anorexia recovery ☁️

ellie / 17 years old one small step at a time

[ellie-rec0vers]

so its been a while since I've come on here..

hi guys :) a few updates:

- i got my period back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ive had it for two months now and i couldnt stop crying when i got it, i was so happy

- i went traveling around europe for a whole month and it was the best experience of my life. i made amazing friends and memories and i survived! i also broke a lot of my bad habits.

- whilst i was travelling, there was a point where i went from restricting to purging and i went from one ed to another. this was a terrible idea and i was binging and purging whilst living in hostels with my friends. 

- ive stopped purging now :)

- ive finally overshot my weight. its really hard right now living in this body but im working on it.

- im no longer vegan. my ed made me scared of fat and meat so this is a good thing for me. maybe i can be vegan in the future but for now im working on it.

- im getting therapy :)

- i have a job now as an apprentice accountant. im finally done with school and im going to be going into the city every day working towards a career and eventually moving out.

- lifes good man. im doing VERY well. keep going my gs

[mooniicorn]

“If autism isn’t caused by environmental factors and is natural why didn’t we ever see it in the past?”

We did, except it wasn’t called autism it was called “Little Jonathan is a r*tarded halfwit who bangs his head on things and can’t speak so we’re taking him into the middle of the cold dark forest and leaving him there to die.”

[iamthethunder]

Or “little Jonathan doesn’t talk but does a good job herding the sheep, contributes to the community in his own way, and is, all around, a decent guy.” That happened a lot, too, especially before the 19th century.

[rosslynpaladin]

Or, backing up FURTHER

and lots of people think this very likely,

“Oh little Sionnat has obviously been taken by the fairies and they’ve left us a Changeling Child who knows too much, and asks strange questions, and uses words she shouldn’t know, and watches everything with her big dark eyes, clearly a Fairy Child and not a Human Like Us.”

The Myth of the Changeling child, a human baby apparently replaced at a young age by a toddler who “suddenly” acts “strange and fey” is an almost textbook depiction of autistic children.

To this day, “autism warrior mommies” talk about autism “stealing” their “sweet normal child” and have this idea of “getting their real baby back” which (in the face of modern science)  indicates how the human psyche actually does deal with finding out their kid acts unlike what they expected.

Given this evidence, and how common we now know autism actually is, the Changeling myth is almost definitely the result of people’s confusion at the development of autistic children.

[vicecommanderhijikata]

Weirdly enough, that legend is now comforting to me.

[neddythestylish]

I think it’s worth noting that many like me, who are diagnosed with ASD now, would probably have been seen as just a bit odd in centuries past. I’m only a little bit autistic; I can pass for neurotypical for short periods if I work really hard at it. I have a lack of talent in social situations, and I’m prone to sensory overload or you might notice me stimming.

But here’s the thing: life is louder, brighter and more intense and confusing than it has ever been. I live on the edge of London and I rarely go into the centre of town because it’s too overwhelming. If I went back in time and lived on a farm somewhere, would anyone even notice there was anything odd about me? No police sirens, no crowded streets that go on for miles and miles, no flickery electric lights. Working on a farm has a clear routine. I’d be a badass at spinning cloth or churning butter because I find endless repetition soothing rather than boring.

I’m not trying to romanticise the past because I know it was hard, dirty work with a constant risk of premature death. I don’t actually want to be a 16th century farmer! What I’m saying is that disability exists in the context of the environment. Our environment isn’t making people autistic in the sense of some chemical causing brain damage. But we have created a modern environment which is hostile to autistic people in many ways, which effectively makes us more disabled. When you make people more disabled, you start to see more people struggling, failing at school because they’re overwhelmed, freaking out at the sound of electric hand dryers and so on. And suddenly it looks like there’s millions more autistic people than existed before.

[grace-and-ace]

“…disability exists in the context of the environment.”

[coldalbion]

Reblog for disability commentary.

[oockitty]

That last paragraph is absolutely important.

[hazeldomain]

“How come nobody ever heard of ‘dyslexia’ until widespread literacy became a thing?”

[heterophobian]

me: i’m really stressed

someone: just relax!!!!!

me:

[ellie-rec0vers]

daily reminder

bloating gets better the more consistent you are to recovery. if you restrict again, it will get worse again.

please dont stop.

