sing out, louise

bread for all, and roses too. often thinking about 18th-century england

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imagine bridgerton if eloise had a gun

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should I continue rewatching Lewis in order and stay with s2e4, or skip ahead 2 seasons for the infamous Hathaway's Childhood Trauma/Backstory episode for fic purposes?

I think Jonathan Bailey's in the s4 ep btw. A cameo.

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OK for real I want to know what my audience for this trans lady euphoria fix-it fic is. If it's only @tobermoriansass and me (and maybe @fursasaida?) that's cool, i just want to know.

Are you interested in reading my redo of the Lewis episode "Life Born of Fire?"

Yes, and I have watched Lewis

Yes, I have not watched Lewis but I'm interested in your take on gender euphoria

Yes, I have not watched Lewis but I read your writing regardless of canon

Not my thing, sorry

Remaining time: 8 hours 51 minutes

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last night's excerpt if you missed it. this is a dour detective show! preserving the murder case and the canon religious angst but Now With Better Gender.

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Embarassing realization today that James Hathaway might not actually be Catholic in the show. He might actually just be typical Church of England -- certainly poor gay Will McEwan is, bc Will was going to prayer groups led by an Oxford don, and they're all Anglican. Will's funeral is Anglican too.

The show says James was once in seminary, was serious being a priest, and he also read theology at Cambridge first: that could be either C of E or the Catholics. They never mention the saints or anything particularly Catholic in his mien. It's not as if the Catholics have a monopoly on internalized homophobia.

I think fanon reads James as Catholic -- to the extent they reference religion at all -- and I combined that with projecting Sebastian Flyte from Brideshead Revisited onto him. Also Catholicism is more interesting!

Urgh. @fursasaida my resident Hathaway scholar -- thoughts?

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“There is a cyborg hierarchy. They like us best with bionic arms and legs. They like us Deaf with hearing aids, though they prefer cochlear implants. It would be an affront to ask the Hearing to learn sign language. Instead they wish for us to lose our language, abandon our culture, and consider ourselves cured. They like exoskeletons, which none of us use. They don’t count as cyborgs those of us who wear pacemakers or go to dialysis. Nor do they count those of us kept alive by machines, those of us made ambulatory by wheelchairs, those of us on biologics or antidepressants. They want us shiny and metallic and in their image.”

― Alice Wong, Disability Visibility: First-Person Stories from the Twenty-first Century

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"none of these words are in the bible" you don't know that. we don't know for sure what every hapax legomenon strictly translates to. maybe "קִפוֹז" means "klance foot kink pwp." you don't know that.

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OK for real I want to know what my audience for this trans lady euphoria fix-it fic is. If it's only @tobermoriansass and me (and maybe @fursasaida?) that's cool, i just want to know.

Are you interested in reading my redo of the Lewis episode "Life Born of Fire?"

Yes, and I have watched Lewis

Yes, I have not watched Lewis but I'm interested in your take on gender euphoria

Yes, I have not watched Lewis but I read your writing regardless of canon

Not my thing, sorry

Remaining time: 8 hours 51 minutes

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things i have googled for accuracy in the fic writing process tonight:

the tempest full text

catholic holy ghost or holy spirit

david abishag in the bible

cathedral floor plan

lay ministry catholic church

what time is evensong

gethsemane spelling

erstwhile spelling

moue spelling

SOCO crime scene

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“Sisterhood”. Sara Riak, Thaís Martins and Joy Costa photographed by Greg Adamski for Vogue Arabia May 2021

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Also, frankly, quite a lot of Lewis/Hathaway fic is written from Lewis's POV, which I totally get bc it allows the reader to ogle Hathaway along with Lewis.

But that means the more interesting move is to write from Hathaway's POV. Stretching a different mental muscle, not repeating the pattern but bringing something new to it.

After all, canon's been over for 11 years. Why repeat the whump that already exists? There's a metric ton of it.

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writing Zoe Kenneth euphoria fic really is using fan fic as transformative work: making new gender meaning. It's an interesting intellectual project as well: how do I build a storyworld that resembles 2008 transphobic Oxford, and make the ending feel earned.

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All of the fic I've written since 2023 is written to answer a question. Either it's a hole that canon left unfilled or an alternate answer to the common fandom take.

It's a thesis: This is how I see these characters. This is who they are to me and to each other. Have I convinced you yet?

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It turns out if you mainline enough Lewis episodes and fics...you can write a case fic after all lmao.

wrote 2000 words today, which is only the start of the story but needs to be enough for tonight. if i never finish it, at least i had fun trying.

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In which I am now apparently doing a full fix-it fic for Lewis episode s2e3 "Life Born of Fire":

"The victim was Dr. Carey Melville, former dean of Mayfield College Chapel. If someone had a grudge against him, it was probably church-related. He was, er, a strong force for the devout before his retirement." "Did you know Dr. Melville?" Inspector Lewis asks. "From your time with all that...religious stuff." "A little, sir. Not well. Certainly not enough to know who his enemies were," James says. "How about any idea why someone might have killed him?" "You mean love, lust, lucre, or loathing?" They both look at the fragile, elderly corpse in the bed. "Likely not lust, sir." "Aye, you can say that again." Lewis sighs. "Well, take a look around and see if you spot anything particularly un-Christian among his belongings." James nods and begins his search. In the end it's Lewis who finds the note, which had fallen behind one of the beeping boxes that had formed Dr. Melville's erstwhile medical care. Lewis harrumphs to himself as he bends over, and straightens up holding a small orange leaflet. "Hathaway, have you heard of the Garden of Gethsemane?" "Bit far from Oxford, sir," James says, his heart beating faster. "It's in Jerusalem." "You sure? This says the Garden meets at Mayfield College, Thursdays after evensong. Offering Christian answers to contemporary questions. Me, I'd take a cuppa and call it a night."

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anyway, going back to writing fic now. we'll see how long this energy burst lasts.

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also tumblr is the wrong space for this but i wish we could talk about how white men and men of color in the united states do not embody the same type of misogyny. some of the principles overlap, but some of it is very culturally specific.

and maybe that's why i started ignoring tumblr discourse about men. the men that angry feminists on here talk shit about are archetypes i don't even recognize. it is completely useless to me personally. and the generalizations outside of their scope of experience make me wonder how we can possibly be in solidarity with each other.