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began : 11/18/2020Â Â //Â Â last updated : 06/05/2021
summary : your past comes to haunt you in the worst way possible.
warnings : angst wow angst, swearing, death, knife, blood, gore, fictional slurs, fluff if you read certain parts with no context
word count : 1.8k
authorâs note : finished watching markiplierâs re8 play through and bawled like a baby about the ending for half an hour, so i spent over 2 hours straight writing this to let those emotions out on the only man ever
( disclaimer : gif is not mine! )
Ten years ago, I remember raving to my mom about how excited I was to be 21. Once I hit that age, I said, I would be free to do whatever I want in the world. All the cool tattoos I passed by would be open to my own body now. Ideas of traveling the world or teaching at a wizarding school were popular ones among the years. By then, I would ideally have the best friends in the world and find my soulmate. 21 was going to be my year, I proclaimed.
Now, here I was; ideal age in a fucked world. No way did I expect to be thrown into a war immediately after school and forcing myself through life. There was no chance for a job or travelling at the moment, but a few tattoos did come into stock when I had my minimum free time. Luckily, I got those friends and that relationship. Though, I didnât expect to be married and a parent so soon. As different as this outcome was, I would like to say I am happy with it.
If I had to guess, it was around 11:47pm on March 27th. James was tuckered out from a long guard duty on his birthday (something that I thought was unfair), while Harry had been sleeping soundly for a few hours already. After a boring day, there was some energy left in me, keeping me from sleeping. Quietly, I laid in my husbandâs arms, admiring how young and peaceful he looked asleep.Â
Then, a crash from the kitchen.
My heartbeat had picked up as I stiffened. I tried to reason that it was just Gully â until I realized we had him sent to the caninesâ distraught home for the weekend. There was no part in me that wanted to face whatever it was, but I remembered Harry. Hearing the footsteps around the bottom floor had me slipping out of Jamesâs grasp and grabbing my glasses to find my wand.Â
âSweetheart?â He muttered with a sleepy drug caught in his throat. Slowly, he began to sit up and grab his own frames to fully see what was happening. âWhere are you going?âÂ
âGo watch Harry. Someone might be in the house.â My words had him up and out of bed, wand at ready. It was obvious he was going to argue about switching places. âJames, please, just go to him. Iâll be back before you know it.â Hesitantly, he crept off to our sonâs bedroom.
Growing up in a house full of activity at night had me on edge all the time now. However, when sneaking down the stairs, I realized it made me braver to face whatever it would be. Maybe it was just our cat messing around, just like it was my dog growing up. That had to be it.
No lights were on or doors unlocked, but a new breeze had pulled into the home. I took a shaky breath before pushing open the kitchenâs swinging door. On the floor were glass shards from the window just above the sink. My worst fear set in: somebody was in our home.
We quickly made introductions as our uninvited guest buried their blade into my lower back, a hand going to cover my mouth to cover my scream. âWe wouldnât want to wake your baby, now would we?â I know that voice. Why did I know that voice?
Pulling their knife out, their fingers dug into my shoulders. They threw me out of the kitchen and into the living room. A guttural groan escaped me, the wound immediately feeling that. They emerged from the shadows, wand and knife tucked in their waistband. Their caramel locks were greasy and string-like, looking like it hadnât been washed in months. A sadistic revenge pooled their irises, while the rest of their small body shook with rage.
Beatrice Hughes. âWhat the fuââÂ
She pressed her heel onto my bloodied stomach, causing a coughing fit with specks of red flying out. âQuiet,â she hissed. âAlready caused enough problems for me, so I donât need your blood traitor husband ruining this too.â
It was a surprise to see her. Back in 1979, the rest of her family had been murdered for not realizing a spy, AKA me, had infiltrated them for five months. She was only a sixth year at the time, making it impossible for Voldemort to get her. Dumbledore, that dumb old man, had situated her a place to stay during that summer to keep her from getting hurt. He was supposed to be on our side, wasnât he? Apparently, that deal was off now, with her smell being putrid. That alone could probably kill me.
âAfter you fucked over my family and I graduated, no one would take me in. Not even Voldemort supporters because I was deemed âtoo untrustworthy.ââ Her toes curled, adding pressure against me. âYou ruined my life and I intend to ruin yours. Maybe Iâll kill your husband and son right before you bleed out, screaming from the cruciatus curse. I thought youâd like this method of death â stays true to your loyalty to mudbloods.â Much like her brother, a twisted smirk played on her lips. God, I hate that family so much.
