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acari or ghaniblue anywhere fannish | AO3 | my recs | hopelessly multifannish | love Drarry & Regulus; currently residing in the cottage

[ghaniblue]

Fanworks by Acari

This is not a complete list of everything I have ever created (some things should stay buried forever), but spotlights a few favourites from the last years in both Harry Potter and Heated Rivalry fandom.

Anything over 1k will be posted to AO3 directly, but ficlets usually get posted to Tumblr first and only make it to AO3 when I remember to port them over.

You can subscribe to my AO3 account or here on Tumblr to the acari writes tag to get alerted to any updates.

I also post a lot of recs. You can find the masterlist here.

Blanket Permission Statement:

I give blanket permission for translations, fanart, podfics, remixes or any other type of fanwork that builds on anything I have created. Two caveats: no commercial use whatsoever (no ads, patreon, kofi, commercial ficbinding etc.); and absolutely no AI, handmade only. Please link back to the original work and give proper credit. Thank you.

And since I am part of Harry Potter fandom—and also as a general PSA—just so we're clear, JKR can fuck right off. And if you support TERF shit, you can too.

last updated: 02.03.26

Heated Rivalry RPF

we don't pray for love

Hudcon, M, 5k Beware the inherent messiness of soulmates. Or: How to develop a stress-induced ulcer before thirty.

Heated Rivalry

1410

Hollanov, E, 4k Shane gets a tattoo. Things escalate from there

The Nuclear Option

Hollanov, (Ilya/Miles) E, 2k | tag for ep4 Ilya watches Shane leave the club with Rose. But instead of going home alone, Ilya chooses the nuclear option.

Harry Potter

Drabbles, micros, ficlets

Joint -- Pandalily, cottage core cannibal lesbians | [...] he won’t be a problem anymore.”

Give In To the Love -- Draco, dancing under strobe lights...

Saviour Complex -- explicit | Draco knew the signs, knew when Harry needed to forget himself; forget the Boy Who Lived and obligations and duty and being Chosen.

Curio -- It was Draco's first time visiting the Burrow as Harry's boyfriend, and Harry was apprehensive. Just a tiny bit. "Oh, please," Draco scoffed, "I'm a delightful guest."

When He Was Draco -- trans!Draco | When he was six years old, he stopped answering to his birth name and insisted on being called Draco instead.

Magic is Might series: Voldemort won. Everything is terrible.

Redress and Redemption | dark | The annual gala celebrating the end of the war was in full swing. Draco had gone all out for the fifth anniversary. Everybody who was anybody was gathered in the ballroom of the Manor, sipping champagne and taking turns on the dance floor. "You're being rude, dear," Draco admonished and squeezed Harry's hand, the edge of Draco's signet ring biting into Harry's skin.

Do Not Let Good Blood Go To Waste | non-con | Harry/Ginny | Ginny looked up from where she sat on the bed–white sheets, white covers, antiseptic. The corners of her mouth ticked up, but the smile did not reach her eyes, until her gaze flickered over Harry's shoulder. Draco kissed Harry's cheek. "Have fun, darling."

Love Letter -- animation | text by me + animation by @mystisblom

Longer Works

Your Body's Speaking My Language

Pandalily, Jegulus, E, 5k | ace vampire Regulus, lesbian vampire Pandora A vampire on a mission and her prissy sidekick walk into an 80s Muggle club to meet her goddess and his Mr Right. Or: Lily gets railed in the loo by Pandora while Regulus is a romancing James.

Wormwood

Regulus Black, M, 14k | creepy shit [...] and a great star fell from heaven, blazing like a torch, and it fell on a third of the rivers and on the springs of water. The name of the star is Wormwood. A third of the waters became wormwood, and many died from the water, because it was made bitter. (Rev 8:10–11) or: The Life and Death of Regulus Black.

