Small Fish in a Big Pond

Hello. This is a blog with various fandom stuff, basically making it like every other tumblr blog. There's some cursing and ranting sometimes, but otherwise it's a pretty safe place. Hope you enjoy!

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recent of my anxiety sketching

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@jesters-doll: To Jester, what if we wanted to be one of your fools to be closer to you? Would you accept us as a personal pet?

I do wonder which part of that idea appeals to you most. The loss of dignity, the loss of freedom, or... simply the attention?

@thenerdasourus: YIPPEEEEE HAPPY 1 YEARR Question for Jester: do you have any habits or hobbies that you consider a bit childish, but can't seem to let go of? I honestly doubt it as you seem very mature and sophisticated, but I have to ask anyway

While some people seem to think reading can be childish in some respect, I certainly don't see it the same. Otherwise, there is nothing I can think of I would label as such.

@sephy-sephy: To Jester: uh well.. sir? I always wondered since I heard you have some sadistic tendencies, what do you think about masochism? Or BDSM in general? >///<

I'm curious to know where you've heard such... rumors. What exactly gave you that impression?~ Was it something I said… or something you enjoyed hearing?

@ilydylm: To Jester: if you could go back in time in your life, what would you change/do differently, if anything?

At one time, I might have answered differently, but no— it is foolish. The past is beyond my reach, and I see little value in obsessing over things that cannot be changed.

@nikoricircus: to Jester: Are there any requirements MC needs to meet in order for you to accept them in the family?

Yes. Leaving.

@richuarts: For Jester: what is one of your favorite things/gift you've been given by someone in your family or whole family in general? (And no, the gift of having a nice family doesn't count, or pierrot and harlequin not fighting for one day lol).

I don't concern myself with material gifts. However, I do own a blue hair clip that's proven unexpectedly useful. An irritatingly practical object, considering how insignificant it looks.

@sillyweirdguyhehe: For the circus diva😋, Jester: What are the future plans for the circus? I mean, do you have any goals or something also u want to achieve apart from the circus? Or you are gonna stay doing the same thing the rest of your lives?

I admire your confidence. Not everyone can use the wrong word so decisively. The circus is ours now. What comes next will be far more impressive. Magnificent, even. Whether you'll find it pleasant is another matter entirely.

@pinky27freak: To our mommy dearest, Jester~ I know the nomadic life style limits what one can buy and collect, however if you could what things (besides books) would you like to collect? Example, I like to collect black amethyst carnival glass.

Sigh.... Keeping things has never interested me much. They have a habit of disappearing before long. Monsters appear. Places burn. Circumstances change. You learn not to grow attached.

@andermancer: For Jester: Which circus acts/tricks/abilities does each circus member perform best and, if you may bless me with the alternative, worst? Such as aerial, acrobatic, juggling, acts of strength, etc etc.

We offer a variety of performances. Pierrot handles aerial acrobatics. Harlequin excels at acting and fire-eating. Ticket Taker is a magician of considerable skill. Doctor is particularly effective when it comes to atmosphere and performance. That's all you need to know visitor.

@ronixx360: Jester, how did you come up with the rules and the acts for each member of the circus?

Rules tend to appear whenever something has the potential to go wrong. They exist to ensure nobody gets hurt. As for the attractions... those developed more naturally. We simply discovered what suited each of us best.

[brookw0rm]

"You should have listened, my dear Visitor. Now... there will be consequences."

(SFW Version)

[summeryseaserpent]

Experimenting with some different brushes. Trying to make a more spooky vibe.

[lnzlnz]

一周年

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@de-lirio-arts: To pierrot, do you have any cherished memories with harlequin?

Ah, yes, my dear. We used to invent games and find new ways to hunt. It took us quite some time to become good at it.

@margiux-otaku-blog: To pierrot: if you could sleep with MC, would you prefer to sleep on them or have them sleep on you? (Happy birthday TFC and thank you Neko for your work <3)

S-Sleep...w-with...? Are you certain I can? Is this true? May I--? Oh...what a privilege, to be so close. My dearest, I would be more than happy to lay on your bed however you'd like me to~

@reiibleehh: For Pierrot <3 <3 Can you tell us more about how you and Harlequin survived before you met the other members?

Harlequin and I? Ahn, we used to hunt at night, and we were very good at hiding. Once, we were almost caught by a… rather frightening creature! Harlequin went completely pale, and his hands would not stop trembling.

@satire-please: To Pierrot and/or Harlequin: When Pierrot wanted us to come back that night, he mentioned rides. What kind of rides are at the circus?

Would you like to see the rides? That depends greatly on where we are. We have had Ferris wheels, carousels, and even a Viking ship ride before! Most of the time, however, it is the game stalls and prize booths.

@godblessdoppo: To dear Pierrot: What are your fears? Don't say losing me!!!

My… fear? I… I am afraid that you may not like who I truly am.

@zelysia: Yay! Happy anniversary to The Freak Circus! My question for Pierrot: If you hadn't become a circus clown, what would you do for a living to support your daily life? And what is the reason behind that choice? Thank you, I love you so much mwah <3

Working as a baker, making bread and cakes, sounds rather enjoyable. Perhaps I would own a bakery or a small restaurant. I do enjoy cooking and experimenting with new recipes, my dear.

@scneqx: for pierrot, if you could change one thing about your costume what would it be?

In truth, I am quite fond of my outfit. It is comfortable and soft. I might have chosen a different color, but… red suits me best.

@xiny1234: To Pierrot: What's one small comfort item you carry everywhere with you?

