Ami’s Oddities

I was a musician with dreams of stardom. Got burned out and now pursue my various interests. She/Her 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ Fandoms: The Inheritance Cycle, She-Ra, Fallout, DnD/BG3, Merlin, Mass Effect, Dragon Age, and being very gay

[koobiie]

i feel strongly about this

[ailurinae]

[fastestfrog]

Free healthcare and a small dark space sounds so good right now

[vegastalker]

Go and watch the trailer for "Sorry About The Mess" !!!

[frankendykes-monster]

[demilypyro]

I've been feeling something odd ever since I picked up guitar... I think I finally know what it is.

To me, learning guitar feels a lot like transitioning did.

There is a version of me, in the future. A me who is more whole. She has worked long and hard to attain the goals she set for herself. She feels proud, and accomplished, and happy about who she is.

I have to become her.

As long as I work hard every day, I will change. I'll accrue thousands of little, incremental, permanent changes. My body will adapt. My understanding will expand. It will become natural. I will make it part of me.

I will become that version of myself.

[fastestfrog]

Definitely relate to this. Played bass for over a decade, but whenever I pick up a 6 string, an instrument I can barely play, I think about future me absolutey shredding through the songs I can’t even wrap my head around today.

I’ve always put so much pressure on myself, which has made these early years of transitioning so hard. But I’m slowly but surely getting there. I set goals for myself every year/month/week and a big one I have in my yearly list is “continue to grow and understand my life as a woman”. This means many things. In the early days, and even now occasionally, I buckle under the intensity of the pressure of existing as a woman. The hostility I feel from the world is constant and intense. For a long time I struggled to do even basic tasks and developed intense agoraphobia. I’m still figuring it out. But these days I’m getting up, showering, doing my hair, getting a cute outfit on, and cracking on with my day. Even that simple routine is leaps and bounds ahead of where I was even a year ago. I’m finding little pieces of euphoria everywhere, just in existing as the person I want to be. And I’m not her all the time. I’m a deeply vulnerable person. I struggle every day to get by. But when I wake up in the mornings, i tell myself to “woman up” and do my very best. I’m still a messy girl, I’m learning as i go.

In many ways, it’s a lot like my bass playing. Even after 12 years of playing, I’m not especially good. I get by, I can hold my own, I can figure out most tracks given enough time and ideally the tablature. My ears suck and I can’t tell a crotchet from a quaver, but despite that I still scored top of my class in music school, because I worked hard, used my strengths, and kicked butt.

I’m still not the player I thought I would be. So I don’t think in a decades time I’ll be the girl I want to be now, but I’ll be a woman who can get by, hold her own, work hard, use her strength, and kick butt.

[boltlightning]

I DONT CARE HOW MANY BEDS THERE WERE. WHAT IS YOUR BOOK ABOUT

[trekkiesagainstchastity]

(tearfully) w- working at the mattress store

[boltlightning]

i'm so fucking sorry. can you ever forgive me

[worstgirleva]

when you stop boymoding (and also get a bird)

[villainessbian]

stops boymoding, takes 55 damage? that tracks

[esthermika]

but +4 max hp!

[catgirlbignaturals]

Notice how there's light in her eyes that wasnt there before. HRT saved her

[catchymemes]

[aeliad]

HI LET’S SHARE NICOLE’S WORDS ON THE SUBJECT! 

It has been literal years but every time I see Martin’s tweets posted somewhere and his word is shared as truth while her post is not shared it sort of reiterates the fact that we trust men to speak about feminism more than we believe women who experience it. 

Interesting, innit? https://medium.com/@nickyknacks/working-while-female-59a5de3ad266

[wiseacrewhimsy]

Reading her account of how their boss treated her blows me away. Men are so emboldened that they will literally admit to illegal discrimination casually and face no consequences.

[the-geek-cornucopia]

In all the years of seeing this post I’ve never seen a link to her side. Didn’t even know she’d written one.

[pluts04]

Adding screenshots of her post. His whole post is there without needing a link. Hers should be, too.

Also, she posted this is 2017! It’s fucking 2020 and I’ve seen his side of this for years, but it took 3 years for her side to make its way to my dash…

[thou-creature-of-the-deep]

I’ve reblogged his story at least twice; it’s time for Nicole’s.

[satan-is-hugs]

It’s 2023 and i just now learned that Nicole’s response was also out there

[fastestfrog]

Cackling at my journal titles from two years ago.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Where’s the YA protagonist teen girl and her two boyfriends that are supposed to save us from this mess anyways

[what-even-is-thiss]

The dystopia books lied. The teen throuples aren’t coming to save us.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Save me teen dystopia love triangle

[what-even-is-thiss]

Teen dystopia love triangle save me

[terraswallows]

The boy who enjoyed fallout as a kid, still enjoys it as a woman.

[stxphxnxangxl-deactivated202506]

[brucebocchi]

[fastestfrog]

Very cool but funny scene in Eldest. Roran is chatting to a kid from carvahall during the trip from Narda to Teirm. I think it’s Nolfavrell but can’t quite remember.

Anyway. The kid is practicing knife throwing and has reportedly been acting up, and his mother has asked Roran to help guide him given how at this point half the village thinks he’s some sort of mad-god-demon-creature of battle, but really he’s just a guy with a hammer and willpower. And don’t get me wrong, Roran proves himself very capable in battle, he’s literally the best human fighter we see, but the books openly admit that’s not because he’s technically good, he’s got no training until like the middle of the third book and even then, he’s no expert, he’s just smart, strong, and again, godlike willpower. But at this point, Roran has only fought like 3 or 4 times, and he’s giving all this information about “how it’s a bad idea to throw your weapon in a fight”. Which let’s be real, is just common sense and very realistic.

But the way the scene plays out, it paints Roran in a very similar manner to Oromis’s lessons to Eragon (which are happening literally at the same time as this scene, there’s obvious parallels going on). The wizened old warrior teaching an unruly pupil who won’t behave himself. When Roran is like, 18 and has only been in a handful of fights.

Again, my favourite thing about Paolini is his sheer commitment to the fact that from day fucking one, Roran is an avengers level threat. I have said it before and I’ll say it again. This man would charge Galbatorix as long as he had his hammer and a plan.

[holymary420]

all day long

[dd-the-man-without-fear]

The Chief Graphic Designer:

[aymmgreen]

Huntr/x’s performance of “Golden” at the 99th Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade