Eternally Dreaming

Melancholic(See '4 humors').Cartoon fanatic, Hyperfixated on DT17, Resident Hypocrite, Daydreams more than what is socially and biologically acceptable, has finally submitted to the insanity of quarantine

[fatechanger]

Hello my lovely hellions,

Fay here!

In honour of being held hostage in this hellsite for more than one year, I have decided to redecorate my blog(s)!

Yep, you read that right. I have multiple blogs now.

If you came here from the ao3 link, please direct yourself to https://fate-talks-and-reblogs.tumblr.com

I post things related to my fanfic and the dt17 fandom there.

Reblogs are going to be a little less on this blog because now I will be reblogging to @fatechanger-reblogs

So like, that blog's not a bot fyi/j

(I also have a blog called phalange-fitness but that's mostly for my own personal enjoyment)

So why the changes?

Well, I'm a little on the fence about selling my soul rn so I'm currently hoping to use this blog to share things that I'm either working on or helping with.

Most likely I will just be sharing art or writing or...ya know. Just vibing.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!

I now release you from my literary clutches.

[shencomix]

[pr0tonang3l]

@skekthesilly

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be a part of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[inkskinned]

Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

I’m not worth the cost of a watch.

[inkskinned]

i wrote this while i was working at orlando’s walt disney world parks.

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.

we are both worth more than the watch, anyway.

[brightlotusmoon]

[synthfagz]

reblog to bonk prev with yr forehead like a cat

[lyriumrain]

Another wonderfull secret

[hymnsofheresy]

"we live in an uncaring universe"

false. i care very deeply. am i not a part of this infinite universe?

[existennialmemes]

"We live in an uncaring universe" factoid is actually a statistical error. Most conscious beings in the universe care a lot. Capitalism Georg who runs on suffering and eats the hopes and dreams of the entire earth is actually an outlier and should not have been counted.

[i-like-reblog-maps]

[stupidlittledoodles]

He’s not very good but I like himb

[gasteracanthacancriformis]

have i ever shown u people my hand sofa

[gasteracanthacancriformis]

my prized possession is this loveseat I bought from a divorced dad who couldn’t tell me anything about it and in the years i’ve owned it i’ve never been able to find out who made it or where it came from. it’s got nails and finger creases and palm lines but they’re all kinda hard to see in this pic.

[sepdet]

[emeraldwhale]

[kleefkruid]

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

[subwaybug]

More people should get into poly shipping. Both because polyamory is awesome and because it's really fun to make complicated ass diagrams

[anistarrose]

realizing a headcanon of yours happens to make an element of canon even more heartbreaking when you hadn't even considered it from that angle previously

[ID from alt: emoji rubbing their hands together and grinning evilly. End ID.]

[ibenology]

the average twitter vs tumblr community experience

[fourohfourlifenotfound]

[aropride]

if your animal is lying on the floor, furniture etc, it’s important to take a picture of them. then, if they move or shift in any way, it’s important to take another picture. with this technique, you can take many pictures of your animal

[chipper-smol]

the realization that the unhealthy trait you’ve given your favorite oc for funsies is actually something you unintentionally do is like watching a five year old innocently and perfectly mimic your bad habits

[susandotcom-deactivated20210224]

ladies? i have GOT to ask. what is going on

[feral-bard]

Well, I wake in the morning and I step outside, and I take a deep breath and I get real high, and I scream from the top of my lungs.

[interclover]

Argument: "Book is a girlfailure because she failed at most BFDIA challenges and won because of pity votes + influx from a bunch of cool scenes"

Counterargument: "Book is the strongest character in all of BFDIA. She was wronged and failed time and time again, yet she always found the courage to get up and give things another go, no matter how bad the circumstances were for her. Out of everyone, she has the strongest moral compass: in a society where killing doesn't truly mean anything, she still refuses to commit murder. The only time a permadeath was on the table, in which everyone could agree with without any second thoughts, she was the only one who had the guts to forgive Leafy and let her escape. In a perfect display of kindness, Book chose to forgive rather than let her negative emotions fuel her. If daring to oppose cruelty with love isn't seen as 'strong', then I don't know what that word truly means."

[ph4ntom101]

“She still refuses to commit mass murder” loud and clear I really need everyone else to hear it

she can rip people’s faces off yet she still chooses kindness over that I’m proud of her

I think she’s an excellent character idc what people say

[interclover]

YESSS FACTS!!! YOU GET IT oh god I love this scene so much. I've just realised that none of her methods involve direct contact with the victim, and that the "AHHH" at the top might be her venting her feelings.

She is the peakest ever <3 book bfdia we will protect you

[vsingers]

since when did snapple start dabbling in elemental elixirs

[a-book-of-creatures]

I love how they went for the four classical elements but realized they can’t call a sweet flavored beverage Water