable. He made it back to the barricade. But when he posed victoriously at the top, he was shot into Enjolras's arms. Enjolras passed him to Grantaire, and the skeptic fell. He didn't get back up. He couldn't. The grief was too strong. He could only hold Gavroche.

I've only ever seen Gav close to Combeffere or Courfeyrac in performance and in the movie, and he's very independent in the book, so seeing this new take was very interesting.

[lesmiserabelles]

wake up babe new eva cabaret production shots just dropped

📸: marc brenner

[deadguywalking09]

I love her so much

The first time I heard her, my heart changed forever. Now my heart rate reflects the inflection of her voice. Now she is the great bear and I am but the tooth she uses to tear into her prey. Now I know I am a particle in the sea of her life, but the first time I saw her eyes against her skin everything made sense. I love this woman and everything she does. She has seeped into my brain and filled every empty space. She both tears me apart and sews me back together. The gods have blessed me with the knowledge of her existence and she might as well be one of them

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[deadguywalking09]

"I asked ChatGPT" "I asked grok" Okay, well I asked Eva Noblezada and she told me "Why are you in my house?" And I said "Because I love you"

[deadguywalking09]

Would you please hug me as I go?

Hold me gently in your arms

For I am fragile

I'm broken and torn

I'm calloused and worn

My jagged edges are sharp

And I don't want you to get hurt

But please

Wrap your arms around me

And let me listen to your heart beating in your chest

Because I know that your heart is as broken as mine

So why don't we just hold each other

And breathe

Because some days

That's the best we can do

[deadguywalking09]

The hands that I hold yours with are soaked with so much blood

The blood streaking down my arms

The blood filling up my palms

The blood falling down my lips

What I'm saying is if I stabbed myself with a knife would it hurt more than I already do?

What I'm saying is I already stabbed myself with a knife

And it felt better than I ever have before

If I can't get what I need to look like myself

The least I can do is try to carve myself out

[random-theatre-kid]

Have you prayed tonight, Desdemona? *starts jorking it*

[deadguywalking09]

You don't look like you're praying, darling

[atsunderecactus]

Beef Stew Recipe by systlin

Small little edit by me here. I put this under a read more to make your dashboard more streamlined. Otherwise I take no credit for this recipe; I’m filing it away here for reference later!

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[deadguywalking09]

I've been looking for this FOR EVER. Thank you so much!