Speaking of the Hughes, they induced a certain amount of anger and need to rebel in me. Gathering as much as I could, I spat at her ripped up shoe. My blood and saliva spilled into a hole and on her foot. A stupid proud grin found itâs way on my face. Getting kicked in the jaw was definitely worth seeing her face morph into disgust.
âYou little insolent mixie! I willââ Somebody was storming down from upstairs. It scared her. She shoved her knife just below my chest. Leaning in, she whispered, âSay hi to my brother, will you?â
âStupefy!â The woman in front of me had slammed against the wall. Unfortunately, it didnât stop her from disappearing once she got her head back on. My eyes followed the voice and found James, chest heaving. After he met my gaze, his hard expression softened and he rushed over to scoop me in his arms. âY/N? Speak to me, love, yeah?â
It took me a red cough to find my weary voice. The sight had pricked his tears. âIâm here, donât worry, you big baby.â I smiled when he began to laugh through held back sobs. âCanât get rid of me that easily, can you?â When will I learn that I have the worst timing? My body went to curl up into a coughing fit, so I tried to get out, âOkay, yeah, maybe you can.âÂ
His eyebrows furrowed as a deep frown settled in. This was not funny apparently. âIâve already called Marlene and Lily just in case. They should be coming soon, just hold on.â Searching the room, he looked for any sign theyâd be here. With no response, he propped my body up against his chest. As fucked as this situation, it reminded me of those long nights weâd have on the common room couch, discussing our future.
Future. That was such a lost word now, wasnât it?
âJames, honey? Look.. look at me.â I brought a shaking hand up to his cheek, caressing it in a blissed out state. âJust in case..â
âDonât say that, I hate when you say that.â
The smile that usually rested on his face was now pulled into a pout. Giggling, I turned to straddle him, fingers lightly tracing his jaw. âShut up and let me finish, yeah?â Gryffindorâs fireplace crackled in agreement. Once he gave me a reluctant nod, I continued. âJust in case anything happens to me or us, you have to promise me that everything will be okay. That youâll find somebody else that makes your heart flip, or buys your favorite sweets all the time.â
He thoughtfully watched my waist while his hands ran around it. Eventually, we made eye contact. With a heavy sigh, he said, âFine. Nothingâs going to happen to us though. Weâre forever, even if I have to steal a time turner for us to stay 17.â
âYouâre a big baby, you know that?â At the sound of the nickname, he poked at me, making me burst out laughing. âStop, stop!â
âIf you say you love me, then I will.â
âI love you! I love you, I love you, I love you!â
Holding a satisfied smile, he left a flurry of kisses on my face as I cuddled against him. âI love you more.â
Jamesâs face scrunched up in disdain. He hated this conversation. âNo, no, donât say that. Weâll get through this. Donât be an idiot.â For a moment, he got lost in his thoughts and tears slipped down his cheeks.Â
I felt myself begin to cry at the sight. I didnât like making him sad. Why couldnât I make him happy? âJamsie, you promised. You canât break our promise.â
He forced himself to look away from me. It broke my heart to see him in such a state. My fingers gently tugged at his chin to look at me again. Iâm fairly certain I saw his hope drop at realizing my worn state. âWhat about our friends? What about Harry? What about me?â A broken sob escaped as he hung his head against my throat. âI - I canât lose you too.â
âYou have to live, for all of us, please.â Until now, writing that people could feel themselves falling into deathâs grasp was a way to just hit the reader's heart. Never thought I would have to realize the reality of my words. âIf they ask for my cause of death, tell them it was that stupid Potter charm. Stopped my heart.â I let out a coughed-laugh, my hand finding Jamesâs to hold. âI love Harry so much. I dedicated it all to him. Please tell him.â He nodded, and I continued, âI love you so much. You are my everything, James.Â
Cross my heart, hope to die.â
Jamesâs heart shattered at the limp body of his wife in his arms. Never had he screamed so loud, begging for some sort of return. Never had he cried for so long, praying this was some illusion.
âYouâre overdramatic, you know that?â She laughed, pulling herself up to sit higher. âIt wasnât that bad of a hit.â
âFuck off, I could have lost you. It was fucking horrifying. You didnât see it,â James grumbled with a tear-stained face. Sometimes he hated how unbothered she was.
