i want to discover what you left for me, freud. i want to prove that i'm worthy of your legacy.
( dep. evan from maplestory !
affiliated w/ isola radiale.
semi-sel./semi-priv. w/ indie. )
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(Â aka the long overdue ooc post i meant to make a while ago )
   hi scoobs, itâs juni, on the muse i had to drop about a month ago !! i actually didnât rly lose his muse but irl is a fuck so iâll come back someday. speaking of which, that means probably by november, b/c iâm gonna start grinding again to get to l200. ( this is horrible i took a break for THREE WEEKS,, i was FINE )
   i miss maple a lot so i do intend to come back somehow esp since tumblr is... probably the only site âll be rping on lol,, but lemme chill on my other blogs and deal w irl stuff before i do that haha
   anyways, ty yâall for the great august i had !! evan was my first actual muse in a while when i rejoined and also the first where i Sorta interacted w indie rpc again so ty for the good run. iâll be back here in a few weeks, see u space mstories
â Evan? â the boy that crossed his vision looked a lot like the young hero from back home. a brow raises in questioning as he watches said â familiar â boy in the market area, followed about by a small⊠creature. Mir, he guessed ; although the size is completely off â what the hell ? the rooftops made for an excellent vantage point to scout out various sources of information, but perhaps it was high time to come into contact with leveled ground.
the thief shroud walks over to their position, the flurry of cards encircling him as he reappears â his entrances ( and exits ) always attention-seeking and gaudy. â well, well. a pleasant surprise to see you again, Evan â â Phantom starts before his expression falls at the sight of food. mostly vegetables, but nevertheless. lots of food.
â â i see that the two of you havenât changed, â well, except for the lizard, â âŠÂ much. â
   itâs partially due to mirâs nagging when the two decide they need to buy food â but mostly because theyâre really running low, and evan would prefer not to burden it on his roommates. at least the market here is ridiculously calm; heâd much rather it be mundane than a surprise straight from home. yet, later, as he prepares to leave, he realizes something feels different from earlier â the wind, or maybe another thing entirely, if at all. ⊠itâd be rude to leave the stall hanging, though, so after rushedly paying, he turns right around, and nearly jumps back in shock from, well.. a lot.
    but jeez, seeing whoâs addressing him makes him glad he didnât, because heâd have both fallen into another stall and utterly embarrassed himself. â phantom ! gods, itâs â er... â actually, scratch that last relief ! the silence and following note from the thief makes him feel like sheepish already. â is that supposed to be a bad thing? i mean, iâm.. not really sure what you expected. â ( mir even brazenly chips in â â seems like he hasnât changed much either, master! â â and oh, how he shouldnât have. )
     â uh â ignore him ! he didnât mean it. â because as much as he loves ( and actually agrees with ) mir, thatâs exactly how theyâll divide the six heroes when only two are even here. â itâs nice to see you again, phantom, really. but, uh.. did you just get here? âÂ
   sssorry for basically being like, always here to post ooc stuff or two ics, but i think i gotta do this one more time.
   itâs.... iâm getting used to school & my mental/physical health is dead after three days, so i need to organize my rp stuff. lukeâs dropped, but iâm also gonna drop any threads here from overlay ( unless uâd like to keep them! ) indie is on the backbone for now while i fix my life, srry about the late stuff owed there.
   soon as i get event starters on my blogs and get active enough to do so, i think iâll be throwing a hiatus on my accs sans here ( ms tenebris update heightened my muse... a lot ) and.. mb another acc if i hate myself that much... but thatâs why iâve been inactive! sorry. iâll post some replies in twelve hours or w/e, haha,, ty guys
   in other words, apping three blogs + underestimating how crowded this week would be was a Mistake, but uh,, hey iâll try to calm that down as soon as i can ! sorry @ the lack of replies on all ends, iâll try to get them out by the 31st at most. school starts thursday unfortunately aka in a Day so like, w/ ballet + how much less time i have again btwn school/dance iâm Screwed until i learn time management but iâll try ! thanks mstory for going on maintenance and cutting me slack tmrw.
   i need to get rest but iâll draft stuff up esp. stuff thatâs late here ( unless u would like to drop stuff/uhhh plot/idk in which case pls contact me somehow) ty for dealin w/ me bs. have a nice night/day everyone !!
