I feel like deaths in supernatural have never bothered me as much as deaths in other shows because most of the time they've come back, especially the mains (tfw). So this time after 15x18, has been the first time where I've had to repeatedly tell myself 'he's not coming back this time' because my brain was still like 'oh he'll be back don't worry yourself too much' just so I could deal with the loss but there's two episodes left approximately 90 minutes of content and it's highly unlikely that I'll get what I want but I can still hope























