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[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[everythingbutlarry-deactivated2]

AU: President Obama falls for part white house intern part rockstar Harry Styles. Obama surprises Harry in the audience of one of his shows and the affair blossoms from there.

[heritageposts]

date of origin: 2015.

[dftwm]

Cas’ honest reaction to Dean (he’s in love)

[drulalovescas]

problematic age gap in a relationship

[lazarrusrising]

Will I ever get over how Castiel smiting a demon and Castiel transferring back to Jimmy are visually very very similar in the episode where we learn that vesselhood is very much a form of angelic violence? The answer is no

[deadmegumi]

do you think jensen is closeted /srs

I believe every single man on earth and especially celebrity men are bisexual and lying about it.

[deadmegumi]

i don't think any of this is cutesy or fun I hope he wakes every night in a cold sweat haunted by the thought of twenty year olds on the internet calling him gay

[eileenleahy]

he kept that nasty dirty ass dead fish smelling trench coat in his trunk for months. as an ally

[ambiguousdisorderken]

cool it gayboy

[scoobydoodean]

A few moments later:

Sam insists to Dean that he needs to do the trial alone so Dean can’t come, but then is visibly extremely anxious once he realizes Ajay’s not going to be with him in hell or purgatory (aka realizing he’s going to be alone).

It was never about doing the Trial alone. It was about doing the trial without Dean—proving he could.

[scoobydoodean]

Purgatory seems to frequently become a location for reflection, doesn’t it? Sometimes it’s for wallowing in ones failures. You have to wonder what Sam’s thinking, anxious being alone in Purgatory—the place Dean was trapped in for a year while Sam didn’t look for him… the guilt he feels over that that he represses… and he’s about to step into hell, which is another place Dean went where Sam tried to get him out (or stop him from going altogether) and couldn’t. And then when Dean came back, there was another failure—an emotional one they don’t talk about: Sam’s narrative around Dean’s hell trauma quickly becoming that hell broke Dean and made Dean weak (using that as justification to lie to and sideline him). Now Sam’s been to hell too, and didn’t do so hot with the trauma. Dean buried his hell trauma on his own but Sam couldn’t. He needed a supernatural fix. And I do think these are other ways Sam feels he’s not only let Dean down, but can’t measure up, and that’s why he’s so stuck on proving he doesn’t need Dean to have his back, and taking offense to Dean wanting to have his back.

[scoobydoodean]

Sam is super on edge walking through Purgatory (gotta be running through his mind that Dean was there for a YEAR. Sam is taking controlled breaths and it’s been like 10 minutes). Then he gets into hell… and all the spirits he sees are calling for their loved ones. They’re calling for their loved ones to rescue them.

Couldn’t save Dean from hell… didn’t look for Dean when he was in Purgatory… Sam’s not gonna confront those failures specifically out loud, but we know what he’s talking about when he breaks down about them at the end of the season… about how he’s a failure.

[scoobydoodean]

#followup #very important that after sam hears this woman #he says what? #i'm sorry i'm not him #i'm not him #i'm not the hero #i'm not a perfect brother #i'm not an angel

AND @shallowseeker WITH THE STEEL CHAIR

[scoobydoodean]

Yeah so Sam’s solo rescue attempt of Bobby? Bobby ends up saving him from two demons in hell. Then when they get out into Purgatory, Sam gets CONFRONTED by Bobby for abandoning Dean there.

Then Sam realizes Ajay is gone, and that Dean has had to bail them out... VIA BENNY, who has showed up to rescue them, even though Sam has been a TOTAL PIECE OF SHIT to him and Sam realizes that Benny isn't the person Sam insisted he was at ALL. So it's more stuff Sam was WRONG about and Dean was RIGHT about—changes how Sam reevaluates how he behaved in Citizen Fang (where he was SO confident he was right!)

And Dean made this risky play with Benny, and Benny didn't come back—Dean loses Benny and never gets to make things right with him because Benny came down there to help HIM! And the thing is... they never would have NEEDED Benny if Dean had come on the trial with Sam to begin with like he wanted!!! Because Dean knew the way to the human portal and could have instantly pivoted when Ajay didn't show! So this situation comes about because SAM insisted he could do all this alone without Dean and then he couldn't and Dean had to bail him out, and Dean lost somebody who mattered to him in the process making a risky play to help him, and it is just further and further digging into the wound that he can't manage without Dean, that Dean is the hero and Sam is not, and on top of it... that Dean is more loving, more forgiving, more selfless. He's just a better man. Like this is stuff Sam is thinking!

[beybuniki]

it's a deal

kind of inspired by this #socute

and this

[beybuniki]

[blessyouhawkeye]

forever thinking about that girl at my uni orientation who, after being told to pour out her water bottle before entering an event, looked at me and said "they tell us to stay hydrated and then make us pour out our water, this is like totally kafkaesque" and then poured out what was very obviously an entire water bottle full of whiskey. hope she's doing well.

[scoobydoodean]

Feeling a sudden longing to watch SPN. And I’m going to.

[scoobydoodean]

It’s been so long my PLEX library put SPN in “Rediscover” 😔 I’m so sorry babygirl.

[scoobydoodean]

I’m 29 seconds into episode recap already shouting “FUCK YOU, SAM.”

[carisstiel]

can u imagine. how it felt to be dean winchester. yearning and pining for 12 years over your angel boy best friend. you asked him out on dates and he repeatedly turned you down. you flirted with him. you prayed to him every night. you kept his moldy trench coat in your car. you made him a mixtape. can you imagine how it felt to stand in front of him as he cried and said all these things about how great you are. and then he says the one thing I want. I know I can’t have. he says I LOVE YOU. (!!!!!!!!!!!!) GOODBYE DEAN. and then he DIES

[dogpuppy]

I wish I could have heard you sing this… I bet you have a beautiful voice

[glooumnastas]

Blinding beauty 🙈

[lostcryptids]

this is exactly how i watch movies

[strangewomanlover-deactivated20]

GET ME OUT IF NEW YORK NOWWW😭😭😭😭