Human

Drarry, E, 28k | werewolf!Harry, cabin fic (Official Summary) Harry isn't dealing well with being bitten and turned into a werewolf. Draco isn't dealing well with Harry packing up and leaving like a thief in the night. Things come to a head in a forest cabin in the German Ore Mountains.

An Improbable Bout of Summer Madness

Drarry, E, 16k | dad!Draco, artist!Draco, shop owner!Harry, soft boys Draco had planned a quiet, peaceful summer holiday with his son. The last thing he expected was to find Potter here, in Draco's little Cornish retreat. Making fudge in a shop? The idea was too ludicrous for words. (In which alarming amounts of sweets are consumed, Cornwall is thoroughly explored, Scorpius is a darling boy, and Harry Potter is a horrid assault on Draco's sanity.)

The Problem of Non-Euclidean Geometry

Drarry, M, 1,2k Two straight lines in a plane that do not intersect at any point are said to be parallel. (Or, 1.2k of angst and geometry)

Podfic

📍Still Warm, Still Warm by tsauergrass

Drarry | 38 min | bee keeping | The oranges ripened and grew heavy; the branches dipped under their weight. They picked some for breakfast every morning: Harry twisting the fruit off with a snap, Draco carefully tugging each one off. Harry peeled an orange and handed a wedge to Draco. Their fingers grazed, and Draco took it. The tender flesh; if he pressed just a little harder with his fingers, it would burst into a juicy mess. Harry is up to something. Why else would he keep giving Draco presents?

📍Nascent/Descend

Drarry | mcd | ~5min | "There was debris everywhere. The Bombarda Maxima trap had brought down half the building. Draco found himself lying face down amongst the rubble, his head ringing like a bell..."

[penandinkprincess]

laughing about the idea of shane and ilya being in a cold war of trying to accomodate the other one's preferences on something where they land on opposite sides.

like shane likes the house colder because he hates getting too warm and would rather just wear some comfy layers and some thick socks, but ilya likes the house warmer because he likes having his tits out for his husband not wearing a shirt.

and i'm cackling about the idea of them fucking with the thermostat like. thirty times a day. trying to put it on the OTHER person's preferred temperature. because no YOU get to be the most comfy in our home. no!! YOU get to be at your most comfy temperature!!!

shit REALLY gets serious when shane has someone install a smart thermostat and now has control over it on his phone via app and refuses to give ilya the password and also changes the code on his phone because take THAT asshole. now he can LOCK the house to your best temperature. checkmate, motherfucker. >:)

they come into the locker room with like. OBVIOUS tension between them. and everyone is like oh?? a fight?? a married quarrel???

ilya goes out drinking that night (because he knows shane will at least get a few hours at HIS preferred temperature that way because he does truly HATE being too warm, and this is ilya's ONLY MOVE right now in this battle), and they finally get him loose enough to talk and he's just *resentful voice as he stares into his glass of vodka* "my beautiful horrible husband likes the house to be 20, but he keeps setting it to 23 instead. he is horrible person." "...b-because that's too warm for you?" "no, 23 is perfect temperature." "...??????"

[taiturner]

HEATED RIVALRY WEEK ● day 5: favorite character — SHANE HOLLANDER

[miscelium]

in a room full of people, i circle you || ORBITER - Noah Kahan

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[littlegirlinvisible]

HUDCON WEEK 2026 Day 3 — May 13: Favorite Outfit/Look

i couldn't pick just one favorite but along the way i got tired and forgot a lot of great outfits/looks and ended up leaving this photoset more hudcon coded than i imagined. sorry??? 😭😭😭

[natalierso]

But my heart is strong 'cause now I know where I belong It's you and I against the world And we are free

NATALIERSO'S FOLLOWERS CELEBRATION

@lehdenlaulu asked: rebelcaptain + aftermath by muse (in/sp)

[ronbinary]

WIP fic recs!!

ok i am not a fic rec blogger but i have been loooooving these WIPs and need to do a shoutout. if you're not a WIP reader... now is your sign to give WIPs a chance! also these are in no particular order.

please be kind to WIP authors! they do not owe you fast (or any) updates xoxo let them write when they want to

Jane Doe elected Prime WAG by Driftingalongtheshore - currently at 4 chapters, 30k words

jane joins the boston wag chat early on and let me tell you this is SO FUNNY i cannot recommend it enough i legitimately cried laughing the most recent chapter. please. you need to read this.

