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Coffee tastes better made with love.....

Completely right! I was told this some time ago by a barista and never more wise words were said. 

There is something extra that flows through a coffee made by someone who really loves creating a perfect coffee. It’s the “energy” that they put into it.

I believe that things created in this manner are always better for us.

The process in which things we consume, wear or use convey with them a piece of the people that created them. We now, among others, use the term “artisan” to define a certain type of production process where the people involved have added something of themselves into the process. This element is the love of what they do and that love is conveyed directly to us and the way I connect into that item when I use it.

Tonight I did a ceremony regarding nurturing myself.

One of the best elements to come out of it was a message that I need to really think through what I buy and from where. That buying from places and people that do love what they do and the process in creating it will nurture me.

Imagine if we all took this step, to the best of our ability, to always get a sense of what we are buying and how it “feels” to us. Is it right for me to have this? - will it nurture me?

I know whether things are right for me if I take the moment to sense into it. I also know that the message was clear that in all I create to make sure that I embody a sense of love into it.

To nurture myself but to also nurture others - passing it forward just as my barista does every time she makes a coffee.

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When the removing requires removing.

I have spent the majority of my life removing, clearing and cleansing things. Letting things go both physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Most of my time in therapy was what needs to be removed, let go of and set on one side and moved away from.

I had been told that my life was going to be one where I needed simplicity. I took this to mean more removing and more slimming down of objects, possessions and thoughts.

Whilst I know that for me this has been really required and has worked, what I now know to be true is that I have taken it too far - worked with it too long. It has become a constant thought and a constant reflection.

Do I still need this? What parts of the current me do I need to be letting go of and focusing on moving away from?

I am not “letting go of letting go” but I drew a Druid Plant card today asking what is my intention for this coming week. Wild Garlic came up and one phrase really resonated with me.

“Often, when we feel the need for change, we envisage removing things from our life - and this may be the right course to take - but consider first whether there is something you can add to your life that will naturally replace that which is bothering you, without you needing to exert any effort eliminating it”

It has never occurred to me that actually I want to look at what I need to add to facilitate change in my life. I have been stuck in the notion that change is facilitated by removing. How this addition might actually purify and strengthen my life.

The question now remains to feel what is it that I want to introduce into my life?

“that in the past you had considered to exotic or unconventional but which is now starting to attract you”

Let the fun begin.

I feel a Leo type roar approaching and an excitement about what I could choose to add into my journey and removing the need to remove....

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Getting out of the way of myself.

I’m two weeks into a course learning about my physic self and one of the main things I have already learned, which is revolutionary for me, is how much I put a spin on the things I say to people and to myself, with a genuine view to helping them. How can I really know what might help them!

When I have been practicing, in class, to allow my thoughts or impressions to flow I have really been aware of how much I want to put an interpretation on them. To frame them into something that I feel will help the other person.

The whole point of what we are doing is to relay what comes through without filter, without reinterpretation and without putting yourself in the picture. To allow others to connect into what is being said even if I have no clue.

In realising how much I am tempted to over lay something to make it meaningful for me, I am now aware of how much I do that to my own thoughts and feelings. Not take things cleanly, at face value and act accordingly. In fact - realising as I write this - it’s the modern facet of spin!

I have been working for a number of years on disconnecting from the thoughts, impressions, desires and wills of the world around me that impact on my own true knowing and this feels like another example of where I cloud my thinking and get in the way on myself.

By looking beyond what I truly think and feel into what I think is being said I am cutting off the the “messages” my own self is giving me. Choosing to turn them into something more palatable? more understandable? less scary? probably all of those three and more.

What would it be like to step out of that need. To set aside the need to put a spin on everything. To “see” clearly, to “hear” clearly my own true responses to any given situation and to be able to deliver those without putting myself in between.

I have been given this gift, as have we all, to know what’s right for us. So why have I chosen to allow outside influences to change that. It can only be to fit in, to conform, to put my needs below others to make things work.

There is within this though a feeling that somehow by doing this I know what others need. Maybe, as much as I am being taught in this course not to know, that is a bigger lesson that acting from our own true self, moving out of our own way, can only be right for us and might be right for others. Not acting from our own true self is never going to right for others no matter how much we wish it.

Theirs is not mine to know or act upon.

I know I want to work to act only from my true self, only from my true needs. Be conscious and aware of others but not to “spin” those messages to suit when they come from a true and loving place. Loving to myself and to others.

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My emotional crutch is now a physical one.

Last week having badly twisted my ankle I was given a supportive boot and a crutch.

