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@emosystem
do you ever just feel totally alone? I’m pretty sure the entire support system I’ve worked to create for myself has almost completely turned on me. my system is pretty much alone. it sucks. I just wish that the good time I was having just a few days ago could have lasted. things were finally looking up for us for the first time in I don’t know how long, and now we’re here. crying, all alone.
- Riven
what the fuck
just.
what the fuck.
a system that we know in real life, who we considered a friend, has decided to accuse us of faking. their reasoning is that they don’t believe we have trauma, and want us to tell them (in detail) about our trauma to prove that we aren’t lying. this is not ok!! our trauma is not anyone else’s business. if we want to talk about it, it will be in a safe place, with people we trust. it will not be over discord with a system who has accused us of faking basically everything about ourselves. our host is a wreck right now, has barely slept, and has been crying all night. it’s not okay to just destroy someone like that, and expect them to prove to you that they were abused and hurt and traumatized.
- Jasper
Source
These dudes are fucking legit. They don’t just show up one day in court, either, they actually make friends with the kids and let them know they have a support system and that there are people in the world who care about them and will always have their back. And less important, but also cool, is that the few times a couple of them have come into my cafe, they’ve been super friendly and polite and when I told one of the guys that I noticed his Bikers Against Child Abuse patch and wanted him to know how awesome I thought he was because of it, he got kind of shy and blushed and said, “The kids are the awesome ones, we just let them know they’re allowed to be brave.”
The source is long, but so, so good. These men and women are available in 36 states, 24 hours a day to stand guard at home, in court, at school, even if the child has a nightmare. Many of them are survivors of childhood abuse as well, and know what it’s like to feel scared and alone.
In court that day, the judge asked the boy, “Are you afraid?” No, the boy said.
Pipes says the judge seemed surprised, and asked, “Why not?”
The boy glanced at Pipes and the other bikers sitting in the front row, two more standing on each side of the courtroom door, and told the judge, “Because my friends are scarier than he is.”
Actual tears.. hnngh
Show me more of people like this, world. I give up on humans too easily.
where do i sign up for this,i want to be in this gang
This is fucking amazing. It may be out of character for me to say this but rock on
Bikers Against Child Abuse was founded in 1995 by a Native American child psychologist whose ride name is Chief, when he came across a young boy who had been subjected to extreme abuse and was too afraid to leave his house. He called the boy to reach out to him, but the only thing that seemed to interest the child was Chief’s bike. Soon, some 20 bikers went to the boy’s neighborhood and were able to draw him out of his house for the first time in weeks.
Chief’s thesis was that a child who has been abused by an adult can benefit psychologically from the presence of even more intimidating adults that they know are on their side. “When we tell a child they don’t have to be afraid, they believe us,” Arizona biker Pipes told azcentral.com. “When we tell them we will be there for them, they believe us.” ( Article)
More about BACA, from their site
My parents are a part of this organization and they are metal af
They go on runs to protect the child if they feel even the slightest threatened no matter where. If the child needs them to go on vacation with them, they do. Bikers come from across the nation to watch over and take shifts for these kids. And the best part is once you’re adopted into this family as a BACA kid, you’re always one. Even when you’re 40 and the perp gets released from jail, they’ll come meet with you and find your best options for avoiding the person and maintaining the life you’ve built for yourself. Once a BACA child, always a BACA child. In Florida, there’s 100% rate for identifying the perp based on the child’s testimony. Why? Because BACA stands with the child and supports the child so they feel comfortable enough to point out their attacker.
What’s better than a badass biker gang being on your side???
NATIVE AMERICAN CHILD PSYCHOLOGIST WHO IS A BIKER AND NAMED HIMSELF CHIEF HELL YES I’M HERE FOR THAT AND BIKERS BEING BAD ASS TO PROTECT KIDS. HELL YEAH.
it’s back! I will always reblog BACA
Damn good people.
I know they wouldn’t consider themselves such, but these people are freaking heroes and the world is a better place because of them.
Hey folks, it talks about this in the article but its not mentioned in this post, BACA is a 501 © (3) charity that depends in part on donations to help pay for stuff like gas for their bikes. If you want to help, consider donating.
@copperbadge You like posting about heroes, Sam. Seems like this would be up your alley.
I love these folks! I’ve reblogged them before but it’s wonderful to see the donation information has been added.
Always reblog. Keep doing what you’re doing y'all.