Hello From Moscow, Goodbye from Montreal by @skyhonxhollanov - currently at 12 chapter, 98k words

in which ilya and shane text and call during the situationship era... this is such a beautiful character study that also has so much good banter and sexting and relationship building PLS READ

pavlov's dawgs by manufactory - currently at 2 chapters, 16k words

shane accidentally cultivates a praise kink in a bunch of hockey players in his attempt to build trust and respect... the unreliable narrator here is so juicy i adore this pls read

rozanov's roster by @gurlsrool - currently at 5 chapters, 9k words

shane joins a group chat of girls rozanov has fucked... i adore these characters (many delightful OCs!!) this is both so sweet and so fun pls read

snapping birch by @polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup - currently at 6 chapters, 58k words

david hollander's icloud gets hacked. many things are revealed. where do i even start with this one? it has literally everything you could possibly want. hockey dance partners, ilya twitter rants, rose landry's brothers, and so so much more. moments of laughter, moments of rage. you seriously need to read this pls

a glimpse of jane by carinnacaroona - currently at 27 chapters, 54k

marlow texts jane behind ilya's back, and they become best friends. this is so sweet and cute and funny and heartfelt and fsljksfklas i LOVE this take on a cliff/shane friendship please read!

The chips are set to fall by @exactphoify

ilya convinces a few queer players to make a deal that if they win the cup, they have to come out. it gets... a LOT bigger. featuring gaydar king ilya, many shanesexual hockey players, community organizing, allyship... this fic is so fucking fun and satisfying to read pls check it out!

[themoonandmyman]

join me in a murder mystery/clue AU where Hayden is murdered during a dinner party at some alpine mansion getaway.

It’s Shane and Ilya, Jackie, JJ, Svetlana, Rose and Cliff and everyone there has has motive. because it’s Hayden

[mymoonmyconnie]

@smokey-ilya im crying. am i the worst one now dad lmao

[fleshtomyteeth]

"i asked chatgpt"

"i asked gemini"

oh okay well. i asked lottie matthews and she looked toward the sky, basked in the wind, and told me what the wilderness wanted

[prose-n-scripts]

Transphobia is about to be signed into law in the UK. We can fight this.

I am begging the UK trans community and its allies to attend the Mass Lobby at Parliament on June 25th, 11am-4pm, organised by Trans Solidarity Alliance.

Mass Lobby for Trans Equality

Last year we broke the record for an LGBT+ mass lobby of Parliament. Will you help us break it again? Join us on 25th June 2026 to demand be

The new EHRC Code of Practice pushes trans people out of toilets, hospital wards, and community spaces. It normalises gender policing based on appearance and stereotypes. It becomes statutory guidance in the UK by the end of June.

Trans people are now legally their assigned gender at birth and must join gendered spaces accordingly, but if they are perceived as their lived gender, they can also be ejected from those spaces. The guidance says: either break the law, or don’t pass too well.

A mass lobby is where you invite your MP to discuss your concerns with you in-person. Ask your MP to:

Demand full parliamentary scrutiny, debate, and use their free vote on the EHRC Code of Practice.

Support any motions rejecting the EHRC guidance. As of June 4th, Labour MP Nadia Whittome has submitted a prayer motion - Early Day Motion 240.

Write to Bridget Phillipson, the Minister for Women and Equalities about our concerns

Your MP does not have to be an ally, they do not have to respond to your email for you to show up and greencard them (details below the cut.) What matters is that as many people as possible show up.

I cannot stress this enough: Showing up in person matters. It is much more effective than petitions, emails, and letters.