She brought him in to press a kiss against his forehead, calming him down. âYou canât lose me that easily, babe. Even when weâre 21 and dead drunk every night, youâll be stuck with me.â
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hi everyone!!! iâm back :] sorry for being gone for like,, 5-6 months. school got a little hectic and i had a big writerâs block. however, iâm back!! iâll try my best to upload my luna fic (itâs been half way done since december bye). if you unfollowed, totally understandable! thank you if youâre still here :D
anyways, have a wonderful day/night!! love you muah
1. whatâs your favorite character(s) to write for?
iâm still feeling out many characters, but so far, iâd have to say harry! heâs a huge dork and i love him to bits and pieces. luna is a little trickier, but sheâs a close second.
20. what feedback makes you the happiest to hear?
which part people liked most! i enjoy all feedback, but hearing people describe specific scenes from the fic and how it made me feel absolutely warms my heart!
24. do you prefer AUs with the characters, or sticking to the original universe?Â
it truly depends on the fandom for me. for my main fandoms (harry potter and marvel), i like to keep it to the original universe. if anything, hogwarts aus are the ones i enjoy most when it comes to other fandomsâ aus.
If you didnât read the books you wouldnât knowâŚ
Draco Malfoy personally made the Potter stinks buttons and nobody could fix them to say Harry was cool and shit, if they tried it would only make the insults worse
You wouldnât know Draco Malfoy was always right behind Hermione in grades
You wouldnât know Draco was seriously the most animated person at school and acted out everything.Â
You wouldnât know Draco got deeply offended when people didnât laugh at his jokes
You wouldnât know Draco created the Weasley is our King song, tune and all. (Probably in the shower or something because heâs such a weenie)Â
You wouldnât know Draco and Ron got into a fist fight in their first year
You wouldnât know about the huge knock down drag out between Draco, Harry and the rest of the Slytherin and Gryffindor quidditch team in their fifth year. (Harry  and Draco just fucking tackle each other and start whooping each others asses and itâs amazing.)
You would miss out on basically everything Draco says and does. Heâs a walking gold mine and Itâs upsetting the movies didnât devote a few seconds for any of his shit (Azkaban did an okay job)Â
You wouldnât know about the Weasley is our king buttons he made in fifth year either
You wouldnât know Draco didnât actually try and fight a Hippogriff he was just petting him and offhandedly said that he was ugly. He didnât sprint over to him, he actually did all the bowing and what not.
If you didnât read the books you wouldnât know that Draco is the most annoyingly smart and artistic little shit youâve ever heard of.Â
you also wouldnât know that Harry was the only seeker who could beat him.
That he suffered from quite severe depression in book five. Quit Quidditch, stopped seeing his friends. He was depressed to the point of looking physically sick.
That when he confronted Dumbledore he said he had to kill Dumbledore because Voldemort had his family. Not because he was concerned for himself.
You wouldnât know that he was the only person able to find a way into Hogwarts passed Dumbledores protection spells.
you guys also miss out on the fact that Draco brilliantly sneaks some polyjuice potion from a potions lesson so that he can transform Crabbe and Goyle into different girls all the time so that no one suspected they were up to anything while the two of them guarded the area outside of the room of requirement for Draco.
you guys donât get to see how his âbig bad slytherin buddiesâ actually tried to calm him down on the train when he was obviously anxious about the whole Voldemort thing. he even calmly laid in Pansyâs lap while she played with his hair.
you guys donât know about Draco going to visit moaning Myrtle in her bathroom and how she admits that he opens up to her and how heâs sensitive and cries pretty often. and the whole fact that theyâre friends.
you guys even miss out on the fact that Draco and Harry meet before they introduce themselves in the handshake scene while theyâre being fitted for school robes in Diagon Alley, and Draco has a full conversation with Harry without even knowing who he is.
i donât think you even get a glimpse of the fact that Draco always receives letters and packages of sweets and stuff from home while heâs away at school.
i also canât stand the fact that they removed THIS SCENE and basically added the total opposite. how are you going to delete the best character development for Draco, and just make him weak? standing next to his fellow classmates and refusing to cross the courtyard when his family calls him, yelling âPotter!â when he realizes that Harry is actually alive and running towards him and throwing him a wand!! itâs the strongest, ballsiest, audience-mind-changingly scene possible, and they just throw it all away.
((sorry iâm just really salty about how he was portrayed in the movies ok))
Iâm internally screaming because this is everything that needs to be known by all of those havenât read the books and have the bALLS TO SAY THE MOVIES ARE BETTER
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2. What character(s) do you find the most difficult to write for? Why?
