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I am doing a thing and absolutely no one in my real life will care.
I’m making Hollanov Build a Bears. Here’s Ilya’s mockup and a few before photos.
Does anyone know how to remove the big arm patches off the jersey?
if i had nickel for every time i hyperfixated on a sporty european bisexual with light hair and a bad father and brother, that fell in love with a gay neurodivergent with dark hair, an ED, and a distinct facial feature from a tv show that’s a book adaptation with a title that starts with an “H”, i’d have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice.
bonus:
I actually fucking screamed!!! Kit as any of the hockey boys or Joe as Harris???
Tearing this off my inspiration wall. I kept it because it was still a truth that I believed but having it sit there knowing how his empathy failed and the stories of those he abused were dismissed . . . I can’t feel inspired by him anymore.
God I liked fandom better before I had Twitter. I love taking fandom seriously, but not this seriously, folks. For fucks sake.
I forget how young the Heartstopper fandom is at times. Because we are anonymous, I think I’m talking to other adults with the benefit of life experiences. The Sherlock fandom was a lot of middle aged women like me. Heartstopper, not so much.
Their age doesn’t negate their experiences and thoughts, but it does remind me we come from different places. They are mostly the age of my students.
A lot are pissed because Ben is going to be in the second season. Ben is a good character. He provides a good foil for Nick to see everything he does not want to be as a human and as a boyfriend to Charlie. He’s also an abuser who sexually assaults Charlie. Abusive people exist in the world. And although Ben in the book literally doesn’t appear again, the TV show is different. Abusers don’t actually disappear after the assault. They are inconveniently on class trips or at a movie or at a party. That’s realistic. So for Alice to write him into the second season isn’t condoning him by any means. Oh yeah. Fuck Ben Hope.
Season 2 Heartstopper / Solitaire book spoilers: Now season 2 is out I feel sort of justified in my assessment. Alice really did use Ben as a foil to Nick. But I just read a criticism from a website saying Ben wasn’t necessary to Season 2. Here’s why I think that’s wrong:
1) Ben haunting Nick as everything Nick doesn’t want to be is made much more overt because it’s TV - not comics. Some of the taunting and saying he wants Charlie back could be considered over-the-top for a closeted guy who is denying that he’s even gay, I’ll concede that point.
2) The Ben/Imogen thing is the Becky/Ben thing from Solitaire but it ends much better. I didn’t want to see Charlie get punched or Nick fight Ben. I want Charlie to have closure and tell him off. Bonus that it was Rhea and Bash who came up with Benogen and pitched it to Alice.
Charlie using the “I don’t have to forgive you” speech on Harry makes less sense because he and Nick aren’t out at that point. Giving it to Ben is a pretty good move.
3) If Ben / the bullying has affected Charlie so much that it’s caused long term mental health issues (which it HAS) then we need to have at least some concrete reminders of that. Ben is concrete in a way that “bullying” isn’t really. That has to be there if the end of the last episode is going to work. Nick needs to understand a fraction of the absolute fucking courage it takes for Charlie to get up every day and face people who have hurt him.
4) Does Ben “earn” the confession at the end? I don’t know. I think I’m going to pay more attention on the rewatch. Ben’s narrative does swing from “I’m not gay and Charlie is worthless and desperate” to “Nick ruined a good thing but I’ll get my boyfriend back.” I don’t see a moment where that looks like it swings to regret at all. Is he sincere at the end? I think he is as sincere as Ben is capable of being. But he can’t quite get there, as illustrated by the rainbow.
5) hear me out: it is important for abuse/SA victims to understand that perpetrators are humans. Flawed humans that we may have loved at one time, but their flaws do not and never will justify their treatment of the victim. This is a critical understanding because so much of media is “the abuser is a monster.” That can be very alienating and shame inducing for someone who struggles with any feelings toward their abuser. “I must deserve the abuse because I still love this monster” or “this isn’t abuse because I know he isn’t a monster.” “He isn’t a monster but he is still responsible for the abuse” is a much healthier narrative.
All in all, Ben’s inclusion on Season2 was done well and was necessary.
And fuck Ben Hope. As always.
And now I’m in Heated Rivalry fandom, I’m realizing age had zero to do with it.
Middle aged fans are just as toxic.
the other day i saw a tiktok of a woman talking about how her hyper-militant abusive parents would sometimes punish her by “taking away her name” and referring to her as a prisoner number. genuinely terrible stuff, obviously. but i skimmed the comments and. listen. i truly DO NOT mean to dunk too hard on this person, like they could be a kid or something, but.
just. breathtaking. imagine if your primary reference for the concept of the un-personing of prisoners was (check notes) a book series about owls.
This is why it's important to Include stuff like this in fiction, especially ya fiction. It can be a lot of sheltered and/or indoctrinated children, in the case of a lot of rural "Christians", first introduction to these types of concepts in a way they can understand.
