dori

bi panic — join me on a long journey to healing.

[dorian--thinks]

no one talks abt being in a qpr while not being aro. im ace, my qpr is aro. i love him to bits, but i know he'll never really love me the way i need. hes my best friend in the whole world and i wouldnt want anyone else to be with all the time. but if i wanted an actual relationship, it would feel like cheating because hes my number one. i crave the intimate non-sexual nature of relationship, the hand holding and kissing, the love notes, waking up together in bed, flirting badly. but i wouldnt ask it from him, never. he doesnt like that stuff, nor does he want it. So i guess ill be what he needs. i dont really know how i need to be loved.

[dorian--thinks]

im not your enemy, so who are you pretending to be?

[dorian--thinks]

emma myers as pippa might be my undoing

[dorian--thinks]

if someone loved me the way alexander loved hephaestion, maybe i wouldn't be so bitter

[dorian--thinks]

guys what is it like to kiss someone

[dorian--thinks]

pippa fitz-amobi is pansexual.

[dorian--thinks]

grief is so strange. in 13 days, i will celebrate my mum's 10th death anniversary. i miss her. did i ever really know her?

[dorian--thinks]

my friend and i found this creek like thing next to our school

[dorian--thinks]

i love my friends and i love helping my friends but sometimes listening to them vent is too much

[dorian--thinks]

i dreamt i was diagnosed with cancer.

[dorian--thinks]

i ate two whole mangoes.

give me more.

[dorian--thinks]

somehow i keep becoming friends w ppl who do horrible shit and have now started redeeming themself and im helping them becom redeemable. i am the redemption man.

[dorian--thinks]

i relapsed. so much for being hopeful all the time ig

i wish i had someone to talk to abt this

[dorian--thinks]

i have a vitamin deficiency but im so tempted to throw away the tablets. i dont think i care

[dorian--thinks]

i am so chalant

i bawled my eyes out at leavers

[dorian--thinks]

ENGLISH LANGUAGE PAPER ONE!!!!!!;

[dorian--thinks]

i hate this place but im still sad to leave