I'm still looking for a place to spit my shit and tumblr remains the best choice in my eyes. I really don't see why I'm holding back from just being me in this space that belongs to me and where I don't force anyone to come or stay. Fear of other people's gaze, again? Anyhow… I've had a really crappy year, and two weeks ago I was planning to fuck myself up. I'm feeling a bit better now, maybe because I'm having my period. I'd really like my suffering to stop, I'm so tired and I can't do anything, it's eating me up.
I'm sorry for the people who follow me for my fanfic in the IT universe (Don't be scared). As I said, it's unlikely that I'll be continuing it for the time being. That said, the scenario goes pretty far in my head and maybe I'll come back to it. But right now, my obsessions are following each other really fast: I've gone from Pennywise to Hogwarts Legacy, then to Palia and now I'm back on TMNT. A side effect of my unstable state over the last 12 months.
I've got lots of ideas in my head and I can't really get anything out, it's hell. I just want to throw it all up quickly to alleviate my anxiety and that's what I'm going to try to do. It'll be shit, but at least I'll have gotten all these ideas out.
Take care people. Life and the world sucks but we can get through it.



















