sinked_heart on ao3

Fiction writer, here to be a simp. I know nothing like Jon Snow🥸

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Hello world! I went and did a thing and I wrote a fanfic, intentionally by accident 🙃

All We’ve Left Behind by sinked_heart on ao3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65431795

Canon adjacent, at first it diverges slowly theeeeeeen… who knows!

🤪😈🤕🤧😵‍💫🫣😶‍🌫️🥵🫠🤬🤯😱🥺😢🥲🥹😵😇 (that’s basically the plot, I’m sure you understand)

It’s a long story full of twists and turns, there’s something for everybody. Canon ships, rare ships, angst, yearning, political intrigue! Fight scenes, love scenes, science scenes and a general abundance of shenanigans.

It does get NSFW eventually

And the story does takes some pretty DARK TURNS here and there

(There will be chapter specific warnings)

Thank you to the wonderful @ladycinism for beta reading 🙏

If you know anyone who might enjoy let them know!

Peace, love & revolution, baby!

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Hello again Arcane world

So, I am writing a long fic (All We’ve Left Behind) and I have been on a little hiatus because life, you know, but I wanted to share a little extract from the new chapter I published which finally introduces Silco’s pov!

The story is broad, focusing heavily on Vander and Silco’s relationship and their backstory—and a lot more. Basically a big reimagining of season 1 where all bets are off…

Anyways, here’s a peak at chapter 16:

Our kingpin is having a complicated morning…😔🙃

See you there, maybe? Okay, byeee

[corinthianrm0]

sharing a smoke

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So elegant… so expressive… so sexy… so sweet! The casual ease of their bond, the playfulness of youth…🥲

And Silco’s devastatingly beautiful lips???😭 The more I look at this gorgeous art the more I’m loosing the ability to articulate🫠

[silcozaunite]

The script to screen notes just undid years of therapy. Silco’s eyes, full of love 🥺

[arch-venus25]

Thank you @ethnicallymoral that shattering sound was my heart while reading this post

[silcozaunite]

I can make it worse how much time do you have

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Now say he didn’t really love her and was just manipulating her to use her as a weapon, I freaking dare you world!!!! Bless this post.

(Also please do make it worse @ethnicallymoral I have all the time in the world and wish for nothing else🙃)

[yes-these-obsessions-are-healthy]

Me: “—it’s because he has all the traits of a Bond villain, but he’s NOT. Somehow they took all the ingredients for a cliche and made him so much MORE than that. He’s ruthless, but also tender. He’s a man for the people, but also an opportunistic capitalist. He’s delusional, but self-aware. He’s a visionary, but also a cold pragmatist. He’s passionate, but calculating. He’s traumatized, but endures. He’s—

Person tied to the chair: “Please, please stop, stop already. I don’t know who this Silicon person is!!”

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Feeling so much kinship right now!

“I don’t know who this Silicon person is!!” I read this and I was on the floor slapping my leg laughing! 🤣 🤣🤣 That’s my partner every time I go on a 20min unprompted tirade about Silco being a masterpiece of a character. He’s usually a sweetheart about my hyperfixations but at this point I think he’s getting genuinely concerned, like—do I need to take you to a doctor?—kind of thing.

And I’m sorry world but there’s nothing any specialist can do about this, because even if it wasn’t completely out of my control I would CHOOSE to be consumed by this obsession indefinitely💀😎🤘 rock’n’roll baby, let’s all die on this hill happily together.

[mysteryanimator]

Kiss me with the kisses of your mouth, because your love is better than wine. King Solomon 1:2

Animation + Compositing by meee

Music by @astralbardrpg (fun fact, waltz of pearls, olrox's game room theme, can be heard in this so look out for it :DDD)

Title design by @hataui0

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And there’s more??? I am unwell. Actually I’m dead cause this just murdered me🫠✌️

[mysteryanimator]

Do you want to test that theory?

Yipee it's done! Based off the fic called To Love a God by @aquilaofarkham !! Hope y'all enjoy :D

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Are you kidding meeeee?! This is amazing 😭 I can’t believe I can just open tumblr on a random Tuesday and find this gem, the absolute joys of being alive man let me tell you!

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One detail I love about arcane is how people in Zaun have no family names.

