Some call me the angster of love

she/her, queer, neurospicy, fanfic lover | Demora00 on ao3

[bees-reads]

I’m obsessed with the idea of Shane figuring out he can use his big beautiful doe eyes to get anything he wants.

He just widens his eyes, makes them a bit glassy and Ilya folds like a damn chair.

After a while Ilya figures out what he’s doing and screws his eyes shut to avoid looking at Shane.

Ilya: no Shane no I know what you’re doing, put your eyes away. You will not use your wicked spells on me today

Shane: Ilya will you just look at me please

Ilya always ends up looking at Shane because he can’t resist him and Shane gets his way every single darn time.

[carolrain]

Fic Rec Friday Rec Round Up Week 47

week 47: for May 22

This Humble Little Oasis: Hidden Gems

For week 47, @stargazer56 asked us to reflect upon all the wonderful fics we have discovered through Fic Rec Friday:

In the spirit of discovery, this week let's all recommend our favorite underrated gems. Is there a fic you constantly reread that you think deserves more love? What about that fic you've been dying to recommend, but it doesn't fit neatly into any of the previous categories? Writers, is there a fic of yours that you feel is overlooked? Let's recommend those deep cuts and fics that haven't previously received any Fic Rec Friday love.

Here's our list of miscellaneous but loved fics:

At the Beginning With You by @fishyspots

Beneath the Same Moonlight by calloftheloon / @wearpersistencewell

Broken Kind of Feeling by @elleelleg

CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE - 4.02 Pregnancy Test Coda Fic by Poutini / @cheesecurdsgravyandfries

Coffee, Cookies and Other Completely Normal Office Perks by @stargazer56

David Sits Here And Thinks About What He’s Done by @nilolay

The Details of Desire by @trickiwooao3

Dropping anchor by @demora00

the grey ceiling on the earth by @queenmabcreates

Hearts' Awakening by @ineveryuniverse-sc

Held by @jamilas-pen

I would teach my feet to fly by @stargazer56

I'll Light the Fire by @norskheks

i'll stick by your side, if you'll be right by mine by ApothecaRose / @chanyelle

I'm Here For You (and the rest of the Patrick the Poet series) by @elifisher96

into the wild blue (and its sequel back to the blue) by Ayes

The Light in your Eyes by @smallumbrella369

Luster by @rosedavid

Memories Feel Like Weapons by @elifisher96

New year's wishes and midnight kisses by @demora00

The Not-Lake House by DisgruntledPelican (and its podfic by @amanita-fierce @delilah-mcmuffin)

Over The River by @flowerfan2

Spiralling Off In All Directions by The_Same_But_Different / @different-but-the-same (and its companion Jewish Channing Tatum by DawnDust

step by step by @fakingsincerity

time will say nothing by @stereopticons

Trapped In This Gothic Horror Show by calloftheloon / @wearpersistencewell

Twelve Hours by @treluna4

Unexpected Places by iola17 / @beaiola

What Happened To You? by therapychicken

You dropped this by lonely_ampersand / @smblmn

You took the time to memorise me by yourbuttervoicedbeau / @kiwiana-writes

I love this list. I hope everyone finds something new here. Thank you, all.

For week 48, we are writing self-recommendation posts. Join us! Let everyone know what you've written that deserves attention! (Tag me, please.)

As always, tumblr and I are imperfect, so let me know if you spot a mistake.

[demora00]

This week @characterassassination-at-9am asked for shameless self promotion.

Thank you everyone who's tagged me in these. I may not have time to post, but I do see and appreciate every time.

Here are a few of my lesser known SC fics.

Verras : After a week long accidentally shared virtual reality experience, David and Patrick find themselves adrift.

Verras was the first fic that took me a year to finish.

Apricity: Patrick as Grannus the sun god and David as re'em. There's a Christmas market. Hot springs and a spa. The northern lights. An urban fantasy AU in a coffee shop, of course.

Apricity had me obsessed with descriptions and visuals. The spa in this story is based on a real spa I have been to that is carved into the side of a mountain. It is as impressive as you might imagine.

Hobbled : David breaks an ankle right before peak Christmas shopping season and Patrick swoops in to help.

I'm sure everyone has done this as it is *cough cough* Sunday, but do share your works any time!