Today I realised the difficulty of moving with a crutch. The difficulty of getting flow into your life. The actual inconvenience of something that is said to support you. Something that is handed out to support a wound you have received.....

I could go on but I’m also getting the picture that this painful ankle is a great metaphor for what I’ve put in place to help support a wound that no longer needs supporting. It might have been useful once but that was eons ago, now it just stops me moving forward with ease and flow. Of receiving what I need. I can still move with it but it’s uncomfortable, difficult and time consuming to keep it going. Also exhausting and distracting...... How much more do I need to hear?

My crutch is not believing that I am enough. That I know enough, can offer enough and give enough.

That belief stops here.

Physically experiencing the restrictions that a crutch brings to who I am and how I am, it’s not worth holding on to this emotional crutch and belief a moment longer. I set it down, change the perception that i am not enough.

To know that I am enough and can only be enough because I am.

Once I had realised this I got a call from the medics to say that I no longer needed to use the crutch. A wonderful confirmation. 

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I survived? Is this my true definition of myself?

I no longer want to associate myself with just surviving. From this moment on I renounce this as being who I am and what I am capable of.

This life is not an opportunity to get to the end and celebrate I survived.

I am worth so much more than this and have so much more to give than is defined by just surviving. I want to call in so much more, that I deserve and will allow me to reach my highest potential.

By defining myself only as a survivor I have limited what I can receive and perpetuated a situation that gives me what I ask for - survival.

Today, I call in abundance, wealth and joy and all that is positive into my life so that I can soar like the eagle I am and reach the highest potential that I know I am capable of.

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Seeing the life your leaving behind.....

What a gift when you spend a day reliving the life you you know you need to leave behind. Today has been such a day. The universe has been kind to show me all the facets of the life I have in one long string.

I have only just realised it!

Feeling all the same feelings that you have had for so long but not realised that you that you no longer want.

1) The anger at the word for being just what it is but not actually turning that anger into something constructive.

2) Settling for being alone when you really want to play.

3) Only thinking of other peoples lives and what you can do rather than your own.

4) Intense tiredness because you have eaten something that does not agree with you. Lying on the sofa unable to move through sheer exhaustion. It’s not me it’s not what I want - I did not look after myself well enough yesterday and so today I have suffered for it.

5) Feeling low from waking instead of the excitement that I have been feeling before.

6) Eating what I know does me no good because I feel low and it’s here or close enough to buy.

7) Not finding the joy in the day and the potential of what it could be but sitting back and allowing it to be inverted instead of extroverted.

8) Micro managing my home for things to do - looking at the small and manageable. The washing, the cleaning - required but not as a diversion only as a nurturing.

9) Not looking, seeing and listening to the nudges about what the day could reveal to me. Though that being said, what it has revealed to me is immensely valuable. And maybe only visible when you have begun to move away from it and gives me strength to continue on the journey.

10) Rewatching the familiar again and again as a means of satisfying myself that everything is ok. Staying with the familiar, clutching the familiar rather than exploring the bold. It is another means of staying small. No more research for the excitement that exists in the new and yet to be discovered.

I wonder if these times are when I have heard more of the truth of what I could do and so my system retreats back rather than embracing everything. I have heard.

I love writing like this where the act of typing actually stimulates the thoughts and you realise at a deeper level. 

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Do I ever want to be busy?

Every time I hear the term or have the question asked of me - “Are you busy?” something turns over inside me. I love to be occupied but busy always feel like your running around with no focus and that thinking and feeling have become clouded. Almost that something more has over come each busy person. Your actions become automatic and without real consciousness as you become “to busy to....”

Should we ever become to busy to? and how is this a reflection of where we all are now that this is the primary thought. The main issue at the forefront of our minds.

When did busy become something that we desire to be? That is a measure of our success and that if we are busy somehow we feel safe.

That question now has become as important as “hello” and definitely more important that “how are you?”

I seem to experience people moving away from wanting to know about me as an individual, but only wanting to know about what I do. Is this the measure of success that we judge ourselves? By asking the question can we gauge whether we are winning the busy race?

Maybe when we hear anothers response we can mentally - even unconsciously - put ourselves in a hierarchy. Either less busy or more busy - either way the end result, I presume, is that we must try harder to be... busier.

Busier than what?

How can we find the balance when inevitably that question must mean that we need to increase, even if it’s only by a notch, what we are doing to feel we are “on top of” being busy.

