𖧧⊹ father esjay ࣪ ˖꙳✿

ʚĭɞೃ come as you are .☘︎ ݁˖ they/them , 8teen , welcome to my sanctuary!

[malusokay]

focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

[fabulositydiaries]

What’s Your Brand Girly? ❤︎

Welcome Angel 🎀ᥫ᭡ personally I’ve established that my brand is ultimately being my dream girl. Being my most dreamy, ultra fabulous, radiant, academically driven, self improved, high vibe, main character teenage self.

why is this important?

establishing your personal brand based on your aesthetics, values, and dream self can help you improve in several powerful ways:

CLARITY AND DIRECTION ;

When you define who you want to be (your dream self) and what you stand for (your values), you create a clear vision for your life. This helps you make choices that align with your goals and avoid distractions that don’t fit your identity.

CONFIDENCE AND AUTHENTICITY ;

A strong personal brand built on your true values and style allows you to show up as your authentic self. This boosts your confidence because you’re not trying to be someone else—you’re owning who you are.

MOTIVATION AND GROWTH ;

By visualizing your “dream self,” you set a standard to grow toward. Every decision, how you dress, speak, act, and treat others—can become a step toward that version of yourself.

CONSISTENCY AND DISCIPLINE ;

Having a personal brand encourages consistency. When you know what image and values you want to project, you’re more likely to build habits that support that identity.

[tomfordvelvetorchid-deactivated]

“How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.”

[souljoy]

[crimsolyn]

— Carl Jung

[thezenangel]

study youtube channels

adhd couple - pomodoro timers

agumo. - study with me’s

celine - study with me’s

dr. rachel southard, do - medical & study vlogs

emmalilyn - study with me’s

ginny - study vlogs

lullablocks - pomodoro timers & study music

mango oatmilk - study with me’s

merve - study with me’s

sean study - study with me’s

studymd - study with me’s

yulma - study with me’s

eucalyptus (k-doctor) - study with me’s & study vlogs

[fatheresjay]

margaret qualley, the woman that you are.

[fatheresjay]

THATS MY MAYOR!!! (i’m from indiana)

image source: me babyyyyy

[fatheresjay]

“depression can’t hit a moving target.”

i’ve seen this particular quote get a lot of criticism and attention online recently, particularly on tiktok. and because i’m a nerd who can’t keep a single thought to themself, i thought i’d throw in my two cents.

for some background on my take: i have definitely experienced depression, particularly seasonal or health related depression, but on top of that, i have ADHD and panic disorder.

a lot of people have painted this particular image with this quote of busy schedules, being out late, and surrounding yourself with people. which, can obviously be incredibly helpful to some people, but i feel like this particular interpretation is why people hate this saying. movement isn’t always physical, and it’s not about never letting yourself feel your emotions. you can move emotionally, mentally.

as someone with a chronic illness who is constantly fighting the restraining nature of not only depression, but illnesses too, i can’t always go dance at a club or go for a drive to forget my worries. but, the one thing i can do is change what goes on inside me. i feel sad. a lot. and this post is not to say you can ‘willpower’ yourself out of depression, i know this is untrue from experience, but i have not only learned to ‘romanticize’ my life, but to be romantic about it.

the mundane can be awfully wistful, if you let it be. the other day i was having a hard time trying to get up and go brush my teeth for the night, but then i looked down at what i was wearing. baby tee, robe, no pants just boxers. i thought about how i looked like a woman in a romcom, and i started to think about myself in a ‘scene’, brushing my teeth and listening to letters to cleo. so i got my ass up, now excited for the task, and i realized it wasn’t that scary after all. now i let myself live in a movie for a couple minutes while i brush my teeth.

some days it’s still really hard to take care of myself, but mystical, almost delusionally lovely thinking gets me through the day. i get a lot of enjoyment out of rewriting my own story in my head.

so for me, “depression can’t hit a moving target” means resisting. resisting every thought that tells me i can’t do something, because 9/10, i can. even if it’s doing it tired or sad or apathetically.

pervertedly,

father esjay

[fatheresjay]

i think as a society we have gotten too cozy with the idea that any relationship will work as long as you attempt yourself at fitting this idea they have of what a ‘perfect partner’ looks like. and vice versa. this is something i deeply do not understand because, although it’s important to improve yourself constantly in a relationship, you can’t work against your own grain. your partner can’t expect you to speak to them in song if you can’t hear yourself sing. you have levels, some you can change and some you can’t. your appearance, maybe your personality too, are things editable. but your *nature* your *soul*, is completely inherent to you. some people won’t ever get *YOU*, so they’ll tell you you have to be something more figment than real. i could almost hate these people. but much of what they are is illusory themselves, so i mostly pity them. they find people who are actually faithful to their own spirit threatening. their own deficiencies of self are projected onto you. god i hate that. why would a cynic and a poet even be in the same room?

anyway, all this is just my version of a cliche ‘be yourself’ lecture. but seriously, people seeing through you isn’t the same as SEEING YOU.

pervertedly,

father esjay

[daily-spooky]

[i-am-a-fish]

I'm literally begging you, please be weird and queer, online and offline if you can, I want you to live life being as fascinating as possible

you'll only be alive for so long, please spend some time being odd

[organical-mechanical]

Fun fact: there’s a virus that makes bugs iridescent

disease that makes you beautiful then kills you

[linktothefags]

We've gathered here today in celebration of men with pretty brown eyes

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

y'all. please please please, do not just be weird. be complicated too. have a bunch of different pronouns, have a dozen names, have a hundred labels for you experience or have not a single one because it's too complicated to even explain

Be complicated, and be complicated with courage

[thezenangel]

the it girl’s spring cleaning

phone reset

delete old contacts and messages

go through social media following

delete unused apps

go through photos

set a new wallpaper

add widgets for reminders, weather, battery, etc.

delete old songs and add new ones

environmental reset

clean your bedroom (vacuum, dust, put clothes away, etc.)

sort through and donate old clothes

organize your makeup, skincare, etc.

wash or change your bedsheets

rearrange your bedroom

open your windows and curtains to let fresh air in

get outdoors

clean your home with fresh scented products (lemon, lavender, etc.)

physical reset

try a new workout routine

get some new outfits

do a face mask

exfoliate and shave

oil your hair or do a hair mask

try a new hair color, cut, or style

do your nails or get your nails done

get some fresh makeup and try a new makeup routine

do a lip mask and scrub

mental reset

start journaling or try some new prompts

do a refreshing meditation

try a new yoga practice or workout

read instead of scrolling

put a time limit on your phone usage

reset your sleep schedule

[huellitaa]

"match my freak!" match my sweetness. match my benevolence. match my empathy. match my ability to feel emotions so deeply it tears me apart from the inside out