Wrenna

Im sorry everyone. I am a mentally ill with other disabilities. Also the tRaUmA. Any pronouns. 19 :)

[forsakendevil]

I wish I did actually die. I know I’m supposed to be recovered now and I’m supposed to be happy and well. I should be a great example to others. But I’m not. I’m still as fucked up as I was.

[forsakendevil]

I loved you through my fault, my fault, my most grievous fault

[lavenderhemlock]

The duality of wanting someone who loves and cares about you and always worrying about you, to wanting to be left the fuck alone and not wanting to talk to anybody or knowing the existence of another person

[forsakendevil]

Can't you see that I'm enough for you

But you don't want me to be?

'Cause that means you'll actually have to be content

[forsakendevil]

I can feel myself going backwards. I’m so aware of it, yet I can do nothing to stop it.

[infectedbugz]

i'm going to die from the weight of my own thoughts actually

[elderemoislander]

Ace Week 2025 (Oct 19-25)

[forsakendevil]

I was not built for this amount of stress. God please stop testing your soldier.

[forsakendevil]

“I’ll take your word

Like a good friend should”

[forsakendevil]

If all there is in my life is pain, what is the point of living. I wake up everyday feeling like shit. The smallest things people do to me feel like betrayals. I can’t cope anymore. The pain is too much work.

[forsakendevil]

Why can’t people stay. It’s never their fault they go but I just wish someone could stick by me forever. I just want to know someone won’t leave.

[forsakendevil]

I wish I didn’t love people this hard. I want to let them go but if I do they’ll leave forever. I don’t want to place my faith in others because they have left me every time.

[forsakendevil]

I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp.

This illness is ruining my life.

[forsakendevil]

This is too much. I can’t deal with all of this. Why did they all have to leave.

[chronicillnesshumor-deactivated]

[forsakendevil]

They’re completely gone now. I don’t know if I even care anymore. Yes, I once loved them with all my heart and they too loved me deeply, but their love has turned into resentment and mine to indifference. I don’t think I deserved this, although I don’t really know if that matters now.

[forsakendevil]

Does anyone love putting themselves in very stressful situations because the adrenaline rush is the only way they can feel anything anymore? Or is it just me?