Even as I write this I can feel a tension creeping into the rhythm of the writing - the word busy. Each mention increases the notch - winds the screw - and heightens the sense of struggle that busy creates in any conversation.

So when your asked that question? How can you respond? “I hope not” “no I’m done with busy”

What ever response I have used, always meets with a silent “response”. It’s a conversation stopper - do they feel i‘m telling the off? or is it that now there is no where else to go because if your not prepared to discuss the level of your “bus i ness” then there is nothing left that anyone might want to know about.

What this reveals though is the term “business”. I’d not seen that before all business is about the level of bus i ness that you can create.

One has an occupation but one does bus i ness. No wonder it is so ingrained into our thoughts a psyche when actually the term refers to a collective activity.

I fully intend to be no longer busy or in bus i ness but will be fully occupied through out my day and some of that might be as part of my occupation..

Lets see how that fits in with a more conscious and enlightened daily practice.

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Am I sovereign or apologetic?

Today I met a true sovereign.

A sovereign in his stance, his walk, his presence and his energy. I was in no doubt that he was the sovereign he needed to be in his life.

It was a gift at the end of a day, led by my intuition to be a witness to what I needed to see and to take on board for the next stage.

Why do I need to witness this?

I recognise that through too much of my life I have been apologetic just for being who I am. Apologetic for what I am good at, for what I believe, for what gives me pleasure and for what I am not good at. Instead of standing in my own body and owning exactly who I was in that moment. Instead of being sovereign. I’ve chosen to to play down, to hide or to undervalue everything that makes me (and by default each of us) unique.

I can recall the stance I take, I can recall the lack of self belief, I can recall my voice and speech patterns. All of these give out to others that I do not believe in myself and re enforce this internally. It’s a downward spiral and self fulfilling.

Today that has changed. To know that I need to step into my own sovereignty and hold it fast in every situation. To learn to show up as me.

Why sovereign?

“Sovereignty is the full right and power of a governing body over itself, without any interference from outside sources or bodies“

My sovereignty means having that power within myself that cannot be changed by any outside influence or source. A deep knowing that remains firm against anything and that I then act only according to my own true nature, beliefs and values. 

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However you feel, really feel

Can I still maintain my momentum behind moving forward to my goal when I get knocked back?

Today was just such a test. Being turned down for a new project and not even making the interview list put me back down with thoughts of what am I doing and why am I doing it. When your a visionary and soaring high over your thoughts and ideas, the potential answers to a projects problems seem so right that you just want to be able to share it with people - to help them see what you see. To get them excited about what is possible and how it an be achieved and help them see the negative patterns that are playing out here and need to be addressed and moved on.

I got such a sense of frustration and disappointment of, yes not being involved with the project but of not being able to have the opportunity of sharing the vision that I spiritually struck out at people and once realising that I had done this in frustration, but still inappropriately, to call that energy back.

I know that in accepting the disappointment and the frustration and the anguish due to the loss of work and income, that I can own the emotions - allow them to settle and then let them go. What is the bose advert “however you feel, really feel” well that’s an important motif. If I’m feeling it then allow myself to really feel i - no holding back. Not to let it impact on others in a detrimental way but to own it. Well I owned it today and then headed out.

I headed out to a gallery because I wanted to roll with the punch I felt I got and to keep the momentum and the excitement I have been feeling in the last little while still bubbling under.

Previously knock backs have taken their toll and I have lingered over them. Become hyper sensitive to any criticism of my role in the result and needed to creep away and lick my wounds over it. “Poor me” However you feel, really feel but don’t let it linger if it’s negative so that it gets a hold over you.

I learnt to day to do something different, to open your heart to a new opportunity if an old opportunity disappears. It did disappear and I did open myself up and the potential did appear....  Iistened to the universal nudge and then I put myself out there and another avenue has opened up. This one is an invite to private view with the new director of the gallery and a chief trustee. Who knows what might come of this? It came about because I was curious enough about the galley to ask questions and then to show how passionate I was about what I was asking.

In truth I showed them who I was in that moment and so they thought I would make a good guest for one of these private tours. If I hadn’t asked, and if I hadn’t been really me in that moment none of the excitement would have come across and then the potential might not have been released.

This act has bought me back into line again and fired up my enthusiasm for where I am going.

Tonight I made an invocation for abundance to arrive by the end of February. In asking I was told to be reasonable, specific and set a time limit for its arrival. What ever I was requesting must be for the highest good, to harm none and that you will share your abundance with kindness and integrity.

Imagine if with all things we all did that. All for the highest good, harm none and what’s received to be shared with kindness and integrity.