Guys? This post changed my life. I saw this post. Forever ago. And thought it was only in america… and wished desperately that they could help me. But then I saw it again, during a bad episode, and checked their site. They aren’t just in the USA
They’re in Canada as well and probably other countries. I met and talked with a native guy who runs the place near me. His name is Shaman. I got in, and I’m considered a BACA child now. Despite being 17, turning 18 when I talked to them. They spent time with me when my abuser was over, they gave me therapy resources. They give you something called a ‘level 1′ where they go to your house with as many bikers as they can, i shit you not a solid 20-40 bikers came from even out of province, and met me. I got to choose my biker name and I got a vest with patches on it and my name on it. They all hugged a Teddybear before giving it to me, and told me if I ever felt the BACA bear was running out of love, to give them a call and they’d refill it for me, and then I got a ride on one of their bikes. Just a day or so ago I went to an annual party with them and they we ate food one of them cooked and had a lot of laughs.
I’ve never felt as loved as I did being a part of the BACA family. They also gave me dog tags with the names, and phone numbers of my 2 workers. So I can call them whenever I feel scared.
BACA is an absolutely wonderful group that will do everything in it’s power to help any child whos been abused.
And it doesn’t end when you’re 18 either. As long as you get in contact/get your level 1 before you’re 18? you’re ALWAYS a BACA kid. I’m 18 now and they still invite me to parties, ask me if I’m okay, and are there for me. They’re still trying to find me resources for therapy.
BACA has changed my fucking life.
I hope you all can read this, and reblog it knowing from someone who fucking been with them, that they are absolutely amazing.
If I ever don’t reblog this, it’s because I am physically being restrained against my will.
Supporting your local hero’s.
FUCKEN AMAZING what these Bikers do!!!! This is why I don’t give up on humanity…
💞🖤💞 Carpe Diem 💞🖤💞
How to be a better friend/ally to DID/OSDD systems
First! Some terms you should know
Alter: One of the people living in the brain of the person
Fronting: When one or more alter is controlling the body
Headspace: Where most alters go when they're not fronting
Dormant: When an alter is not active
Split: When a new alter forms
Polyfragmented: When a system splits very often
Switch: When one alters gives the front to a different one
The Body: The body that all the alters are sharing, the physical figure
ANP: Apparently Normal Part, an alter who does not have a connection to the trauma
EP: Emotional Part, an alter that does have connection to the trauma
Roles:
Host: The alter(s) that front the most/Take care of daily tasks
Caretaker: An alter which will take care of other alters, primarily littles
Littles: Alters that are children, usually do not age with the body
Persecutor: Alters that harm themselves, the system, and/or the body
Gatekeeper: An alter that manages switches, so they dont happen at bad times
General:
Firstly, please respect that we exist! If someone tells you that they're a system, don't dismiss them and say "that's such a rare disorder how could YOU have it"
Furthermore, don't say our trauma wasn't "bad enough" or that we don't "look like it"
Don't! Ask! About! Our! Trauma!!! It isn't tour business!! If they're open to sharing, you're free to let them, but we're not going to freely say it to everyone. Not to mention, many alters don't have memory of the events
Remember that we all have PTSD, in some form. We all could have triggers or flashbacks or,, anything. It can be hard, we aren't "overreacting"
YES the most known sign is alters, but it also comes with trauma, dissociation, and a whole load of other things. This is a complicated disorder.
Don't bring up the movie Split I beg of you
Alters?
"What are alters?" alters are, to put it simply, an alternate state of consciousness. When we went through severe trauma, our brain couldn't handle the stress on its own. So it split into different parts. These different alters might front for different things- Managing daily life, holding trauma, etc.
"Why do only some of them have memory?" That's the point of the disorder! It's a coping mechanism. So in DID only the traumaholders will have memory, while ANPs will be able to function normally. In OSDD it's almost the same, but they still have memory of the event, just not an emotional connection. think of it like watching a movie. You're sad or disturbed, but it doesn't really effect you.
"Why do they all have different names/pronouns/genders/interests/etc.?" Because we're different people!!
Think of it this way: Each alter doesn't have memory/emotional connection to 100% of their life. Something that one alter went through just .. didn't happen to the others. So they have different lives completely
"Wait but then how do you talk to eachother/function in life?" Many ways! Some systems keep a journal that they all can write in, some have good internal communication (Usually in the headspace). Most systems will have a vote for changes to the body like haircuts, tattoos, etc.