People in Piltover have house names they pass on, like Caitlyn’s which bears her mother’s family name through generations, and while a small number of houses are powerful and influential like hers most are small and up and coming like Jayce’s or super irrelevant like Sky’s (I thought she was a Zaunite in my first watch and only learned she is ment to be a commoner from a lower house by reading comments from the creators, which frankly is not great that they had to explain it when it could have easily been made obvious by actually mentioning her family name even once but oh well).

What’s most relevant is that this whole system show the importance of status and legacy in their society, *cough* aristocratic oligarchy *cough-cough*

Conversely we don’t have that at all in Zaun. And it’s my headcanon that this is for two main reasons: first of all I believe marriage is culturally not a thing in Zaun and the concept of family is part of a larger sense of community hence the commonality of the found family dynamic and people using the terms brother and sister very liberally. Secondly it’s really hard for people in Zaun to actually get to own stuff so they rarely have anything to pass on other than debts which means legacy and inheritance are also not a thing.

This also means that Zaunites don’t really exist as bureaucratic entities making it easier for the government to ignore their needs but also easier for them to function independently. And maybe their rejection of Piltover’s costumes was born as a form of civil disobedience, a refusal to conform and be categorized within the system that oppresses them.

This are the kind of nuances that really stuck with me in season one and I truly would have loved for the show to go more in depth into these themes, that’s why I focus on them a lot in my own fic.

And if you’re nuts like me and you thought that the most interesting part of the effects-driven-animated-show-based-on-a-video-game-with-no-real-plot was the social commentary (on top of the heavy handed homoerotic undertones of course) check out my story it might be your thing😉

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65431795/chapters/168396502

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[[EDIT: aaaahhh someone pointed out Viktor does actually call Sky ‘miss Young’ in the show once! Does he really?! I completely and entirely erased that from my mind my bad🙃 Credit where credit is due, sorry arcane writers guess I was talking out of my ass on that one!]]

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Is Marcus actually Marcus’s last name??

This has been killing me!! I’m writing a fic where Marcus and Grayson both make appearances with their own povs and in order to write them properly I have been looking for their full names, and nothing! They don’t seem to exist, period, like the writers didn’t bother to come up with them.

But the ‘Piltover has last names and Zaun doesn’t’ dichotomy that’s established in the show is super important in my interpretation of the story, so I’m gonna have to come up with them.

Now while Grayson is obviously a last name, Marcus instead I always thought was a first name… but maybe it isn’t???

In searching for his last name all I could find was reference to the fact that Marcus might actually just be his last name because with him being an officer it’s reasonable to assume he would get addressed by his family name rather than his first name, and that does makes sense, pretty straightforward.

But hear me out, I really don’t think it is and not just because Marcus doesn’t sound like a family name at all to me.

The hole in that logic for me lyes with the people we actually hear calling him Marcus, which I’m pretty sure are only Silco and Grayson herself. And it just makes perfect sense to me that those two would call him by his first name. Grayson because she is his boss and has a closer mentor relationship with him, and Silco, well he belittled the man every chance he got so of course he would never show him the respect of call him by his family name. Now, I haven’t rewatched the show in a bit so I could be wrong but I’m fairly certain that all other characters only ever refer to Marcus by his title of Sheriff (maybe Sevika and Jinx also refer to him by name but Silco rules apply by extension there)

[Edited] I thought it was a similar predicament with Sky, but Viktor actually does call her miss Young in the show! So not a collective headcanon or addendum by the writers like I previously thought, my bad.

When it comes to Marcus though I don’t know what to do because I’m so used to thinking of it as his first name! And I just find it kinda silly as a last name.

Does anyone know more information? Or if there really are no canon full names for this characters would you like to help me figure out this conundrum I’m in and help me come up with them?

The big question first:

Is Marcus a last name??

Clearly a last name, yes.

Nope, that’s bloody ridiculous!

Voting ended onJul 21, 2025

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One detail I love about arcane is how people in Zaun have no family names.

People in Piltover have house names they pass on, like Caitlyn’s which bears her mother’s family name through generations, and while a small number of houses are powerful and influential like hers most are small and up and coming like Jayce’s or super irrelevant like Sky’s (I thought she was a Zaunite in my first watch and only learned she is ment to be a commoner from a lower house by reading comments from the creators, which frankly is not great that they had to explain it when it could have easily been made obvious by actually mentioning her family name even once but oh well).