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Choosing compassion

Today I’ve been given a universal opportunity to see many walks of life and positions in a different way from the traditional and from how I may have seen them in the past.

To see them through the eyes of compassion.

In all cases it took me time to get there. Initially I felt angry, annoyance and or frustration with each of the events I was faced with. For example, rows of school children who were being unconscious of everyone around them including me, we collided and so I was “treated” to a volley of abuse.

The compassionate me eventually saw how lost they were and how they are not being taught or shown to be conscious. So how could their response to the given situation be anything other than it was. It then didn’t feel anything directed at me but at everyone and in general and most fascinatingly towards their peer group.

So despite a day where I had hoped, promised myself and seen how I wanted it to unfold I was given the mirror to see events in a different - no not different - reflected way.

This has only just occurred to me after a friend pointed out that the date 8.1.18 is a reflection of itself. Therefore looking at the day how did I choose to see the reflection of what I initially saw?

Reflection is truly wonderful word. To give myself the space to reflect on my initial reaction to a situation or my initial thought and choose, where appropriate, a more compassionate response to myself and others.......

This reflection though might need to contain a question. What I am doing to change what I experience in the world to where I send compassion? Is it my vocation to do so or to pass it onto others?

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In search of Fortune

I had thought that I was going to writing about finding Fortune and what her impact had on my thoughts today. A beauty she was in the Waddesdon Bequest but it was actually something much smaller that has stuck in my memory.

As the blog would suggest I went for coffee before hand. To charge up the caffeine levels but also to think about the day and a search for fortune as a concept. Writing more information and ideas about the articles I want to get out I was talking to one of the staff in the cafe about the great coffee - lucked out again! and she looked over at what I ws writing and said “nice handwriting” I’m now fascinated  by my response. Again I completely dismissed the really wonderful comment and positive way it was given with a - “most people feel it looks like a doctors!” if fortune does smile on us by finding someone that make a truly spontanaeous comment of appreciation I want to really to acknowledge it and thank them.

She went on to say - which I then did here - “looks like a writer” How amazing was that. I have the writing of a writer.   

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On the hunt for Fortuna

A friend yesterday said “having very strong feelings that Jeremy is about to be very fortunate!” Apart from being a lovely thing to hear it has set me thinking about what is being fortunate?

I feel fortunate in man ways big and small as well as to be part of a group of “sovereigns” that are open and authentic and give this sort of encouragement but also maybe instead of just feeling fortunate maybe I could encourage fortune in the moment.

When you hear about being fortunate I also start to think about being fortunate not to be killed.......in terms of it being something awful that is about to happen that I am fortunate was not worse.....

Or in being fortunate what would I like to be fortunate in. This is the most telling of them all and really illuminates the place I am at in my life - highlights the pressures of work, money and love. Immediately I start pondering on the fortunate in those contexts I buy a lottery ticket! as a means of satifying all of the above. Really??? Actually I’ve not checked mine yet so I can still bask in the potential of having won.

These thoughts and others has made me feel that today I need to go on the hunt for Fortuna - and to start with I’ve just discovered that there is a statue of her at The British Museum given as part of the Waddesdon Bequest, located in the next door room to Enlightenment.

Considering what I have been posting over the last few days then being able to gain enlightenment as well as fortune seems to great an opportunity to miss. We are heading to the British Museum  and see where this universal nudge takes us.

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The night of the three kings

An Epiphany - a realisation as well as the Christian tradition. My realisation came yesterday but today I was expecting an anticlimax but with purpose, I still managed to capture the excitement from the previous day.

It was to be a day of work but doing something I feel I am good at and have a drive to complete. In this case it was a cleansing - literally cleaning but also a spiritually clearing a space of what no longer serves it. Honouring what has gone before but assisting in it moving on.

I initially felt a sense of overwhelm at the task and found myself wandering like someone caught in headlights trying to get the scope of the project. Slowly I unpicked what was required, put it into theoretical order of priorities and then started with one task which then unlocked my thoughts of how the rest should move forward.

It was a complete life lesson, on reflection, as I write this now I can see the relevance for where I am going now. What was wonderful is that as the cleansing, as it unfolded, it needed to change and develop and it unfolded with a real elegance and the end result was incredible satisfying.

This is something that I will take forward. I had the self belief, I had all the right tools, I had given myself the time and then that which was outside my control worked with me and we gave a wonderful completion.

