Demerite

Demi | 28 | They/Them Tired small-town queer, menace to society, allegedly a writer.

[demerite]

Hold Me Close (Push Me Away): A Cad Bane/Jango Fett Fic

Someone sent me hate about writing presumed-cis characters as trans in my fics. So here, have six-thousand words of trans man Jango Fett fucking Cad Bane, because I'm motivated by spite (okay, it's not JUST porn, there's a poorly-executed attempt at emotional intimacy and vulnerability in there, as well as some hurt-comfort, and a healthy dose of bickering).

Read on AO3

[trektober-challenge]

Before we begin...

Before we get into Trektober this year I'd just like to show you all something.

This is a comment that Demerite, who you may know as Mod Demi, left on one of my fics in 2018. This is the first time we ever interacted.

We graduated from there to exchanging messages on tumblr, and on Discord. When tumblr introduced their horrifying chat groups in 2019, we branched out and started the USS McKirk Discord server.

It was such a huge social and emotional lifeline for me in a world where people who share my interests are not always geographically close to me. I still read messages on that server every day and smile. I just moved home, and went through the pile of cards and gifts I've received in our exchanges, and it nearly brought me to tears with gratitude. I have met, in person, eight of those people. I consider some of them my closest friends.

Through it all, Demi has been my guiding light for what is real and true. They are kind, creative and so in sync with me that I still marvel, sometimes. They remain one of the most wonderful, incredible people I have ever encountered.

So if you ever think to yourself that comments on creative works cannot possibly matter, please remember

My life was irreparably changed by one.

None of us want to be alone out there.

Events like this one (and in fact very specifically this one) would not exist without them.

Happy creating, everyone.

[demerite]

What the fuck Aisha how dare you make me feel things on this Tuesday evening

I love you so much, thank you for being here with me all these years, there's no one else I'd rather face this insanity with 💖💖💖

[ask-the-witcher]

Does Geralt have any hidden talents?

long winters in Kaer Morhen meant picking up some hobbies... he got really good at crochet, I imagine he gives Ciri a new hat and scarf every other holiday

[postoctobrist]

What are your opinions on birds as a subject for photography.

hold still you little fucker

[greelin]

being alive is great because there are so many different vegetables you can sauté. but then there are also the horrors

[yves-and-scessernee]

with faith and perseverance, one day we will sauté the horrors

[hugtheteadrinkthekitten]

i love this website

[forgotten-tuesdays]

reblog to sauté the horrors

[fleshdyke]

no amount of bird posts i make can ever capture how truly strange bitterns are

[fleshdyke]

i say this with so much love and adoration in my heart. what the fuck is that

(american, least, great, and yellow bitterns)

[olyphant-tim]

Timothy Olyphant as Cobb Vanth in THE BOOK OF BOBA FETT – 1x06 “From the Desert Comes a Stranger”

[wexler]

Carrie Fisher and Mark Hamill

[oyveyzmir-blog]

#these are some of the sexiest pictures ever honestly

[fembutchboygirl]

Having internet friends is an experience. Did you eat today? I can't believe your sister hasn't apologized yet, what a bitch. Drink a glass of water right now. Want to see a cat picture? I love you. I know you better than your parents. I don't know your name. I'm having a rough day, can you talk to me about your favorite videogame? I love you. Good morning means good night means good afternoon means go to sleep. Here's a doodle I made in class. I'm stealing your clothes as we speak, they're so pretty. I love you. I love your pet. What does your hair look like? I'd love to see that weird leaf. I love you. I'm making you your favorite food. Thank you for holding my secrets for me. I love you. We're having a coffe date. I love you. I'm giving you a screen-sized hug. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[meeowerzz]

made a crab out of paper,, life is good

[meeowerzz]

u too can make a crab out of paper,, love u

[bepisbee]

@initforthecache

[btfreek]

[theophagie-remade]

Screaming

[dramatic-dolphin]

the thing is when people say a specific fanfic trope comes from supernatural they usually mean "it was invented by the supernatural fandom in a fanfic". on the other hand, when people say a specific fanfic trope comes from star trek, they mean "it was the plot of at least one star trek episode"

[naewitchcraftinvolved]

Tips on how to curate a good fandom experience?

get some gross sicko pals to be a gross sicko with. having at least one or two who you can be a hater with too is a must. helps you save face from airing your grieviances in public. and honestly nothing more satisfying that sending some stupid shit into the group chat being like “lmao u seeing this???”.

stay away from anybody who acts like fandom is serious business/activism

never feel like you need to justify your likes/dislikes to some dumb cunt on the internet

something making you uncomfortable isn’t the end of the world & often it’s actually quite good to examine your own discomfort/disgust and what it stems from. builds character.

block/mute/unfollow at the drop of a hat

make sure to cultivate your interests outside of fandom and read things other than fic, this one, i’d say, is ESSENTIAL

[sassygwaine]

what i find most attractive in people are signs of life

crows feet and laugh lines and bushy eyebrows and grown out haircuts

scars and tattoos and chipped nail polish and floppy ear lobes and still-open piercings that you just don’t wear anymore

scuffed shoes and clothes you’ve had since high school and that green stain on your fingers and neck from cheap jewelry

proof of life!!! so breathtaking!!!

humans!!!

you were somebody, and you are somebody, and you will continue to be!!

[eye-scream-girls]

[amy-santiagos]

[kyraneko]

Enemies to Lovers is also about the devastating intimacy of trusting someone who used to actively try to kill you, and about the discovery of finding someone worth loving inside someone you've been hating.

Friends to Lovers is also about the re-experiencing of the familiar at a newly permitted level of intimacy; the exquisite joy of going from wanting to having.

[chipper-smol]

very very good distinction between the two but have you considered

Best friends to Enemies to Lovers

[not-a-dis-a-ppointment]

Paintings that scream "a lesbian and gay man who are best friends in a lavender marriage"

[Image 1: Untitled by Haddon Sundblom, Image 2: Evening on the River by Michael Malm, Image 3: Playing Their Song by Joseph Lorusso, Image 4: On the river by Puteiko Vladimir Grigorievich]

[lucassfilm]

why is this so canon though

[love-lays-bleeding]

Han: ugh, I’m going crazy, I’m so hungry! Luke: well I could make a grilled cheese? Han: no offense, kid, but I don’t think you know how to boil water. Luke: *offended scoff*

[starwarsheritageposts]

star wars heritage post