It is a horrible, stressful time, and I am so sorry if you're trans and live in the UK. But I was at last year's mass lobby and the line for greencarding alone stretched around the back gates. It was a record breaking mass lobby and made us impossible to ignore. Let's do even better this time. Details under the cut:

Worried about what to say? Bring your personal worries about transphobia being signed into law, and trans friends being excluded from public spaces. You are a living person who deserves dignity. Remind your MP of that. You will also get guidance and brochures from Trans Solidarity Alliance that outlines our demands. This is mine from last year.

Money issues? Trans Solidarity Alliance provides a travel bursary that you can sign up for via the link.

Got a refusal or no response from your MP?  Come anyway! You can request a same-day appointment with your MP through a process called greencarding. They will come and see you if they’re already in Parliament. Even if they don’t, they’re made acutely aware of your cause because you showed up in person. This is my greencard from last year.

Here is the EHRC Code of Practice in full. It's a tough read, but some highlights are:

Organisations can’t provide trans-inclusive, single-sex services, or they risk being sued for discrimination. e.g. domestic violence support for women including trans women, men’s rugby group including trans men (12.68).

Trans people will have nowhere safe to pee. If you’re a trans man, businesses can't allow you to pee in the men's, and you can also be ejected from women’s bathrooms if you’re perceived as a man. Vice versa for trans women. EHRC suggests a ‘third space’ bathroom, which is discriminatory and unworkable for most businesses. (13.130-133)

Sports organisations must exclude trans people from single-sex competitions (13.73).  A women’s only sports competition must exclude trans women because of their biological advantage or face potential lawsuits (13.74), but a trans man who has undergone testosterone treatment can also be excluded based on fairness rules (13.81).

Trans women are stripped of the legal definition of ‘lesbian’, and therefore no longer have legal protections if they’re discriminated against on the basis of sexual orientation. (2.50, 2.92).

Here is the Good Law Project's better explanation of the EHRC Code.

I have also made a PDF printout of QR codes for the government petition, email your MP tool, and mass lobby link to pass around your communities. DM me and I'll send it to you.

[potatomode]

Pls. do not re-post/reupload or use outside of tumblr without my permission.

[geniaparadox]

Hudson at the Met Gala 🪽

so obsessed with this black swan bullfighter i had to do art about it. thank you aika flores for your incredible work, and thank you hudson williams for your very drawable face

[sunnypeachyy]

"You wear glasses?"

[ghaniblue]

Reading list April-May (Heated Rivalry)

I'm back on my bullshit. Monthly reading lists are back. I am still firmly in Heated Rivalry psychosis territory and not reading anything else atm. This only covers the most recent fics I enjoyed. For everything I liked enough to bookmark between January & March, you can check my ao3. As always, ❤️ denotes favourites.

💠earlier HR & Hudcon recs

🔸️backdoor by guarddog (Hollanov, Shane + Montreal Metros, M, 4k)

“What are we talking about?” J.J. asks, and this could really go one of two ways. Either Holly shuts the conversation down pronto because it’s not respectful and he’s a hardass, or J.J. will actually be able to answer Willy’s question.

“Um, just, my girlfriend wants to try anal?” Willy says nervously. “And I was wondering if anyone had advice.”

or: Shane gives impromptu sex education.

Shane explaining anal in the locker room as the proverbial sack of rice falling over. Beautiful. Made me cry happy tears.

❤️🔸️continuity errors/tuesday again by Anonymous (Hollanov, M, 33k)

The first thing you should know about time loops is that they’re really fucking hard to break. The second thing is that you can never break one in such a way that it is incapable of returning.

The third thing you should know is that everyone around you has probably been stuck in a time loop at one point or another, and they made it out alive. This is only comforting if you’re a numbers guy, or if you’re the kind of guy who talks to others about how it feels to live the same day over and over and over and over and over and over again.

Shame if you’re not; the most important thing you should know about breaking a time loop is that it helps to tell someone you’re trapped in one in the first place.