--Â hey @gravity-lord-rises mun ? why. thanks / continued from here !
   â you got the point across without the snark, lotus. i got it. â is that an eye roll? sure. but an intentional one? uh, get back to him on that.
    â but.. iâve felt it a couple of times. my brother reckoned at one point it was the effect of being in a world-saving conflict all the time. â well, no, that was something of a lie â but what kind of leader would he be, just blurting every single worry outright? how would anyone else respond to every single truth at once? â you changed the fate of maple world, though, didnât you? anâ havenât you been changing things here? i canât say thatâs useless at all. and, plus ââ useless as it might be in material, he takes out the wand from his arrival, and stands up for a second; and in that time, he casts a circle of wind â a small one, but certainly strong enough to feel move. â they let me cast it sometime after the city was repaired. sure, mir doesnât have anything, but i bet you got something at one point, too. â
  â ⊠â if the world can make a monster out of its savior, then any ordinary person â heroic or not â can be just as strong and saving to the world.â i think luminous said something like that before â about a sort of situation like this. and i donât think you should doubt your strength now, since youâre.. still more powerful than i am. besides, power.. probably shouldnât decide how strong you are, anyway. but.. i donât think itâs my call to say what you should do from here. youâve already done a lot on your own. â
   okay, i.. honestly got dragged out with my family n got caught up in rainfall nd floods in the car, n iâm still ridiculously slow at writing, so. that. didnât work out, nd whatever i can post ovr the next week iâll post as soon as i can.
   that.. being said though, iâm doing what i seriously shouldâve done weeks back and promised to do yesterday - if any indie accs following wanna do an actual thread, please like this post !! three things to keep in mind being 1) go ham, uncapped b/c, i donât have a lot of accs following me; 2) this is probably in default verse unless ur default is set anytime before heroes of maple or not from mstory / uâd rather do a different verse ( hmu i wonât know otherwise,, ); n 3) if u do i Might. plot? unlikely but just watch out. ty for ur time ur all valid
â ÊÉȘÊ sÊáŽÉąÉąáŽÊ ÊáŽáŽÉąÊs áŽáŽ áŽÊᎠǫáŽáŽsáŽÉȘáŽÉŽ, at the idea of it being hard to fight in rollerblades. heâd been born with them; it was harder to walk without them than to ride with them, and whacking people and creatures alike on the go was just fine for him; quite literally, it was second nature. Â
âi wear them all the time,â he says, ending his sentence with a grunt as he sent a little flying monster soaring up and splatting against a wall of rubble.  âitâs fun to me.â
   ... gods, he canât do any of that. ( thatâs absolutely a thought in the back of his head telling him to learn something like this. thatâs absolutely another thought telling him he'll probably never learn one. )
   â fun? â thatâs one ( surprising ) way of putting it - though he doesnât really get how itâs still fun in the midst of this chaos. â well, i canât say anything against it - i suppose youâre way better at it than iâd ever be, especially if you can fight in them. â not that heâd really have time to fight in roller blades -- though phrasing it that way was just asking for it to happen. â how longâve you worn them, anyways? â
softly insulting my own muses on another char ic is now the best thing iâve done i love it
( even if i love the actual chars shdhdfb i canât control what my muses think and thatâs good )
on other notes, under the cut:
( but tl;dr i wanna muse too many people; no reliable way to do replies next wk, if i have wifi i might b crying on twitter; will finish as much as i can && try to put up indie / group s.calls )
iâm a fool. i have muses for a Ton of ms (whichâd be indie) / non ms (leaning affil.) chars & now iâm planning what to do. iâm Screwed
no reliable wifi come sunday afternoon est. iâm going to the province for 5 / so days; some family friends have int. access but our house doesnât. also prolly no comp for. a week? ( on a cousinâs rn. whoops. weâll be in a city and not this brgy, so. ) meaning no x-kit / rip replies but mb not memes or starters.
