DM/Daisy, She/they, Adult, Friendly
Current Fandoms: Resident Evil + Red Dead Redemption
Desired_Misery @ AO3
I have "Evil Little Brain Bugs" (quote by Wayward, about me)
I write some rough stuff, so please be mindful of the tags. Writing is my way to vent/express myself.
Welcome to my first whumptober! I am completing both Whumptober (W) and AiLessWhumptober. (ALW).
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This month's fics are all centered around Leon Kennedy and Ingrid Hunnigan from the Resident Evil games (specifically post-Resident Evil 4). Expect lots of whump, angst, ample sarcasm and sass, and plenty of field agent nonsense from yours truly, Leon "Condor" Kennedy.
Characters: Leon Kennedy, Ingrid Hunnigan (with Chris Redfield and Piers Nivans as a treat). Works below the cut!
*everything will be posted to my AO3 account , but only one is a complete fic. Everything else are scenes of larger fics that have not been completed yet.
THE WORKS
Nonlinear Recovery | Leon Kennedy POV | Scenes
Rating: 13+
Summary: Leon is struggling with medical complications after surviving Spain. While most of his symptoms have cleared up, one in particular is wreaking havoc on his plans to return to his normal life. As normal as his life could be.
Trapped By Circumstance | Leon Kennedy POV | Complete
Rating: 13+
Summary: What he has to do is very simple: don't give up the code words, don't crack, don't suffer serious injury or death, do not give anyone the code words. He needs to prove he can be trusted.
W: Panic Attack [1], Set Up for Failure [3], Sensory Deprivation [4], Sleep Deprivation [8], Fatigue [29]
ALW: Stress Position [1], Sensory Deprivation [12], Defiance [13], Waterboarding [15], Hostile Environment [16], Disassociation [19], Forced to Kneel [22], Electrocution [26], Panic Attack/Facing a Phobia [31], Animal Bite [ALT 3 for 25], Kidnapping [ALT 8 for 18]
Unfortunate Consequences | Ingrid Hunnigan POV | Scenes
Rating: 13+
Summary: It wasn’t Condor’s fault— but damn, his luck can be abysmal at the worst times. Falling through a rickety staircase resulted in the kind of injury that was immediately disqualifying to Condor being able to fulfill the mission objectives. It happened outside of the recon point, an abandoned building-turned-safehouse that clearly needed some maintenance.
W: Heat Stroke [5], "Oh, that's not good" [22]
ALW: Unfortunate Fall [2], Heat Stroke [9]
Left Out | Ingrid Hunnigan POV | Scenes
Rating: 13+
Summary: After Condor gets injured and then almost becomes a casualty of heat stroke, he is back to work. The mission is supposed to easy, light work for him while he is still technically on the mend. With Condor's classic, horrible luck, things so south fast.
W: Only for Emergencies [7], Blackmail [14], "It's not your fault" [20], CCTV [28]
Delayed Guilt | Ingrid Hunnigan + Leon Kennedy POV | Scenes
Rating: 13+
Summary: On the heels of a failed mission, Ingrid hopes this one will go better after getting reassurance that it was nothing more than a horribly unlucky situation. That happens with Condor sometimes. ...Sometimes.
W: Nowhere Else to Go [17], Collapsed Building/Equipment Failure [24]
Disoriented, Cornered | Leon Kennedy + Ingrid Hunnigan POV | Scenes
Rating: Mature
Summary: Severely injured, Leon is reduced to survival instincts that won't allow him to recognize the real world around him.
W: Passing Out from the Pain [10], Unreliable Narrator [18], Body Horror [21], Voiceless/Muzzled [27], Hospital Bed [30]
ALW: Passed Out [23], Delirium [30]
On His Back | Leon Kennedy POV | Scenes
Rating: Mature
Summary: Leon's horrific hospital stay triggers all kinds of horrible thoughts. Thanks to the pain medication he has to take, his nightmares are vivid and intense.
W: Painful Hug [15], Nightmares [26]
ALW: Non-consensual Body Modification [4], "You're so much prettier this way" [8], Hallucinations [11], Ownership [29]
Self Reliance | Leon Kennedy POV | Scenes
Rating: Mature
Summary: At this point, Ingrid knows just how much Leon cannot tolerate doctors. She does everything she can to help, but still, Leon insists he can handle it on his own. He can take care of himself.
