life lately
dismissive. Oh you want that in question form I am sorry ? I just want to finish ? My sentences ? Why am I not worth listening to? caring about? remembering? helping?
so I will keep counting every time you do not realise that I am still speaking Every time you do not care that I have no voice Spoken over the top of, silenced Why Are we all so self absorbed that we do not realise when others need us desperately need us to care need us to pick them up when they are passed out on the floor hurting themselves -asking for a friend. does friendship mean two different things where you are concerned? I will check up on you and ask if you are ok and take every argument, insult, because that is what we are and in return you will ignore me until after recess. Why? Am I embarassing to be friends with or annoying to talk to? Why? did I not anticipate this when this has happened all before Do I live in an endless time loop? talk talk talk we are the bestest friends here is my soul on a platter and don't worry, I will look after you until I am bleeding out then you will leave. Am I therapy in the form of a hollow husk of a human?
When I do not give you what you want from me you too will leave. When the mystery of me is gone you are gone also. Because that is all I am. A puzzle. To work unravel until I am a mess and you are fine, taking pieces of my heart to repair yours. Take 3 I guess.