- if i get int. access i... may just be fooling around and drawing on twitter / my personal tumblr. again i always scream on @/herowilled on twitter b/c i feel like / probably Will clutter things if i scream here haha,,,Â
before i leave i Will finish what i can and try to get out a s/c for indie / group (possibly a relations | plot call ) / everythin but def the indie stuff b/c iâm a rly big fool who never did that !! god dang how dâyall put up w me
-Â speaking of which aside from two rly late hc memes i hve two drabbles in inbox from last week,,, iâm throwinâ it here so it doesnât look like i deleted them b/c i promise i didnât. one Is done but i have yet to start the other and when i think up an idea both of us are, frankly, screwed. sorry for the wait iâm rly slow at this but ur valid as hellllll
ok thatâs it for now !! i wanted to put stuff in one post so i didnât clutter fhgfdhb ty for reading, i support yâall and hope u have a good day
Lotusâs thoughts moved away from his discomfort, raising a brow. âItâs alright. But all the heroes? That includes PhantomâŠâ The spirit playfully made a gagging face, but was really so happy the person brought here was this kid and not THAT guy. It couldâve been better, but it couldâve been worse. âI almost feel sorry for you, that you have to deal with that ridiculous man.â He shrugged lazily, doubting âheroâ was even an accurate term for Phantom. Lotus knew heâd wasted so much time chasing after his pointless vengeance, after all.
âWas it⊠Florina?â That was the most famous one heâd known of way back whenâalthough, when his soul was lost and wandering, he picked up some vague information that a different beach skyrocketed in popularity. âWell, anyway⊠Yes, hopefully it will be nicer. I wonder how the beach will look during the eclipses? Considering they happen so often hereâŠâ
The fact it was so odd speaking to Evan as if they were old friends was not lost on him. Maybe the young Dragon Master could even grow on him.
   his reaction almost made evan laugh - and if it werenât for how rude that felt to a thief who didnât even have a say in it, he mightâve. â ahah, well, heâs not terrible - i mean, freud put up with him, and for longer than i have, so i reckon he could be worse. â really - though, he couldnât think of how to say it - as long as he wasnât left to his devices with luminous and mercedes again, then nothing terrible would happen. at least, er, thatâs.. what he assumed to be the case. â i mean, heâs.. a lot to deal with, half of the time, but when he wonât mess around heâs kinda helpful. i might be jumpinâ to conclusions, though. â
   â it was, actually ! itâs been a few years, so it mightâve changed since then. but i know u- my brother liked it a lot. â yeah, granted, that was because utah never threw any chores onto him, but nobody needed to know that. besides, the spiritâs next comments garnered far more interest. â eclipses? are they really that common? i mean, i wouldnât know off the bat, but thatâs still weird to hear. â he bordered on asking if it was caused by elemental magic - though, if information on leaving the city was like a rumor, he supposed it could be harder to know that for sure.
Lotusâs curiosity spiked when Evan mentioned him and Mir led a teamâhe sure didnât expect these two leading anyone. âYou were chosen to lead something? How interesting.  A team of who, might I ask?â He knew that eventually, if the Maple World were to ever have peace⊠theyâd have to go against the Black Mage eventually. ââŠbut good luck,â the spirit threw in there at the end. After everything, he didnât want the Transcendent to have his way.
ââŠRight before I died, I gave her the last of my power. It was for her to do whatever she wanted.â Remembering that moment⊠it was painful, and Lotus seemed to choke on his words. Occasionally he would still hear her lost echo, begging him to not leave even though there was nothing he could do. He almost looked sick now, although he shook his head. He didnât want to look weak, even though it was likely obvious he was hurting.