I do not believe I have a comfort object, my dear. We moved so many times, and often in great haste due to… accidents. My family has become my source of comfort now. T-That said, I would be delighted to have something from you, should you wish to give me a gift!

@kouwritter: For Pierrot: Hope you have a wonderful day. Can you please tell us a memory with the other circus members (your family) that made you feel so happy and warm knowing you aren't alone?

It was a long time ago, when I was still gradually growing accustomed to the other four. Harlequin and I went hunting, but we were unable to find any food. We returned exhausted and hungry. Yet when we arrived back at our little refuge, the others were waiting for us with food to share. It was such a warm and comforting feeling.

@dandewiondweams: Dearest Pierrot I am a bit curious of your favorite fairytail is and why? Mine is beauty and the best, there's many variations I've stumbled upon and fallen enamored by each one! Perhaps one day we can read and exchange our favorites together!

My favorite? I believe it is called... "The Moon Monster" Ah! I think it may be a story from where I came from. But why do you like Beauty and the Beast, my dear? Does the Beast not frighten you? Being confined to a cage against your will, left alone with a frightening monster…

[neuehell]

Tell me when you get bored. A story about doses. [x]

I posted this on twitter and had a variety of aggressive ableism thrown my way.

This is a story about changing what I can in spite of what I cannot for the comfort of my loved ones. The thing that others find to be hurtful about me is that I like to spend time in silent solitude. People who love me often feel hurt that I tend to solve my own problems instead of leaning on them.

When we spend too much time together, people find my neutrality to be concerning, and it becomes too much for people to be unable to read me.

To show the people I love that I enjoy their company in ways they can understand, I pool my energy together to be high-energy, peppy, and social. Since this is not my natural state of being, it takes effort, which can only be expended in small doses. I amplify the things people like in me while filtering out everything they dislike about me when I am in their company.

I change my behaviors for those I love, but at the end of the day, I cannot change my neutral state of being, which is the thing that they want most out of me.

This is a story about me accommodating people in the best way I know how, not the other way around. I would truly appreciate it if people don't misconstrue this anecdote as me asking for dismissal of hurtful behavior when in reality, people find hurt in the fact that I simply exist, and I must change for them.

[succumbing-song]

[dragon-in-a-fez]

[flonejapassingby]

Happy gay everybody

[beardedmrbean]

[thehealingplum]

Okay since my pole dancing question was answered. I'm going to go ahead and share this funny scenario because I adore Harlequin so much.

[oisenoise]

[lokh1]

‘how would other people describe you’ why would i know this

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@thehealingplum: To Harlequin: Can you pole dance?

Care to find out? I'll give you a private demonstration if you come with me~.

@vicimaaurantica: To Harlequin: What's the heaviest thing you carried? (Just wanna know how strong you are 👉👈 ik pierrot is the strongest but i love harlequin iiihhh)

Oh, a few crates here and there. I'm sure I can carry you if that's what you're worried about~.

@penelopepeace: I'm a big fan of the game and congratulations for Neko for having a big fan following of the game. For Harlequin: Doctor is known for being dense when someone is trying to get his romantic interests. Had there been a time where you seen it happening and what did you think about how hard the person had been trying to get Doctor's romantic interests?

You came to me... just to ask about someone else? How rude. I have never seen anyone get that close to him before. Now then, how are you going to make it up to me for sharing that information~?

@ice-cream-nekogirl: Happy Anniversary! As for my question: To Harlequin: You're a very bold kinda guy and I like that, would you be willing to pose for an artist MC so they could draw you?

How could I refuse? Come to my tent tonight, dear one. I will even try to stay still for you… though I can't promise I won't distract you~

@bootymclovin: What kind of scent would you like on MC? Whether it be their natural scent, yours, or something floral

Oh, my scent, of course. Why settle for a perfume when you could carry a reminder of me instead~?

@emoratb0y: To Harlequin: Do you have/ would you want any tattoos?

It does sound tempting. Unfortunately, Jester would never allow it, and I have a feeling any tattoo on me would have a rather short life expectancy~

@doctor-byakko: To the horny green goblin Harlequin: If you were a streamer, what kind of content would you stream about?

Horny Green Goblin, huh? What a title. I suppose I've been called worse by people with less imagination~ Though if that's how you see me, perhaps I'm already giving you exactly the kind of content you came for~

@yummyducks22 To Harlequin: What was your relationship like with your family and siblings, if you had any siblings?

Trying to learn more about me? How adorable~ I would say my relationship with my parents was… perfectly natural. We kept our independence and rarely interfered with one another's affairs.

@normalcheck68: (Hi, this is an incredible opportunity that I would love to participate in, thank you for the opportunity and for the wonderful game that was given to us!) To Harlequin: Let's say you're in charge of the circus for a whole day. For some reason, Jester and the Ticket Tacker had to leave, and it was just you, the Doctor, and Pierrot. What would you do?

Oh, the things I would do, dear one~ First, we'd put Pierrot in a cage and advertise him as a terrifying beast from some faraway land~

As for Doctor... perhaps we could let him roam freely through a haunted attraction, chasing visitors through the dark. Imagine their faces when they realize he isn't part of the act~

[rockybloo]

Some art I did a bit ago of Dolly because I wanted to test my abilities (and patience) and draw all her braids myself.

[theredcanvas]

No plans, just wanna draw him lol

[0ne-worm]

Which Team are you joining?

Comedy

Mystery

Tragedy

Remaining time: 2 days 4 hours

I might do Tragedy bc blue but there's a change I pick Mystery. I also think Mystery will win