Just something I noticed recently people have been doing in the fandom is Pierrot and Harlequin's first discovery or just their dynamic before the circus even happened. It's honestly adorable seeing their little kid versions help feed each other and just having each other as company before they joined a bigger troupe.
Though, a little part in me gets melancholy when I remember how many times Neko said Pierrot and Harlequin used to be so close. If these backstories had any bit of canon truth to them, it makes it a lot deeper how much Harlequin valued his relationship with Pierrot. And to some extent, I understand, since I too used to feel these feelings with ex friends when I was a kid, only to a lesser degree. ( ・ε・)
Since it had just been them for as long as they could remember, of course Harlequin would seek Pierrot's attention. How could he not? He used to get it all the time. They were able to have light banter, share meals and just protect each other in their difficult world. And maybe that's all Harlequin felt that's what they needed. But then their troupe got bigger, but hey, no biggie! Pierrot is still his best friend and will always pay attention to him, like he always did–
After Columbina joined, Pierrot unintentionally left Harlequin in the dark. I'm not saying he did so maliciously as Pierrot was going through these feelings he probably never felt before and he wished to grow closer to the person he fell in love with. Jealousy for the company of your friends/family is a very real thing. Most of us have felt it at some point in our lives. From my point of view at the time, seeing my best friend laughing with someone else, hugging that other friend more than me and seemingly more consumed with the conversations happening the two of them left me confused, envious and lonely. Why wouldn't you look at me like that? Am I not fun anymore? Is the problem me? I just want things to go back to the way we used to be. Can't you see the pain I'm in? Please, don't stop looking at me. I don't want be alone again. Please, just look at ME...
I wonder if Harlequin went through similar feelings like I used to. If he ever wondered he was going to 'lose' his friend because of love. I won't deny that I sometimes still struggle with the concept of abandonment, something that I feel both Pierrot and Harlequin struggle with. That's why I don't want either of them to feel left out or alone... (*´～｀*)
This was just an opinion piece of mine, and I did put actual personal feelings into this. As much as jealousy is a normal feeling to feel and don't feel ashamed for feeling human, it's important to realise that you shouldn't let your jealousy blind your relationships. We can learn from Harlequin that he should've communicated his feelings to Pierrot. I don't know how much Pierrot knew on Harlequin's feelings at the time, we can only theorise so far, but he wouldn't have been perfect either. Both need to learn how to communicate with each other and we, MC, will be the mediator to help them. We will hopefully have the choice to help them heal and find comfort in each other again. And that leaves me very excited. (〃´ω`〃)
If you have any thoughts on the matter I'd love to read your opinions in the comments.
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