“I’d need to know what it is before I said one way or the other.” There was an itch at the back of my neck, and I scratched it impulsively. Already a bad feeling with it in the room. “Maybe I like watching them die? Maybe I am ready to die myself, eh?” The words didn’t sound as funny as I thought they would.
“Perhaps. Perhaps you’d like to do something that would actually save lives, instead?” It produced a paper. “Here. Read this. It’s a request from the Choeur. I’ll summarize it for you.” I took it, put the paper aside, and sipped my hot water. “Two hundred klicks out, there’s a facility that was doing some work for the empire. Things went sideways, we lost contact, and we need a battalion of Legionnaires to go in and find out what happened. You’d be taking your battalion here, and myself. There’s some scientists that need to be pulled out as high value targets, and their research. The church is also asking we pull out some hearts of their members. If we do nothing, the higher ups I talked to think that whatever is going on there will spread.”
I let out a cold chuckle. “Me, in charge? What, did the church think I was an auspicious choice?” I glanced at the papers, scanning the document. I blinked as I read something. “Archaeotech Recovery Operations…? What the fuck?”
“No clue. Every information request I made was denied. Which means we either don’t know anything, or it’s so top secret that the people I’m asking don’t have clearance. Either way, we’re going in tonight. This is your chance out of here, Capitaine.”
“And the brass sent you instead of the Aria because they knew that one of their more holy machines might make me say no?” The volter stiffened, then nodded as it looked away. It’d be cute, if I didn’t know what it really was. The Aria would be even worse. Not just a fake biomechanical face, but an entire biomechanical body with natural movements and flesh. “Alright. Let’s say I did accept. What are we facing?”
“Don’t know. Last few messages cut off entirely. Your papers have as much information as I got.”
“Great. Well, I’ll think about it.” Bullshit deserved bullshit. I had no desire to send my people in a suicide mission for nothing.
“If you complete this mission, everyone gets to get off this planet. I want you to really think about what that means for your boys and girls. They’ll get a parade.” It was my turn to stiffen. I put my hot water down, and looked at the paper. “It said you’d get a triumph thrown in your honor. You’d be made a saint.”
My hands trembled as I read the passage again. “They can’t be serious.”
“Your commanders know you’ve been here without leave for a decade. Ever since we started the blockade, and taking the homeworld back, right?” The RVLT looked me dead in the eye, and this time I looked away, ashamed my desires were so apparent. I hate being manipulated. “Triumphs are always held on Buyan.”
“I know that! Fuck you, you think I love watching the rain fall. It’s quiet. Peaceful. It washes the city free of dirt, and grime. I love the smell of the rain – it covers the scent of the city, of smoke. The dirty rivulets as it runs down the windows are proof of that.
Best of all, the gunfire stops. No one likes it when their guns are wet. Not even the Replika’s of the enemy. It was nice to finally be able to sit down on a box next to my bunker’s window, and eat something. It was just crackers with some paste that tasted more like ash than “nutrients”, like the package claimed it was labeled. The last time I’d eaten anything resembling food, I’d been fifteen, in boot camp, and graduating. I could still remember the taste of that grilled corn.
Being able to sit meant that I also finally had time to mourn for my best friend, who’d died twelve hours ago. I’d lost count of my number of best friends for a while now. I couldn’t help myself from it, even knowing how it would end. We all knew. She was older than me, a veteran for longer; I thought I’d go first. She certainly thought the same. The tears for her came slowly, because I had to force myself to feel them. I was so worn out, I could only get a few out, but that would have to do, I thought. People deserve to have someone mourn for them, even if it was only a few tears.
It was getting harder every time to feel something for them. To feel much of anything, really. The building I was posted in was quiet, even if it was full of people doing the exact same thing as me. I could barely hear one of the new recruits one room over, sobbing quietly into her jacket. Probably the only one left in her squad. It’d been a bad 12 hours. To be fair, it’d been a bad 10 years since we landed on the homeworld. The propaganda always said the same thing; the blockade was working, that Vineta would be ours soon.
I flinched as I heard metal scrape on a pebble and reached for my sidearm reflexively. “Stand down, Kuautli Capitaine Atzi Cuepiltia,” the whispered, yet harsh voice told me exactly what it was; an RVLT, or Volter. I looked over at it and forced myself to put the handgun down. It looked up at me, somehow expressing tiredness in it’s dead eyes. I hated these things. Our Repliques are no different than their Replikas.
Like all Volters, this one was a miniscule four feet and five inches tall. They weren’t necessarily meant for direct combat, even if they always carried knives, or short swords. Strangely, this one carried a short estoc. The elaborate design told me more about her than any physical feature of herself; she was good at fighting, and even better as a pilot, which was what they were designed for. Their weaponry was how they distinguished themselves amongst other Volters. Physically, it was feminine in shape, like most Replique, and as dark as I am. “What do you want, sir?” I couldn’t keep the frustration out of my voice.
“Your time. A chance to talk. You’re being offered something,” it rested a hand on the hilt of it’s estoc, at ease with the situation. “You have the opportunity to turn this down, if you like. Or you can continue in your command here, watching the boys and girls under you die in this pissant ground war between trenches.”
I don’t know that? Do you even know how much we want this? Are you even old enough to remember when we made our vows, and chose our names, and began to fight for our homeworld? I was born here. I was ready to die here. I was ready to die fifteen years ago, when I took my name. You were made in a fucking factory, and instead of being the one dying out here on the front fucking lines like me, you’re giving orders!” I’d barely managed to keep my voice down.
“You’re not the only eagle in this room, Capitaine. You’re not the only one who is tired of being on this planet. You think I’m some unfeeling machine, and maybe you’re right, but I’m tired. I’m tired of the competition. I’m tired of being the best. I’m tired of everything to do with war. I’ve been at the top of my game for ten years, and I’m one of the oldest Volters there are. I watch my sisters die every single day in the skies for you, and I’m glad, because they get to get out before it sours. Their last thoughts are of how they are going to remembered for being one of the best, the most brave. They won’t even be remembered by their sisters.” I watched as it’s… her hands shook. “The next closest battalion with a veteran Capitaine is a hundred klicks further away, and they’re a jaguar. A fucking ueyoselotl. I need your experience. I need the guarantee of the best.”