ââŠYeah. I never got to see a beach myself, let alone enjoy one. Youâve been to one before? Humans like to go there for vacations⊠right?â Feeling ill, or feeling embarrassed about seeming excited about something so smallâhuh, which was worse?
   it was a harmless question, and evan expected it, too - but even then, an uncertainty grew in his words and his eyes. â if.. you think about it, i guess itâs more like iâm filling in for freud. iâm âfficially leading luminous, shade, and the other four heroes, but.. a few explorers visited home for help, so i guess a lot of people think iâm already good at it? i donât really know. ⊠but, uh, thanks. weâll do our best. â
  so that was why it seemed so strange - except -- before he could reply, he froze up. â i -- sorry. i shouldnât have asked. â it was worth knowing, yet one of the most insensitive things to ask â and godawful somehow he didnât see it coming. what to do, what to do, what would --
   â well - er, yeah ! a lot do. â ..no, that didnât really count as a save. â thereâs one on victoria my family visited after work a few years back, and it was okay - but weâve never had time since. thereâs a lot of people out there who like the beach, though, so youâre not the only one ! if they fix up the city, iâm sure youâll be able to visit - iâunno what the weatherâll be like, though, so that might affect it. â
canât draw angst icons or anything w/ good quality if u donât have ur tablet lol.......... ( and i really want to use ones tor my castmate threads too )
( i uh, accidentally wrote a lot for the second one, so thatâs gotta go under a read more. // cadmium yellow also contains, uh. maplestory / heroes of maple spoilers? )
crimson: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?
   i think evanâs passion varies based on how much he likes it and, on a secondary level, how important it seems to everything else. he doesnât really mean to change his passion based on the second part, itâs just that he feels thatâs sort of how he should manage being a hero and his other interests.Â
  on stuff that he really likes + thinks are really important ( aside from, well, the legacy and everything he needs to uphold, ie being a dragon master and then the topic of dragons in general, ) he does happen to be extremely passionate about it. heâs really freakinâ vocal about it and wouldnât really feel undeterred or embarrassed from talking about them, mostly based off of thinking âwell, this is important, so s/b prolly wonât mind hearing about this??âÂ
  s/t that he really likes but thinks isnât too important though is⊠he talks abt it kind of differently? b/c of course if he doesnât think itâs important then he thinks the opposite thing which is âah. S/bâs gonna care if i brig it upâ and also âwell. this is kind of embarrassing? i might get laughed at for this,. guess i wonât bring that up!â itâs actually what he used to think of like, heroics and adventuring b/c of his family until he legitimately became a hero. in gen tho this just applies to a lot of stuff ppl would associate kids w/ just b/c he wants to be viewed as a âtrueâ hero of sorts and not looked down as for being a child, so! yeah.
cadmium yellow: what subjects or topics does your muse avoid, because they bring up harmful / painful memories?
   as a preface, itâs actually kinda hard for evan to⊠er, actively avoid those types of memories? sure heâd! rather not mention some things â itâs just that his reasoning errs on confronting most rather than avoiding them. this sort of stems from thinking that, say, flat-out facing things head on would make him a better hero or able to follow closer in freudâs footsteps? and it sort of strengthened when freudâs spirit comforted mir about the death of someone they were both close to. mir, on the other hand (he gets mentioned in this a couple times, so,) heâs often unendingly curious, sure, but he doesnât really have the same reasoning over it.
   ⊠that being said! um. evanâs inexperience doesnât grant him many of those topics, but at this canon point he and mir kinda shy away from mentioning a lot of the things afrien did, esp. near his sacrifice for their group. considering how recent it is in default, you canât really say theyâre over it - again, while their inexperience didnât give a lot of sensitive topics, it does affect how theyâd handle it. i mean, they mourned and everything in btwn the blockbuster acts while they had time, but despite recent char. development, theyâre still both really naive - and even if they werenât, thereâs.. probably still some guilt associated with it, at least on evanâs end? b/c when afrien died, he never told mir he was his child, but he told evan that and to keep it a secret - so as one of the only ones who knew that (like... the other heroes Might know that or at least a hint of it) the thought of both breaking that secret and telling that to mir after afrienâs death feels worse to evan than it wouldâve before. on mirâs side, though, he has a really uncanny sense that perks up a lot in relation to the onyx dragons or similar, so he definitely felt something knowing that was the last time he saw afrien - not enough to definitely know, âoh, thatâs my dad!â, but it was somewhere on that path.
