Dream Journal of Girly

Second side blog of npcerror404. Dreams will be tagged if they're NSFW or have NSFW themes. Hopefully I can post here daily if I can remember my dreams each night.

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07/08/24 Horrible Feelings...

In this dream, my twin & I are visiting my dad. We are having a good time until I remember we have to go back soon. We are headed to a movie theater, and I start crying. I tell my dad I don't want to leave, I want to stay with him, but he and my sister convinced me that we had to go back. I calm down eventually. At the movie theater, everyone is staring at us, like they're angry at us for walking in even though we're quiet. When I sit next to someone, he angrily gets up and starts walking away. I try to tell him I can sit somewhere else if it bothers him, but he just keeps walking. I feel bad as I sit and watch the movie. The people around me stare back angrily every time I look at anyone. When the movie ends, we head to my sisters car so we can leave. My dad gives us a cake in a plastic container. It's a simple cake with fruit on it. We thank him, and then it falls and slams onto its face in the container. My sister and I are suddenly alone in a room with the cake. The room looks like an empty classroom. I pick up the container, open it, and start eating the cake with my bare hands. My sister starts yelling at me that I'm embarrassing her. I start crying again, but this time, it's hard to breathe. I fall to my knees and clutch my throat while reaching for my sister. She's glaring at me as she says I'm faking it to make her feel sorry for me, and then slams the door in my face. I wake up and find out I can't breathe because my face is shoved into my pillow.

Morning mood: Scared, sad, ashamed, upset.

Note: My sister loves me and is one of my biggest supporters ever. I don't know why, but the people that I love always act so awful in my dreams. At best, they either ignore me or don't know me, or at worst, they're actively hurting me. I know they wouldn't do this, but it's like my dreams show me the worst possiblities. I just want to have good dreams again. They've all been emotional nightmares recently. I just want to be okay again.

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06/22/24 Date Gone Wrong

In this dream, I have a job. While I'm on the job, a coworker asks me out on a date. He's older, kinda close to my dads age, but I decide to give him a chance. We go to Chili's, he says he'll pay and we have a great time. The next thing I know, we're at his house, and he's lying in his bed. He asks me to join him, and when I do, he starts to get handsy. I don't mind it at first, but when I look at him again, he's now my ex. I stopped talking to him because he flirted with my best friend and didn't understand why that upset me. I got angry with him in the dream, and we started arguing. I left the house eventually and woke up.

Morning mood: Awful. I don't want to dream of my ex, and I'm still sick. Idk how long this sickness is going to last, and I don't have the money for a doctor. I think it's been a week already.

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06/21/24 Barging in on Someone *nsfw*

In the dream, I'm wearing a beautiful dress. I'm looking for someone, a man, and I find him. I ask him for his help but he dismisses me. Another man is with him. He says the man is his best friend. I watch them walk over to a hotel and decide to follow them to their room. I knock insistently but no one answers. I decide to check if the door is locked, it's not. I barge in demanding the man's help but see that they are in the middle of having sex. I am too shocked to speak and someone who is suddenly standing next to me shouts in my ear "Oh my god they're fucking!" And I wake up.

Morning mood: Amused that I had a dream. But unhappy because I'm still sick.

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05/06/2024 A Memory of a Dream 2

I'm running down a forested path. But in this forest there are houses, modern houses. They don't belong in the forest but dream me doesn't question them. I walk into a house and see relatives. The house is full so I leave. It's night time and foggy. I keep running deeper into the forest until I see a bunch of bright, colorful lights. There's a carnival in the center of the forest and it's bursting with life. People are buying stuff, playing games, riding rides, laughing and having fun. I see my sister and we start running around excitedly. I buy snacks and play games before we walk off to another house in the forest. There are people there but they don't mind me. I lay on the floor until I sleep.

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05/05/2024 A Memory of a Dream

I'm walking through an empty structure, like an old church building. It's day but I am alone. When I reach one end of the structure, I see a train. Suddenly, I am in it, but it's not a train with seats. I have to hold on to not fly out of the open box that's part of the train. There's a man with me, he's older and is not afraid. He's talking to me, possibly lecturing me. I close my eyes to not be there and I remember purple sky with a setting sun.

