Walking Travesty

My name is Cammy, I’m 24. I’m just walking through life at this point.

[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

I think I’m getting better

Over the past year I’ve completely changed and gone through so much as a person. Through relationships, and friendships, and moving out of my parents house, and working all the time, I’ve gotten to the point of being okay.

My mental health was so bad before I left my parents. They were gas lighting me to believe that my feelings were not worth it. That my thoughts were useless. That what I wanted to feel should not be felt. That my say did not matter. That I was useless. That I was a burden. That I was a disappointment. But since leaving I’m learning that I have these feelings for a reason and I’m trying to learn how to express those said feelings.

My living with my best friend has been the best choice I have made for myself in so long. It’s opened up many possibilities for me I don’t think l could ever thank her and her family.

[anus]

people who sleep with one pillow make me sick

[thomasthetalkingengine]

people who sleep with more than one pillow are shown to be more lonely and depressed

[prblms]

[yorripi-deactivated20200726]

reblog and put in the tags how many pillows you sleep with

[plantain-emoji]

May your next period be light and end quickly

[plantain-emoji]

This is literally now my favorite post ever, because its become thousands of reblogs consisting of passing on good fortune. Meanwhile many of y’all added your own comments saying your thanks, and continuing the chain by adding your own little bit of wishful thinking. You are all wonderful.

[neeka-neko-deactivated20160625]

may you not leak even once

[phineas4cobain]

NOT EVEN when you sneeze or cough!

[insouciantbibliophile-deactivat]

may you always have what you need when you need it. 

[obsessivereaderandwriter]

May you have no cramps.

[misunderstoodraindrop]

May you have no headaches

[captainxandis]

may you start in your own home/somewhere you are comfortable, in your least favourite underwear and with plenty of pads/tampons on hand

[sententiousandbellicose]

may your nausea be minimal and your mood swings minor

[matt-the-blind-cinnamon-roll]

May you have no acne at all

[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

I was the epitome of Jughead Jones here and I felt so great 💕

[alentador]

When you’re attracted to someone, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. Their smile. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it most.

Sing You Home.  (via nodream)

[kimreesesdaughter]

The year is 2018. Your bills are on autopay. You just got paid and you still have $1200 from the last check. When you want something, you buy it without moving money around. Your credit cards are paid off. You and your friends have 2 international trips planned and paid for this year. Your parents are in great health and you’re able to help if they need anything. You love your job. Your desired creative career is falling into place and you get to take your little cousins to Six Flags and Universal Studios over the Summer. Your relationships are healthy and supportive. All of the toxic energy from the past 6 years is gone. You going to concerts, eating good across the states and your crib has art and warmth throughout. 2018 is going to be so good to you.

[lilboreddev-blog]

reblog if u a lil ugly

[bronzyglow]

‪note to my younger self: there really is a man out there who will be so in love w you & make you forget about all the pain from your past. he’ll find you sooner than you think and will change your world for the better so dry those ugly tears bitch!!!!!! ‬you will be so happy 🌹

[doktorgirlfriend]

Brain: You’re a horrible, worthless, garbage person, and your life is going nowhere but to hell.

Me: I don’t know what the fuck you expect me to do about that at 11PM, my dude.

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[himejoshikomaeda]

what the fuck. theres not even a fucking joke here. its just the fucking alphabet. i was expecting some kind of fucking meme like “gun” or “john cena” or something like that but no its just the fucking alphabet. here. on tumblr.com. 26 users just fucking banded together to write the alphabet. what the fuck, man.

[batter-sempai]

I think the update broke them, and almost everyone else.

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72 …..why not….making the best out of this sad situation

[ryuki-blogs]

73… I got so angry at this post I had to reblog it and continue

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[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

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ig; neptunemily

[roseoilz]

my favorite eye looks pt 1 (http://instagram.com/thesaraengel)

[kimreesesdaughter]

I used to think I was being too picky but fuck that. I deserve someone who wants to know about me. It may sound silly but I don’t wanna be out here fucking with people who never ask my favorite color or if I ate today. I deserve someone who wants to hear my dreams just as much as I want to hear theirs. I deserve the same energy and effort I release. Fuck that. 

[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

Day 12

I didn’t get to see him today but that’s okay. Maybe I’ll see him some time this week 😊

I don’t want to bother him, but I want to see him and be with him all the time because being in his arms feels like home more than my house ever did.

[bxstxrds]

!!i need to be kissed !!!!!!! and wanted !!?!/??1!! and maybe even held?!!!?!!!! and then !!! kissed some more!!!!!

[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

Day 11

Today was a really good day. I had to work, but that wasn’t a big deal. He said he was waiting for me to get to my work to say hi, and I wasn’t supposed to work for another hour and a half. And I thought he was crazy. (I work at starbucks so it’s not crazy for him to stay there ya know. But still). And so I left my house early and I got to spend some time with home before I worked and that was great because I love spending time with him. It made working that much easier and I didn’t have a temper or anything (my anxiety makes me hey kind of angry when it’s busy). And it was so nice. We just talked and drank our drinks and we laughed and shared a few kisses. And I was sad he had to go but he was willing to wait so long for me to get there. And we wants to go bowling again with me. Maybe we will tomorrow I don’t know. But he’s great. And then he had to leave of course. And then he came back and visited me and we took pictures together. Because we needed to get an updated one because I said so lmao. But he’s a trooper and puts up with me taking pictures all the time. And him and I discussed what I want to do after college and he was supportive. But he’s great. God. I love him so much. I was talking about him to one of my friends that came to visit me today and all I could talk about was how much he means to me and how much I love him. And she was ranting to me about her new boo thang so it was mutual lol. God. He’s beautiful. He handsome. He kind. He’s sweet. He’s caring. He’s adorable. He’s considerate of my feelings. He understands that I have a dark past and that I’ve gone through a lot. And he makes sure I’m okay. Ugh. I love him. 💕💕

[fallingforthestarsinthesky]

Day 10

Well, not much happened today because we didn’t have much interaction because our days were flipped. He worked early and I worked late. His parents are back in from California, which is awesome. Maybe I’ll see him tomorrow 🤷🏻‍♀️ But who knows lol. I texted him today and was like “can you come here and spend time with me in the back of my car like we used to” and he couldn’t but one weekend before we got together officiall, we spent an hour or 2 in the back of my car after work and we talked and made out and it was adorable. He actually asked me out while I was on his lap and we were making out. It was funny, but it was like “this is us” kind of thing. I got on his lap and made out with him and then we would stop and look into each others eyes and smile and giggle, and he has this adorable fucking giggle that only comes out when he’s looking at me after we kiss. And then I would hold his face in my hands and I would kiss him again. And we would do Eskimo kisses, where our noses would rub up on one another 🤷🏻‍♀️, and then we would put our foreheads together and look at eachother that way. It was very movie like and romantic. But he told me he loved the way that I looked at him and then he kissed me again. And then we pulled apart suddenly, and it was normal because we would talk about something out of the blue while I was just on his lap. And it was a very comfortable experience kind of thing. And he was like “I know that we haven’t been talking all that long, and we’re making out and you’re on my lap, but will you go out with me?” And of course I said yes. ❤️