dori

bi panic — join me on a long journey to healing.

[dorian--thinks]

if anything, ill drown

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how i feel venting to my alt account as if it's a different person

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i feel sorry for you, but that doesnt excuse what you did.

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sometimes i wish i had the courage to ask if i could vent to my friends. then i remember that they're all going through their own things and i cant expect them to listen to my problems when they have their own

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and for just one month, it was as though my father had never remarried at all. as though he had really let us mourn. but when i come home again, i know it will only be a fantasy.

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does anyone else find the bangladesh song on tiktok rlly annoying. like stfu pls its such a corny ass song and doesnt make any sense. it also feels like a strange way to mock bangladeshis. maybe im reading into it

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sometimes i think the world is cruel for making me so lonely.

then i speak with a friend.

but now i am alone again.

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SOME RADQUEER FOLLOWED ME EARLIER WHO IS ALSO PRO TRANSID AND PRO ENDO SYSTEM FUCK OFFFFFF

WHAT MADE YOU THINK THIS WAS A SAFE SPACE FOR YOU????

im gonna cry this is so fucking insane

they like like five of my posts talking about being ex muslim. half their reblogs are just criticising islam. like, i dislike the religion as much as the next person but i can tell you're just NOT an ex muslim. i know its exclusionary but i mostly try to listen to ex muslims on the topic since we are the people who were directly affected by the religion. everything else very well can be linked to racism. not to mention why are you ONLY criticising islam? what about christianity and judaism?? i focus on islam because i GREW UP MUSLIM i have more of a say and i dont know every difference between each abrahamic faith

anyway yeah no radqueer get out of my face... transid is so crazy. like you support rcta??? transabled??? paraphilias??? (mind you, i think paraphiles who do NOT act on their attraction do deserve help, however, if you do you have issuesss) what. the. hell. as a poc and medically ill individual LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE THIS IS NOT A SAFE SPACE FOR YOU

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relapsed a bit of a crazed whi. then immediately my bracelet breaks.

i made the bracelet as an offering to lady athena.

what the heck should i do?

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theres a certain poeticism in today. i went to visit my mums grave with my dad and brother, wearing a red dress. my dad and brother both wore green hoodies. opposing, yet complementary.

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its been ten years mum... i miss you.

why did god need you more than i did?

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no one talks abt being in a qpr while not being aro. im ace, my qpr is aro. i love him to bits, but i know he'll never really love me the way i need. hes my best friend in the whole world and i wouldnt want anyone else to be with all the time. but if i wanted an actual relationship, it would feel like cheating because hes my number one. i crave the intimate non-sexual nature of relationship, the hand holding and kissing, the love notes, waking up together in bed, flirting badly. but i wouldnt ask it from him, never. he doesnt like that stuff, nor does he want it. So i guess ill be what he needs. i dont really know how i need to be loved.

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im not your enemy, so who are you pretending to be?

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emma myers as pippa might be my undoing

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if someone loved me the way alexander loved hephaestion, maybe i wouldn't be so bitter

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guys what is it like to kiss someone

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pippa fitz-amobi is pansexual.