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01/27/24 Sleep Paralysis & Getting Robbed

This is the least scary but most confusing sleep paralysis experience I have ever had. First, once I realized I couldn't move, I looked towards my window. I saw the curtains had been drawn, which showed my room to the outside (I have a fear of being watched in my sleep). Then I heard a bag of dry cat food being spilled in my room, but I couldn't see where. Then I saw a shadow slip in front of my door, and I assumed it was my twin. Then I looked down at my body and saw I was covered in cat food. I sat up at this point, which "woke" me up, and I realized it wasn't real.

When I was able to sleep again (I've had trouble sleeping due to stress and slight illness), the dream started. I was walking in a public but mostly empty area carrying expensive tools. I didn't know what I was going to do with them yet, but when I put them down, a strange man approached me. He was trying to tell me something but I couldn't understand him. He looked homeless. I tried to ask him what he was saying, but I don't know if he understood me, as he left. Then, a woman walked up to me. She was bigger than me in every way, but she seemed nice. After our quick conversation, she stated she was going to mug me. I froze, and she stepped forward, but then another woman started to walk by us. The first woman stopped to watch her go, but I called out to her to get her attention. I tried to have a conversation with her so I wouldn't be alone with the first woman, but she didn't seem interested and tried walking away. I ran after her, and the first woman ran after me. When I tried to explain to the second woman that the first woman was trying to rob me, the first woman tried to convince her that I was crazy. While they were both distracted, I grabbed my tools and tried to sneak away, but then woke up.

Morning mood: Out of it

Night-time mood: Good

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09/20/23 The Cat Took Crack

Context: This has been one of the saddest weeks of this year because my cat has gone missing, we're assuming she's dead because she was sick, and I found out I've been let go from my job of two-three years due to company cuts. So the fact this dream is chaos, I'm sure, is reflecting how crazy my internal self is feeling.

The dream starts with me walking through a bright, heavily populated city. I've dreamt of this city before. I walk to my apartment, which consists of a tiny room and tiny kitchen. My family all lives in this complex, too, in their own apartments, and I find my dad in my room. I also see my cat in the corner of the room, looking distressed. Her tail is shaved, but otherwise, she looks healthy. My dad explains that he gave the cat crack because when you do, magic occurs at the expense of the cat. He then leaves and says he'd be back in a few hours. When I call to my cat, she doesn't recognize my face but recognizes my voice. Eventually, she feels comfortable enough to smell my hand and let me pet her before she goes ape shit. She fails around the room screaming and breaking anything in her path. Then I wake up.

Morning mood: Bummed out. Life is hard, and sometimes, the bad things stack on each other. My sister told me a phrase yesterday: Tough times don't last, but tough people do. I'm making good changes in my life, so I'm not gonna let sad things make me stagnant. I just miss my cat so much.

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09/11/23 I'm a Guest & then a Cat

I was in a house trying to avoid something outside. At some point, someone opened the front door, and I rushed to close it. I noticed it was morning. Then I overheard someone in the house saying they were going to start a game/challenge and that the guests would have it the hardest. I ran and found my twin in a bathroom/bedroom and told her. We decided to leave the house.

In the next dream, I'm a cat under someone's counter. A girl is working a job at this counter, and there's a boy flirting with her. She mentions in their conversation that there's a cat under the counter. He tells her he wishes he was the cat under the counter. Cat me rolls her eyes and tries to nap.

Morning mood: Amused. This is the first time I've dreamt I was an animal.

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09/09/23 Bad Friends, Bad Crowds

In the first dream, I was in a building with other adults, like a college campus. Some guy I barely know runs up to me and asks if I want to see his new tattoo. I say yes, and he bends over and moons me because it's on his taint. I look away and tell him I don't want to look at him there. People around him are laughing at me for some reason, so I walk away.

In the second dream, I'm trying to hang out with this group of people, but I'm getting this feeling that they don't really want to hang with me. We go to a movie together, and we all sit in the back row, but I'm at the end of the group, so on one side of me is a stranger in the last seat of the row. I feel left out in the conversation the rest of the group is having. They all seem so happy in each others company. I look at my seat and then the stranger because she had put a stack of books in my seat. I helped her move them, but I noticed they were books about ghosts and other supernatural topics. Since I'm really interested in that stuff, I tried to talk with her about the books before the movie actually started. But she told me she wasn't really into that sorta stuff and that she didn't want to discuss it with me. Rejected lol

In the third dream, I'm at a candy shop, and there's a shelf just for chocolate bars. I want to grab one in specific, which is a candy bar split into five rows. Each row is a special chocolate, like one row is classic, the other is peanut-filled, the other is chip-filled, and one was wafer-filled, but I can't remember the last one. Either way, I didn't understand why that bar specifically didn't have a wrapper, so I grabbed one that did. Turns out it was a different chocolate bar, and that's why it had a wrapper. The one I bought was filled with strawberry cake and cream filling. It was decadent.