The only part of it that I have cause to remonstrate myself for was that through out the whole process I did not look after myself as well as I must - in terms of food, drink and rest. Yet again I put my needs to one side when faced with a “quest” that required my full attention. On reflection I wonder what the result might have given me had I paced myself better with nurturing myself as well as the place. 

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Marking those moments of magic

Its been quite a day. Yesterday the pilgrimage walk and a glimmer of something and then after leaving it over night and sleeping on it, this morning I was inspired to start writing up what I truly felt was coming to mind from yesterday...... and it started to appear on the page. Unfolding in front of me were the passions I have kept hidden from myself. I have ended up with 5 key passions on which to build the rest of my life.

One of the most amazing universal gifts was that at the very time of beginning to write, a friend started to write to me through Instagram. I was sharing where I was, as I was working on constructing those 5 points. Not really realising that he was part of that moment, unconsciously my witness to what was unfolding.

At the point of completion, after some adjustment, there was such a relief and outpouring of emotion that has carried me through the day.

My second universal gift was then meeting another friend for lunch. Another special person who allowed me to talk, he understood and did not puncture that very precious bubble that I had created around the new birth of an heart led thought.

This first moment is so important that its birth is wonderful, appreciated and honoured and allowed to unfold as it needs to. I have been so very careful to protect the precious time and will only look to reflect back on what I have written when I have given it time to sink in.

It is a glorious feeling, uplifting and one that needs not to be a rare event but an everyday one. Why is it rare?; because I do not always work directly from my heart - give myself the space from external influences and “noise” to really connect with what I already know.

The walk with Edward Thomas helped me to begin accessing deep inside me. The realisation that my thoughts trying to clarify the angle, the intention for my articles was in fact a metaphor for what I needed to focus on for my whole life. Allowing it to seep into my unconscious has then created the opportunity to allow it to emerge onto the page and into my conscious.

It is also twelfth night. The time we take down all the holly, the ivy from the pictures and the mantle. Honour what the feast has bought and then burn them and return it to the soil. What amazing timing to me that this comes to me at this exact time. It fills me with delight.

Nothing about my situation in the physical has changed I still face the same issues but I now feel I have, clutched in my hand the golden ticket. I have no real clue how it will unfold but I can be excited about the adventure to come. If there are also still downs, in marking this moment, of committing it to the web, I can recall how it feels to fly on this day.

To remember how people commented about how well I was looking and sounding and how despite everything I had told them about the place I had recently been in they loved the change. The gift of my lunch - was not only his friendship but his witnessing (the second witness) to where I am today.

“Fear is a feeling of no contact with existence. Let this be a definition of fear: a state of no contact with existence is fear” Osho Courage. The Joy of Living Dangerously.

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“and I rose up.....and continued my journey”

“and I rose up and I knew that I was tired and continued my journey” Edward Thomas. Light and Twilight.

I had an intuitive hit that I should go and see the landscape that inspired Edward Thomas. The village that started his walks is Steep in Hampshire, close to Petersfield and the landscape, the Hangers Ridge, entices above it.

I feel a connection to Thomas not only through his love of landscape but also the way he worked with it to free himself from depression. I passionately believe that walking in “natural” landscapes helps me to access parts of myself, my thoughts and my feelings that are not available in any other way.

Today was an excellent illustration of how powerful walking can be to gain insights. Solvitur ambulando the Latin phrase meaning “it is solved by walking” has for some time been a key phrase I have hung onto. Used by the likes of Patrick Leigh Fermor (another hero of mine), Thoreau, Dorothy L Sayers and Bruce Chatwin - Ok so all heroes. Maybe the connection is this understanding we share - hmmmmm another entry I feel.....

Today it worked with real elegance. Forced away from my desk by an unfulfilling half an hour of trying to nail the angle for an article I want to write on wild landscapes, their impact on mental health with particular reference to the elderly. I sought solace in a cafe and coffee and started developing much more effectively what I truly wanted to say -  I work so much better in cafes than almost anywhere - why? another entry I feel. Anyway.....

I took all of this to Steep and when I walk with an intention I always feel that its a pilgrimage - a walk with intention and with a question in mind. I know that the act of walking, the connection to the natural landscape, will give me insights into whatever is occupying my mind.

The results are always surprising and today was no exception. What started out as a walk with an article in mind, to really find what my intention was, ended up with realising that the lack of understanding of intention goes much deeper and broader and it is exactly what I need to understand about where my life is, where it’s going and most importantly where I want it to go.