Introjects
Introjects can either be Factives or Fictives. A factive is an alter of a real person, a fictive is an alter of a fictional character
They! are! not! their! source! Don't see a fictive of your favorite character and gish about how much you love them or something like- It's weird.
Introjects are their own people! They can have triggers, interests, etc. that aren't seen in their source
Pseudomemories are primarily things that Introjects have- they're memories from their source that didn't happen irl.
Littles
Littles are children alters! They are a child.
Unless given permission by an adult alter, treat littles like how you would treat any other child their age
It's very common for littles to be traumaholders- especially for the "original" trauma. Just,, be nice.
If a system does not want you knowing about their littles dont ask about their littles
How to talk to us?
Like any other person!
Actually, its a bit different. some dos and don'ts:
DO: Ask us whos fronting! Doesn't have to be every time you talk to us, but if there's a specific alter you want to talk to don't just assume
DON'T: Get angry at us when the alter you want to talk to isn't fronting. Switching can be hard for a multitude of reasons and honestly we're just trying to vibe
DO: Ask what pronouns to generally use, if they're out as a system, etc.
DO: ask questions! I'm always open to answering system-related things! :)
That's all for now! Feel free to add on
There are some things in here that apply to us, and other things that do not. Every system is different, we would like to acknowledge that. With that said, I believe that this post is a good way to start a conversation with loved ones about DID/OSDD. If you do not agree with some of the things mentionned, you can always decide to let them know what is and what isn’t relatable for your system.
We believe it is important for each system to be true to themselves. If you would like to let us know some of the things that are/aren’t relatable for you, our ask is open to anyone who wants to share anonymously or openly. We will not judge, just transmit the information.
We will always support other systems’ opinions as long as it is respectful and appropriate.
Sincerely,
F, Caleb, James
hi! I’m Eli. I’m 13 (but I act a little younger) and I use he/him pronouns. I have calico cat ears and a tail. I’m nonverbal, and the only audible sounds I can make are meows and some small noises. I am learning sign language so I can communicate better though! I like dinosaurs and petting cats, and my favourite colour is green. Nice to meet all of you!
-Eli
👏 Do 👏 not 👏 make 👏 fun 👏 of 👏 alters 👏 who 👏 are 👏 mute 👏
we have a new alter named Eli, and someone that we thought was a friend made him feel like shit because he can’t speak. He is nonverbal, and can only communicate with writing and texting. This person fully just left the call when he fronted, because he realized that Eli couldn’t speak. If someone can’t speak, don’t make fun of them. Don’t make them feel less than. Don’t be a horrible person.
questions for systems who have jobs:
do your coworkers know you’re a system? if so, how did you tell them–and how did they react? if not, how do you cope with having to present as a singlet (especially if you’re an overt system)? and regardless, how does being multiple affect how you work?
I have DID, and I am relatively overt, but none of my co-workers know I have DID. I am particularly concerned about discrimination so I keep my diagnosis to myself. However, for some things that are relevant to work, I’ll tell my coworkers/supervisors that I have a disability that effects my memory. A few of my co-workers have PTSD and/or ADHD and that can be similar.
Usually people will make their own reasonings for you acting inconsistently. A lot of the time it’s way more obvious to people who know you better than it is to people who don’t, like coworkers. I don’t have issue acting like myself and don’t pretend to be anything I’m not.
Despite there being laws in place that are supposed to prevent discrimination based on disability, unfortunately it still happens, so I would be hesitant to let supervisors etc know that I have a very stigmatized disorder, especially if my income depends on them thinking I’m reliable.
While we’re currently unemployed, we’re rather over as well. Accents, different ways of dressing, radically differing opinions… All of it.
When we did have a job, we… Didn’t hide anything. Now, to be clear, we also didn’t mention that we had DID. Discrimination is enough of an issue without bringing that into it.
However, people really are less likely to notice than you’d think. Once you’re aware of something, you start looking for it. But, if someone seems more aggressive/easily upset for no reason, you don’t jump to “oh it’s another person” but instead “oh they’re upset because they had a bad day, or woke up wrong, i shouldn’t pry”. It’s a different set of circumstances.
The accents, if you have them, can usually be explained away easily as well. “Sorry, I spent all day yesterday binge watching sherlock / listening to british podcasts” is an example that most people immediately just… accept. Which is hilarious because you can extend that to any accent, including new ones, and just say you pick them up easily and got stuck in that one because you listened to it for too long.