Morning mood: Sad

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09/08/23 Strange Nightmares

In the first nightmare, my cat got her head sliced off. Somehow, if you attached it back quick enough with stitches, she could heal. But no one wanted to take me to a 24/hr vet until I found my dad. I just remember a lot of crying and screaming afterward.

In the second nightmare, I remember being on my work laptop. Suddenly, this man comes in through the window, and he has a weapon with him. He talks to me about my laptop and then steals it out of my hands. He threatens me and says he is going to steal more from the house, and I tell him I'm not going to get hurt over a laptop or anything else in the house if I can help it. While he steals, I follow him around, and we talk about ourselves. At some point, we get flirty a little bit, but he doesn't want to get caught for the theft, so he leaves.

Morning mood: Relief at seeing my cat is okay and my laptop is not stolen.

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09/06/23 Mashup of Dreams

In the first dream I can remember, my manager G suddenly calling me into a zoom meeting with a bunch of other coworkers. They said they wanted my help with something, but my camera turned on, and everyone could see that I looked like shit. So I was trying to figure out how to turn my camera off, but then my laptop died, and then it turned invisible, so I could not figure out what to do. I was now worried I would get fired.

In the second dream, I'm in an auditorium that has two main doors and two side doors. I'm with my twin and my dad. We realize a wedding after-party is happening in this auditorium, so we leave through a side door, but then my twin asks me to go back and get her a blue raspberry slushie. I go back, but they don't have any slushies available. I leave, but I leave out one of the main doors and realize the wedding cake is getting served to the guests. I really want to try a slice cause it's pink & white with strawberries and some kind of jam inside. But since I'm not a wedding guest, the staff are watching me to make sure I leave. Once I get to the lobby outside of the auditorium, I realize I am in my childhood middle school. This then throws me into a lucid state and I grab one of the staff (a young woman around my height who reminds me of a irl Feng Min) and start shaking her while asking "Do you know where we are!" She just stares at me in shock, so I rush outside where a bunch of people are milling about. There's also so many orange cats of all ages everywhere, but I recognize the whole school and just start dancing in a circle cause it makes me happy for some reason.

When my second dream abruptly ends, I have a false awakening into my next dream. I "wake up", and there's a little bald boy laying next to me. I assume my dad is babysitting him or something and ask him what he's doing here. He doesn't say anything and just points to my ceiling fan (I don't have one irl). I realize there's glass falling from it. I help him out of the room and then realize my tv is on the floor. When I pick it up, it's shattered and cannot be used at all. I start to get upset and then realize there's glass in my mouth and down my throat. I start coughing everything up and run to my twin while telling her what's happened.

The next thing I remember is running through an open area into a house with my twin & my bestie. There is a Ghostface chasing us, and I can tell this is DBD, but irl. The Ghostface looks like he is trying to look like the grim reaper because his cloak was more tattered looking, and his weapon was a scythe instead of a knife. At some point, we separate into the house, and he ends up chasing me. I run into a kitchen and loop him around a table before I disappear into another room. He leaves me, so I sneak around and find out the other two are being chased by other DBD killers (specifically a huntress and a spirit). I turn back and find out a Demogorgon is chasing me now. The last thing I remember is trying to loop him and then going in for a long pet and him just chilling while I pet him.

Morning mood: Dazed & confused.

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09/02/23 A Bug in my Machine

In this dream, I'm looking at a bug/critter hang out in a bunch of electronics I had. I tried to squish it, but because I'm clumsy, instead, some wires snap, and the electronics start to catch on fire. I remember yelling for someone, but I end up putting out the fire with water and then getting sad because I knew all the electronics were ruined now.

Morning mood: Meh

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9/01/2023 A Universe of Spiderman

Disclaimer: I have not seen part 2 of Into the Spiderverse.