I don't think there's anything weird or shameful about it. Knowledge is knowledge, regardless of where it came from.
I was once listening to one of the ten billion animorphs podcasts out there, with two hosts, one who'd read Animorphs as a kid and one who was reading it for the first time as an adult. For those who don't know, Animorphs is a war story in which a handful of children have to secretly hold off an alien invasion until the "good" aliens arrive to save Earth. It starts off with fairly clear-cut Bad Species of aliens and Good Species of aliens but as the series goes on it becomes clear that there is no such thing as a good, clean or glorious war, that a clean Good Side and a clean Bad Side is usually propoganda, that heroism is a matter of circumstance and that war will chew up and spit out even the victorious; there are no winners in war, just the side that lost less.
It's a lot, for books aimed at eleven year olds who want to read about kids turning into fun animals.
On the podcast, the two (American) hosts happened to get onto the topic of the post-9/11 Iraq War and their reactions to it. They were both children at the time and as such could not be expected to have particularly nuanced views of US military policy. The person who hadn't read Animorphs was unsurprised by the declaration of war; that's what you did. Someone attacks America, America goes to war. That's how a country protects itself, through military revenge. The Animorphs fan, about the same age, had been devastated and against the war from the start. War was a Big Deal and, while sometimes unavoidable, should be a last resort; a lot of people were going to die, and a lot more were going to get hurt, and no matter how the war shook out it was still going to be horrible. They attributed this perspective, of course, to the series that had taught them about the horrors endemic to war in an engaging way at such a young age -- to Animorphs.
That's what kid fiction is for.
For anyone wondering if the tradition of philosophically transformative middle grade SFF series is being continued by more recent authors, the answer is yes: most specifically, Wings of Fire by Tui T. Sutherland (who also, under a different pen name, wrote some of the Warrior Cats books). The main story, which follows a bunch of young dragons as they deal with prophecies, magic, friendship, love and belonging, is told in three series, each consisting of five books, all of which I read aloud to my son at bedtime over a period of several years. Though also funny, colourful and moving, the core themes go harder than they have any right to, and by the end, Sutherland - like K.A. Applegate and Kathryn Lasky before her - is not remotely in the vicinity of fucking about.
Specifically, to give a breakdown of the themes in each book:
Series 1: The Dragonet Prophecy
The Dragonet Prophecy - What if you were raised by abusive caregivers who lied to you about your origins and who want you to be a warrior for the cause, but your greatest strength is kindness.
The Lost Heir - What if you were forced to confront the terrible cost of fighting vs the imperative of survival vs the burden of autonomy, and also you learned you'd accidentally killed your own father.
The Hidden Kingdom - What if you were told your whole life that you were lazy, unwanted and useless, but all the things your abusers disdained are actually your greatest strengths, and you succeed by embracing what they failed to value.
The Dark Secret - What if you find the home and the family you've always wanted, but your dad is a war criminal, your people are bent on genocide, and you have to choose between your own potential belonging and what you know to be right.
The Brightest Night - What if the single uncompromising principle you carry through war, betrayal and horror is the hope that people can be better, and then your hope wavers. What if you choose hope anyway and, in so doing, make it into a different sort of prophecy.
Series 2: The Jade Mountain Prophecy
Moon Rising - What if you had a secret about yourself that gave you legitimate grounds to fear that you'd be hated, killed or harmed if you disclosed it, such that your only confidant becomes someone dangerous. How do you learn to accept yourself while still staying safe?
Winter Turning - What if you've been raised in a high-control caste system but are starting to question your parents, your society and your role in life.
Escaping Peril - What if you're a former child soldier who was once manipulated into committing atrocities by the abusive monster who claimed to be the only person who'd ever love you, such that you still, despite everything, desperately want to please her? What if you struggle to be good anyway, even when almost everyone else is afraid of you?
Talons of Power - What if you were terrified of your own power, which you've been told can so easily make you a monster, but a bigger monster is threatening everything and everyone you love, forcing you to invent from whole cloth the philosophical thesis that power is inherently neither good or bad, and that what corrupts is feeling entitled to use it without check or consequence?
Darkness of Dragons - What if you were the hyper-competent, hyper-vigilant, clever child tasked with stopping a war, and the ultimate key to doing so is to force everyone to confront their shared identity and abandon historical prejudice (which was, itself, founded on deliberate propaganda).
Series 3: The Lost Continent Prophecy
The Lost Continent - What if you were the poster child for the model minority myth in a highly policed society, convinced that if you just obey the rules and do as you're told, you'll be safe and protected, only to have this illusion brutally ripped away and eventually conclude that oppressive systems cannot changed by internal reform; they can only be torn down.
The Hive Queen - What if you belonged to the oppressive majority in a bigoted society but came to be emotionally and politically allied with the oppressed. How do you unlearn the privilege you still have (even though you've also been somewhat outcast within your own majority) without denying your own identity or succumbing to self-pity?