[beloved-child-of-the-house]

aftercare for posting on ao3

[beloved-child-of-the-house]

your fic was good you did grammar good you’re the kind of freak people like everything’s cool dude :^)

[bedlund]

We can figure something else out okay?

[paperplateprose]

not now kitten. daddy's realizing that the scene he invested 1000 words into could be significantly improved but only if he started over from scratch

[24x81]

what they don't tell you about writing is that you're gonna spend way more time moving those guys across a room than you ever thought you would

[a-mel0n]

reblog if you’ve had an online friendship that’s lasted more than 2 years

[rainbow-femme]

When it comes to “we didn’t even kiss” as bad as it was I feel like if roles were reversed and Ilya was the one who didn’t get kissed and it was Shane’s choice not to kiss him, that would have been an entirely different level of fallout

Ilya had a hard enough time when he was the one choosing not to kiss Shane, but if Shane slept with him and never kissed him and then left like it was nothing? Mr. Gives Little Forehead Kisses After He Gets Plowed?

Absolutely not. Ilya is face down on the floor. Alexa play sad music heartbreak full volume. Shane Cottage Tour on. Shane Cottage Tour off. Shane Cottage Tour on mute. Text Marly cancel jello shots at club have tuberculosis incurable see you Monday. Google texts that say I am so cool and don’t care about kissing I didn’t even notice did you notice because I didn’t. Text Sveta why men terrible except not him except especially him I mean her I mean girls.

[rainbow-femme]

The book does not hit nearly hard enough with how bad things are for Shane after they’re outed and I need season 2 to crank it up to 11 (like book Shane’s rock bottom is he’s upset enough that he ate a snickers bar)

And not just that, I want it to tear Ilya apart that for months he’s been getting mad and snapping at Shane for fearing this. I want him to see Shane have everything cruelly ripped away while knowing the biggest fight they ever had was Ilya being mad about how afraid Shane was of this and how much he wanted to avoid it, especially with how supportive Ilya’s coach and team are in comparison

Of course Ilya didn’t think it would be so bad, his whole team is behind him as well as his coach

But Shane has his team immediately turn against him, his coach acts furious and disgusted with him, and the immediate punishment is that Shane Hollander, who lives and breathes hockey, who sees his entire identity and worth as a person being his skill in hockey, is told he is indefinitely barred from playing

This man has been told from day one that he has to be perfect, that he cannot ever fuck up, that he cannot be anything less than what is demanded of him every second of the day. And as soon as he’s not what he should be he takes a fucking sledgehammer to the chest made of every fear he ever had made real

This needs to be the thing that finally shatters him and makes him actually cry and stop holding everything in. I don’t want Shane sighing over the phone to show he’s upset, I need this to be viscerally heart breaking and soul crushing for Shane

It is very important to me that Shane was bone deep terrified of this and he was right.

And I want Ilya to sit there helplessly with every comment of “I think it would be fine, I think you’re the one with the problem” playing in his head. I want to see hockey homophobia manifest physically into human form and rip Shane’s heart from his chest while Ilya has to stand there and watch it happen

This is not anti Ilya, I love him, but I want this moment to be for him what it was for Shane to realize all Ilya had sacrificed to move to Ottawa. I want them to both have a moment where they’re horrified by what they’ve asked of the other while acting like it was nothing

For it to hit home just how meaningful it is for Shane to choose Ilya, we need to see him have everything torn away and still declare Ilya is worth it

[beemovieerotica]

if you work in a creative field...or if you do creative hobbies like writing or drawing...you need to make friends with people who don't do those things. you need to befriend normie Steve who has never written a story in his life. and this is because when you are in a creative job or hobby and spend all your time doing that thing, surrounded by very capable people, who you inevitably compare your own progress and skills to, you forget what the baseline human skill at that thing is. and it's usually zero. normie Steve has not written a story since the 3rd grade when his teacher made him do it. he's very good at other things that are not storytelling - but if you tell normie Steve that you wrote a full 300-page book from start to finish, he will think you're some kind of savant. he does not know ANYONE else who has done this. you need this perspective. because when you're constantly on Let's Write Stories dot Com then everyone on Let's Write Stories dot Com will inevitably be like "oh of course everyone on earth has written a book or several at this point!" and you canNOT let yourself think that. that is not even close to the average human experience. you are in a bubble. do not put yourself down. do not give up.

