This tumblr thing seem to allow some sort of blogging as well, so excuse me for getting a bit personal. I had a strange encounter today that needs some debriefing, and so far I missed the opportunity.
So there's this guy that really has a problem with me, because I associate with the wrong people. People that support really sinister things, and just hanging out with them automagically makes you one them. Whether you know it or not. Whether you believe it, once this guy tells you, without any evidence but his good character, or not.
There's no need to name this person, as he acts as Agent Smith. Most of us are easily capable to 'step aside' and let a role our culture appreciates take over. Sorry, I wasn't really myself when I did this.
So Agent Smith hangs around and sometimes tries to get close to the conversation I engage in. As I notice this, I take more breaks and try to ignore him, carefully aware of the surveillance mode AS enters.
He films my interaction with police, and later pokes a mobile phone camera towards my face while 'interviewing' me as well. Any bit of my lengthy conversation can be now taken out of context, and used as evidence for my malicious intents.
Later, while it becomes apparent that I'm with my girl friend (or collaborator in love), AS starts a rant about his character assessment of mine, pretty similar what I read on fb already. Yes, it's totally real life troll baiting, combined with a ton of anger. In front of someone he meets for the first time.
So he illustrates with many words and lots of anger his dislike for me as a person. And asks me questions, prompting some reaction. Not that any answer could stop his flow of accusations.
So I gave some answers, and noticed how angry I got for not being heard, interrupted the moment I started speaking. For a while, I raised my voice, but then decided just to walk away.
I watched Agent Smith talking to my beloved, wondering what he might spin up. I went out of audible range, though, so I just watched her curling into a ball while he still emanated lots of anger.
At some point, I returned, just to have more anger unleashed unto me. How to react to someone who 'wants to see my head getting bashed'? What do you with a bully in public, without resorting to physical violence?
As I managed to neither get angry, nor afraid about all the threatening behaviour, my smile was called 'sociopathic'. While I sailed through the conversation with police quite smoothly, the next interaction with Agent Smith left more traces.
What I need is an extra dose of whatever. Attention spend on someone who thrives on adversity just doesn't pay off. Just another kid pissing in the pool.