What’s most relevant is that this whole system show the importance of status and legacy in their society, *cough* aristocratic oligarchy *cough-cough*

Conversely we don’t have that at all in Zaun. And it’s my headcanon that this is for two main reasons: first of all I believe marriage is culturally not a thing in Zaun and the concept of family is part of a larger sense of community hence the commonality of the found family dynamic and people using the terms brother and sister very liberally. Secondly it’s really hard for people in Zaun to actually get to own stuff so they rarely have anything to pass on other than debts which means legacy and inheritance are also not a thing.

This also means that Zaunites don’t really exist as bureaucratic entities making it easier for the government to ignore their needs but also easier for them to function independently. And maybe their rejection of Piltover’s costumes was born as a form of civil disobedience, a refusal to conform and be categorized within the system that oppresses them.

This are the kind of nuances that really stuck with me in season one and I truly would have loved for the show to go more in depth into these themes, that’s why I focus on them a lot in my own fic.

And if you’re nuts like me and you thought that the most interesting part of the effects-driven-animated-show-based-on-a-video-game-with-no-real-plot was the social commentary (on top of the heavy handed homoerotic undertones of course) check out my story it might be your thing😉

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65431795/chapters/168396502

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ALL WE’ve LEFT BEHIND — chapter updates 8, 9, 10 and 11!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65431795/chapters/168396502

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Context is getting richer with headcanon-based lore and the introduction of new character povs:

We learn more about the revolution and Vander’s and Silco’s past from Sevika,

We introduced Jayce and his predicament,

And we look at the actions of a corrupt government, the injustice, hypocrisy and unchecked abuses of power from within the system itself with a window on Sheriff’s Grayson backstory.

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Come hang out, let me know your thoughts!😊

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Arcane is one of my favourite shows of all time but I got grievances and I need to vent!

I fell into this rabbit hole of show analysis after posting the last chapter of my fic on ao3 ‘All We’ve Left Behind’ where I start to explore my headcanon for the Day of Ash, the revolution in general and Vander and Silco’s past.

It’s a very emotional moment as Vander relives the attack on Silco in his mind, torn between the guilt and regret over what he did and the responsibility he feels now for not having been able to actually kill him and stop him for good. In my story the focus on their relationship means that everything that happens between them, then and now, has a very personal component but it’s also important to me to maintain that the rift between them is largely ideological, stemming from irreconcilable differences over how to fight for and protect their people like in season 1.

I think season 2 cheapens the whole thing by erasing all that in favour of UNEARNED personal bullshit (and overshadowing the political conflicts in general but let’s not get ahead of ourselves)

To be clear I don’t actually have a problem with the catalyst for the attack being Vander’s grief and anger over Felicia’s death because that’s a very flawed and very human reaction which is what we love about the characters in arcane. My problem is that season 2 shoehorns that in, entirely forgetting the concepts previously introduced about those characters and the conflict between them.

It doesn’t add context, it undermines what was already there.

The flashback scene in s2e5 does no favours to anybody and (together with the stroll we later take in Vander’s happy go lucky family time memories) proceeds to retroactively assassinate both of their original characterizations which we so loved.

Season 1 shows Silco as a man who was always a bit too extreme and angry, making him dangerous in the audience’s and in Vander’s eyes, but a the same time he is very ideologically sincere and sympathetic as a human with relatable vulnerabilities and trauma. His bottom line is righteous is methods are not. 10 out of 10!

As his counterpart Vander is shown as a man who WALKS HIS WAY BACK from a similar place of anger and extremism towards different values that prioritize protecting the weak over fighting for an hypothetical future. Dropping his gauntlets to become a father when faced with the horror of war. 10 out of 10!

In season 2 Vander doesn’t walk his way back from anything! They tell us he was always a piece of bread, a loving uncle that had always been very involved in the girls’s life, undermining the choice he makes to change for them in season 1.