3. Do you have a favorite scene youâve written from [Fanfic Name] story/chapter?Â
4. Did you have any ideas that didnât make the final cut of [Fanfic Name]?Â
5. Do you listen to music when writing?Â
6. If you listen to music when writing, what were you listening to when writing [Fanfic Name]?
7. What story/headcanons do you feel the proudest of?Â
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9. If you had to assign a theme song to [Fanfic Name], which would you assign?Â
10. What is the line youâre proudest of from [Fanfic Name]?Â
11. How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc)
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13. When did you start writing fanfic?Â
14. How do you feel about your older work?Â
15. What is the fanfic youâve written that youâre most proud of?Â
16. What fanfic tropes do you avoid writing for?
17. What fanfic tropes do you gravitate to writing for?Â
18. Do you prefer editing as you write, or waiting until itâs finished?Â
19. What words do you think you tend to use the most?Â
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21. Is there an idea youâve always wanted to write, but havenât yet?Â
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31. What was the development process of [Fanfic Name] like?Â
32. What story do you think showcases your signature style the most?Â
33. Have you ever stopped yourself from writing something? Why?
34. Have you felt emotional while writing a scene before? What scene was it?
35. Whereâs your favorite place to write?Â
36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism youâre proudest of?Â
37. Would you ever collaborate with another writer for a story?Â
38. What story of yours are you surprised that people liked as much as they did?Â
39. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?
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â¨â¨â¨This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask box of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, you are still loved dearly n severely, but it is sweet to know someone thinks youâre amazing inside and outâ¨â¨â¨
this literally made my heart flutter AHHH
thank you so much!! this means a lot to me as iâve been super anxious this past week â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ i hope you have a wonderful day love!!
if weâre mutuals, and I donât care whether weâve been mutuals for twelve (12) minutes or three (3) years, you can send me a message any time about any thing. family life is shit? bitch, tell me about it and even if I canât help, I can listen. struggling with mental illness and feel like you canât talk to anyone? talk to me. literally. you always can. saw a cute cat? SEND THAT BITCH MY WAY
summary : when harry learns youâve gone missing, he hits rock bottom. no one can reach out to him until a peculiar letter ends up in his possession.Â
authorâs note : hi!! this is my very first fic posted on tumblr, so i hope you enjoy. iâm actually really proud of this one, as it was inspired by my favorite song âplay this when iâm goneâ by machine gun kelly. also, thank you for the support on my masterlist! it means the literal world. also my favorite writers followed me and i am freaking out. sorry for the this long note,,, i tend to ramble. enjoy!
( disclaimer : gif is not mine! )
It had been months since the war had ended. While the wizarding world was still healing, the future for it had become hopeful. The threat of war had hung over the heads of the community, so once it had been taken away, everything was reborn. Bustling crowds and childrenâs laughter had filled Diagon Alley once more; the boarded up shops had now opened up, gleaming with pride. Many felt grateful for this new age.
sirius was tired that his best friend always seemed to choose hiding in her drawings instead of adore lilyâs eyes in real life.
pairings:Â lily evans x fem!reader, best friend!sirius black x female!reader
word count:Â 2,245
authorâs note:Â this is my first fic which took me days to write and english is not my first language so please forgive any mistakes youâd find iâm kinda new at this
i am literally in love with this!! iâm such a lily simp, so this made my heart flutter! also, english isnât your first language? thatâs insane because this was written so well. i hope to support you on your future fics!! <3
please please please i need a part two of to my beloved with a happy ending! if you're in the book for writing it of course!
hihihi so i am currently crying because this means so much to me!! iâve never had someone ask me to write more before jbdabhs
but of course iâll take the request! i actually had a fluff ending and an angst ending planned out if people wanted it hehe. iâll be publishing âuntitledâ soon, but after that, iâll start on the next part right away <3 thank you again for this!!!
iâm in the process of writing âuntitedâ and âlost puppyâ right now, but i was wondering what my followers want! i know i donât have many, but for the ones i have, i want to make what theyâll enjoy as i appreciate them so much.
so please feel free to request! i literally adore all of you and just want to make you feel good this holiday season!
Helllooo, do you have any rec lists for Harry, youâre one of the only people who write for him, and you do so very well, and I was wondering if you had any recommendations for him?
Iâm sooo sorry this took so long! There are surprisingly few Harry writers BUT I would recommend these absolutely lovely pieces and authors:
Dozy Afternoons by @minty-malfoy To My Beloved by @headboyweasley
Seven Years by @harrysweasleys â
âThe war is over, itâs been over for a year.â by @hello-everyfandom
Come Home to You by @prongsies
Burn Alone by @yourssuccubus
Equilibrium by @iliveiloveiwrite
Help Wanted by @nebulablakemurphy
I have quite a few I like from each author so be sure to check out all of their Harry x Readers but these are my favorite!Â