   they also avoid bringing up evanâs appearance when they can - they donât really tell anyone else to stop, but itâs sort of mutually agreed between them. and sometimes mir has, a few times, w/ no bad intent, but they can brush it off easier -- itâs more b/c of the reactions from the heroes around them. but theyâre all kinda affected by similar things: freud and evan both filled the same roles in the team and look almost the same, and it sorta created this expectation from all of them that, well, this is a kid that has to live up to his legacy, and almost be like him. ând thatâs not on purpose from any of them, but a lot of itâs by nature of his role - i mean, heâs leading a group of heroes that once stopped the black mage, sort of, and without the experience freud had itâs... hard going. not to mention that, as far as the heroes know ic, every last trace of freud is... gone. and uh, effectively dead for real. but then, having this person that visually looks like him and kind of mimicking what he did, paired with having no time to prepare for the only person keeping the group together vanishing decades ago -- well, thatâs hard on all of them, and itâd be hard to say evan doesnât feel a lot of that. he can sense all the eyes on him for a lot of his actions, and itâd be difficult to really change any of that - b/c while itâs hard to try that alone, itâs harder to do that when heâs trying to reinforce that idea to himself, too, esp. when he thinks at least 0.01% that heâs still some ordinary kid who inherited the last will of the onyx dragons and their masters out of nowhere and that he barely has the experience or guidance to really.. do all of that.
   so uh, yeah â save for the first one, theyre not as much or painful as i feel the question implies? itâs just kinda hard to answer that on evanâs end directly without opening to guilt or s/t.Â
âHmmm. Are you going to try to leave this place? I hate to say it, but the rumors are that you just end up back in your housing if you try. Havenât done it myself, since you know, I donât particularly have a desire to stop existing,â Lotus hissed out that last part, seeming rather bitter for obvious reasons. âIt may as well be the afterlife for me.â
But at Evanâs next explanation, the spiritâs expression seemed to lighten. Sure, the whole world tree thing wasnât great, but his sister was so amazing!Â
âShe saved everyone, didnât she?â Lotus couldnât help a true smile from creeping onto his face⊠Orchid was one of the only things in the world that brought him a real sense of happiness. âIâm so proud of herâŠâ
It almost looked as if he were daydreaming for a moment, but shook his head. ââŠOh, hi Mir.â Evan never got an actual greeting from him, but the dragon did! As they walked towards wherever the nearest angry red safe zone happened to be, Lotus figured heâd talk about the city a little.
âSo, this cityâs been boring and broken. I guess itâs going to be fixed after this? Ohâthey have a beach!â He sounded as if that was the most amazing thing ever.
   â oh, er â that wasnât the first thing that came tâ mind, beacons and everything. i mean⊠if the rumorâs true, itâs probâly impossible, but⊠well, the black mageâs waiting out there, and mir and i sorta have a team to lead. itâs gotta be worth a shot. â ...oh, what should heâve said to that? in a sense, this city.. was the afterlife, at least for the people whoâd died â though the thought that everyone in the city had died was up in the air â and if they were able to leave, then.. what would they do? or could they do anything?
   he left the question in the back of his thoughts instead, and the actual words unanswered. â if we were correct, she honestly saved us when we really needed it. gelimer nearly destroyed the world, too, but we âssumed that orchid was the one to stop it. itâs⊠because sheâs got her powers back, isnât it? â what else could explain the result, and if orchid did survive black heavenâs fall (as some had hoped,) wasnât that the only way she could? ...well, maybe lotus wouldnât know the answer, so he couldnât, but -- er, it didnât hurt to phrase it like that, did it?
   â i guess it wouldnât hurt to be proud. â his expression turned sheepish upon lotusâ greeting, quickly recognizing the difference â but he supposed that was. fair, to say the least, with his inexperience. it was⊠truthfully unfortunate that mir threw out a disgruntled, â hi, lotus, â in response.
    â i, was, uh, actually thinking that was why we set up all the beacons here. â he nodded â though the end sounded a lot more surprised than needed. not that he was surprised that there was a beach â just that it was actually notable to say it. even then⊠â dâyou like the beach that much, lotus? â