The Poison Jungle - What if you're part of a hidden minority whose members are all survivors of an attempted genocide, raised in what is functionally a terrorist cell to take revenge on the people who tried to exterminate your kind. How do you unlearn the extremism of your upbringing in order to both exist as a person in your own right and choose a path to the future that doesn't involve an endless cycle of retributive violence? (And also you're a lesbian.)
The Dangerous Gift - What if you were raised in the dragon-world equivalent of a white supremacist society, hateful and angry and terrified of everyone you've been told is an intrinsic danger to your very existence while also being your inferior. How do you unlearn the bigotry of your raising and steadily become a kinder, better, stronger person in a way that acknowledges that transition instead of pretending it never happened?
The Flames of Hope - What if the open wound at the heart of the world was the twisted legacy of empire: centuries of genocide, violence and warfare that continued to self-perpetuate long after the initial cause was forgotten, because that's what cycles of violence do. What if you reached through time to the very first victim whose anguish started the cycle and offered them comfort, and in return, they gave you mercy. What if you were a fully grown adult reading the denouement of this book aloud to your child while actively weeping.
Like! I cannot emphasize enough how this series is rooted in the emotional thesis that some parents/caregivers are abusive, that it's good to ask questions, and that even if bad things happen to you, you still have a responsibility to be kind to others, because hurt you don't deal with becomes a generational inheritance, and then it just... makes that bigger.
The point being: middle grade books that make kids think about these issues are actually doing such important work, and the fact that they might be about owls or dragons or warrior cats or shapeshifting aliens doesn't make them silly; it's what makes those concepts accessible to the intended audience, not just by disguising the difficult bits in something cool and fantastical, but because the horror would cut too close without them.
If you’re over 30 and write and/or read fan fiction, reblog!
Hudson Williams backstage at SNL
Some teachers got an email saying we aren’t allowed to call kids by alternate names or pronouns unless we ask their parents.
I’m sorry, what??? Granted, I’m old but kids being beaten by their parents for sexuality/ gender identity was very much a thing.
I will never out a child.
Fucking fire me. I dare you.
I was also told we call the superintendent if ICE shows up…
And then what? Give them a tour and show the learning targets posted on the board?
20 years of armed intruder training. I will seal this classroom up like Fort fucking Knox before you take any of them.
If you didn’t want me to protect these kids, you shouldn’t have taught me to take a bullet for them.
As an old lady in my 50s now (just barely, k) I have been hilariously surprised at all the old cis-het ladies in Heated Rivalry fandom spaces who haven’t been in a fandom like this since they were teenagers. Mostly Facebook because that’s where the older folks hang.
“What’s wrong with me?” They ask as they fan themselves with paperbacks about gay hockey players.
I’m kinda their mlm fandom guide here.
Okay, mommas, take your hormones. (Am jealous because I’m on hormone blockers and feel the estrogen leaching out of me day by day…)
And let’s go over basic rules.
There’s nothing wrong with you. You are allowed to enjoy your gay hockey show. Over and over if you like. You’re probably somehow in the spectrum of male attracted females and you have eyes. Thems some attractive men having attractive sex.
You are allowed to look at actor interviews and giggle and swoon and maybe even think naughty thoughts. I mean. . .
But . . . even as actors that out there for you to look at in a show, they aren’t -yours-. They are humans and pretty young ones at that. Be respectful. They don’t owe you access to their private lives, their partners, their sexuality.
Remember Kit Connor.
Don’t shove Queer people out of the conversations. It’s a Queer show and you’re in a Queer space, even if it is also pretty obviously aimed at male attracted women too. Be a good guest here. I’ve see a lot of female fans responding to Queer men in the fandom with suspicion, like it’s perverted for them to enjoy the exact same scenes you do.
Enjoy being in this goofy, silly, fun fandom space for a while. But you don’t suddenly own queer male sex or anything. Don’t gatekeep it. Don’t stalk the actors. Do a bit of critical thinking about “what it all means” but also have fun.
(PS Your posts on most the Facebook groups are public, grandma. Keep the thirst at a respectable level so your cousin Susie doesn’t show them to Aunt Pat after church on Sunday.)
Come to tumblr.
this is the funniest thing ive seen inmy entire life
Heated Rivalry is a closed door hockey romance in the sense that they fade to black on the hockey. The sex is explicit, but the hockey is implied.
Dismiss x1000000.
Do you ever yearn for the relationship of two middle aged fictional men who only aren’t dating yet because the writers are cowards
Being a teacher is like 1000 million tiny little annoying things that don’t matter — kids repeating a meme phrase because it’s pissing off the autistic kid and me having to threaten them with write ups if I ever hear it again because they are just being assholes. But then . . . Suddenly. . . big important thing happens and we have to make decisions suddenly that might affect the rest of a kid’s life and I have to hope to god that all the social services do what what they are supposed to do.