I love the fact that walking in nature can give me such clarity and insights into the true “nature” of what’s going on. The landscape was stunning in all its winter glory, the peace, sublime. I really felt why Thomas could feel some sense of relief just by being close to its chalk streams, holloways and ridges.

You could feel him and his words on every pathway and I felt accompanied by him as I walked and thought, stopped and gazed, listened outwardly and inwardly.

I also wanted a confirmation that what was going on was relevant to my current journey, that I was making some sort of progress and movement forward. I can get locked into my head when I need to get locked into my heart and felt I needed to know that the day was “heart felt” and the insights authentic.

For me this came when I reached the memorial stone. not having been there before the views are stunning but looking down to read what was on the stone made catch my breathe as for me the words.....

“and I rose up and I knew that I was tired and continued my journey”

..really embody where I am at the moment. When I’ve headed into this “black night” experience I have had to rise to the universe’s challenge, I am so very tired of the struggle but I will continue the journey and I will work through the test not just because I must but because I trust that what comes from this will be to my benefit and my highest potential.

Some images of the highlights from today

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By being real and authentic, I got more than just what he had written on the page.

This was exactly how I explained having just read Simon Amstell’s “Help” He writes, creates and embodies in all his work a strength in being real and authentic and telling it not just truthfully. Truth is one thing but authenticity gives a greater depth of understanding to the “audience” of their connection to what he is saying. Both this book and his feature film “Carnage” deliver this.

After my conversation today I wonder if this is not the only way forward for all of us? I talked about “what I can do in the world” in the last blog entry. Is this already it.

In embodying being real and authentic in everything I do, say, write and create then...... I’m struggling to find the right words. I know its there and it feels big in terms of my own way forward.

I keep hearing the words keep it simple. So.... by being real and authentic people will get more from everything I do than just its physical presence. People will connect to what I do on a different level. It works for me as I can stay completely true to who I am and it works for others (should they choose for it to be so) as I feel they will connect with themselves in a different way.

It feels, as I write, exciting, about how the landscapes I design could be different if I  am upfront about being a landscape intuitive, the impact its having on the process of design and what that will mean for those who are commission my work and for those that will enjoy it.

I know that I got such a huge amount more from Carnage than a normal feature film on a contentious subject and delivered with wit and humour it really felt that this was the way forward for getting messages across to people today.

Not that I feel that everything has to have humour or that his talent is just about being authentic. Its just that his commitment to living in this way and opening this up to everyone allows a deeper connection to the messages he is delivering and that’s a powerful (and courageous) way to choose to be.

Can one just make the decision to be this - well, yes. Only fear can hold me back - that fear of rejection of others who don’t like or understand what I do or what I say. Fear that work projects will disappear. Well that’s already a reality and it feels like the way I’ve been isn’t working so there is nothing to lose in taking this challenge on.

Suddenly as I’m writing I begin wondering whether this is the real answer for changing how we “be” in everything all that we “be” within.

Could all the current systems, work, interactions really continue to exist in the same way if everyone decided to follow the same path........... I can’t believe it could. What would the world look like if everyone put themselves out there in such an open and heart felt way. Golly.

I’ll do it and see the results.

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What can I do in the world?

I started this blog ages ago and then abandoned it as with so much in life. It was for a purpose (the start of raising my profile for a talk) that didn’t happen and with things that don’t materialise as I thought they would, other things tend to disappear along with the hope.

So why the restart? A new years resolution type thing - well maybe again not the best reason.

No - in this instance its because of this question, that I know so many people are asking themselves. How can we actually turn round where so many are heading?

I was drawn a tarot card for this year by a friend of mine - it came out as the Father of Wands - I am going to be at the top of my game this year. The question then goes on - of what game?

The only one that seems to matter to me at the moment is this what can I do to change the course of the worlds direction - but what can I do??? This friend also went on to say that he hoped it would be the year of Enlightenment. That really made an impact.

That is what I want to do in the world I want to bring everyone enlightenment of where we are and each of us need to do to change our “being” even those of us on the spiritual path. Each of those changes will be unique for each person but only by making that unique change can we make a collective change.

Living in London you see at a more intense level the need for each of us to take charge of the changes we must make - you can feel the fear in each person you come into contact with. Not all the same fears but in each they are palpable in the way we deal with each other.

My first attempt at my change is to declare that I am minding less what people think about what I think. To make myself and my ideas more visible - hence the restart of the blog. To be more vocal about what I see, feel and take action.

To be. So I’m committing to writing my thoughts to this blog as often as I can and even if I have nothing to say to say why..... With the sole purpose of being the change I can make in the world.