TW: anxiety, panic attacks, can be either romantic or platonic. This is also very self indulgent because I have a lot of anxiety 👉🏻👈🏻
You always had a problem with anxiety and panic attacks. You’d end up sputtering and gasping for air during Mr. Keating’s class when you were called on, or begin shaking when someone you didn’t like came up to you.
Neil was your rock, though. He was the calm within the storm and soothed your panic by holding your face and whispering sweet nothings to you
Today was like any other. It was a chill October in Massachusetts, the green trees turning to those of orange, red, and yellow hues.
Neil sat peacefully in his dorm. It was after hours and designated study time, so Neil used his time to write poems for Keating’s class. Usually Todd would have joined him, however, he decided to study with Meeks and Pitts instead.
Then without any warning, you came rushing into Neil’s dorm. This was the first time you had openly chose to come to him rather than dealing with it alone.
“Neil,” you gasped, shaking and trying to wipe some tears as she walked in. You felt utterly pathetic.
Neil was caught off guard— he was immediately panicked, but he knew that showing it would only worsen things. He slowly stands up and turns, walking to your trembling and closed off figure.
He reaches you and places a hand on her arm and uses the other arm to push the door closed. His moves were calculated and precise to calm her.
“Shh… breathe,” Neil draws out his words, hoping that he’ll get through to you. He’s learned a lot over the time you two have spent together. He holds both of your shoulders firmly to ground you and gently blows cool air onto your face.
You continued to shake and whimper like a kicked puppy, but it ultimately worked. He held eye contact with you and exaggerated his breaths— he knew what to do.
As you started to calm down, Neil began to slowly guide you to sit on his bed. He gives you a slight nod before reaching for water and holding it to your lips for you to sip.
He knew exactly what you needed.
“See? That wasn’t so bad…” He coos, holding the back of your neck with his free hand and pulling the water bottle away as soon as you were done. His hands moved up and down soothingly on your arms.
You didn’t speak yet. It was normal for you, as you were usually shaken up after her panic attacks. Neil didn’t mind, though. He maintained eye contact.
“I’m proud of you, y’know,” he began, a slight smile creeping on his face, “you came to me instead of hiding it. I want you to do that more often.”
Neil assured before leaning forward and enveloping you in a big hug. You let out a big sigh and hugged him back.
Omgg a Richard Papen fic where he thinks that the reader is sort of otherworldly? But not in the way he thinks the Greek class is, she mostly wears white, lace, sort of angelic, kind but mostly keeps to herself and he is so obsessed that he actually starts being honest and truthful to her for once in her life.
Or anything you want to write about him tbh, I'll read anything atp
OH MY GOODNESS I LOVE THIS IDEA!!! This is gonna be sooo self indulgent since I wear a lot of white and lace.
Angelic Soul
WARNINGS: she/her pronouns, written in one take, not proofread.
Richard Papen x fem!reader
Summary: Richard meets a girl who seems ethereal, someone he wouldn’t expect falling for.
The plan for Richard’s day was simple: go to the library and study. Henry was supposed to tag along, but Bunny dragged him somewhere else. So it was just Richard.
The library was dead silent. Nobody was there except for two women talking quietly behind the checkout counter. After some searching and failing to find the books he was looking for, he came across a woman who was quite peculiar. She also looked just about his age, perhaps a little younger.
She was dressed in a white blouse-like dress. There were lace gloves that she wore as well as French braids. Not only did she look beautiful, she was certainly magnetic. Richard couldn’t stop himself from walking over to her.
“Excuse me, Miss…”
The woman dressed in white looked over at him. She finished placing a book on the shelf, and a pin on her dress revealed that she was a volunteer at the library.
“Can I help you…?” Her voice was sweet like honey, even sweeter than her looks or the pastries that Bunny brought to class sometimes.
Richard snapped out of his trance. He simply nods and looks down upon her. He had a good few inches on her.
“Right— just— do you have any Homer?”
“Homer?”
There was silence, Richard offering a weak smile. The woman nods and begins to walk over to another section. Richard quickly followed behind, his footsteps heavy compared to her soft and gentle ones.
Then, they reached the poetry section. She crouches down, grabbing each copy of a different Homer book. She stands back up and holds them up for him to see
“Is there a specific one you are looking for?”
He shakes his head and mindlessly takes all of them. Suddenly, he was so aware of how close they were. How close would they end up getting?
She laughs. It was delicate, ethereal. He was whipped.
“Is that all?”
“Yes.”
“I can check you out, then.”
And then he was following her again, this time to the front counter. He let her take the books to check them out. There was only one aching question in his mind.
“Where do you go to school at?” He blurts out asking.
The woman’s eyes shot up in surprise, but the question wasn’t unwelcome.
“I go to Hampden… why do you ask?”
“Me too,” He began, taking a breath of air between each sentence, “we should… study together… sometime.”
She cracked a smile and finished checking out the books, handing the stack back to him.
“That would be delightful.”
“I— I can take you out for coffee, too.” Richard managed to blurt out again. He didn’t think he would get so stupid and impulsive over a librarian girl. Plus, he hardly had the money for coffee.
It was clear that she was thinking about it. She was caught off guard for a moment; but she eventually nodded.
“I wouldn’t mind that.” She admits with the softest of smiles.
“Great. Uhm… library tomorrow. I’ll see you.”
He went scurrying off like a mouse who just found cheese. He was excited.
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The next day at the asscrack of dawn, Richard was getting ready. Why he cared so much for an angelic goddess, he didn’t know.
He managed to convince Henry to let him borrow another coat; something different from the tweed jacket he always wore.