In the first dream, I'm a Spiderman, but I'm not me. Somehow, on one of my missions as Spiderman, I slipped into an alternate reality while the version of me originally from this reality went into my world. When I start talking to my teammates from this new reality, I find out that they and the original me are evil. So I try to run, but one of them is chasing me while holding a different mask and saying something like, "We won't stop until your true self shows." Thankfully, I am able to get away and find a different group of Spiderman people who are in hiding. In this reality, there are multiple Spiderman instead of the singular dude, but a majority of them are evil. So the good ones have to do their hero stuff from the shadows. I realize as we're talking that this group of Spiderman heroes are a family, and they are treating me very nicely. When I say I have to leave to find the portal that dumped me here so I can go back home, the mom of the group says she wants to get something for me from outside. Then she gets shot by that group that was trying to chase me earlier. She doesn't die, but I can see she's in bad shape. The others start getting ready to attack, but I stop them and say I will give myself up so no one else gets hurt. And then the dream cuts because my alarm rings.

Morning mood: Annoyed that I had this dream on a weekday.

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8/30/2023 New Locks, Same Problem

This is a very short dream, but to give some context, I've had dreams about this backdoor before. Growing up, the backdoor to my childhood home had a faulty lock that sometimes wouldn't lock. So, kid me was constantly, in the back of her head, paranoid and scared that someone would break in. I haven't lived in that house for 14 years, and this door is still haunting me lol

In the dream, I'm staring at that backdoor from my childhood home. Where the old lock used to be now were three new locks, one made of opal. I felt excited and safe seeing them but I wanted to test them. So I locked them...and then pulled the door open anyways! They were new locks that didn't work either. I remember briefly complaining to someone that they didn't install the locks correctly or something. It was dark outside in this dream.

Morning mood: Amused

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08/29/23 Coraline Chapter in Dead by Daylight

In this dream, I was playing Dead by Daylight with my bestie and my twin. The killer and map were new and based on Coraline. I remember being the last two alive and telling my twin to hide so I can run across the map and catch the killers attention.

Morning mood: Horrible. I have food poisoning.

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8/22/23 Sleep Paralysis & a Scavenger Hunt

In the first dream, I remember being with my dad and my twin. We are playing a scavenger hunt game that other people are participating in. My twin and I get separated from my dad and end up nearby on a construction site. For some reason, we get confused for workers, and the boss gets angry at us for "slacking off". He tries to get us to work, but once he is gone, we leave briskly.

This night, I also had a sleep paralysis experience that turned into a dream. I was in my bed when I heard someone in high heels passing by my window. Then, just before they passed it completely, the woman clipped through the window into my room. She then walked behind me, but I could only partially see her since I was looking straight up at the ceiling. Then I "wake up" and go to my twin's room and start telling her about the sleep paralysis thing as we start hearing high heels outside her window.

Morning mood: Pleased. It's raining so the summer heat is gone.

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08/17/23 Four Dreams in One Night

In the first dream, I am in a room with my twin, my uncle J & my dad. I don't realize my dad is there, and in frustration or anger, I bite the TV remote in my hand. It gives way, and a piece snaps off, and then a little smoke comes out of the remote. I check, and it still works with the TV, but because neither my twin nor I are sober, I tell her to lie with me and say the remote fell and a piece broke off. But my dad is literally in the same room and asks what's wrong with the remote. I confess what I did and ask if he'll take me to pay for a new one.

In the second dream, I'm driving somewhere at night. There's a horrible storm happening with lots of heavy rain, wind, thunder & lightning. I'm nervous but I want to get home as soon as possible. At some point, it feels like I'm driving through the storm clouds because I don't see the road or anything else.

In the third dream, an apocalypse has happened. I don't remember what caused it, but I know I was not a good person. I remember luring people into my house to kill them, but I can't remember why. One of these people is Claudette from Dead by Daylight or looks a lot like her. All I remember is seeing her walk around my house, lost, and I beckon her to come in. She seems unsure at first but trusts me eventually. Then I remember us sitting together in my basement, then nothing.

In the fourth dream, I'm in a house with a bunch of cousins and relatives. I go to my room to change but my door is broken. It does not give me full privacy anymore. My twin and a lady relative block the door so I can change. I thank them, and then my twin and I start settling in this room to go to sleep.

Morning mood: Good