Currently, we’re unemployed, but work on commissions. Friends know we have DID, as do people who find us from this account, but if you looked at our DA, FA, Twitch, etc, you’d find it remarkably empty of any mention of DID as well. It’s just not worth the hassle, for us. But, trying to present as a single person is also too much hassle, and honestly, it tends to give the opposite result of people finding you strange at minor changes. That’s just our experience, however.
We have DID, and we’re decently covert except for accents. We’ve worked several different jobs and have a current job, and only ever told one manager. We were having an extremely hard time with a persecutor and had no way to explain it away with how exhausted we were, and we were at the point of crying so we just told her. We asked how much she knew about DID first, and she said she had just learned a lot about it. We told her. She didn’t treat us like separate people or a threat or an interesting project afterwards, just saying she hoped things got better for us and that if we needed anything she was there for us. We were closer to her after than we have been any manager and keep in touch. I don’t expect this is the average reaction. We’ve never told any other coworker. As for managing as a singlet, it’s easier than expected. DID is just not on most people’s raidar. When we forget task we were taught how to do they assume we’re pretty new and they just never taught us. We have an accent suddenly? We’re being silly and they should join in because it’s fun. We have a dress code so there’s no chance to dress differently. Even very heavy dissociation was explained with “I’m a bit slow today” which was met with “mood”. We have even referred to ourself as we on accident while people were watching and they figured we meant “we” the company we work for or “we” as in us and the person standing next to us. Just keep in mind, they’re probably not expecting a system or looking for it.
we don’t have a job at the moment, but I wanted to chime in. We often slip up and refer to ourselves as we, but we just joke “oop just referred to my brain and my body as two separate entities look at me lmao” and people really don’t notice
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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.
what its like to be a DID system (in my experience):
- i dont remember making that vent post
- why are other alters lying about our trauma? that never happened. (its not a lie. you dont remember because you werent there.)
- i dont remember telling you about that
- what?? when was i interested in that??? i dont ever remember liking that?
- when the hell did i buy this?
- im sorry, i dont remember saying that to you, but i am truly sorry. it was wrong of me and i shouldn’t have ever said that. its okay if youre mad at me.
- i dont remember getting into a fight with them?
- how did i get here?
- what was i doing?
- i dont know what my favorite food is
- i dont know what my favorite color is
- who am i?
- why was i so upset? what was i crying about?
- has this happened before?
- i dont remember learning that at school
- im fucked, i forgot to do that assignment for school- wait, what? its already done? when did i…?
- when was the last time i used the bathroom??
- its okay, its only 11:00, i have plenty of time… holy fuck its 5:00? what did i do all day?
[this post is okay to reblog!]
Hi, I’m Lexie. i appeared about a week ago. Riven wanted me to introduce myself here, so I am. I use she/her pronouns, and I’m a fictive. I’m not comfortable sharing what I’m from. I’m 16. Uh, yeah. I have trauma relating to the story that I come from, but I’m not a system trauma-holder. So yeah, that’s my intro. I probably won’t be on here much.
-Lexie
We just finished watching She-Ra, and I have to say it is such an amazing representation of trauma-affected people. everyone in our system had someone they related to, and a lot of what Adora and Catra go through emotionally is relatable to our trauma-holders. I’m so impressed, and I just want to say that.
-Jasper
You ever just blend together for like a hot second and have no idea who the fuck you are? Yeah, that’s us for the past hour or so. We’re like co-fronting rn and it’s real foggy up in here
- some amalgamation of Tayce and Riven
Good evening. I am tired of saying this but you cannot intentionally create a system.
Thought about this and it wouldn’t leave me alone until I made it
As both a Genderfluid person and a member of a system, I have to say ”oh my lord I relate to this so bad.”
Important reminder with all of this “superstra¡ght” bullshit.
THIS is the superstra¡ght flag. Vertical, two stripes, orange and black, very bright orange. Sometimes comes with nazi symbolism but obviously I’m not putting that flag on here. Used by alt right, nazis, and transphobes.
THIS is the system pride flag. Horizontal, three stripes, white orange and black, with dulled down colors. Used by systems. Not associated with superstra¡ght bullshit, been around for a LOT longer than these transphobic fucks.
I would appreciate if singlets reblogged this.
gotcha. superstraight looks like pornhub, system pride looks like orange bee
sometimes frogs are liquid
they vibin’
Jasper Is co-conscious right now, and she desperately wanted me to reblog this for her lmao.
-Tayce