Summary: As often as Alpha is deployed, you'd think they'd recognize if they were being shot at. But that's the thing about BOWs; they don't tend to be intelligent enough for that. Within the fog of combat, it takes a while to realize that someone is shooting back.
W: Multiple Whumpees [13], Blood Trail [19], Friendly Fire [ALT for 11]
ALW: Multiple Whumpees [6], Concussion [14], Misunderstanding [17], "I'm absolutely not qualified for this shit" [20], Internal Bleeding [28]
Shared Sleep | Leon Kennedy + Chris Redfield POV | Scenes
Rating: 13+
Summary: Leon has nightmares very often. Leon sharing a bed with someone happens way, way less often. It is not exactly great to dream about zombies when Chris fuckin' Redfield is the one lying next to him.
ALW: Zombies [ALT 4 for 27]
Experiment 537 | Luis Serra + Leon Kennedy POV | Scenes
Rating: Mature
Summary: How Luis Serra becomes friends with an intelligent BOW... who ends up being Leon.
W: Healed Wrong [6]
ALW: Deconditioning [24], Shock Collar [ALT 6 for 3]
I don't know who my intended audience is here, so whoever needs to hear this, I am begging you to learn to participate in conversations that are about things you aren't interested in.
Part of socializing and having friends is being a good listener even when you don't actually give a shit about the subject.
Your are hurting other people's feelings when you bluntly respond with "Anyway..." and then change the topic.
It can not always be about your preferred topic.
You are being rude. Yes, even if you are neurodivergent. You can be both autistic and rude.
i dont think people can just enjoy things anymore. and i dont mean this in a "just let people enjoy things" way i mean people REFUSE to engage with and enjoy something for what it is. the way headcanons and quirky fanart and edits and aus comes before even Knowing The Basic Fucking Themes isnt enjoying something. i refuse to acknowledge it as enjoying any piece of art. it's commodification and i miss seeing blog posts that were essays abt the themes of something instead of people trying to make kwerky hcs abt how two guys can kiss. i get not everything is meant to be high art but id rather over-read something than live in the vapid hellscape of whatever people are doing in fandom these days
Interesting concept. Not sure I can agree with the premise of people enjoying things less overall, but there's lots of implications here that are definitely worth mulling over.
My gut instinct on this is that there are two primary modalities to enjoyment, and people can both switch between them or get stuck in one for such a long time that they might look incapable of switching. And, well... they might be incapable!
Like many of our behaviors, the modality may be dictated by involuntary circumstances— stress, mental health, age, education, social circumstances, job type. And I think we can agree that the modality of surface-level enjoyment is the "easier" process of the two. So it may not be healthy to chronically stay in the surface-level enjoyment, just like it's not healthy to never read books and get all your information off social media, but for many, the deeper-read modality may also be outside of their current capacity to do more difficult things.
Similarly, if we agree that it's the more intensive of the two, I'd propose that it's actually healthy to take breaks from the deeper-read enjoyment too bc all of our mental faculties need breaks or varied usage for a more rested brain and more adaptive thinking. Like OP said, "not everything is meant to be high art," but I'd like to go a step further and invoke "slow down and smell the roses" as an argument for the benefits of using both modalities regularly, even if you have to develop this skill. You should be able to "slow down" and process an encounter with new ideas to give yourself the chance to use deeper-read modality but also be able to "smell the roses" and take a break from describing or composing poetry about roses to... just... smell... using surface-level modality.
A point of contention over this can definitely arise in social settings (see: fandom) where likely everyone has a different balance of how much time they spend in each modality. For my comparison, I'll set aside people who are really taking things just one day at a time right now and have zero energy or patience for deeper-read enjoyment while they try to recover.
Let's say that at a party, Person A, who is naturally disposed to using surface-level enjoyment more often, finds themself sitting next to Person B, who is naturally disposed to using deeper-read enjoyment more often. After trying and failing for an hour to enjoy each other's company, they finally go their separate ways to find less frustrating people to talk with. Person A is frustrated that their simple pleasures are not being affirmed, that each topic is being deprived of its luster by taking it seriously at a party without any room to relax and let the conversation be frivolous. Person B is frustrated that the value of their analysis is not being affirmed, that each topic is being abandoned as soon as it is brought up without any room to discuss possible implications.