[doctorprofessorsong]

Is this a jeep?

No, its British. Practical. Good in the snow.

[celebrini-martini]

things I feel like I need to correct from hr fics set in Canada that are not written by Canadians:

- we don’t have venmo or cashapp in Canada. We have interact e-transfer which works directly through our banking apps. No secondary party involved regardless of which bank you’re with

- Canada and Russia both use Celsius. With the exception of cooking temps (more likely for Shane), they’d both exclusively use Celsius. Ilya would probably pick up Fahrenheit to a degree after living in Boston, but if it’s 2 people who both come from countries that use Celsius, they’d be using it.

- kilometres. But honestly, in Canada, we’ll tell you how far something is by time it takes to drive there vs actual distance

- fuck it, the metric system in general! Canada and Russia both use the metric system. Ilya wouldn’t change his entire way of thinking after living in the US for a few years, especially having not been raised learning it. With the exception that Shane would know is own height in feet & inches and oven temps in Fahrenheit (thanks america) even though his license would have it in centimetres

- PUT THE U’S AND S’S BACK IN OUR WORDS!!!!!!! it’s colour, neighbour, favourite!!! It’s realise, apologise, organise!!!! Many younger Canadian’s will use ize/yze but it’s purely because of american influence and media. We use British English.

- hate to say it, but if a fic has the guys moving to another US city/having Shane move to the US, I fear you,,,,,, don’t understand gay Canadians. hell, or gay Russians. Regardless of what administration is in office. Montreal is literally known for its gay village. Ottawa is extremely gay too (source: I live in Ottawa)

- no one says ‘hoser’. ‘Eh’ is real, but using it correctly matters. It’s used more when you’re saying something and you believe the other person would be in agreement with you. ‘Nice weather today, eh?’ ‘One snow fall and everyone forgets how to drive, eh?’ ‘Auston Matthews’s should be traded, eh?’

- I get it. There are a lot of American fans. You know American cities and culture. But the heart and soul of this entire series is Canadian and Americanising it is…………too on the nose given the current. Well. Everything going on. Don’t 51st state this series, you sound like your administration.

[jadeinretrogrde]

tumblr users on march 15th

[notahungrywish]

Do we have a Shane goes to Ottawa first fic yet?

I think the dynamic change would be interesting. Shane could get outed, mtl turns on him, he ends up getting traded to Ottawa and is really broken up that his team of so many years hates him and apparently the only team in the league who wants him now is fucking Ottawa.

He’s scared of being brought in as a captain to a brand new team when his last team that he proved himself to and supposedly loved him wouldn’t even respect him as a player anymore. He comes in ready to have a nightmare time trying to lead them, starts off with some speech making it clear that he knows they aren’t happy about this and if they could just overlook him as a person he really thinks they could be a great team together.

Obviously Ottawa is Ottawa about it and Shane gets to be pleasantly shocked that he has their respect right away. He gets to experience a team that fully has his back and gets him and lets him be himself in a way MTL never did. Plus he knows that they respect and appreciate him for him and not as Ilya’s husband which is the vibe I got from the books a little.

Since he’s coming in from a very different place emotionally that Ilya did in the books and because his team is so galvanized by wanting to help prove their gay captain is incredible actually, they all lock in a season earlier and Shane gets to kind of whip them into shape and has more success his first year.

Ottawa knows their genius beloved soft-spoken gay hero captain has a boyfriend because a. he’s not slick and b. they try to be inclusive by setting him up with people or taking him to gay clubs and he has a look of abject horror on his face. So they get very occasional lore drops that make them super curious. They eventually come out as a couple in some dramatic ass way after a championship game against each other by sucking face at center ice at least partially to upstage Scott Hunter. Learning Ilya Rozanov of all people turned out to be the secret boyfriend makes them lose their minds (in a fun way not in a “I think you’re throwing games” way).

Anyway I think it would be healing for Shane to go to Ottawa in this context instead of having it be Ilya’s depression and isolation torment nexus.

[heatedrivalrysource]

via Clark Backo

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Happy plagueiversary

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