Once the library was open, he bolted to the doors and took a seat, reading the Homer books he had just gotten.
Then, she walked in. It’s like the entire energy of the library shifted. Without him even noticing, you took a seat across from him. She had a textbook, a notebook, and colored pens. Richard looks up at her, his usual harsh and uncaring expression softening. It was a look of admiration.
“Hey,” he began.
“Hey,” she smiles.
She looks down at her textbook and begins to take notes. Richard, however, didn’t follow suit. He sat and stared. If this is what love was, he was sure that he’d want it forever.
He reached out and took her hand in his. She didn’t move, only smiled.
This was my favorite thing to ever write. PLEASE let me know if you want a pt.2 because I had so much fun writing this, I wanna write more but I have no ideas :(
- James Wilson is the girliest girl dad to ever girl dad and I will stand by that.
- The only thought that’s been circulating in my mind is him up at 8am to get his girl ready for her first ever day of school and braiding her hair.
- AUGHHHH 😭
- Like you know that little girl on TikTok named bug (@its_abuglife) I JUST IMAGINE HIS DAUGHTER IS LIKE THAT AUGH
- I fear he’d be obsessed with going shopping for clothes. Maybe even you’re annoyed with it.
- He’s always learning hairstyles and doing her hair.
- I doubt it would happen, but if there’s ever a “bring your child to work day” he is BRINGING HER
- He would immediately purchase a little nurse costume or scrubs or something for her
- My heart is melting.
- And then if House ever wants to do something after work, Wilson’s like,
- “Sorry, I got to get home to my GIRLS!” with the biggest smile on his face.
- He’s definitely into tossing her into the air. Idk why I just LOVE that 🥹
- All in all, he can’t say no to her. Like she wants a million dollars? He’s immediately like, “yes, my sweet girl, here’s two million and an extra million for college-”
- She also has his eyes and I will fight anyone on that.
Being 'allowed’ inside a woman’s body is one of the biggest honors for a (heterosexual) man. And when she gives her consent, accessing her sacred space, her body, and her energy should always be done with the utmost care and intention.
Her vulva is both delicate and holy, the origin of all life. She is the portal to life through which we all have passed. We all have moved through her warm and nurturing channel, so let’s express our gratitude.
Sex is an exchange of energy. We should only enter her sacredness to convey, cocreate, and amplify love. This doesn't mean that we can not be primal or animalistic anymore. But her vulva is not a place for you to dump your suppressed emotions, shame, or rage. Her tissue is permeable. She soaks up everything you’ll bring into her.
So, instead of releasing your unresolved pain into her, give her your love, your potency, passion, and devotion. Allow her to absorb your heart through your cxck. She is vast and powerful. She is the gateway to existence. And men will never fully comprehend her intricacies.
Which is fully okay if we can honor her enigma and allow her to lead us onto a path that is different from what we know and that will surpass our wildest imagination.
We owe it to the female body to respect and worship her. We men have been taught to sexualize her sacred territory for centuries. I certainly have. I objectified women, sexualized their bodies, mistreated them, and poured my own repressed wounds into them.
I didn’t know how to do it differently because I feared being kicked out of my tribe of peers. And, how irresponsible and escapist it might sound, I needed these experiences to eventually learn and analyze my own and other men’s behavior.
I believe that we as men must embrace our inner feminine. Accept her as she is. She's yearning eagerly to be heard behind the exterior walls we've proudly put up to hide behind in our shame and machismo. Following stupid and destructive statements such as "man up," "stop whining," or "don't be pussy-whipped".
We need to make the change. Speak our minds. Be more open and expressive. This doesn't mean that we can not be strong and masculine anymore. We still can be determined and bullheaded, hard when we need to, but also gentle and pliable, coming from the heart.
We must unite with women and share our differences and similarities. We must communicate effectively. And to do so, we first need to understand ourselves.
This means we must dive deep into the places we’d want to avoid. The shame and jealousy. The rage of all the moments that we were not respected and seen. The hate and anxiety. The tears that we haven’t shed.
We have to look at the snapshots of all the moments when we made ourselves small or when others belittled us. Listen to all the voices that we blindly took over. Examine the imprints that do not serve us anymore but rather hold us back. Explore the false roles we play and how they mask our fearless and spirited sovereignty.
We must grab ourselves by the balls, erect our spines, soften our bellies, and ground back into our hearts.
If you want to respect women, you must respect yourself first, brother. She is the land, the soil. You are the seed that cocreates existence with her.
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i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
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im over 5’5/ i wear glasses or contacts / i have blond hair / often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair /i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear make up / i dont often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument /i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like reading / i like writing / i can mulitask / ive never dated anyone / i have a best friend ive known for over 5 years / i am an only child
im over 5’5/ i wear glasses or contacts / i have blond hair / often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair /i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear make up / i dont often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument /i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like reading / i like writing / i can mulitask / ive never dated anyone / i have a best friend ive known for over 5 years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
wow o wow I don’t have anyone to tag but thank you!!
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I apologize for the lack of content recently. I’ve currently been wrapped up in another project and trying to enjoy the final months of summer before my junior year.
I have no idea if I should be announcing this project, but I’m sure it’s quite obvious. So with that said: I’m currently writing a book.
(my honest reaction ^^)
I have no idea on whether I will elaborate on it just yet. It is still in the very very early stages, but I do know it will be a drama, think “The Secret History” vibes. But this will be a journey I will share and I’m very excited to do this with every supporter I have.
More information on this book will come soon!! In the meantime, I will be answering requests and if there’s anything you want to see in a book, please let me know. I want this book to not only be satisfying for me to make, but I want it to be satisfying to its readers.
