"How about you tell me everything that's on your mind but in Russian? I won't understand, but maybe it'll help?"
I want to talk a bit about something that's so beautiful in this scene. It's how brave Shane is being. You can see him stop and think, open his mouth and close it before he says anything, scared but pushing through it anyways.
In gif 3, he's pausing and thinking about it, choosing his words careful and then finally daring to ask:
"Maybe you could teach me Russian some day?"
It's 'Because there's going to be a 'some day' Ilya, because we'll last long enough that you can teach me, right? We'll be together? We'll be together long enough for me to learn right? So that I can learn this language, speak your mother tongue to you?'
He's being brave. He's daring to say it. He's telling Ilya he wants this for a long time.
Then gif 9 & 10. He takes even longer, really thinks about it, really thinks about if he can say it. He opens his mouth, closes it, then tries again:
"How about 'I wish you were here right now?'"
Here, he's saying 'I want to be with you Ilya. I want to take away your pain, I wish I could hold you. I can feel it, I can tell how you're hurting and I want to be able to help you. I dream of a world where you can teach me how to say that to you, I dream of a world where we last long enough for me to say that.'
Ilya was brave by putting it all out there like that, saying what he had to. Yeah, he did it in Russian, but Shane knows it still took him being brave too. Even calling Shane like this was brave.
God. They love each other so much and they don't even know it yet.
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