ErringInLife

Life...It's something alright.

[erringinlife]

[erringinlife]

Poetry

First thing I do in the morning is think about you,

Thinking how wonderful it’d be to see your beautiful sleeping face,

I’d look with absolute bliss,

Imagining for a time where there would be such a case,

Yearning for you on borderline obsession,

Holding on to you with the sweetest of sensations,

All those imperfections, I’ll accept it all,

Feelings that go to the depths of an endless fall,

Falling with hopes I’ll reach,

That with the sincerest of hearts,

I continue to hope knowing that your the only one

[erringinlife]

Poetry

She’s on my mind,

Literally all the time,

I find myself here,

Wanting to be there,

Holding her in my arms,

Protecting her from all the harm,

This dire need,

She’s planted the seed,

On an endless track thinking about this girl everyday,

Looking to reach a place that seems so far far away,

But one day surely i may,

When she’ll see how we’re meant to be,

like two separated pieces of clay

[erringinlife]

Poetry

Watching the world pass by,

In a blink of an eye,

Caught frozen in time,

ticking all the while,

attaining a certain smile,

briefly removed from the habitual guile,

gently warming and so familiar,

meandering closer so i can just be near

[erringinlife]

Poetry

always dreaming, for a day less excruciating, just buying time, til something better comes around, not knowing if it'll ever reach, that glimmer, brightens the abyss, for only a short span, til it fades once again, reaching hands high, that for longer than a breadth, ill taste the sweet embrace, of another, holding tightly, not knowing when It'll be, fleeting as I always see

[c0ntemplations]

You don’t get it, do you? If I like you, I couldn’t care less what we do. I’d walk with you for hours to no where in particular and still want to do it all over again.

(via c0ntemplations)

[erringinlife]

Favorite Quotes

“There’s a story behind every person. There’s a reason why they’re the way they are. They aren’t just like that because they want to be. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it’s impossible to fix.”

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Favorite Quotes

“ One thing you who had secure or happy childhoods should understand about those of us who did not. We who control our feelings, who avoid conflicts at all costs, or seem to seek them. Who are hypersensitive, self-critical, compulsive, workaholic, and above all survivors. We are not that way from perversity, and we cannot just relax and let it go. We’ve learned to cope in ways you never had to.” - Piers Anthony  

[erringinlife]

Poetry

Waking up, turning on my bedside, 

Thoughts running wild as they always do, 

seems to be always a bit restless, 

still wondering, pondering, where’s that sweet love of mine, 

to calm the waves of my relentless yearning, 

to another day, when the search ends someday 

[erringinlife]

Scatter Thoughts, Dreams

Despises corporatism and greed, income disparity

Believes in equality

Abhors discrimination and racism

Wishes for more compassion and understanding

Dreams of saving the world from all the pain and suffering

Disillusioned, back to insignifance

Day to day til the end of the World

[erringinlife]

Favorite Quotes

“The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven..”

- John Milton, Paradise Lost

[erringinlife]

Poetry

Shielded, guarded It's all the same, Acting a bit lame, quirky and dorky, Moment to moment, Drawing blanks all the time, every time, Laying here, Searching relentlessly, Consistently keeping me restless, Drawing nothing once again, Time to sleep and try again

[erringinlife]

Losing a Connection

Over the past month or so, I met this pretty cool person. I met him when I moved into my new apartment. He’s my next door neighbor. Which is pretty awesome. We got along and became friends pretty quickly. We have a lot in common in terms of what we like and the issues we’re dealing with. He’s the first friend I’ve had where I can be completely honest with about nearly everything, more so than any other friend I’ve had. Struggling with anxiety and depression as I do. Finally, I didn’t feel so alone. Seems though, he’s had it rough. He moved here because of his girlfriend, however that relationship didn’t end well and so he was left here stuck with the lease. 

Recently he let me know he’s received help with breaking the lease so he can move. He intends to move out of state. I feel this lingering sadness well up inside me and I can’t contain the tears as I’m writing this. It’s true I can still message him on facebook, but it won’t be the same. I’ll end up being all alone again. Ah...why does it feel like everyone that matters to me leaves me at some point. I wish I didn’t feel the way I feel so that times like this don’t shatter my brittle fabrication. It’s near breaking point and all I want is something to numb it all.

[erringinlife]

Favorite Quotes

“this place is wrong. I know it. More than ever. The problem is, the Town is perfectly wrong. Every last thing is skewed, so that the total distortion is seamless. It’s a whole . . . The town is sealed, . . . like this. That’s why the longer you stay in here, the more you get to thinking things are normal. You begin to doubt your judgement. You get what I’m saying?”

Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World. Professor. Pg.247-48

[erringinlife]

Poetry

I’m lost, tired, hurt,                                             This wound I carry, constantly                         Never once fully gone,                                     How can I possibly go on,                               I feel at this rate it’ll all end,                             Honestly, that doesn’t sound too bad,             I don’t mind it really,                                     Especially at times like this,                             Please just some peace of mind

[yoisthisracist]

Is racism a renewable resource? I feel like we could solve this whole energy crisis thing.

No

[erringinlife]

Favorite Quotes

“I can never say what I want to say . . . it's been like this for a while now. I try to say something, but all I get are the wrong words — the wrong words or the exact opposite words from what I mean. I try to correct myself, and that only makes it worse. I lose track of what I was trying to say to begin with. It's like I'm split in two and playing tag with myself. One half is chasing the other half around this big, fat post. The other me has the right words, but this me can't catch her . . . Does this make any sense to you?”

“Everybody feels like that to some extent . . . They’re trying to express themselves and it bothers them when they can’t get it right.”

Norwegian Wood. Naoko & Toru. Pg.21