It's not impossible for Person A and Person B to coexist and even become friends someday, but in order for a friendship to develop, they'd probably need to find topics on which they synchronize modalities. Perhaps after a few more encounters at these shindigs, they finally discover that there's a movie they both prefer to enjoy with a deeper-read, but they also both follow a subreddit with dumb posts that they want to cackle about using surface-level engagement.
Alternatively, they may meet again outside of a party, perhaps running into each other at a museum, and Person B will notice that Person A is using a lot more deeper-read modality in the new context. Perhaps Person B will really like spending time with Person A in museums, enough to try slipping into surface-level modality at the next party so they can stay synchronized. Similarly, many people participate in fandom as their primary surface-level enjoyment, while others show up almost exclusively for deeper-read enjoyment, and we can't really guess without getting to know someone how they enjoy things offline.
I didn't want to dig through responses, but on my brief glance, I saw mention of turbulent disagreement, and that his ideas about enjoyment have brought OP a lot of grief. Not to excuse but merely contemplate, a knee-jerk defensiveness of being jostled to expend more energy makes sense; asking to take on higher cognitive loads is similar to how many people are (sometimes extremely) touchy when reminded they should be exercising for the benefit of their own mobility. Generally, there's an invisible reason for that touchiness (disability, mental health, they get plenty of physical activity during their day job and need rest, wrong place wrong time for health advice, etc).
So all that said, I meant what I said above, that I propose these modalities are skills, in the sense that someone who struggles with over-analysis might benefit from developing mindfulness skills and learning how to enjoy the simple here and now. It may not be easy or fun, but it has its benefits.
Similarly, I agree with OP that slowly building a higher capacity for deeper-read enjoyment can be very valuable if a person finds that they've fallen into a habit of surface-level pleasure only. Outside the context of fandom, embracing some discomfort to unlock a more frequent deeper-read enjoyment could bring benefits to a person's mental health, relationships, ability to focus, and creative output, while also reinforcing the related skill of critical thinking.
The tricky part here is that we can't know, from the outside looking in, and especially not through screens, keyboards, and many miles of internet cable, whether such a self-improvement intervention is appropriate for everyone who we only ever see enjoying things at the surface-level during their fandom activities.
i bring a sort of “you should maybe interrogate your so-called ‘preferences’ to make sure they’re not literal textbook examples of severe unconscious bias” vibe that my woke gay friends dont really like
i bring a sort of “you should maybe interrogate your so-called ‘preferences’ to make sure they’re not literal textbook examples of severe unconscious bias” vibe that my woke gay friends dont really like
annie leonhart x f!reader - bodyguard au - part one of six
"This will ruin—"
Stopping herself, Annie screws her lips together. You know: her true emotions are sealed tight by a contract signed in ballpoint blue. Your back rests against the cool wall, chilling your burning skin.
"Go ahead. Say it."
Her palms cage you in, as if it's her only way to make you stay.
(It is her job. It was her purpose.)
In hesitation, temptation lingers. Despite her protests, her gaze continuously drop to your mouth. Instinctually you lean in, mingling breaths into one.
"This will ruin everything," she falters in a whisper.
Devotedly, you repent. "Then let it."
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This one gets me in the gut like . . . man fandom is such an important, intergral part of the internet and media that connects millions. Its really moving to see glimpses of its effects the ripples of it from the past. The importance of Star Trek can never be understated in fandom, it makes me so emotional to see this.
The most important thing you can do in this life is write hyper-specific fanfiction for you and six other people. Don’t believe anything else you read.
They should just bite the bullet and make a female James Bond. Hot, athletic, suave. She wears tuxedos with a somewhat feminine cut, drinks vodka martinis, drives sports cars, and goes by "James", because why not.
Also, because this is incredibly important to Bond for some reason, she needs to be an incredibly predatory, womanizing lesbian. Some perfectly happy married straight woman needs to become gay by the end of the movie.
We live in the future, and we can admit that all of the cool things that a Male James Bond can do are things a Female James Bond can do. But at all costs, we need to avoid making this thing feel "woke" of self-aware. If Female Bond is not exactly as toxic and awesome as any of the male ones, we will have failed, and might as well be making another franchise.