❤️

[slimetony]

hey people who know astrology shit. ive been having a lot of feeligs lately. any planets i can blame that on.

[kill-the-calories]

Please please please be safe during this weather, Europe got hit by the first big heatwave yesterday and i blacked out while at a amusement park amd it defiently wasn’t fun

Here are some tips: Drink!! Drink a lot of water if you can, staying hydrated is super super important and warm tees will cool you down

Cover yourself up, if best wear some form of hat that covers your fave from the sun, don’t wear to much black as it absorbs the sun and makes you feel super hot

Avoid direkt contact with the sun, try and stay inside or at least in the shade

[vanitybecomesme]

Body dysmorphia and Anorexia

When I think of anorexia, the first imagine in my mind is this picture I once saw: a thin girl looking in the mirror and seeing her reflection as fat.

It may surprise you but not all anorexics are skinny and believe they're fat.

According to the dsmv criteria it's only necessary that someone has a "disturbance in the way in which one's body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or persistent lack of recognition of the seriousness of the current low body weight".

Sometimes that disturbance is thinking your butts too big, or that your cheeks are too round.

Sometimes you're low weight and you know you're low weight, but you want to be lower.

Then there is atypical anorexia (low bmi is not met) where you don't have to be underweight or even thin to be diagnosed.

You may be average weight and not have a thigh gap or you might have a muffin top, and thats what made you want to restrict.

You may be overweight and your real weight problem is what what led you to restricting.

Body dysmorphia in anorexia can be a general fixation on weight but it can alsoe be a fixation on certain body parts being big, but neither mean thinking yourself as fat. Which may sound confusing at first, until you realize anorexia is an illness of the brain not a fad diet.

[ellie-rec0vers]

hey recovery hoes

im about to go on holiday travelling (for the first time without my parents) this sunday and honestly ive never been so excited and terrified in my whole fucking life !!!!!!!!

im going to amsterdam, italy (sorrento, rome, venice), slovenia, croatia, and greece (athens, mykonos, zante)

ive worked my fucking ASS off to pay for this whole trip and i truly believe its going to be the best thing for me. i wont be able to obide to my stupid food rules. ill finally be able to relax and see life in a new way and just enjoy living. i wanna fuel my damn body to walk around and love myself in a bikini and eat all the amazing mediterranean food (and weed cookies in amsterdam lmaoooo)

obviously this isnt gonna be easy and i havent been doing very well recently. so if anyone has any travel tips for eating disorders / travel tips in general ?! please please please let me know !

i am so excited and grateful to be entering this new chapter of life and i hope i return with nothing but amazing stories and inspiration

[ellierecovers]

I’m looking for more mental health related and specifically anxiety/depression/ed recovery blogs!! Please like and/or reblog so I can check out your blog!!

[ellie-rec0vers]

user twins damn

[treygotguap]

Girls will say they busy and be in their bed relaxin or sleep

[shinosarna]

so? theyre busy relaxing in bed, mind your own business

[ellie-rec0vers]

body dysmorphic culture is buying medium/plus size clothes when youre an XS

[fuforthought]

[-radiatemileyray]

This is the perfect picture to show anyone that’s afraid of recovery because of weight gain. Honestly, look at Demi. 

She gained weight and recovered, so what? 

She’s glowing, she looks feminine, she looks 1000x more confident and she just looks more… alive.

Recovery is worth it. 

[amandagenine-deactivated2019062]

Forever reblog this. She’s just such an inspiration to me.

[boys-and-suicide-deactivated201]

For all my followers including myself who may be struggling with eating

[greelin]

*feels nothing* mmm, don’t like that *feels something but like, too much* mmm not a fan of that either

[becherdireinen]

Find someone who will be there for you at 2am when you’re falling apart, but also at 3pm when you love life and they make you love it more.

[ellie-rec0vers]

the guilt :) is :) so :) intense :) i :) cant :) breathe :)

[recoveryfriend]

something that will instantly improve your mood is adding bluebs or chocolate chips to pancakes

they get warm and good!! it’s good!!! fuck your eating disorder we’re eating Hot Fruit tonight babey!!!!!!