Time loop as depression metaphor: insert brain explode emoji here.

🔸️death and taxes (and shane hollander) by @fingersfallingupwards (Hollanov, E, 68k)

There was a time when Ilya believed Scott Hunter's coming out would revolutionize hockey forever— but for every step forward came two steps back.

When Shane and Ilya meet again late in life, can they make their second chance work?

OR: Old Man Hollanov Yaoi.

I feel personally attacked by the "old man yaoi" label because they are only in their forties, but that is a me problem. The fic is lovely and them finding each other again made me very happy.

❤️🔸️frequently, secretly fond of each other by @milominderbindered (Hollanov, E, 222k)

Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

I would expect to get bored eventually with a fic this long, but I enjoyed it from start to finish. This will probably end up a comfort fic reread. If you enjoy friends-to-lovers, give this one a try.

🔸️i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) by @corvidcordelia (Hollanov, E, 47k)

Hollander’s eyes slid past him, stopped, came back and held, his eyes widening. Ilya smiled, a mocking curve of his mouth, and raised his cup in acknowledgment. Number one, he mouthed, and while he couldn’t be certain in the dim light of the bar, he thought he saw Hollander flush.

Then his chin lifted, challenging, and Ilya felt something hook behind his ribs, a sharp tug, like a fish on a line.

Or: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander make a deal - whichever of them debuts as a #1 NYT bestseller owes the other a blowjob

A Pride&Prejudice Hollanov AU where they are rival writers. This author made me want to read their fictional books.

❤️🔸️I have only two emotions (careful fear and dead devotion) by tiredtiredsharl / @wolfiemcwolferson (Hollanov + Centaurs, E, 178k)

Shane disappears from the hockey world between the prospect cup and the draft.

Years later, Ilya ends up playing for Ottawa anyway.

I call this one the "emotionally significant gummy bears" fic. Absolute favourite. Will definitely reread. I cried so many happy tears. I adore this version of both Ilya & Shane. This fic made me fall in love with the Centaurs.

🔸️Rookie of the Year by medric / @bluegrasshole (Shane gen, T, 22k)

August 2007: Shane Hollander is 16 years old, a star rookie for the Halifax Bucks, and totally, completely, fine.

Pre-canon Shane feels very in character here.

🔸️snapping birch by @polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup (Hollanov + ensemble cast, M, 72k, WIP)

Shandry's Third @shaneybaby

uhhh so im on r/shanehollander rn and some guy is claiming to have cloned shane’s dad’s phone and uploaded it to the internet?? has anyone else clicked on this link will it give me a virus if i do

7:03 P.M. | 12 Jan 2018 | 135.1k retweets | 232.1k likes [...]

Shane gets outed and all hell breaks lose. This is a mix of group chats, social media posts (Ilya, Hayden and Marleau made me laugh so much), newspaper articles and prose. If you think you couldn't hate the Metros any more, think again.

❤️🔸️Vessel by medric / @bluegrasshole (Hollanov, T, 21k)

Eleven years ago, a total psychopath walked into a bar, onto a wharf, and all over Captain Shane Hollander’s life. And then he did it again, and again.

I love AUs that spirit me away into a world I know nothing about. They are lobster fishermen in this wonderfully immersive story.

🔸️wild geese by daphne_older (Hollanov, M, 28k)

In 2013 Shane is drafted to the Boston Raiders, the team where Ilya Rozanov has played for three years and is now captain. Shane is determined not to let his hockey crush on Rozanov impact his game, but as the season progresses, Shane has to admit that the hockey crush is turning into something more. If only Rozanov would stop touching him all the time, maybe Shane would be able to get a grip…

Shane as Ilya's favourite rookie was not something I thought I wanted. This made me feel all warm and fuzzy.

>>recs masterlist<<

[babushkahihi]

The Kiss

[cpericardium]

Why are ao3 readers like this

[thatnoulguyorsomething]