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lauren | 29 | lonesome crowded westerner

[ratfuck]

they honorably discharged me from the army and gave me a purple heart after i was hit by a cumshot

[dietrichmarlene]

Marlene Dietrich photographed by Mercedes de Acosta, 1930s

[enki2]

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[technofinch]

I have GOT to stop spending $30

[angelbabymikaa]

do you think there’s dry humping in heaven

[motherwife]

i wont hatepost but sometimes it does feel like this to scroll fandom tags

[loveridden1999]

i might not be your funniest mutuals but I am also not your smartest mutual

[omar-little]

the wire meme – 3/8 emotional scenes

“A kid come to me with other skills, other way of being – all I got is hope and wishes.” “That’s something, I guess.” “I wish it was more, son. I do.”

[twinktorturer]

the best thing a man can be is gay and suicidal and miserable and utterly unlikable and unpleasant to be around and prone to addiction and abused and traumatized and not breaking the cycle and

[cosechadehuellas]

Tilly Losch

Hans Böhm, 1925

[ramblaac]

"I asked ChatGPT" well I asked M'aiq and he knows much, tells some. M'aiq knows many things others do not

[ozempicofficial]

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Dr Strangelove, or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb : Stanley Kubrick : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Arc

Stanley Kubrick’s painfully funny take on Cold War anxiety is one of the fiercest satires of human folly ever to come out of Hollywood. The

YOU NEED TO HAVE WATCHED STANLEY KUBRICK'S 1964 NUCLEAR SATIRE MASTERPIECE DR. STRANGELOVE, OR: HOW I LEARNED TO STOP WORRYING AND LOVE THE BOMB, NOW.

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Modern society makes a sharp division between freedom and obligation, as though the two were in conflict; this division is largely driven by market ideology which treats people as though they were atomized autonomous individuals who only contract themselves into relationship--a view of the world that is clearly mythical; all one has to do is look around at real human relationships to see that this view is not realistic. It is only through the anonymity of market relationships that we can ignore the fact that we rely on other people for almost everything in our life; and thus we can think of our freedom as separate from our obligations—as though our freedom did not depend on other people, and other people's freedom did not depend on us. In other words, the modern market society allows us to pretend that one man's freedom is not another man's obligation. An easy way to demonstrate this is to simply think of the food supply; how free could you be had it not been for the countless people, relationships, and institutions that are required for you to put food your table.

Roman A. Montero, All Things in Common: The Economic Practices of the Early Christians

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"In the language of the Bible, freedom is not something man has for himself but something he has for others…. It is not a possession, a presence, an object,…but a relationship and nothing else. In truth, freedom is a relationship between two persons. Being free means 'being free for the other,' because the other has bound me to him. Only in relationship with the other am I free."

Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Creation and Fall, Temptation: Two Biblical Studies

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Joerg Rieger, "Reconfiguring the Common Good and Religion in the Context of Capitalism", Common Goods: Economy, Ecology, and Politcal Theology, ed. Melanie Johnson DeBaufre, Catherine Keller, and Elias Ortega-Aponte

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John Caputo, The Weakness of God: A Theology of the Event

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James Cone, God of the Oppressed

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Hilary Jerome Scarsella, "Trauma and Theology: Prospects and Limits in Light of the Cross", Trauma and Transendence: Suffering and the Limits of Theory, ed. Eric Boynton and Peter Capretto

[beguines]

Our birth inscribes us as beings-in-relation to others. But we do not always honor that birth or those relations. Historically we have tended to ignore that "debt toward that which gives and renews life," and approached others as mere objects to be appropriated for ourselves. Indeed, the immaterial separate God of many Christian theologies has helped conceal the infinite debt of our irreducibly material livelihood.

Mayra Rivera, The Touch of Transcendence: A Postcolonial Theology of God

[beguines]

Douglas E. Christie, The Blue Sapphire of the Mind: Notes for a Contemplative Ecology

Jean-Luc Nancy, "Rethinking Corpus", trans. Roxanne Lapidus. Carnal Hermeneutics, ed. Richard Kearney and Brian Treanor

[beguines]

China Miéville, A Spectre, Haunting: On the Communist Manifesto

[theinternetarchive]

from 'bird by bird: some instructions on writing and life,' anne lamott, pub. 1994.

[toroimage]

truly a spectacular essay for writers

[heavenslittlemachine-deactivate]

i have been noticing recently that people younger than me are too sensitive, while people older than me are not sensitive enough. which, if i'm correct, should be taken as a sign that the total reality penetration vortex is operating as intended -- within as few as five or six generations we may very well be producing babies who can directly perceive the wound at the heart of the world