And (in my opinion even worse) showing us the trio and Silco being so close to the girls’s mum makes everything he does in season 1, which was horrible but understandable, truly evil, cold and unforgivable. Because the implication is that he knew the girls as children, swore to their mother, a comrade, to make a better future for THEM and yet he is ready to kill them both without batting an eye. Him, a man to whom loyalty is everything?! That stinks of nonsense!

And the show knows that because it refuses to give us any more context about him whatsoever. His personality doesn’t match, he is basically absent in Vander’s memory slideshow and we get no meaningful information about their dynamic pre bridge disaster, Silco simply becomes an empty narrative foil to bend out of shape as needed.

In my opinion the writers did this for three reasons:

1. To make him an exact mirror for Powder/Jinx. On the bridge he is doing what he thinks is right but he ends up only causing death and destruction, just like Powder in e3, which is (now) the main cause of Vander’s betrayal and abandonment, like with Powder and Vi.

2. To hammer home the ‘it only takes a bad day’ idea they’re so fond of in season 2. Again reducing him, and his relationship with Vander, to a mirror for other characters, mainly Caitlyn (they are basically the same person, gay vampires with serious anger management problems, I’ll die on that hill) but also Viktor. Both of them are trying to do good from their prospective but end up committing atrocities because they are blinded by emotional pain. Reminds you of anybody? Also nobody can convince me that Vikto and Jayce aren’t meant to be the direct embodiment of Silco and Vander’s dynamic, much like Jinx and Vi, and that’s why we don’t get to see it. Guess the writers where afraid of repeating themselves too much (says sarcastically)

3. The parabole of forgiveness. Silco was a good person before the betrayal, a pretty chill dude and he could have stayed a chill dude if he’d just chosen to forgive! You get it? Systemic injustice, police brutality, the negligence and indifference of a corrupt government, the consequences of terrorism, none of that matters every character should have just forgiven each other guys and every problem would solve itself!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh! I am so unreasonably angry about all this!

They turn every relationship in the show into a mirror of itself as this grand metaphor for ‘the never ending cycle of violence’ but it’s not! It’s a damn dog chasing it’s tail! It’s like they heard the praise over the parallels in season 1 and went “Great! Now everything is a parallel! More praise please.” Entirely missing the fucking point!!! They didn’t get praised for being self referential but because the parallels were well done, contextualized and narratively justified. Which is what we lose in season 2.

None of that is bad, on the contrary, but it feels so hella contrived because it’s spottily executed and contradicts itself! They flipped it, reducing the story in service of decisions that feel arbitrary instead of allowing context to organically build the story.

Anyway I’m sorry, I feel like I’m becoming less and less coherent, I’m done with the angry rant I promise.

In truth I don’t know that I’ll ever stop grieving over the wasted potential with this story because I love it so much.

And to conclude on a more positive note I want to really stress my love and gratitude for the incredible work of art the is Arcane.

Even with everything one could complain about I still believe Arcane is a nearly perfect show. I love every character, it’s visual style is mind blowing, and the voice acting and soundtrack will forever live rent free in my head. I am still in disbelief that this story has inspired me so much that it has pushed me to actually start writing myself and even posting online which had always terrified me. We need more content like this to inspire us to be creative and bring us together.

Thank you Arcane! I desperately miss you, I love you and I will never forgive you❤️❤️❤️

[rcntlydcccased]

I think he’d be a good artist 🙂‍↕️

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Your Silco art gives me too much joy

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All We’ve Left Behind — chapters update!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65431795/chapters/168396502

We are all the way to chapter 7🫢

The story updates once a week generally on Sundays.

[constantfragmentation]

Silco loves to eat pussy. Fight me.

I don't make the rules.

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That man eats pussy for breakfast, lunch and dinner, and he gets fucked for dessert.

[benewitch]

Still thinking about people being offended for comparing Caitlyn and Silco. And at the same time there are scenes like this ☝🏻where the animators absolutely purposefully drew parallels between them. @ethnicallymoral they were afraid to hear the truth, so let's say it louder now 🗣

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If the fact that she ends up with a messed up left wasn’t enough of a hint! They’re both gay vampires descending to extremism. Riot did go very literal with the parallels.

[q8qwertyuiop8p-deactivated20250]

Arcane Disc But it's Silco and Vander

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I must have done something good today to deserve this