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Anna Katharina . It / Its . OK ✡️ Tehillim 63 🧿 אני מסרבת למות כאן 🧿

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I'm Anna (Chava) . It / Its . Queer, Neuroatypical, Disabled, and Chronically Ill Masorti Eco-Jew Homemaker. Trying to re-find who I am, but most days you can still find me out in the garden with a cup of tea in hand, checking on my plants.

My presence here ebbs and flows, but make yourself at home. And if you have any questions at all, please feel free to ask. You will never be judged for a question unless you’re intentionally being rude (if you can’t tell if you’re being rude, then you’re most likely not- no anxiety needed).

It shouldn't need to be said, but apparently I have to say it: Reblogging a (or multiple) posts from a blog does not inherently mean that I condone or endorse everything that blog has ever posted, nor everything the owner of the blog believes. Assuming such is both childish and ridiculous.

I block liberally- but especially those who intentionally spread Scams, Spam, and Misinformation.

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My Rabbi forwarded me an email about a Jewish program called Disability Wisdom as Soul Care (Info) and I really wish signups hadn't closed last month before I found out about it.

[casually sticks its name on the mailing list to find out about the next one, hoping it isn't prohibitively priced like most disability and mental health stuff tends to be]

[mistermachoman]

"are you okay?" absolutely not but i'd rather kill everyone in the room than talk about it

[bpdohwhatajoy]

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Why are Christians always so damned weird about Jews.

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I have not lost a battle to a disease. I am many things, but a tragic defeat is not one of them.

My Body Is Not a Prayer Request: Disability Justice in the Church by Amy Kenny

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We weeded the garden tonight. Or, rather, my Husband weeded, and I tried to weed but mostly kept passing out (rude). So he wound up doing 90% of it.

I did harvest the Oregano and Marjoram, some Lemon Verbena, and another stalk of Motherwort. Processed those as soon as I got back inside, and now they're in the dehydrator.

The Oregano was blooming. I trimmed it back last time before the blooms fully formed. But this time I didn't get to them quick enough. They're beautiful, though. I love them.

I did notice something wrong with the Beans, though. A week or so ago they started getting very wrinkly. The Pepper leaves are starting to do it now, too. I've never had this happen before, though, so I'm not sure what to call it or what the cause is.

It doesn't seem to be inhibiting growth. But I have noticed that they won't put out flowers in the sections that are damaged like this.

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good god when the onions and garlic hit the olive oil..........

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I'm not too sure about the recipe we used for the banana bread.

It came together fine. It looked fine when I pulled it out of the oven, and was nice and puffy like a normal loaf. The toothpicks were clean when I checked them ... But then they collapsed on themselves as they cooled, so that the loaves are near completely flat; barely even an inch or two tall. And the texture's kind of weirdly chewy to a point.

But they still taste good? So I don't know if we botched it or if this is how this one's supposed to come together (and I really don't think it is). I've never in my life had a loaf of Banana Bread — or any kind of bread, really — do this to me, though.

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My Husband is magic. There's all these things from my childhood that I never got to fully enjoy because of the abuse and malice of my sister. And every time I talk about one of them, my Husband manages to track it down for me exactly, and get it for me.

He found my favorite dragon stuffed animal that I had as a kid (or something very close to it), that just randomly vanished one day. @quirkyjonesey was kind enough to crochet the pattern he found for me. Now I sleep with him again every night.

He also found the two volume set of fairy tales that my grandmother got for me when I was born, that were stolen from me in High School. I barely even had a cover description for it, and he still somehow managed to track it down in 5 minutes. Now I have them again.

And now he's found a very niche, now rare, discontinued Bath and Bodyworks perfume that I'd bought myself in High School but only got to use exactly once before my sister stole it from me and used it all. Unfortunately the only 10 bottles that seem to be available secondhand are double+ the original price; I vaguely remember only spending like $20 on it when I originally bought it, but some people are straight up selling theirs for upwards of $70.

Still. His ability to find niche half remembered items from the 90's and 00's is truly wild to me. I don't know how on Earth he does it.

[n9f]

No point worrying about things out of your control.

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I got the herbs that I harvested and dried yesterday transferred into jars. Then my Husband and I made Banana Bread together. Even though I sat for pretty much all of it, I'm so exhausted already and I hate it. At least I get High Protein Banana Bread here in half an hour, though.

[msj70]

when I say “be safe” I say that shit from the bottom of my heart

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I really want to stop being so fatigued and scaring tf out of my Husband. I wish it was my appointment already, or we already had the results or something. He's not doing ok, and it's tearing me apart inside.

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Finally had the energy to redo my hair today; I'm going to try dying my hair myself in between bleach appointments, since it's $70 to $90 every time I visit her. Picked this stuff up from Sally's last weekend. It was the only pink that wasn't so damned bright it was basically neon.

Two whole hours later (according to its own directions "for a more vibrant color"), and I'm honestly not terribly impressed by this stuff. I should have expected the results I got when I saw it was a hair "tint". But it was the only pink they had that I liked, and was similar to what I wanted. Unfortunately I got little to no color payoff.

My hair definitely looks better, mind you. But it's still orange, and not pink. The orange fadeout from the last pink I had in just looks a little more intentional now, rather than being all faded and gross.

It honestly reminds me of the old Manic Panic dyes I used to use in High School. Roughly the same quality of goop, too. And just as overpriced for the payout you get; actually I think Manic Panic still worked slightly better than this to a point. But this is supposed to be a "tint" so that's probably why.

I can't imagine, though, that you'd have to be anything less than full on Platinum Blonde to actually get the correct color shown on the box- for all the box says it works fine on non-platinum hair.

ETA: After letting the color settle in overnight, it's come out a lot better than it initially looked. So I'm not as unhappy with it as I initially was. Apparently it just takes a minute to work fully.

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[behaved]

“are you ok?” lol fuck no