FEELING TOO MUCH

not waving, but drowning

[a-little-less-than-okay]

[emilydrewbiebs]

Dear mom, at this point I just keep on living because of you and I am tired of it. I am tired of fighting and simply just trying to survive. It is so suffocating. I don’t know how much longer I can take all of this.

[autopsyfreak]

my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope

[emilydrewbiebs]

Guys, I don’t know if you have similar problems, but no matter how much I believe in being recovered from Polytoxicomania, I always bounce back. I always find myself craving, and when I do d**** I just basically am starting to develop a new addiction every damn time. It actually doesn’t even matter which substance, I just cant stop. I have moments of self-control, but after their passing, it’s even worse than before. It just sucks because although I have so many moments where I am strong and proud about how far I have come; I suddenly bounce back and do stuff I always regret afterwards, but I just don’t have any control. I am just weak and it sucks because I’m somewhere between wanting to recover and never wantingstop doing drugs because at the end there’s just me and my time here is limited. I actually don’t know how to get over this, I feel pathetic, I need help.

[rainywhispersblog-deactivated20]

[snake-habitat1]

sorry babe, i can’t have sex right now, im posting about how much i want to kill myself online .

[unmedicated-momma]

[powerrangersystem]

[lostmf]

[evemialone]

[themindofmine-deactivated202607]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living

[unbearable-swagger]

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

[bpdbecca]

[emilydrewbiebs]

I am constantly spiraling, if my childhood trauma and the sexual abuse committed by my stepdad, wasn’t that bad and if I’m just dramatizing, like I do always. Between knowing nothing and feeling everything, between amnesia and flashbacks.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

[thiabeagoodgirl]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[zarb]